by Ward Moore
But the guns were not sounding from there. All the roar was northward, from the town. I knew how the battle went; I had studied it for years. Only now it wasnt happening the way it was written down in the books.
True, the first day was a Confederate victory. But it was not the victory we knew. It was just a little different, just a little short of the triumph recorded. And on the second day, instead of the Confederates getting astride the Taneytown Road and into the position from which they tore Meade’s army to bits from three sides, I witnessed a terrible encounter in the peach orchard and the wheatfield—places known to be safely behind the Southron lines.
All my life I’d heard of Pickett’s charge on the third day. Of how the disorganized Federals were given the final killing blow in their vitals. Well, I saw Pickett’s charge on the third day and it was not the same charge in the historic place. It was a futile attempt to storm superior positions (positions, by established fact, in Lee’s hands since July First) ending in slaughter and defeat.
Defeat for the South, not the North. Meade’s army was not broken; the Confederates could not scatter and pursue them now. The Capitulation, if it ever took place, would come under different circumstances. The independence of the Confederate States might not be acknowledged for years. If at all.
All because the North held the Round Tops.
Years more of killing, and possibly further years of guerrilla warfare. Thousands and thousands of dead, their blood on my hands. A poisoned continent, an inheritance of hate. Because of me.
I cannot tell you how I got back to York. If I walked, it was somnambulistically. Possibly I rode the railroad or in a farmer’s cart. Part of my mind, a tiny part that kept coming back to pierce me no matter how often I crushed it out, remembered those who died, those who would have lived, but for me. Another part was concerned only with the longing to get back to my own time, to the haven, to Catty. A much larger part was simply blank, except for the awesome, incredible knowledge that the past could be changed—that the past had been changed.
I must have wound my watch—Barbara’s watch—for it was ten oclock on the night of July Fourth when I got to the barn. Ten oclock by 1863 time; the other dial showed it to be 8:40, that would be twenty of nine in the morning, 1952 time. In two hours I would be home, safe from the nightmare of happenings that never happened, of guilt for the deaths of men not supposed to die, of the awful responsibility of playing destiny. If I could not persuade Barbara to smash her damnable contrivance I would do so myself.
The dogs barked madly, but I was sure no one heeded. It was the Fourth of July, and a day of victory and rejoicing for all Pensylvanians. I stole into the barn and settled myself in the exact center, even daring the use of a match, my last one, to be sure I’d be directly under the reflector when it materialized.
I cou’d not sleep, though I longed to blot out the horror and wake in my own time. Detail by detail I went over what I had seen, superimposing it like a palimpsest upon the history I’d always known. Sleep would have kept me from this wretched compulsion and from questioning my sanity, but I could not sleep.
I have heard that in moments of overwhelming shock some irrelevancy, some inconsequential matter persistently forces itself on the attention. The criminal facing execution thinks, not of his imminent fate or of his crime, but of the cigarette stub he left burning in his cell. The bereaved widow dwells, not on her lost husband, but on tomorrow’s laundry. So it was with me. Behind that part of my mind re-living the past three days, a more elementary part gnawed at the identification of the slain captain.
I knew that face. Particularly did I know that face set in a sneer, distorted with anger. But I could not remember it in Confederate uniform. I could not remember it with sandy mustaches. And yet the sandy, reddish hair, revealed in that terrible moment when his hat flew off, was as familiar as part of the face. Oh, I thought, if I could only place it once and for all and free my mind at least of this trivial thing.
I wished there were some way I could have seen the watch, to concentrate on the creeping progress of the hands and distract myself from the wave after wave of wretched meditations which flowed over me. But the moonlight was not strong enough to make the face distinguishable, much less the figures on the dials. There was no narcotic.
As one always is at such times I was convinced the appointed moment had passed unnoticed. Something had gone wrong. Over and over I had to tell myself that minutes seem hours in the waiting dark; it might feel like two or three in the morning to me; it was probably barely eleven. No use. A minute—or an hour or a second—later I was again positive midnight had passed.
Finally I began to suffer a monstrous illusion. I began to think it was getting lighter. That dawn was coming. Of course I knew it could not be; what I fancied lifting darkness was only a sick condition of swollen, overtired eyes. Dawn does not come to Pennsylvania at midnight, and it was not yet midnight. At midnight I would be back at Haggershaven, in 1952.
Even when the barn was fully lighted by the rising sun and I could see the cattle peaceful in their stalls I refused to believe what I saw. I took out my watch only to find something had disturbed the works; the hands registered five oclock. Even when the farmer, milk pails over arm, started in surprise, exclaiming, “Hay, what you doing here?”—even then, I did not believe.
Only when, as I opened my mouth to explain to my involuntary host, did something happen. The puzzle which had pursued me for three days suddenly solved itself. I knew why the face of the Southron captain had been so familiar. Familiar beyond any of the better known warriors on either side. I had indeed known that face intimately; seen those features enraged or sneering. The nose, the mouth, the eyes, the expression were Barbara Haggerwells’. The man dead in the peach orchard was the man whose portrait hung in the library of Haggershaven, its founder, Herbert Haggerwells. Captain Haggerwells—never to become a major now, or buy this farm. Never to marry a local girl or beget Barbara’s great grandfather. Haggershaven had ceased to exist in the future.
21. FOR THE TIME BEING
I am writing this, as I said, in 1877. I am a healthy man of forty-five, no doubt with many years ahead of me. I might live to be a hundred, except for an illogical feeling that I must die before 1921. However, eighty-nine should be enough for anyone. So I have ample time to put my story down. Still, better to have it down and done with; should anything happen to me tomorrow it will be on paper.
For what? As confession and apology? As an inverted substitute for the merciful amnesia which ought to have erased my memory as well as my biography? (I have written to Wappinger Falls; there are no records of any Hodgins family, or of Backmakers. Does this mean the forces I set in motion destroyed Private Hodgins as well as Captain Haggerwells? Or only that the Hodginses and Backmakers settled elsewhere? In either case I am like Adam—in this world—a special, parentless creation.) There is no one close enough to care, or intimate enough to accept my word in the face of all reason. I have not married in this time, nor shall I. I write only as old men talk to themselves.
The rest of my personal story is simple. The name of the farmer who found me in his barn was Thammis; they had need of a hired hand and I stayed on. I had no desire to go elsewhere; in fact I could not bear to leave what was—and will never be—Haggershaven.
In the beginning I used to go to the location of the Agatis’ garden and look across at the spot where I left our cottage and Catty. It was an empty pilgrimage. Now I content myself with the work which needs doing. I shall stay here till I die.
Catty. Haggershaven. Are they really gone, irrevocably lost, in a future which never existed, which couldnt exist, once the chain of causation was broken? Or do they exist after all, in a universe in which the South won the battle of Gettysburg and Major Haggerwells founded Haggershaven? Could another Barbara devise a means to reach that universe? I would give so much to believe this, but I cannot. I simply cannot.
Children know about such things. They close their eyes and pra
y, “Please God, make it didnt happen.” Often they open their eyes to find it happened anyway, but this does not shake their faith that many times the prayer is granted. Adults smile, but can any of them be sure the memories they cherish were the same yesterday? Do they know that a past cannot be expunged? Children know it can.
And once lost, that particular past can never be regained. Another and another perhaps, but never the same one. There are no parallel universes—though this one may be sinuous and inconstant.
That this world is a better place than the one into which I was born, and promises to grow still better, seems true. What idealism lay behind the Southron cause triumphed in the reconciliation of men like Lee; what was brutal never got the upper hand as it did in my world. The Negro is free; black legislatures pass advanced laws in South Carolina; black congressmen comport themselves with dignity in Washington. The Pacific railroad is built, immigrants pour in to a welcoming country to make it strong and wealthy; no one suggests they should be shut out or hindered.
There are rumors of a deal between northern Republicans and southern Democrats, betraying the victory of the Civil War—how strange it is still, after fourteen years, to use this term instead of the familiar War of Southron Independence—in return for the presidency. If this is true, my brave new world is not so brave.
It may not be so new either. Prussia has beaten France and proclaimed a German Empire; is this the start in a different way of the German Union? Will 1914 see an Emperors’ War—there is none in France now—leaving Germany facing … whom?
Any one of the inventions of my own time would make me a rich man if I could reproduce them, or cared for money. With mounting steel production and the tremendous jump in population, what a success the minibile would be. Or the tinugraph. Or controllable balloons.
The typewriter I have seen. It has developed along different and clumsier lines; inevitably, I suppose, given initial divergence. It may mean greater advances; more likely not. The universal use of gaslight must be far in the future if it is to come at all; certainly its advent is delayed by all this talk of inventing electric illumination. If we couldnt put electricity to work it’s unlikely my new contemporaries will be able to. Why, they havent even made the telegraph cheap and convenient.
And something like HX-1? It is inconceivable. Could it be that in destroying the future in which Haggershaven existed I have also destroyed the only dimension in which time travel was possible?
So strangely easily I can write the words, “I destroyed.”
Catty.
But what of Tyss’s philosophy? Is it possible I shall be condemned to repeat the destruction throughout eternity? Have I written these lines an infinite number of times before? Or is the mercy envisaged by Enfandin a reality? And what of Barbara’s expression as she bade me goodbye? Could she possibly.
Editorial note by Frederick Winter Thammis: Quite recently, in the summer of 1953 to be exact, I commissioned the remodelling of my family home near York, Pennsylvania. Among the bundles of old books and papers stored in the attic was a box of personal effects, labelled “H M Backmaker.” In it was the manuscript concluding with an unfinished sentence, reproduced above.
My father used to tell me that when he was a boy there was an old man living on the farm, nominally as a hired hand, but actually as a pensioner, since he was beyond the age of useful labor. My father said the children considered him not quite right in his mind, but very entertaining, for he often repeated long, disjointed narratives of an impossible world and an impossible society which they found as fascinating as the Oz books. On looking back, he said, Old Hodge talked like an educated man, but this might simply be the impression of young, uncultivated minds.
Clearly it was in some attempt to give form and unity to his tales that the old man wrote his fable down, and then was too shy to submit it for publication. This is the only reasonable way to account for its existence. Of course he says he wrote it in 1877, when he was far from old, and disconcertingly, analysis of the paper shows it might have been written then.
Two other items should be noted. In the box of Backmaker’s belongings there was a watch of unknown manufacture and unique design. Housed in a cheap nickel case, the jeweled movement is of extraordinary precision and delicacy. The face has two dials, independently set and wound.
The second is a quotation. It can be matched by similar quotations in any of half a hundred volumes on the Civil War. I pick this only because it is handy. From W. E. Woodward’s Years of Madness, p. 202:
“… Union troops that night and next morning took a position on Cemetery Hill and Round Top … The Confederates could have occupied this position but they failed to do so. It was an error with momentous consequences.”
A Biography of Ward Moore
Ward Moore was a talented novelist and short story writer who made significant contributions to the science fiction genre with his keen eye for storytelling. Moore is best known for his novel Bring the Jubilee (1953), an alternate history in which the South won the Civil War, a classic regarded by many as one of the finest of its category.
Born Joseph Ward Moore on August 10, 1903, in Madison, New Jersey, he and his parents moved to Montreal, Canada, when Moore was five months old to be nearer to his maternal grandmother. He was brought him up in the Jewish faith, which is reflected in some of his works, particularly his two short stories, “Lot” and “Lot’s Daughter” (1953 and 1954). Moore grew up an isolated child, without much interest in school, except for the subjects of history and geography, but he found solace in books and began writing when he was eleven years old.
After high school, Moore attended Columbia College. In early adulthood in the 1920s, he worked in a series of bookstores in different cities across the United States, reveling in his love of books and meeting fellow book lovers and writers. Moore once even described himself as a “bum” because of his constant changes in jobs, reportedly saying that at various times he had “raised chickens, clerked in bookstores, built houses, contract gardened, ghosted books, copy-edited, been a book review editor, proofreader, on relief and welfare.” In 1929, he settled in California, where he would remain for the rest of his life.
Moore married Lorna Lenzi in 1942 while he was employed as a shipyard worker building Liberty Ships during WWII. This union resulted in five children: Rebekah, David, Samuel, Benyamin Haninah, and Hannah Rachel. After divorcing Lorna, he married Raylyn Moore (née Crabbe) in 1965. Their daughter, Sarah Rivkeh, is the youngest of Moore’s children. Moore and Raylyn bonded over their shared passion for writing. Raylyn published a novel in 1978, What Happened to Emily Goode After the Great Exhibition, which involved time travel, a theme central to Moore’s most famous work, Bring the Jubilee.
Though best known for his science fiction, Moore wrote in other genres as well, including criticism: book reviews and articles for Harper’s Bazaar, the San Francisco Chronicle, Jewish Horizons, and The Nation, among other publications. His first book, Breathe the Air Again (1942), was an example of the picaresque novel, an episodic storytelling format featuring adventure and, frequently, an amoral lead character (Simon Epstein is said to have been autobiographical).
Moore was known to have had strong influential relationships with his fellow writers. The poet Kenneth Rexroth, who called him “one of the historic eccentrics of American bohemia,” based a character on Moore in An Autobiographical Novel (1964). Rexroth’s depiction differs very little from Moore’s own representation of himself in Breathe the Air Again. The novelist also reportedly appeared as the character Joseph Baer in Jean Ariss’s The Quick Years (1958).
In addition to his novels, Moore wrote several critically acclaimed short stories. His fascinating collection, Lot and Lot’s Daughter, is about a family escaping a nuclear holocaust, whose patriarch abandons his wife and son to start an incestuous relationship with his daughter in their new world. Controversial upon publication, it was later adapted into the film Panic in Year Zero (1962).
Moore passed awa
y on January 29, 1978, in Pacific Grove, California, where he lived with his wife Raylyn. He left behind several unpublished manuscripts, but his iconic novels and short stories continue to influence science fiction and alternate history writers.
Moore smoking a pipe in Topanga Canyon, California, 1953.
Moore at his writing table in Monterey, California, 1957 or 1958.
Moore with his daughter Sara and son Ben in Central Park in New York City, 1966.
Moore sitting with his daughter Sara in Pacific Grove, California, 1969.
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