“ Adam how could you even ask me that? I wish I could tell you I wanted another man...I really do. I wish I could walk away from you,just go back to us being friends but I'm never going to see you as anyone other than the man I was made to be with. You don't even consider how this fucks with me mentally knowing what you're doing. I've even started therapy! You know about my mom, you know how she was killed and how I had to live with that type of environment every day. Why would you want me to be in this position?” I asked looking at him sadly and remembering the night our friendship changed forever a year ago.
“ You know what Antoinette,stop right there and let's keep it real. You needed therapy way before you started fucking me. So don't try to put your fucked up childhood on me. If that's the case I'm going to lay all my shit from the past on you too. Right about now it seems like you're trying to do the same thing to me the woman I hate most in this world did.”
***
Sean
“What the fuck is wrong with you Lisa? You're my girl and I love you but the situation with this Sean person is getting out of hand!” Carmen said taking a sip of her wine.
“ I know Carmen please don't yell. I really don't need this right now, I feel bad enough as it is.” Lisa said agitated, looking towards the entrance of the Moroccan, one of the hottest night clubs in San Antonio. A club she'd begged her best friend to meet her at for the evening. In the hopes of seeing Sean in an environment in which she wasn't paying for his time. Carmen insisted on driving her own car in case Lisa ended up hooking up with Sean that night....or if she got too bored and wanted leave.
“ Lisa I'm really trying to understand this situation. It's so unlike you! You've been paying a man for sex? He's a goddamn hooker... and now you think you're in love? What kind of madness is this coming from you?” Carmen said speaking loudly to be heard over the music.
Dammit! I almost wish I'd never told Carmen anything! I just needed someone to talk to, not be judged.
“ Look Carmen, I explained this to you the best way I can. I know it sounds crazy to you. So I understand if the whole idea makes you uncomfortable but since meeting Sean...,”
“ You mean since you hired Sean.” Carmen said looking Lisa dead in her face.“ Lisa I was listening to every word you said. You're my girl, you know I'm in your corner for any problem you have. I'm here for you but this right here? Now that you've told me what you've been doing, I refuse to let you believe it's more than what it is. The man is a gigolo! He's only seeing you because you pay him. If you're not paying him he's not going to see you!” Carmen said exasperated.
“ Well I have to try Carmen. No one has ever made me feel like this... ever.” Lisa said tearing up. “ Do you know for years I've thought something was wrong with me? I've had sex with men before and to never have had an orgasm? Of any kind with a man? It was embarrassing. I felt like a freak. You have no idea what it's like to fake orgasms each and every time just so a guy doesn't think you're a pathetic loser or get insecure with himself because they know they haven't pleased you. That's the real reason Tarik broke up with me. He said he couldn't see spending the rest of his life with a woman who was “sexually repressed”. I was embarrassed to even tell you the real reason we broke up. All the mind blowing sex you're always tell me about with Hasaan and I'm sitting there like an idiot because I really have no idea what you're talking about. Sean knows exactly what to do. I'm finally experiencing what I've heard all my friends bragging about for years and yes...I do want more. From him. I do, I'm not even going to try and front. I need him in my life. We do talk you know. It's not like the minute we're done he gets his clothes on and leaves. I just need him to see me as more than a client. I need him to see me dressed,having fun and I think we could make it work. I want him to see me as a woman that does have a lot going for herself... as an asset. I really do.” Lisa said. “ I could be making a mistake but if I am I need to find that out on my own. Carmen I really need you to support me on this....please.”
Carmen couldn't help but notice the pleading, desperate look on her friends face. It really broke her heart to see Lisa this way because she was a good woman. Beautiful,smart with a great paying job at a top advertising agency...hell she was making too much money evidently if she had money to blow on male hookers!
“ Lisa I love you, so you know I have only your best interest at heart. I'm not going to discourage you from doing what you want to do. When it's all said and done you're a grown ass woman and you can spend your hard earned money any way you like...just do not ask me for any money,since I now know what you're spending all your money on. But I will not encourage you to pursue this man as a serious relationship option either. I'm staying completely out of what ever goes on in this situation. I will have my say though. Nothing good can come out of trying to have a relationship with a male prostitute. If every time you've seen him it's because you paid him, to me...that ain’t the start of shit. It's become personal for you and it's business for him. From what you're telling me this dude isn't even leading you on in the least bit! So why you would be trying to force a fucked up situation is beyond me... I hope you make his ass wear a condom,dental dams and everything else!” Carmen said picking up her glass and taking a sip of her red wine rolling her eyes at Lisa.
“ OK Carmen that's only fair.” Lisa said “ We'll toast to that!” she said clinking glasses with Carmen. “ Carmen if I wasn't in love with this man I would seriously pay for you to have a session with him! He is just that good. I will tell you this...his dick is gorgeous. I put this on everything I've never seen a dick so pretty and it's just so long and thick, shit the head of his dick looks like a door knob girl! Whew! I could go on and on about that dick! The main thing is he knows how to use that bad boy...you know a lot of well endowed men don't know what to do with all that good dick! They think just because they've been blessed with the goods they can automatically fuck like a God. When the reality is, a good amount of them don't know anything beyond slamming into you with that damn monster hanging between their legs!” Lisa said laughing and sipping on her drink.
“ Now I will give you that! Most well hung men that really know how to work that snake are few and far between! I've had this talk with many of my female friends before and we all agree. I even had a really good looking male friend back in the day who when I asked why he was single all the time, girl don't you know he said that he had a big dick and a lot of women he came across didn't want to fuck with his ass. Now you already know I told him to let me see it...I ain’t even gonna lie girl when he pulled that anaconda out I had to jump back!” Carmen said hollerin' with laughter. “ Shit I like a big dick my damn self, I also like my pussy intact too shit! I'll take a nice nine inch-er. Maybe eight. I kinda felt bad for his ass. Not so bad I was letting him get up in me with all that,but you know what I mean. Po thang! At the same time I have been with well hung men who were excellent lovers. So I think it's all based on the individual. Now why are we here tonight? Is he coming? I need to lay eyes on the brotha who has you so strung out on the dick you're paying good damn money and shit! Girl I'd rather buy shoes and get my dick for free.” Carmen asked.
“ Sean is packing well beyond nine inches and I love every bit of it. Well, when I was with him on Thursday, he got a phone call and I overheard him saying he was going to be here tonight with some friends.” Lisa said looking towards the door.
“ Lisa just so you're aware,they call this stalking!”
“ Be quiet Carmen! Damn just be a good sport about it will you?”
“ I am! But now if I look up and the negro is pressing charges on your ass for stalking...I don't want to be caught up in the mix. I am way to pretty to land myself in jail. Do you know what those manly women in jail will do to a sista like me? Oh hell no! You're going down alone boo-boo! I'm strong but I crack under certain types of pressure.” Carmen said leaning back in the booth. “ OK. I'm going to the ladies room while you're keeping an eye out for Mr. Wonderful. I'll be right back. Lisa I will say this tr
ust and believe me when I say I know exactly how it feels to have a man hitting you in all the right spots. So in that aspect I can see why you don't want to let the shit go. I just don't agree with how you went about it! You damn sure could have tested out a few more dicks...and for free!” Carmen said sliding out of the booth and walking to the ladies room.
Cortez and Sean walked downstairs to the main floor of the Moroccan. They'd been upstairs having a drink with the owner Shemar who was a long time friend of theirs and a new business associate.
“ Damn it got packed fast in here. That's a very good sign. Once we take over we need to make sure it stays like this. The hottest spot to be,every night of the week! We also need to get with Toni about having some type of special night here after we've officially taken over the club. ” Cortez observed looking around.
“ It damn sure did. That sounds like a good idea but I want it kept low key. I think it just invites trouble when people know it's under new management. One of the reasons we wanted it was because it's packed with gown-ups, a classy crowd with no negativity. Enough about that though, I may end up leaving you hanging tonight. I see plenty I could get into tonight.” Sean said. “ I'll meet you at the bar in a little bit. Let me see what's going on up in here tonight.” Sean said deciding to do a quick walk around to see what was happening inside the club. He and Cortez had actually left a meeting with Shemar the owner. They were in the final stages of buying the club. The following Wednesday all the paperwork would be signed and the club would be officially owned by himself,Cortez and Adam. Shemar was ready to settle down, retire and move to Atlanta. They were all ready to take the money they'd worked their asses off for...literally, to another level. The Pussy Pounders were going strictly legit...well kind of.
Sean was walking past some of the booths against the back wall when he heard someone calling out his name. Sean turned to see a gorgeous woman in all white waving her arms.
“ Sean! Sean!” Lisa called out.
Sean walked towards the woman still not sure who it was until he was right up on her. Oh shit here we go...Lisa. Her ass looks good though I ain’t gonna lie.
“ Is that you Lisa? Damn you clean up nice. I mean not that you don't look good every time I see you but ….this is different.” Sean said leaning down to give her a kiss on the cheek.
Lisa couldn't help but blush and she couldn't tear her eyes away from him. Sean literally took her breath away tall,dark and handsome described him perfectly and nothing looked better than a man in a well tailored suit. He looked and smelled like money. It gave her a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach to know what he was doing for the money and how much her bank account had contributed to it!
“ So Sean, I've been wanting to talk to you about us. I know I've brought it up before but I wish you'd give it some serious thought. Don't you enjoy the time we spend together?” Lisa said batting her eyes and smiling at him.
Sean felt caught between a rock and a hard place. Lisa was a nice lady no doubt but actually dating a woman who paid for his services held little to no interest for him. It wasn't that he was judging her for using their services, he was no hypocrite after all. Sean just knew from the conversations they did have when he was with her,Lisa didn't have the personality that would ever hold his attention to the point he'd want to make her his woman. She was very nice,sweet personality,it just wasn't enough to hold his attention and he knew it. Though none of the women he dealt with on a client basis would ever believe him,Sean actually had very little experience in regards to relationships. Dating of course, he was a man and contrary to popular belief he enjoyed sex on his own time...no payment needed. He just knew his current situation wouldn't allow for a real relationship. Not that he didn't aspire to be a part of one. Eventually. Besides he'd never even consider the thought of putting a woman he seriously cared about in that position. So he avoided it. All of the Pussy Pounders did. Except for Adam lately and even though Adam avoided talking about it, the tension between Toni and Adam could be cut with a knife. He hoped for both of his friends sake...and his and Cortez's sanity they worked it out...and worked that shit out fast! It was one of the reasons they were going legit. They all were at a place where they wanted real lives,relationships,even families one day.
“ Lisa this certainly isn't a place I'd want to have a conversation like this but...,”
“ How do I look?” Lisa asked. She'd slid out of the booth and was standing in front of him.
“ Lisa you're a beautiful woman. You already know I think that. I've told you many times before.”
“So give us a chance to have something outside of what you do for money Sean. Let me get to know Sean and you know Lisa without appointments and schedules.” she wanted to say money but thought it best not to remind him he wouldn't be getting paid!
“ Lisa, I'm not trying to hurt your feelings. This is just getting out of control in my opinion. I don't like being put on the spot like this and lately every time we get together you bring it up. I'm not going to see you as a client anymore and I'm not interested in dating you. It's nothing for you to take personal... but if you choose to do so, it has nothing to do with me. I've never dated anyone that's been a client of mine...ever. I'm not starting with you and it's as simple as that.” Sean said firmly.
“ You mean to tell me you wont see me even if I'm paying you Sean? You'll see other women who pay you but now my money isn't good enough Sean?” Lisa said angrily.
“ That's right. I mean if you want to have someone else sent to you that's your decision. You're forcing my hand with this situation. I’m not trying to be mean Lisa,I provide a simple basic service. One that you hire me to do. I don't do this because I can't get fucked on my own. Just like I'm sure you don't have to pay for it either,but you do. So why are you trying to turn this into more than it is? The shit is uncomfortable for me now. I want to meet up with you, do what you're paying me to do, chill for a hot minute and that's it. Period.”
“ You are such an asshole. I can't believe I ever thought there was anything special about you Sean!” Lisa said hot tears threatening so spill down her cheeks.
Sean walked closer and leaned down to whisper in her ear, “ See there you go with the bullshit Lisa. You're crying in public? I can tell you right now this is some shit that my woman wouldn't be doing. How are you gonna be mad at me for some shit you created? You can buy the dick...and only because it's for sale but you can't buy me. To be honest with you I don't even appreciate you putting me in a position where I even have to say this to you! Let alone in public. What the fuck did you really think was going on? You're just mad at me right now but you'll see it's for the best. I'm doing what's best for you by not leading you on. That's called me being good to your ass. When we first met six months ago, you said you'd never had an orgasm with a man before. I made you come the first day...three times. Now if I look at your fine ass, your pussy is twitching before I can even put my hands on you. Your sweet cum is dripping down your thighs and that tight pussy is ready to take my dick. The minute I slide my dick inside you're ready to come all over my dick. Don't talk shit now. I did what you paid me to do and I did it very well. You paid me about what...ten thousand dollars to learn how to work that pussy right. Truth be told you don't even need me anymore. Aint a damn thing wrong with you or your pussy. That's some shit you let get in your head because you chose to fuck with some wack ass niggas that didn't know how to work their shit. They were the problem not you. Now get on out there and use what I taught you.” Sean said kissing her softly on the lips and walked off.
Lisa stood there shaking with fury, unable to move. Mad as hell because in just those few seconds her pussy was soaking wet,her pussy muscles were contracting and releasing just thinking about having Sean inside of her. She was sticky,wet and throbbing from a simple peck on the lips and his voice. What am I going to do? This can not be the end. It can't be! No one is going o make me feel the way Sean does. My body reacts to him and only him and I wont give that up. I don't care
what he says. I think he's just scared to be in a real relationship. I need to take my time with him instead of coming on so strong. I shouldn't have done that. I came on way too strong! This was totally my fault. I don't think he's the type of man that likes to be backed into a corner and given ultimatums and that's exactly what my dumb ass just did to him! Now he wont even see me if I pay him. I need to get out of here so I can think.
“Girl I'm sorry it took me so long!” Carmen said interrupting Lisa's thoughts. “ I ran into Latrice and Tanica on my way back from the bathroom...Latrice is a mess! I love running into her crazy behind,we need to all get together for a girls night out....what's wrong?”
“ Sean's here. I just saw him.” Lisa said on the verge of tears.
“ Well why are you standing here about to cry? What did he do to you!” Carmen said hugging her.
“ He doesn't want to see me anymore Carmen. I really messed up. I came on so strong, I didn't even attempt to have a conversation with him before I brought up that I wanted to date him. Carmen I really messed things up. I just scared him away! He said even if I pay him he's not going to see me anymore. I ruined it. I came on too strong and I should have just played it cool. I should have known coming on too strong with a man in his situation would scare him away. I feel sick, I have to get out of here and think Carmen. I can't lose him. I can't.” Lisa said grabbing a napkin from the table and wiping her eyes.
“Look, I'm sorry I had you come all the way out here for nothing but I have to go. I feel terrible and I need to think about what I can do now that Sean is so put off with me I can't even pay to see him now. I know I'll feel terrible if I see him in here tonight talking with other women so I'm leaving. I swear to God I'll fucking lose it. Stay and enjoy yourself but I'm out.” Lisa said grabbing her purse.
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