If you had told me yesterday, “There’s one
You needs must circumvent and practise with,
Entrap by policies, if you would worm
The truth out: and that one is — Mildred!” There,
There — reasoning is thrown away on it!
Prove she’s unchaste . . . why, you may after prove
That she’s a poisoner, traitress, what you will!
Where I can comprehend nought, nought’s to say,
Or do, or think. Force on me but the first
Abomination, — then outpour all plagues,
And I shall ne’er make count of them.
Enter MILDRED
MILDRED.
What book
Is it I wanted, Thorold? Guendolen
Thought you were pale; you are not pale. That book?
That’s Latin surely.
TRESHAM.
Mildred, here’s a line,
(Don’t lean on me: I’ll English it for you)
“Love conquers all things.” What love conquers them?
What love should you esteem — best love?
MILDRED.
True love.
TRESHAM.
I mean, and should have said, whose love is best
Of all that love or that profess to love?
MILDRED.
The list’s so long: there’s father’s, mother’s, husband’s . . .
TRESHAM.
Mildred, I do believe a brother’s love
For a sole sister must exceed them all.
For see now, only see! there’s no alloy
Of earth that creeps into the perfect’st gold
Of other loves — no gratitude to claim;
You never gave her life, not even aught
That keeps life — never tended her, instructed,
Enriched her — so, your love can claim no right
O’er her save pure love’s claim: that’s what I call
Freedom from earthliness. You’ll never hope
To be such friends, for instance, she and you,
As when you hunted cowslips in the woods,
Or played together in the meadow hay.
Oh yes — with age, respect comes, and your worth
Is felt, there’s growing sympathy of tastes,
There’s ripened friendship, there’s confirmed esteem:
— Much head these make against the newcomer!
The startling apparition, the strange youth —
Whom one half-hour’s conversing with, or, say,
Mere gazing at, shall change (beyond all change
This Ovid ever sang about) your soul
. . . Her soul, that is, — the sister’s soul! With her
‘Twas winter yesterday; now, all is warmth,
The green leaf’s springing and the turtle’s voice,
“Arise and come away!” Come whither? — far
Enough from the esteem, respect, and all
The brother’s somewhat insignificant
Array of rights! All which he knows before,
Has calculated on so long ago!
I think such love, (apart from yours and mine,)
Contented with its little term of life,
Intending to retire betimes, aware
How soon the background must be placed for it,
— I think, am sure, a brother’s love exceeds
All the world’s love in its unworldliness.
MILDRED.
What is this for?
TRESHAM.
This, Mildred, is it for!
Or, no, I cannot go to it so soon!
That’s one of many points my haste left out —
Each day, each hour throws forth its silk-slight film
Between the being tied to you by birth,
And you, until those slender threads compose
A web that shrouds her daily life of hopes
And fears and fancies, all her life, from yours:
So close you live and yet so far apart!
And must I rend this web, tear up, break down
The sweet and palpitating mystery
That makes her sacred? You — for you I mean,
Shall I speak, shall I not speak?
MILDRED.
Speak!
TRESHAM.
I will.
Is there a story men could — any man
Could tell of you, you would conceal from me?
I’ll never think there’s falsehood on that lip.
Say “There is no such story men could tell,”
And I’ll believe you, though I disbelieve
The world — the world of better men than I,
And women such as I suppose you. Speak!
[After a pause.]
Not speak? Explain then! Clear it up then! Move
Some of the miserable weight away
That presses lower than the grave. Not speak?
Some of the dead weight, Mildred! Ah, if I
Could bring myself to plainly make their charge
Against you! Must I, Mildred? Silent still?
[After a pause.]
Is there a gallant that has night by night
Admittance to your chamber?
[After a pause.]
Then, his name!
Till now, I only had a thought for you:
But now, — his name!
MILDRED.
Thorold, do you devise
Fit expiation for my guilt, if fit
There be! ‘Tis nought to say that I’ll endure
And bless you, — that my spirit yearns to purge
Her stains off in the fierce renewing fire:
But do not plunge me into other guilt!
Oh, guilt enough! I cannot tell his name.
TRESHAM.
Then judge yourself! How should I act? Pronounce!
MILDRED.
Oh, Thorold, you must never tempt me thus!
To die here in this chamber by that sword
Would seem like punishment: so should I glide,
Like an arch-cheat, into extremest bliss!
‘Twere easily arranged for me: but you —
What would become of you?
TRESHAM.
And what will now
Become of me? I’ll hide your shame and mine
From every eye; the dead must heave their hearts
Under the marble of our chapel-floor;
They cannot rise and blast you. You may wed
Your paramour above our mother’s tomb;
Our mother cannot move from ‘neath your foot.
We too will somehow wear this one day out:
But with to-morrow hastens here — the Earl!
The youth without suspicion. Face can come
From Heaven and heart from . . . whence proceed such hearts?
I have dispatched last night at your command
A missive bidding him present himself
To-morrow — here — thus much is said; the rest
Is understood as if ‘twere written down —
“His suit finds favor in your eyes.” Now dictate
This morning’s letter that shall countermand
Last night’s — do dictate that!
MILDRED.
But, Thorold — if
I will receive him as I said?
TRESHAM.
The Earl?
MILDRED.
I will receive him.
TRESHAM [starting up].
Ho there! Guendolen!
GUENDOLEN and AUSTIN enter
And, Austin, you are welcome, too! Look there!
The woman there!
AUSTIN and GUENDOLEN.
How? Mildred?
TRESHAM.
Mildred once!
Now the receiver night by night, when sleep
Blesses the inmates of her father’s house,
— I say, the soft sly wanton that receives
Her guilt’s accomplice ‘neath this roof w
hich holds
You, Guendolen, you, Austin, and has held
A thousand Treshams — never one like her!
No lighter of the signal-lamp her quick
Foul breath near quenches in hot eagerness
To mix with breath as foul! no loosener
O’ the lattice, practised in the stealthy tread,
The low voice and the noiseless come-and-go!
Not one composer of the bacchant’s mien
Into — what you thought Mildred’s, in a word!
Know her!
GUENDOLEN.
Oh, Mildred, look to me, at least!
Thorold — she’s dead, I’d say, but that she stands
Rigid as stone and whiter!
TRESHAM.
You have heard . . .
GUENDOLEN.
Too much! You must proceed no further.
MILDRED.
Yes —
Proceed! All’s truth. Go from me!
TRESHAM.
All is truth,
She tells you! Well, you know, or ought to know,
All this I would forgive in her. I’d con
Each precept the harsh world enjoins, I’d take
Our ancestors’ stern verdicts one by one,
I’d bind myself before then to exact
The prescribed vengeance — and one word of hers,
The sight of her, the bare least memory
Of Mildred, my one sister, my heart’s pride
Above all prides, my all in all so long,
Would scatter every trace of my resolve.
What were it silently to waste away
And see her waste away from this day forth,
Two scathed things with leisure to repent,
And grow acquainted with the grave, and die
Tired out if not at peace, and be forgotten?
It were not so impossible to bear.
But this — that, fresh from last night’s pledge renewed
Of love with the successful gallant there,
She calmly bids me help her to entice,
Inveigle an unconscious trusting youth
Who thinks her all that’s chaste and good and pure,
— Invites me to betray him . . . who so fit
As honour’s self to cover shame’s arch-deed?
— That she’ll receive Lord Mertoun — (her own phrase) —
This, who could bear? Why, you have heard of thieves,
Stabbers, the earth’s disgrace, who yet have laughed,
“Talk not to me of torture — I’ll betray
No comrade I’ve pledged faith to!” — you have heard
Of wretched women — all but Mildreds — tied
By wild illicit ties to losels vile
You’d tempt them to forsake; and they’ll reply
“Gold, friends, repute, I left for him, I find
In him, why should I leave him then, for gold,
Repute or friends?” — and you have felt your heart
Respond to such poor outcasts of the world
As to so many friends; bad as you please,
You’ve felt they were God’s men and women still,
So, not to be disowned by you. But she
That stands there, calmly gives her lover up
As means to wed the Earl that she may hide
Their intercourse the surelier: and, for this,
I curse her to her face before you all.
Shame hunt her from the earth! Then Heaven do right
To both! It hears me now — shall judge her then!
[As MILDRED faints and falls, Tresham rushes out.
AUSTIN.
Stay, Tresham, we’ll accompany you!
GUENDOLEN.
We?
What, and leave Mildred? We? Why, where’s my place
But by her side, and where yours but by mine?
Mildred — one word! Only look at me, then!
AUSTIN.
No, Guendolen! I echo Thorold’s voice.
She is unworthy to behold . . .
GUENDOLEN.
Us two?
If you spoke on reflection, and if I
Approved your speech — if you (to put the thing
At lowest) you the soldier, bound to make
The king’s cause yours and fight for it, and throw
Regard to others of its right or wrong,
— If with a death-white woman you can help,
Let alone sister, let alone a Mildred,
You left her — or if I, her cousin, friend
This morning, playfellow but yesterday,
Who said, or thought at least a thousand times,
“I’d serve you if I could,” should now face round
And say, “Ah, that’s to only signify
I’d serve you while you’re fit to serve yourself:
So long as fifty eyes await the turn
Of yours to forestall its yet half-formed wish,
I’ll proffer my assistance you’ll not need —
When every tongue is praising you, I’ll join
The praisers’ chorus — when you’re hemmed about
With lives between you and detraction — lives
To be laid down if a rude voice, rash eye,
Rough hand should violate the sacred ring
Their worship throws about you, — then indeed,
Who’ll stand up for you stout as I?” If so
We said, and so we did, — not Mildred there
Would be unworthy to behold us both,
But we should be unworthy, both of us.
To be beheld by — by — your meanest dog,
Which, if that sword were broken in your face
Before a crowd, that badge torn off your breast,
And you cast out with hooting and contempt,
— Would push his way thro’ all the hooters, gain
Your side, go off with you and all your shame
To the next ditch you choose to die in! Austin,
Do you love me? Here’s Austin, Mildred, — here’s
Your brother says he does not believe half —
No, nor half that — of all he heard! He says,
Look up and take his hand!
AUSTIN.
Look up and take
My hand, dear Mildred!
MILDRED.
I — I was so young!
Beside, I loved him, Thorold — and I had
No mother; God forgot me: so, I fell.
GUENDOLEN.
Mildred!
MILDRED.
Require no further! Did I dream
That I could palliate what is done? All’s true.
Now, punish me! A woman takes my hand?
Let go my hand! You do not know, I see.
I thought that Thorold told you.
GUENDOLEN.
What is this?
Where start you to?
MILDRED.
Oh, Austin, loosen me!
You heard the whole of it — your eyes were worse,
In their surprise, than Thorold’s! Oh, unless
You stay to execute his sentence, loose
My hand! Has Thorold gone, and are you here?
GUENDOLEN.
Here, Mildred, we two friends of yours will wait
Your bidding; be you silent, sleep or muse!
Only, when you shall want your bidding done,
How can we do it if we are not by?
Here’s Austin waiting patiently your will!
One spirit to command, and one to love
And to believe in it and do its best,
Poor as that is, to help it — why, the world
Has been won many a time, its length and breadth,
By just such a beginning!
MILDRED.
I believe
If once I threw my arms about your neck
And sunk my head upon your breast, that I
Should weep again.
GUENDOLEN.
Wait for me. Pace the gallery and think
On the world’s seemings and realities,
Until I call you.
[Austin goes.
MILDRED.
No — I cannot weep.
No more tears from this brain — no sleep — no tears!
O Guendolen, I love you!
GUENDOLEN.
Yes: and “love”
Is a short word that says so very much!
It says that you confide in me.
MILDRED.
Confide!
GUENDOLEN.
Your lover’s name, then! I’ve so much to learn,
Ere I can work in your behalf!
MILDRED.
My friend,
You know I cannot tell his name.
GUENDOLEN.
At least
He is your lover? and you love him too?
MILDRED.
Ah, do you ask me that, — but I am fallen
So low!
GUENDOLEN.
You love him still, then?
MILDRED.
My sole prop
Against the guilt that crushes me! I say,
Each night ere I lie down, “I was so young —
I had no mother, and I loved him so!”
And then God seems indulgent, and I dare
Trust him my soul in sleep.
GUENDOLEN.
How could you let us
E’en talk to you about Lord Mertoun then?
MILDRED.
There is a cloud around me.
GUENDOLEN.
But you said
You would receive his suit in spite of this?
MILDRED.
I say there is a cloud . . .
GUENDOLEN.
No cloud to me!
Lord Mertoun and your lover are the same!
MILDRED.
What maddest fancy . . .
GUENDOLEN [calling aloud.]
Austin! (spare your pains —
When I have got a truth, that truth I keep) —
MILDRED.
By all you love, sweet Guendolen, forbear!
Have I confided in you . . .
GUENDOLEN.
Just for this!
Austin! — Oh, not to guess it at the first!
But I did guess it — that is, I divined,
Felt by an instinct how it was: why else
Should I pronounce you free from all that heap
Of sins which had been irredeemable?
I felt they were not yours — what other way
Than this, not yours? The secret’s wholly mine!
MILDRED.
If you would see me die before his face . . .
GUENDOLEN.
I’d hold my peace! And if the Earl returns
To-night?
MILDRED.
Ah Heaven, he’s lost!
GUENDOLEN.
I thought so. Austin!
Enter AUSTIN
Oh, where have you been hiding?
AUSTIN.
Thorold’s gone,
I know not how, across the meadow-land.
I watched him till I lost him in the skirts
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