"Retired to Sarasota?"
"Dead."
"Oh boy."
"But there's evidence at SUNY that Louderbush was making odd inquiries about the death. What was his interest?
A former Louderbush staffer says the assemblyman was a quote-unquote mentor to Stiver. But Louderbush's snooping seemed to go beyond mere sadness and loss. He seemed 184
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"Jesus. Is it possible Louderbush actually pushed Stiver off the roof at SUNY? That this was a homicide?"
"Why do you ask?"
"That would be a good deal tidier than what you've told me so far. Make great headlines in the Post and the Daily News."
"Well, it's not out of the question. One witness thinks she saw two people on the roof of the building before Stiver fell."
"One witness thinks… Not much there, I guess. But what about this violence against yourself, Don? Your head injury there. Tom says you're convinced that Kenyon is responsible, although I take it that so far you have no direct evidence of that. Jesus, I knew they played hardball in Kurtzburg, but this would be way out of bounds."
"Tom may also have mentioned that for the first several days of my investigation I was under close surveillance, possibly electronic, by unknown persons. I could barely scratch my ass without somebody noting the gesture for posterity. Also, some real or fake Capitol cop preceded me asking pointed questions out in Hall Creek, where Louderbush had gotten Stiver a job at the community college."
McCloskey screwed up his face. "Peculiar. Very peculiar. It sounds downright sinister. Though if Kenyon is behind any of that type of thing, I'd be surprised. His organizational skills have always been limited."
"Be assured, Senator, that I'll be bringing all this up tomorrow when I meet with Louderbush. I'll be gauging his reactions, and more importantly I'll be wearing a wire."
McCloskey all but fell off his chair. He raised both hands as if to ward off any more flying information. "Oh, no. I don't need to know that."
Dunphy said, "For chrissakes, Don, we'll work out the details of your meeting on our own. Shy just needs framework."
"It sounds," McCloskey said, "as if Kenyon is going to throw himself at our feet and beg for mercy and forgiveness.
I'd almost like to be present, but my stomach isn't as strong as it once was. He's bringing his wife along?"
"That's what he told me. She's involved, he says."
"I'm sure she is. Tom, if you were going to discuss your most sordid affairs with a private investigator, would you bring Doreen along?"
"Oh sure."
"Joyce would rather stay home, would be my guess. But this is the age of the political wife who can't tell the difference between loyalty and masochism. You saw Silda Spitzer standing there next to her no-goodnik hubby taking it on the kisser in front of Gabe Pressman and the rest of the known media world. And what's-his-name from Jersey, the guv with the Israeli butt boy boyfriend. Hava Nagila! The man's poor wife stood there next to him grinning like she was at their little girl's ballet debut, and her husband is telling the cameras he prefers sucking dick to eating pussy. No offense intended, Don."
"None taken."
"What's the story with Kenyon's missus, Tom? Do we know anything about her?"
"She's a nurse. Stays out in Kurtzburg. That's about it.
They have kids."
"Sure they do. Don, have you checked Kenyon's children for broken bones?"
"No. I don't think it usually works that way with Louderbush's type. It's one thing or another. With him, it's grown-up young men, and sex is part of it. Anyway, a nurse wouldn't put up with that."
"You're probably right."
"The wife, I think, will be there for moral support for Louderbush and to exact sympathy from us."
"Yeah, well, don't extend any on my behalf."
"Okay."
"I certainly wish you well in your endeavors tomorrow. I know you understand that the future well-being of the state of New York may well hinge on your giving Kenyon the shove into oblivion he so richly deserves. And, as a practical matter for yourself, if you succeed here you'll have the world at your feet, I promise you. The world may never know exactly why you are so highly regarded by the governor of New York and in the corridors of power throughout the Empire State. Our fervent hope, of course, is that Kenyon will plead a prior engagement and politely withdraw from the race and none of this nauseating garbage will ever see the light of day."
"That's my hope, too, Senator."
Dunphy said, "I think we've got the guy by the short hairs.
Today's Monday. If Kenyon is still in the race Wednesday, I'll be surprised."
"Unless, of course," McCloskey said, "he denies everything and tells Don here that his evidence is laughably thin and we can all go to hell. Is that a possibility? Could it be we're moving too soon on this?"
Twenty-four hours later, I repeated to Timmy McCloskey's description of how everything might go wrong, and I told him,
"If only what happened at the meeting with Louderbush had been that simple."
Chapter Twenty-two
I jogged the loop around Washington Park four times and was back home by seven thirty. Cool weather had set in along with a low cloud ceiling that felt more like a disappointing version of April. I showered as soon as Timmy was out of the bathroom, then read the Times online with my coffee and English muffin. He went out the door to walk to work, saying as he went, "As they say in Thailand, good luck to you, good luck to you, good luck to you."
I went over my notes until eight thirty when two Clean-Tech operatives, Rod and Eugene, arrived on schedule. The cool weather worked to their advantage as they wired me up.
I had on khakis and a sports jacket over a nicely styled T-shirt of the type Anderson Cooper might wear to a famine. A minimally bulky device the size of an mp3 player fit in my breast pocket. Its microphone was a ballpoint pen in the same pocket. Plan B was a second ballpoint pen I would hold or place on a table with my notebook; it broadcast sound to a receiver in a nearby room at the hotel where another Clean-Tech op would be listening and recording.
At nine thirty I ambled outside and over to Washington Avenue and on down past the Capitol and Albany City Hall.
The unseasonable chill only served to make me feel more alert. It took me back to high school football and the thrill in the air before a big game.
I reached the Crowne Plaza just before ten, on time, and rode an elevator to the twelfth floor. It occurred to me that Louderbush would have his own techies on hand to strip search me and remove the breast pocket device and maybe even the innocuous-looking ballpoint pen transmitter. But when he opened the door to the suite and he and his wife were apparently the only people present, I wondered why he was acting so confident.
"I'm Don Strachey."
"Kenyon Louderbush. This is my wife Deidre."
"Hello," she said, barely audible.
He was tense enough, but she was clenched all over and looked as if it was all she could do to contain her rage. He was tall and broad, an aging but still formidable right tackle.
He had a big jaw and big hands and wore gentlemanly specs, his only visible concession to the passage of time. She was good-sized, too, stocky as opposed to stout, also a onetime athlete maybe. She had a round pretty face with a minimum of makeup and some big but not comically big hair tinted auburn and recently styled. Both of the Louderbushes wore the kinds of conservatively presentable outfits you'd expect a state assemblyman and his spouse to turn up in at a Rotary Club dinner back in his district. One of my thoughts was, am I underdressed for this occasion?
We arrayed ourselves around a coffee table where the hotel had thought to provide some fresh gladiola that were tall enough to obstruct Mrs. Louderbush's view of me. Without a word, she got up and transferred the vase to an out of the way end table. There were nuts and
wrapped hard candies too, but nobody reached for any. There weren't of course any ashtrays.
"This is going to be painful for all of us," Louderbush said,
"so let's get it over with."
Painful for all of us? "Sure," I said.
"I called you, Mr. Strachey, because I've had reports coming in that you are on my case for some immoral things I did many years ago."
"Five years ago is not many years ago," I corrected him.
"No, not to you it isn't. But to me five years ago is another lifetime."
"Well, you did what you did. Repeatedly over a number of years apparently."
"I can't deny that. I'm not here to deny anything. I'm here to…try to get you to understand what some of the consequences will be if you and Shy McCloskey make my sins of the past a campaign issue."
"Consequences for whom?"
"I'll get to that. Primarily for my family." Mrs. Louderbush tightened up even more and was glaring up a storm. She had set down a shoulder bag that was even bigger than mine both rested on the end table separated by the gladiola-and I hoped she didn't also have a weapon in hers.
"Deidre and I have three teenage children," Louderbush went on. "This is an extremely vulnerable age. Teenagers are so sensitive, so easily hurt and confused. They need their parents. They need to be able to look up to their parents."
"No, I'd hate to see any young people get hurt. I mean, any more than have been injured already."
Mrs. Louderbush looked at her husband and started to say something, but he shook his head. "You're going to be merciless with me," he said, "and I understand why. Believe me, I do. I've been in counseling since Greg Stiver's death, and I can tell you that nobody is as angry at me as I am at myself."
"Good."
"I don't think I need to relate to you the whole dreary story of my upbringing and my life with my violent father and my being raped by my uncle Alan when I was twelve and all the rest of an incredibly sordid tale. But my young life made me a psychological cripple of the worst kind, the kind of man who preys on younger men who have been made vulnerable by family traumas of their own. I can't justify anything I have done. I can only explain. And I can say over and over and over again that I am so, so, so sorry for all the pain I inflicted, and I can honestly declare that I am beyond all of that horror. And, yes. It was Greg Stiver's death that forced me to confront my demons and my anger-management problems and to seek help and to promise myself and my wife that I would never enter into one of these sick relationships ever again. I also quit drinking, which had been a factor in my behavior."
Mrs. Louderbush said levelly, "It's true. It's all over."
"You knew about it?"
"Of course not!"
"No, no," Louderbush said. "I was a sneak. I was a liar and a sneak."
Now she was nodding angrily.
"It wasn't the illicit relationships that Deidre found out about. I have to say I covered my tracks too well to get 192
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"With a woman," she said coldly. "I'm a nurse, and you wouldn't think I'd be quite so naive."
"When did you find out about your husband's physically abusive relationships with young men?" I asked her. I wanted to make certain we were all talking about the same thing here.
"In January. The first thing I did was tell Kenyon I still loved him and I was not going to break up our family. The second thing I did was go out and get an HIV test.
Fortunately, it was negative."
"This past January? Wasn't that when you announced you were running for governor, Assemblyman?"
"That was something of a coincidence and something of a not-exactly-a-coincidence. In any case, I planned on informing Deidre of my problematical past. I chose to tell her because she deserved to know-and just in case during the gubernatorial campaign certain types turned up."
"Gotcha. Certain types like me."
"Exactly."
"And by then you must have had your Serbians standing by to deal with any such crude interference with your plans, no?"
"Serbians?"
"I call them that. The goons that you-or more likely low-lifes on your staff-employed to try to intimidate me. My health insurance covers my damaged ear. Otherwise I'd send your campaign the hospital bill."
He stiffened. "That's ridiculous."
Mrs. Louderbush looked even madder.
"Mr. Louderbush, if you don't know this, you should. Since I've been investigating your ugly past, I've been beaten and my car has been vandalized. My movements have been monitored as if I was a sex offender wearing an ankle bracelet. Which strikes me as hugely ironic, now that I think about it."
Louderbush winced. "No. None of that is any responsibility of mine. Not this time. I'm sure in your line of work you've made one hell of a lot of enemies. Maybe you should go over your professional digging-up-dirt-on-people files to see who else doesn't like you and what you're doing. As for me and any Serbians, so-called, I'm not that ruthless and I'm not that well-organized."
"You have a history of both."
"Can you show me any evidence you have connecting me to any such BS? I have a lot to atone for, but having my political opponents' henchmen attacked is not one of them.
You're just way off the mark on this one, my friend."
I knew it was possible he really had been told nothing of the ugly stuff being done on his behalf. Rogue staffers could be behind it, or even fringe Tea Partiers who wanted Louderbush elected and were operating independently. But with his record as an accomplished liar, it was impossible to 194
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I said, "Whatever you know or don't know about the way I've been roughed up, Mr. Louderbush, the basic facts here are indisputable. You did a lot of bad stuff that's cruel and illegal and disgusting, and if the electorate found out about it, they would say no to your candidacy. Some would congratulate you on getting a grip and halting your destructive practices, and they would wish you well in your future private life. But most would not want to take a chance on you as governor. I know I don't. What you did to Greg Stiver is unforgiveable. If the voters knew about it, most of them would not forgive you either."
Louderbush reddened and slumped in his chair. "I was trying to help him," he said.
Mrs. Louderbush looked away.
"What do you mean, help him?"
"I was there."
"Where?"
"It was an accident."
"Greg's fall from the roof at SUNY?"
"I had tried to end the relationship. I was so guilt-ridden. I helped Greg find a teaching job near Kurtzburg-he hadn't had any luck on his own-and then I was overcome with…guilt. It was so close to home, and to my family, who mean everything to me."
"Were you overcome with guilt, or were you overcome with fear that you'd get caught?"
"All right, yes, both."
Mrs. Louderbush looked as if she wanted to get down on her hands and knees and crawl out of the room, but she sat there three feet from her husband, her angry gaze fixed on the gladiola.
"What happened?" I said.
"I called Greg and told him I needed to talk to him. He was at the SUNY library, and he agreed to meet me in an empty econ classroom on the eighth floor of Livingston Quad Four."
"Okay."
"We met, and we talked, and he was very, very angry with me. He said I was teasing him, setting him up a few miles from where I lived and then refusing to continue the relation
ship. He said I was torturing him."
"Funny choice of words."
Louderbush bristled. "Do you want to hear the truth or not?"
"Go ahead."
"Greg began to cry. I couldn't console him. I tried to hold him, but he shoved me away and grabbed his backpack and ran out of the room. I followed him, and when the elevator didn't arrive immediately, he ran into a stairwell. I think he heard voices down below, so instead of running down the stairs, he ran up. I followed him and suddenly we were somehow on the roof. He walked around and around weeping, and just to get him down off there I said I would reconsider ending the relationship. I admit I didn't mean it, but Greg was 196
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I thought, He's seen Vertigo. Does an old nun appear behind him at this point and make the sign of the cross?
"Mixed with my horror," Louderbush went on, "was my fear that someone might have seen Greg and me on the roof and would think that we were fighting and that I had pushed him to his death."
"Mm."
"I couldn't see anyone who might have observed us, so I took the elevator down and left the building and headed toward my car as fast as I could without being conspicuous."
"Did it occur to you that Greg might be alive and he would need help?"
"After a fall from that height? That would have been impossible."
"Maybe."
"I knew it would look like suicide-why else would he have gone up to the roof? — and I drove to Greg's apartment to fake a suicide note. I had a letter he had once written to me at a time when he had decided to end the relationship. He had written in big letters at the end of the note I hurt too much. I had the letter with me-I wanted to show it to Greg and remind him that the relationship was as painful and difficult 197
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