“Well, not to be sexist, but I’m far larger than you, not to mention much less appealing to men.”
“Don’t underestimate yourself.”
Daniel chuckled. “Point taken, the park is not the best place for anyone to be alone.”
“Agreed,” she said. “I promise, I’ll think twice next time.”
“Or bring me with you.” He hoped that hadn’t come out wrong.
“Or bring you with me,” she said, much to his relief.
They gazed at the stars, debating whether the flashing lights crossing the sky were an airplane, a blimp, or a UFO, and laughing as they argued over which direction the Little Dipper was from the Big Dipper. Finally Daniel stretched, shifting his position, and sat up.
“We better get going,” Marienne said. “I can’t even imagine what time it is.”
Daniel stepped off the bars and Marienne attempted to do the same. She stumbled, and he caught her mid-fall.
“Whoa,” he said. “You okay?”
“Foot’s asleep.” She gave a nervous laugh and looked down, rotating her right ankle. He waited for her to sit back against the metal bars before he let go.
“I hate that,” he said. “Happened to me during a job interview. I was so nervous I didn’t realize I hadn’t shifted my position once the entire time we were talking, and when it was time to leave I stood up to shake the interviewer’s hand and fell over.”
“Get out,” she said.
“Totally serious. So embarrassing.”
“What did you do?” She wiggled her foot, wincing.
“It was such tension relief, I started laughing uncontrollably. I think they thought I’d had some sort of nervous breakdown.”
“Oh my God,” Marienne said. “I can picture that.”
“The funnier part was that two days later they called and told me I’d gotten the job.”
“What was the job anyway?”
“Waiter.”
“Well, no need for good balance with that profession.”
“You’re laughing,” he said. “But I lasted exactly one day. My first night I accidentally spilled a glass of champagne down a woman’s back. I was fired on the spot.”
Marienne laughed even harder.
She looks awfully pretty in the moonlight.
“I think I’m ready.” Marienne took a tentative step.
“You sure?” He was ready to catch her, wanting an excuse to reach out and touch her again.
“I’m good.” She took another step. “Come on.” She headed toward the road, turning back to look at him. “Let’s try to get home without either of us falling.”
He laughed and followed her onto the darkened street, thinking it might be too late for that.
Chapter 5
Daniel listened to the silence of his house. Although it was late, he still wasn’t tired. He couldn’t stop thinking about Marienne.
I can’t believe I told her all that.
He reached into the fridge and pulled out a beer. It was warm in the kitchen so he took a seat on the deck. Drinking beer outside always reminded him of high school, the good and the bad.
His mother had died the autumn he turned sixteen, and he’d been sent to the US to live with Anne and her husband. It had been a monumental adjustment, but he had managed to settle in well. He made friends, earned good grades, was captain of the soccer team. It had surprised him how much impact the one-year anniversary of her death had.
He’d awoken early that morning, and remembered while still in the groggy half-awake state. It was as if he was reliving the day she died all over again. He couldn’t breathe, his stomach churned, his hands went icy cold... the memories overwhelmed him.
He’d complained of a headache, and Anne had let him stay home from school. He suspected she’d figured out the reason behind his ills, but she said nothing. No one said anything. He had no one to discuss it with, and he wasn’t sure he wanted to talk about it anyway. He wanted his mother back. He wanted to not feel so sad and alone. He wanted to feel normal again. But all he felt was empty.
The following day he returned to school, as though nothing had changed, but the sadness lingered in the form of restlessness. It was the beginning of senior year and stress levels were high from college applications and SAT exams. To blow off steam, the weekend routine began to include a drive down to the Jersey shore, to the beaches below Manasquan, where one of Daniel’s teammate’s parents owned a summer house.
The beach was deserted in the early fall, so they would go there on Saturday nights, build a big fire alongside the ocean, and drink beer.
Daniel loved those nights. He loved the sounds and smells as the surf rolled in and out and the fire roared. It matched his mood, the unpredictability of the waves, and the fierceness of the fire.
One weekend, Scott’s older brother had been unable to provide beer, so instead a few people had gathered what they could from their parents’ liquor cabinets. The choices wound up being peach schnapps or rum and Coke. Daniel tried one sip and found the sweet and sticky schnapps disgusting, so he’d picked up a Coke instead.
“Here.” His friend Paul grabbed the can, spilled half its contents onto the sand, and refilled it with rum. “Try this.”
It burned his throat, but was better than the schnapps. He ignored the sting and continued drinking. The fire was blazing, the flames dancing up toward the sky, while the rhythmic waves crashed on the beach behind him. He was lulled into relaxation by the sight and sound, and the rum he was steadily consuming.
A girl sat down next to him, her butt thumping hard against the sand. He recognized her from school. Her name was Alana. She was on student council, very popular, always smiling. Her short blonde hair was a perfect bob that framed her small face. She looked like a very pretty pixie.
“There’s no Coke left.” She giggled. “But there’s still rum.”
She waved an open bottle in the air, sloshing a tiny bit that ran down her wrist.
“Oops,” she said, licking it off then wiping the rest against her pink hooded sweatshirt. “Here.” She took Daniel’s Coke and poured rum both in and on it. She handed it to him, then clinked the bottle against it and said, “Cheers.” She took a swig.
“Cheers,” Daniel said. The rum and coke had burned, but that was nothing compared to the sensation of the straight rum. He swallowed hard, almost choking, and shuddered. Alana giggled.
“I know. It’s gross.” She wrinkled her dainty nose. “But a few more swallows and you won’t care anymore.”
She took another swig. Daniel followed her lead and took a second mouthful. It wasn’t as bad as the first gulp.
“You’re right.” He smiled. Her words had appealed to him on a different level. What he wanted more than anything was to not care anymore—for the hurting to stop. He drank again and felt less, of everything. By the time the can was empty, he wasn’t feeling much of anything at all.
“Let’s go for a walk,” Alana said, her hair brushing against his cheek.
He turned toward her. Everything seemed to move in slow motion, his head spun as the flames flashed beside him. Her face was right in front of his, so close he could smell her. Her breath was a mixture of rum and cinnamon gum, sweet and appealing. On impulse, he leaned forward and kissed her.
He’d never really kissed a girl before. Only once, at a party, and the girl had never spoken to him again. That was back in England, before his mother took ill. Since he’d moved to the States he’d felt too depressed, too shy, too out of sync to even gather up the courage to ask a girl out, let alone make a move on one. But here was Alana, her face next to his, her body leaning toward him, her eyes staring drunkenly into his, his nerves dampened by the rum.
Her tongue darted into his mouth and licked alongside his. She pulled away then and took his hand. “Come on,” she said, dragging him up. “Let’s go for a walk.”
They stumbled across the sand, weaving their way past the beach bags and coolers, along the tall grass, behind the du
nes. Alana led the way. He followed, his clouded brain only partly comprehended where they were headed, and why.
As soon as they were behind the dunes, she stopped and turned toward him, her eyes gleaming in the bright moonlight. He kissed her again and she lifted herself onto her toes, rubbing against him. It felt amazing. His head was spinning from the booze, from the kiss, from the insane throbbing sensation that emanated from his jeans.
They fell back against the sand and Alana reached toward Daniel’s pants. She unzipped him while they continued to kiss. His erection popped up into the circle of her thumb and fingers and she ran her hand down the length of him. Her skin was warm and silky smooth. He almost came from the single stroke, but then she let go. His dizzy, drunken mind struggled to keep pace with what was happening.
He watched as she removed her sweatshirt and spread it on the sand. She scooted on top of it as she reached for Daniel’s hand.
“Here,” she said, pressing something into his palm.
It took a moment for him to process that it was a condom.
“Oh.” He shook his head to clear it. “Okay.”
He tried to rip open the package, but the rum had made his fingers clumsy and uncooperative and he dropped it. Alana giggled, picking up the still unopened packet.
“You’re drunk,” she said, ripping the plastic open with her teeth. “I’ll do it.” In a move she’d clearly performed before, she rolled it straight down over his cock. The one swift stroke was almost enough to send him over the edge, but the condom muted the sensation enough that he was able to hold back.
Oh my God. We’re going to have sex. Still not believing that was possibly true, he kissed her again, and she responded by pulling him down on top of her, her hand still on his cock, her other hand pushing aside her bathing suit bottoms.
He tried to steady himself against the sand.
“Okay.” She put the tip of him into her body and nodded, an expectant look in her eyes. He pushed, once, twice, and then he was inside her.
It took his breath away; the warmth, the snugness, different from what he’d imagined. He kissed her, holding himself fairly still so as not to crush her, but she clamped her hands against his back, urging him to move with her. He pumped in and out, her body moving out of sync with his, the sensations rapidly peaking inside him. So much to take in—her hands, her mouth, her bare legs, her body pulling at him from the inside. After a few moments he could no longer wait. The orgasm rumbled out of him. He slammed into her, groaning louder than he intended. She giggled again, as he lay panting on top of her, still trying to keep his full weight off her as the sand shifted beneath them.
“You’re cute,” she said, kissing him, clearly still tipsy. “You’re not as good as you looked like you’d be, but you’re still cute.”
She snapped her bathing suit back into position then stood up, reaching down to shake out the sweatshirt she’d laid out beneath them. Daniel sat up, awkwardly removing the condom and struggling back into his jeans, still not totally believing what had just happened. “Not as good as you looked.” The thought echoed in his head. How depressing.
He must have looked concerned, because she smiled. “Don’t worry, I’ll tell everyone you were awesome.” She kissed him. “Besides, no high school boys are good, you’ll get better at college.” With that she giggled, gave him another kiss, and waved as she disappeared in the direction of the campfire.
Once again Daniel was alone.
Did that really just happen? His hands raked through his hair. Exhausted, he considered lying down and going to sleep. Then he remembered he was still at the beach. The alcohol was beginning to wear off and reality was settling over him. I’ve had sex. Good, I guess.
I’m not as good as I looked like I’d be… whatever that means. He cringed. Probably not good.
I’m still completely and utterly alone. Bad. That much he’d known for sure.
Daniel couldn’t believe that one conversation with Marienne had stirred up so many vivid memories for him. He hadn’t thought about that time of his life in such great detail in years. He took one last look at the moon before heading into the house, finally ready for sleep.
Chapter 6
“What time did you get in last night?” Marienne asked Frank as she rinsed strawberries. He was already asleep when she’d gotten home the night before.
“Around midnight. I was so beat I don’t even remember getting into bed. What about you?” He flipped through his day runner as he ate his cereal.
“I don’t know. Pretty late,” she said.
“You get a lot done at the theater?”
“We did. Daniel walked me home.”
“Are you kidding me?” Frank sounded incredulous, and for a second Marienne thought he was annoyed. “Shit, that figures. I thought maybe he’d have the sense to drive. Must be you ex-New Yorkers, you all have a need to walk every fucking where.” He shook his head and scribbled something in the margin.
“It’s only a few blocks,” she said.
Frank made a face. “No matter how many blocks it is, you’d have gotten home that much faster in a car. Whatever. That’s up to you two. You want to walk, walk. Personally, I’d drive.”
Marienne already knew that. Frank liked to do things his way and on his own schedule. It was what he hated about commuting. At least on the train he could get some work done. He’d been thrilled to meet Daniel, because when Daniel drove them in, Frank could avoid the train and still accomplish something on the ride.
“I bet it drives Justine crazy,” Frank said.
“What does?” Marienne cut the leafy tops off the berries.
“Daniel. Always wanting to walk everywhere and preferring to take the train. Justine’s into efficiency. I bet it makes her nuts that he’s so laid back.”
Marienne agreed that Daniel could be laid back, but not in a bad way. “I guess they have different priorities.”
“That’s one way of putting it. Justine wants to rule the world. Daniel won’t even get to rule his own household. But hey, when a woman looks like Justine, does it matter? I don’t care what laws she lays down, any way you slice it the guy’s a lucky bastard. I bet she fucks his brains out every night.”
Marienne gaped at Frank. Why does he have to be so crude? She answered her own question. All men are like that. A tiny voice in her head whispered, except Daniel. She ignored the voice, assuming that once she got to know Daniel better, she’d find out just as much jerky stuff about him. That’s how things had always worked out in the past.
Besides, the one thing Frank was right about was that Daniel was married to Justine, a gorgeous woman who probably did fuck his brains out every night. That thought made Marienne feel better, safe and confident that a friendship with him could really work. There’d be no threat of it going too far or becoming inappropriate, because he had Justine to go home to every night. She felt a hint of disappointment with the realization, but ignored it.
After all, I have Frank.
Frank got up and kissed her goodbye, leaving his breakfast dishes. Marienne ate her strawberries and glanced out her kitchen window, at Justine and Daniel’s house. She wondered what their breakfast talk had been like. She wished it was Monday, so she could go back to the theater. And she definitely didn’t plan on driving there.
“You got home awfully late,” Justine said to Daniel as she packed her briefcase. She sipped her orange juice.
“Yeah.” Daniel wondered if she was annoyed. He waited, but she didn’t say anything further. “I walked home with Marienne and we stopped at the park. It was such a clear night. We wanted to look at the stars. I really missed that when we lived in the city. You could never see the stars.”
Justine grimaced, barely looking up from her papers. “It figures Marienne would share your fascination with stargazing. I swear I don’t know what Frank sees in her.”
“What do you mean?” It was more than apparent that Justine was not the slightest bit jealous. That was an issue in itself, bu
t the fact that she was questioning why Frank would like Marienne threw him. How could anyone not like Marienne?
“Well, look at them,” Justine said, as if that should clarify things.
Daniel gestured for her to continue, not having the slightest idea where she was going.
Justine sighed. “Frank is a go-getter. He’s tough and aggressive, and he’s got that edge to him, that hunger. Marienne is shy and artsy. Look at the way she dresses. I’d expect a guy like Frank to have a flashy trophy wife, or no wife, for that matter. Honestly, he seems like a player. And I’d think Marienne would have gone for an artist or brooding musician. Whatever. Obviously they illustrate the whole ‘opposites attract’ thing.”
Daniel understood what Justine was saying, and she had a point. Frank and Marienne were quite different, in all the ways she listed. He still couldn’t see how any of it made Marienne unappealing in any way, to anyone. She was sweet and funny, and he loved the quirky way she dressed. Her lack of pretense was refreshing.
“I gotta go,” Justine said. “You home for dinner tonight, or you doing the theater thing again?”
“Home. The next theater day is Monday.” The five days suddenly seemed much longer.
Chapter 7
“Is there anywhere decent to shop around here?” Justine asked Marienne as she carried the platter of fruit into the family room. “Someplace that doesn’t involve the hundreds of malls?”
They had finished dinner, and Marienne was setting up so they could enjoy chocolate fondue while they watched a movie on the new big-screen TV. Daniel and Frank had spent the entire afternoon putting the sound system together, mounting speakers on the walls, hooking up cables. It was Frank’s dream entertainment center. They were bringing the last of the empty packaging into the garage while Justine and Marienne laid out the dessert.
“Depends what kind of shopping you mean. What are you looking for?” Marienne reached under the fondue pot and adjusted the Sterno lid.
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