Would lure the winner to lose twenty more,
Beside refunding these! Why else allow
The fool to gain them? So displays herself
The lady whom my heart believed — oh, laugh!
Noble and pure: whom my heart loved at once,
And who at once did speak truth when she said
‘I am not mine now but another’s’ — thus
Being that other’s! Devil’s-marriage, eh?
‘My lie weds thine till lucre us do part?’
But pity me the snobbish simpleton,
You two aristocratic tip-top swells
At swindling! Quits, I cry! Decamp content
With skin I’m peeled of: do not strip bones bare —
As that you could, I have no doubt at all!
O you two rare ones! Male and female, Sir!
The male there smirked, this morning, ‘Come, my boy —
Out with it! You’ve been crossed in love, I think:
I recognize the lover’s hangdog look;
Make a clean breast and match my confidence,
For, I’ll be frank, I too have had my fling,
Am punished for my fault, and smart enough!
Where now the victim hides her head, God knows!’
Here loomed her head, life-large, the devil knew!
Look out, Salvini! Here’s your man, your match!
He and I sat applauding, stall by stall,
Last Monday — ’Here’s Othello’ was our word,
‘But where’s Iago?’ Where? Why, there! And now
The fellow-artist, female specimen —
Oh, lady, you must needs describe yourself!
He’s grea in art, but you — how greater still
— (If I can rightly, out of all I learned,
Apply one bit of Latin that assures
‘Art means just art’s concealment’ ) — tower yourself!
For he stands plainly visible henceforth —
Liar and scamp: while you, in artistry
Prove so consummate — or I prove perhaps
So absolute an ass — that — either way —
You still do seem to me who worshipped you
And see you take the homage of this man
Your master, who played slave and knelt, no doubt,
Before a mistress in his very craft . . .
Well, take the fact, I nor believe my eyes,
Nor trust my understanding! Still you seem
Noble and pure as when we had the talk
Under the tower, beneath the trees, that day.
And there’s the key explains the secret: down
He knelt to ask your leave to rise a grade
I’ the mystery of humbug: well he may!
For how you beat him! Half an hour ago,
I held your master for my best of friends;
And now I hate him! Four years since, you seemed
My heart’s one love: well, and you so remain!
What’s he to you in craft?”
She looks him through.
“My friend, ‘tis just that friendship have its turn —
Interrogate thus me whom one, of foes
The worst, has questioned and is answered by.
Take you as frank an answer! answers both
Begin alike so far, divergent soon
World-wide — I own superiority
Over you, over him. As him I searched,
So do you stand seen through and through by me
Who, this time, proud, report your crystal shrines
A dewdrop, plain as amber prisons round
A spider in the hollow heart his house!
Nowise are you that thing my fancy feared
When out you stepped on me, a minute since,
— This man’s confederate! no, you step not thus
Obsequiously at beck and call to help
At need some second scheme, and supplement
Guile by force, use my shame to pinion me
From struggle and escape! I fancied that!
Forgive me! Only by strange chance, — most strange
In even this strange world, — you enter now, 100
Obtain your knowledge. Me you have not wronged
Who never wronged you — least of all, my friend,
That day beneath the College tower and trees,
When I refused to say, — ’not friend but, love!’
Had I been found as free as air when first
We met, I scarcely could have loved you. No —
For where was that in you which claimed return
Of love? My eyes were all too weak to probe
This other’s seeming, but that seeming loved
The soul in me, and lied — I know too late!
While your truth was truth: and I knew at once
My power was just my beauty — bear the word —
As I must bear, of all my qualities,
To name the poorest one that serves my soul
And simulates myself! So much in me
You loved, I know: the something that’s beneath
Heard not your call, — uncalled, no answer comes!
For, since in every love, or soon or late
Soul must awake and seek out soul for soul,
Yours, overlooking mine then, would, some day,
Take flight to find some other; so it proved —
Missing me, you were ready for this man.
I apprehend the whole relation: his —
The soul wherein you saw your type of worth
At once, true object of your tribute. Well
Might I refuse such half-heart’s homage! Love
Divining, had assured you I no more
Stand his participant in infamy
Than you — I need no love to recognize
As simply dupe and nowise fellow-cheat!
Therefore accept one last friend’s-word, — your friend’s,
All men’s friend, save a felon’s, Ravel out
The bad embroilment howsoe’er you may,
Distribute as it please you praise or blame
To me — so you but fling this mockery far —
Renounce this rag-and-feather hero-sham,
This poodle clipt to pattern, lion-like!
Throw him his thousands back, and lay to heart
The lesson I was sent, — if man discerned
Ever God’s message, — just to teach. I judge —
Far to another issue than could dream
Your cousin, — younger, fairer, as befits —
Who summoned me to judgment’s exercise.
I find you, save in folly, innocent.
And in my verdict lies your fate; at choice
Of mine your cousin takes or leaves you. ‘Take!’
I bid her — for you tremble back to truth!
She turns the scale, — one touch of the pure hand
Shall so press down, emprison past relapse
Farther vibration ‘twixt veracity —
That’s honest solid earth — and falsehood, theft
And air, that’s one illusive emptiness!
That reptile capture you? I conquered him:
You saw him cower before me! Have no fear
He shall offend you farther! Spare to spurn —
Safe let him slink hence till some subtler Eve
Than I, anticipate the snake — bruise head
Ere he bruise heel — or, warier than the first,
Some Adam purge earth’s garden of its pest
Before the slaver spoil the Tree of Life!
“You! Leave this youth, as he leaves you, as I
Leave each! There’s caution surely extant yet
Though conscience in you were too vain a claim.
Hence quickly! Keep the cash but leave unsoiled
The heart I rescue and would lay to heal
Beside another’s! Never let her know
How near came taint of your companionship!”
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“Ah” — draws a long breath with a new strange look
The man she interpellates — soul a-stir
Under its covert, as, beneath the dust,
A coppery sparkle all at once denotes
The hid snake has conceived a purpose.
”Ah —
Innocence should be crowned with ignorance?
Desirable indeed, but difficult!
As if yourself, now, had not glorified
Your helpmate by imparting him a hint
Of how a monster made the victim bleed
Ere crook and courage saved her — hint, I say, —
Not the whole horror, — that were needless risk, —
But just such inkling, fancy of the fact,
As should suffice to qualify henceforth
The shepherd, when another lamb would stray,
For warning ‘Ware the wolf!’ No doubt at all,
Silence is generosity, — keeps wolf
Unhunted by flock’s warder! Excellent,
Did — generous to me, mean — just to him!
But, screening the deceiver, lamb were found
Outraging the deceitless! So, — he knows!
And yet, unharmed I breathe — perchance, repent —
Thanks to the mercifully-politic!”
“Ignorance is not innocence but sin —
Witness your own ignoring after-pangs
Pursue the plague-infected. Merciful
Am I? Perhaps! the more contempt, the less
Hatred; and who so worthy of contempt
As you that rest assured I cooled the spot
I could not cure, by poisoning, forsooth,
Whose hand I pressed there? Understand for once
That, sick, of all the pains corroding me
This burnt the last and nowise least — the need 200
Of simulating soundness. I resolved —
No matter how the struggle tasked weak flesh —
To hide the truth away as in a grave
From — most of all — my husband: he nor knows
Nor ever shall be made to know your part,
My part, the devil’s part, — I trust, God’s part
In the foul matter. Saved, I yearn to save
And not destroy: and what destruction like
The abolishing of faith in him, that’s faith
In me as pure and true? Acquaint some child
Who takes yon tree into his confidence,
That, where he sleeps now, was a murder done,
And that the grass which grows so thick, he thinks,
Only to pillow him is product just
Of what lies festering beneath! ‘Tis God
Must bear such secrets and disclose them. Man?
The miserable thing I have become
By dread acquaintance with my secret — you —
That thing had he become by learning me —
The miserable, whom his ignorance
Would wrongly call the wicked: ignorance
Being, I hold, sin ever, small or great.
No, he knows nothing!”
”He and I alike
Are bound to you for such discreetness, then.
What if our talk should terminate awhile?
Here is a gentleman to satisfy,
Settle accounts with, pay ten thousand pounds
Before we part — as, by his face, I fear,
Results from your appearance on the scene.
Grant me a minute’s parley with my friend
Which scarce admits of a third personage!
The room from which you made your entry first
So opportunely — still untenanted —
What if you please return there? Just a word
To my young friend first — then, a word to you,
And you depart to fan away each fly
From who, grass-pillowed, sleeps so sound at home!”
“So the old truth comes back! A wholesome change, —
At last the altered eye, the rightful tone!
But even to the truth that drops disguise
And stands forth grinning malice which but now
Whined so contritely — I refuse assent
Just as to malice. I, once gone, come back?
No, my lord! I enjoy the privilege
Of being absolutely loosed from you
Too much — the knowledge that your power is null
Which was omnipotent. A word of mouth,
A wink of eye would have detained me once,
Body and soul your slave; and now, thank God,
Your fawningest of prayers, your frightfulest
Of curses — neither would avail to turn
My footstep for a moment!”
”Prayer, then, tries
No such adventure. Let us cast about
For something novel in expedient: take
Command, — what say you? I profess myself
One fertile in resource. Commanding, then,
I bid — not only wait there, but return
Here, where I want you! Disobey and — good!
On your own head the peril!”
”Come!” breaks in
The boy with his good glowing face. “Shut up!
None of this sort of thing while I stand here
— Not to stand that! No bullying, I beg!
I also am to leave you presently
And never more set eyes upon your face —
You won’t mind that much; but — I tell you frank —
I do mind having to remember this
For your last word and deed — my friend who were!
Bully a woman you have ruined, eh?
Do you know, — I give credit all at once
To all those stories everybody told
And nobody but I would disbelieve:
They all seem likely now, — nay, certain, sure!
I daresay you did cheat at cards that night
The row was at the Club: ‘sauter la coupe’ —
That was your ‘cut,’ for which your friends ‘cut’ you;
While I, the booby, ‘cut’ — acquaintanceship
With who so much as laughed when I said ‘luck!’
I daresay you had bets against the horse
They doctored at the Derby; little doubt,
That fellow with the sister found you shirk
His challenge and did kick you like a ball,
Just as the story went about! Enough:
It only serves to show how well advised,
Madam, you were in bidding such a fool
As I, go hang. You see how the mere sight
And sound of you suffice to tumble down
Conviction topsy-turvy: no, — that’s false, —
There’s no unknowing what one knows; and yet
Such is my folly that, in gratitude
For . . . well, I’m stupid; but you seemed to wish
I should know gently what I know, should slip
Softly from old to new, not break my neck
Between beliefs of what you were and are.
Well then, for just the sake of such a wish
To cut no worse a figure than needs must
In even eyes like mine, I’d sacrifice
Body and soul! But don’t think danger — pray! —
Menaces either! He do harm to us?
Let me say ‘us’ this one time! You’d allow
I lent perhaps my hand to rid your ear 300
Of some cur’s yelping — hand that’s fortified,
Into the bargain, with a horsewhip? Oh,
One crack and you shall see how curs decamp!
My lord, you know your losses and my gains.
Pay me my money at the proper time!
If cash be not forthcoming, — well, yourself
Have taught me, and tried often, I’ll engage,
The proper course: I post you at the Club,
Pillory the defaulter. Crack, to-day,
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nbsp; Shall, slash, to-morrow, slice through flesh and bone!
There, Madam, you need mind no cur, I think!”
“Ah, what a gain to have an apt no less
Than grateful scholar! Nay, he brings to mind
My knowledge till he puts me to the blush,
So long has it lain rusty! Post my name!
That were indeed a wheal from whipcord! Whew!
I wonder now if I could rummage out
— Just to match weapons — some old scorpion-scourge!
Madam, you hear my pupil, may applaud
His triumph o’er the master. I — no more
Bully, since I’m forbidden: but entreat —
Wait and return — for my sake, no! but just
To save your own defender, should he chance
Get thwacked thro’ awkward flourish of his thong.
And what if — since all waiting’s weary work —
I help the time pass ‘twixt your exit now
And entry then? for — pastime proper — here’s
The very thing, the Alburn, verse and prose
To make the laughing minutes launch away!
Each of us must contribute. I’ll begin —
‘Hail calm acclivity, salubrious spot!’
I’m confident I beat the bard, — for why?
My young friend owns me an Iago — him
Confessed, among the other qualities,
A ready rhymer. Oh, he rhymed! Here goes!
— Something to end with ‘horsewhip’! No, that rhyme
Beats me; there’s ‘cowslip,’ ‘boltsprit,’ nothing else!
So, Tennyson take my benison, — verse for bard,
Prose suits the gambler’s book best! Dared and done!”
Wherewith he dips pen, writes a line or two,
Closes and clasps the cover, gives the book,
Bowing the while, to her who hesitates,
Turns half away, turns round again, at last
Takes it as you touch carrion, then retires.
The door shuts fast the couple.
VI
With a change
Of his whole manner, opens out at once
The Adversary.
”Now, my friend, for you!
You who, protected late, aggressive grown,
Brandish, it seems, a weapon I must ‘ware!
Plain speech in me becomes respectable
Therefore, because courageous; plainly, then —
(Have lash well loose, hold handle tight and light!)
Throughout my life’s experience, you indulged
Yourself and friend by passing in review
So courteously but now, I vainly search
To find one record of a specimen
So perfect of the pure and simple fool
As this you furnish me. Ingratitude
I lump with folly, — all’s one lot, — so — fool!
Did I seek you or you seek me? Seek? sneak
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