“You’re gonna run into that stage.”
My texting conversation with Ellie came to a halt at the softly drawled warning. About five inches from my shin was the front of the lecture stage in my Biology 101 class. The warning had saved me from sure embarrassment, but my cheeks heated anyway as I turned to see the person behind the voice. I’d an idea who it was, but I was two parts dismayed and two parts enthralled by the sight of him. Bo Randolph.
I knew of Beauregard Randolph. Everyone at Central did. Central College was one of the best liberal arts colleges in the nation, nestled in an urban area in the Midwest, but it was smaller than some city high schools. Gossip whispered at the start of morning classes at one end of campus was heard at the other by noon in the cafeteria. Or some version of the gossip, anyway.
I’d never envisioned attending any other college than Central, but one drunken party later and I wished for the anonymity of those public universities and their enormous student populations. So while I’d heard many rumors about Bo, I didn’t know how many of them were true. The rumors about me—that I was a slutty girl who’d banged the entire lacrosse team—had only a grain of truth. I’d given up my virginity after one fraternity party to some lacrosse player, who then bragged about it to his teammates.
Somehow that one encounter became the entire team. Once a field bunny, always a field bunny. The lacrosse squad made it their goal to see that everyone believed I was fair game, prey to be chased down and taken at any opportunity. Sober, not sober. Willing, not willing. I wished there had been an informational sheet in my freshman welcome packet warning that hooking up with a lacrosse player resulted in social ruination.
The rumors about Bo ran the gamut from him being a professional fighter to having killed some guy on the east side of campus for looking at him wrong. Oh, and don’t forget the women. Bo’s name was linked to every sort of girl here at Central. It didn’t matter if a girl was sporty, artsy, quiet, or popular, Bo seemed have hooked up with them all. Naturally, this only served to heighten Bo’s reputation with both sexes. If you were a guy, your conquests made you a god. If you were a girl, you were the conquered, no better than a toy.
I’d sat directly behind him in Advanced Economy Theory last semester and spent months battling twin emotions of lust and resentment. Resentment because of the unfairness of how differently our actions painted us in the eyes of our classmates, and lust because Bo made it exciting to go to class. It wasn’t because price discrimination was a fascinating topic or that economics was my actual major. No, the highlight of those days was staring at the interplay of muscles and skin and tendons when Bo wrote, stretched, or reached behind him to pull his backpack over his shoulder. He looked like the live model for a Rodin sculpture. Even the tinkling of what I assumed to be his dog tags striking each other when he moved generated a Pavlovian response of craving in me. About the only flaw I could see in Bo was his messy dirty blond hair, but even that just invited me to sink my fingers in it and smooth it down.
Ellie told me the only way to exorcise those conflicted feelings was to engage in a long bout of angry sex with Bo. But all I did was fantasize. Like most things I enjoyed about Central, my pleasure in Bo Randolph was taken surreptitiously and privately. Only Ellie knew.
“Miss, in the yellow sweater, if you’ll sit down, I can start my lecture,” the professor barked out.
I turned to look to the side to see if anyone else was standing, but Bo just shook his head sadly and leaned forward to whisper, “He’s talking about you.”
If my cheeks were hot before, it was nothing like the five-alarm fire blazing this time. Bo stood and waved me into the empty space beside him and I had no choice but to sit down. I rushed and tossed my messenger bag on the empty table space. If I had taken one second more, I could have moved down five seats or even farther before I bumped into another student, but in my panic I didn’t notice.
None of these things were like me. I tried to draw as little attention to myself as possible on campus. I sat in the back of the classroom. I did not make a spectacle of myself in front of an entire classroom of one hundred students. I could only be grateful that these were freshmen and hope that whatever rumors swam through the college artery system about me couldn’t be immediately attached to my rarely-seen face.
I pretended I wasn’t sitting next to Bo, that I hadn’t been called out by the professor, and that a hundred pairs of eyes weren’t pinned on my back. Instead, I pulled out my laptop and opened my IM screen to ping Ellie. Humiliation had to be shared in order to be endured.
AM_1906: Bo Randolph is in my bio class.
Eggs_Martini: What? Why is he not in Rocks for Jocks?
AM_1906: Dunno.
Rocks for Jocks was Geology 101 and was so nicknamed because all the athletes took it to pad their GPAs. It was commonly known that Bio 101 was harder, but at least you avoided spitballs hurled across the room and suffocation from the smell of gym socks and sweaty jerseys.
Before I could reply to Ellie, the professor began telling us how a typhoon would swallow us up eventually or that the sea level would rise gradually, so that all the land would be eroded. Nice. I could see Bio 101 was going to be swell.
Out of the corner of my eye, I heard the rustling of paper and then the scratch of a cheap pen. Bo was a lefty, and he took notes the old-school way. By hand. With a pen and paper. Insane.
AM_1906: Good call on changing science class. Apparently we’re all going to die soon. From a natural disaster.
Eggs_Martini: Escape now.
AM_1906: Like rocks for jocks will be better? You can die from a mudslide or avalanche or other geological disasters. Global warming, anyone?
Eggs_Martini: Rocks do not cause or are not related to global warming.
AM_1906: I’m pretty sure the class is more than about rocks.
Eggs_Martini: Clearly not or it wouldn’t be rocks for jocks.
I was so intent on my IM conversation with Ellie, I hadn’t noticed that Bo had angled himself to view my screen until I felt the brush of his arm against mine.
“Nosy much?” I hissed, turning the laptop away, my anger and surprise overcoming my initial nervousness.
“Sorry, couldn’t resist,” drawled Bo. The rumor about Bo being a southerner? True. His drawl was as recognizable as the shocking blue eyes he sported. They were so blue I wondered if they were fake. I stared at them for a moment too long, looking for the outline of a contact lens, but saw nothing but pure ocean blue, like the waves you see in the spring break pamphlets of the Caribbean Sea lapping against the white sand beaches. Who needed Cancún when you could stare at Bo Randolph’s eyes for a week?
I wrenched my gaze away. Bo was the poster child for every disaster that female singers warbled about. He’d break your heart and do it smiling. Worse, he’d make you think you were better off for having your heart broken because it was done in by him.
“Why are you even here? Aren’t you a senior?” I said, anger at myself making me sound peevish. At least I kept my voice low enough to avoid getting us in trouble. The professor was on the other end of the stage, making sure everyone in the room was sufficiently depressed with their dim prospects for survival.
“No, I’m a junior college transfer and I’ll be a junior forever unless I get my science prerequisite out of the way,” Bo said, unperturbed. His reportedly quick trigger was apparently not set off by snippy girls. “Why are you here? You seem like a responsible person who would’ve taken her science elective in her first year.”
His gaze swept me like a scanning machine and I felt so thoroughly examined I wondered if he was planning to make a 3D model of me later. Probably wishful thinking, but it didn’t stop a thrill from shooting up my spine at the thought of Bo pulling up a mental picture of me during a private moment.
“How do you know I’m not a first year?” I whispered.
He looked at me disbelievingly. “Because you were a sophomore when you sat behind me last semester in advanced economic theo
ry, AnnMarie West.” He emphasized my name. It was my turn to be disbelieving. I could not believe that he knew both my name and that I sat behind him in class last semester.
I didn’t have a chance to respond because the professor had strolled back to our side of the auditorium and was instructing us on how to sign up for a lab partner.
“The TA will hand out sign-up sheets. If you know someone and have arranged to be their lab partner, please indicate that on the sheets. If you don’t have one, one will be assigned for you at the end of the day, randomly. Thirty-five percent of your grade will depend on your lab work. Choose your partner wisely.”
My heart sank into my feet. With Ellie in geology, I would be assigned to some random freshman. It could be some guy who would think he could make obscene passes at me because I was that girl, or a girl who thought I’d try to steal her man. This was part of the reason I’d put off my science requirement.
The teacher’s assistant handed Bo, who was sitting at the end of our table, a sheet and he scribbled his name and another. I wondered who he was partnering with and why he wasn’t sitting next to that person. I didn’t know what to write down, given that I avoided all the other students and knew only a few names, none of whom were sitting in this room. But Bo didn’t hand me the sheet when he was done. Instead, he leaned past me and laid it on the far side of the empty table, where another student grabbed it and started writing.
“Hey,” I said, trying to reach for the paper, but Bo covered my hand and jerked his chin at the first-year to go ahead.
I rounded on Bo. “I didn’t get to write my name down.”
“You don’t have to,” Bo said, still holding my hand in his. His large hand made me feel tiny and fragile and, briefly, I allowed myself to enjoy the feeling of being protected, like Bo was the shell of my frail turtle body. I shook it off and reminded myself I had my own protective casing called self-reliance. I tugged gently, but he refused to let me go. “We’re going to be lab partners.”
“We? As in you and I?”
“That would be the correct composition of individuals making up the ‘we’ in my sentence.”
“But…” I wasn’t sure whether I was secretly indignant or relieved.
“You don’t want to be stuck with a first-year. You’re smart, given that you were in advanced theory last semester. You’ll be a good lab partner.”
“But are you a good lab partner for me? You’re taking a first-year elective in your third year. You were in advanced economic theory with me, a sophomore.”
Bo laughed but then grew serious. “Fair enough. Yes. I have good grades, and I never let a teammate down.”
A tremor shot through me at Bo’s words. I didn’t have many people on my team, and this guy, this much-wanted guy, was suggesting he was going to stand beside me? It’s for the class, I cautioned myself. But the part that crushed on Bo all last semester? That small, secret part was whispering things I knew I should not allow myself to believe. Like that Bo wanted to be on my team.
I looked down at my hand, still engulfed in Bo’s, and knew that want was winning the battle against fear.
Sound of Snow
by
D.S. Linney
To D and S
I promise you can read this when you’re older. Much older. Like in twenty years.
To Jen—thanks so much for your continual encouragement and faith. I can honestly say I would never have even attempted this if it wasn’t for you!
And to Jess—thanks for letting me be a part of your adventure. It’s been so much fun, and I’ve had a blast!
ONE
Boston, six months earlier
HE DIDN’T KNOW WHAT IT was about her that first caught his attention. She was pretty, but he’d seen more beautiful women. She definitely wasn’t his type—if he had one. Elle had been the only woman for him for so long, it was hard for him to even think about other women appealing to him.
This woman looked nothing like Elle, however, although she was blond as well. But unlike Elle’s light ash blond, she was more summery in coloring, with a coppery tinge to her golden hair. He still felt a sharp pang at the thought of Elle, even though it had been nearly four years since her death. But this woman…girl, really, something about her attracted him. Though it had happened so gradually he was almost surprised to realize what he felt.
She looked out of place in the elegant hotel lounge, although she was dressed appropriately enough. But despite the pretty blue dress she wore, she seemed ill-at-ease…until he started playing the piano. Then she seemed entranced by the music, and relaxed.
He liked to play here, in the hotel lounge. That was why he continued to stay at this particular hotel when he was in Boston—the management allowed him to play after the regular musicians’ set ended. He didn’t know why he wanted to play in this bar when he could barely even look at the piano at home. He just knew that playing here gave him respite from the painful memories that haunted him still.
The girl sat alone at a table near the piano. She had been nursing a drink—a vodka tonic, he guessed—for some time. Her golden red hair was cut short in a pixie haircut that suited her, framing her large blue eyes beautifully. Her eyes were stunning, probably her best feature—even from behind the piano he could see how rich and vibrant a blue they were. He’d never seen bluer eyes, in fact.
She didn’t seem to be wearing much make-up and her fresh, natural beauty appealed to him. Her skin was peachy in tone, clear and smooth, and her mouth was wide with lips a soft, tempting pink. She had a curiously innocent air about her, which definitely set her apart from most girls her age.
He thought he was easily at least dozen years older than her, probably more. God knew he felt decades older. She couldn’t be more than twenty-five, and he suspected she was most likely younger than that.
Perhaps that’s what attracted his attention—she seemed like someone out of time, almost old-fashioned. Her dress was feminine and suited her, but quite modest by current trends. It was a classic silk wrap dress that hugged her figure without being overly tight, with elbow length sleeves. The neckline was deep enough to hint at her cleavage, and the silk clung nicely to full, round breasts. A delicate cross hung on a thin gold chain and rested in the hollow of her neck. She truly was lovely, like a breath of fresh air.
He hadn’t been the only man to notice her—she’d been approached twice by men during the course of the evening. Both times they’d asked to join her at the table and chatted with her for a few minutes. She’d been perfectly polite, he could tell, but after a few minutes she seemed to make up her mind about something and both men had left. He wondered why she was in the bar—it really didn’t seem like her kind of place.
He finished the last few notes of “Clair de lune” and let the sound linger in the air. He lifted his hands from the keys, not sure if he wanted to continue playing or call it a night, when he heard approaching footsteps. He looked up and stilled—it was the girl, she was walking towards him, a strangely purposeful look on her face.
She stopped when she reached the piano, lightly resting one hand on it. She took a deep breath and smiled at him, and he blinked, dazzled—her smile was luminous, transforming her from pretty to stunning.
“Hello,” she said brightly. “You play marvelously, and I wanted to thank you for your music. Are you a professional? Er, professional pianist, that is?”
He could tell she was nervous, but her determined, forthright air rather charmed him. “Thank you, but no, I’m not a professional.”
“Well, I think the world lost out on hearing you play. I heard you play last night as well—I was with a friend and we were both impressed with your skill. I actually came tonight hoping to hear you play again,” she said.
He was surprised to hear that she had been here the previous night—he hadn’t noticed her last night in the bar. He wondered if the friend she had been with was male or female. “You flatter me, but I’m really not that good. I just had a lot of lessons growing up.�
�� He didn’t mention that he did train as a classical pianist until he rebelled in his teens.
“Oh, but you are!” she exclaimed. “But I don’t want to embarrass you, so I’ll stop with the compliments.” She hesitated, took another deep breath and said, “Can I buy you a drink?”
She surprised him again—she really didn’t seem like the type to chat up strange men in bars, and truthfully she seemed quite uncomfortable as she waited for his answer. He opened his mouth, ready to decline politely, when he heard himself say, “Yes, thank you, I would like that.”
“Oh, wonderful!” she said happily and she really did seem sincere. He told himself that he was just curious about her, and it had been a long time since a woman had interested him enough to arouse his curiosity. It had nothing to do with her glorious smile or her remarkably beautiful blue eyes or her lissome, feminine curves…
They walked to the table where she’d been sitting, and a waitress came promptly over. The girl looked at him questioningly.
“I’ll have a Glenlivet on the rocks,” he told the waitress.
“And I’ll have another vodka tonic,” the girl added.
The waitress left with their orders and an awkward silence descended. Beneath the awkwardness, though, was a pulsing tension, an awareness of each other that was undeniably sexual. The tension started to become unbearable when the girl blurted, “So, are you from Boston?”
His lips quirked slightly. “No, I’m from New York. I’m here on business.”
“Oh! Are you from the city? I’ve only visited New York City once but I’m hoping to see it again and do all the touristy things I haven’t done yet, you know, like see the Statue of Liberty or the Empire State Building. But Boston is a wonderful city too, and I don’t think I’ve seen all there is in Boston either. I’m from Boston, South Boston specifically. So what kind of business are you in? I’m Ria, by the way,” she said.
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