“But Poussey is about to win and Devon put so much money down on him,” Isadora protested.
“You cannot be here with him,” hissed Anabelle, grabbing her sister's wrist. Isadora yanked it away and clung instead to Devon, looking up at her older sister angrily.
“Lady Givens!” cried Haversham in an effort to use that well-renowned charm on Anabelle. “I assure you, I will deliver Isadora home straight after the races; you see, it's her first time betting on a yearling—”
“You let my sister bet on a horse, Lord Haversham?” Anabelle's fury was palpable. The young man paled visibly and drew back, murmuring something unintelligible. She grabbed her sister's hand, brought her up sharply, and led her to the side of the box for as private conversation as she could manage in the given circumstances.
“What is it you WANT, Anabelle?” hissed her little sister, dreamy eyes snapping with a fire that was familiar now that Anabelle had peeled her away from her misbegotten paramour.
“I want you to tell me exactly what you are hoping is going to happen with Lord Haversham, Isadora,” she replied in measured tones.
Defensiveness rose up in Isadora's eyes that made Anabelle want to swallow her words. If only her sister had not chosen somebody destined to go exactly the same route as their father, perhaps she would not be so protective. But the girl was starry-eyed and as horse-mad as the man who had birthed her, and she had never had their mother to tell her what a mistake she was making. She had, in fact, had nobody except for Anabelle, and clearly, Anabelle was not doing a good job if this was Isadora's choice.
“I love him,” declared Isadora fiercely, and Anabelle's heart sank as her worst fears for her little sister were realized.
“But Isadora,” she cried, wanting to shake her so badly that she could hardly contain herself, “You realize that even if he returns the affection, his mother controls the purse strings in the family.”
At the angry flush on her sister's face, Anabelle realized that this was not news to Isadora, and that everything was far worse than she had first imagined. “Devon loves me. And his mother will love me as well, when she gets to know me.”
“Do you really think she will accept you once she learns that the girl her son has decided to bring home is a penniless orphan?”
“I am more than just that!” cried Isadora, her anger reaching frightening proportions. Anabelle knew then that she had gone too far, even if she had only spoken the truth.
She swallowed hard. “Of course you are, dear. I am just trying to protect you—”
Isadora cut her off; her face had gone from tomato angry to pale and determined in the matter of moments, and her next words cut Anabelle to the quick. “Devon loves me, and all will be well, Anabelle. He is not Lord DeVere, after all, and I am most certainly not you.”
The blood roared loudly in Anabelle's ears. “Is that what you think of me, Isadora?” she asked her sister, unable to raise her voice above a whisper, so tightly clutched was her throat. “That I am the type of woman that men leave?”
It was an adult question, one so mired with the pain of their father's death, and so grown up that it hit Isadora full-force and she took a step back. Just then, youthful willfulness took over and a quick retort rose on her lips. “I think that you were jilted and that you are jealous. Jealous that I had Papa, that I was always the favorite. Jealous that I have Devon and you have no one.”
The words were like a cold, resounding slap to the face. Without a single word, Anabelle turned on her heel and left.
It was only as the rain intensified on her mad gallop back home that Anabelle managed to reach a point of numbness. Her sister's words no longer stung, partially because they were true and partially because Lord Givens was no longer present to confirm or deny them. Everything had fallen into such disrepair, that it was only when her horse slipped on the wet ground that Anabelle considered the fact that the animals had not been properly reshod since her father's death.
It was quite the ungainly toss straight into the mud pile for Anabelle after that. As she sat in the mud, sticky, filthy, and with the rain getting heavier around her, she thought about how it was the perfect ending to a perfect day, and the full force of all the events that had just happened to her hit her so squarely in the emotions that she did the only thing she could do. She began to sob into the rain.
Which was precisely how Henry Princely found her minutes later, when impossibly, his carriage pulled up behind her.
Caught between humiliation and the practicality that surely, she would catch cold if she continued indulging in self-pity out there in the rain, Anabelle had no time to discern whether or not she was actually happy to see him. All she knew was that she felt a sagging self of relief when his handsome blond head poked out from the carriage door, his inquisitive face the answer to all her silent prayers.
“Need a ride?” he queried, stepping from the carriage to offer her a hand. As he plucked her from the mud, she noticed how large and square his hand was, how dependable, amazed that she could notice anything after the argument she had just had; perhaps her brain was doing its very best to distract itself. But no matter; the inside of Henry Princely's carriage was dark, warm, and dry, and she settled herself into it with all the appreciation a hungry man has at a sumptuous feast.
Gallantly, Henry doffed his coat and wrapped it around her wet legs to keep her warm. That was all. Not a word about her appearance—Anabelle figured she must look like she was attacked by wolves—in fact, nothing but a delightfully companionable silence on the short remaining ride to her home. It came into view, large, looming, shabby as a pauper at a wedding, and suddenly Anabelle felt the return of stinging to her pride as she remembered that of all the people she knew, Henry Princely would be precisely the one to remember what the house used to look like. Catching the embarrassed expression on her face and sensing that if someone else did not take charge of the situation right there and then, she would explode, Henry gave the order for the coachman to take her horse to the stable and for the servant to draw a bath.
After a full, surprisingly indulgent, half hour in the bath, Anabelle emerged a changed woman. Shocked at allowing her sense of decorum to fall so low that she had allowed Henry to see her home in such a state of disrepair, but also grateful that he had taken control, Anabelle entered the drawing room, fully expecting to find a polite note waiting for her there.
Instead, the room was empty of the man with the blond lion's mane. Her servant was pouring tea, and upon questioning, revealed that Henry was still down at the stables. Oh not another one, thought Anabelle, and headed down to the stables to see if she had another horse-mad lord on her hands.
The stable was blessedly warm and dry compared to the outside. She was a little bit spattered by the drops by the time she made her way on in there, but nothing compared to her earlier, mud-encrusted self. Hoping to catch him unawares, Anabelle moved as silently as she could; it was not long before she spied Henry's head over by Marjorie's stall. He was patting the horse gently on the neck and murmuring something in her ear; the animal was clearly enjoying herself a great deal, if the way she was cocking her head at him and blinking her ridiculously long eyelashes at him was any indication.
“You like horses, Lord Princely?” she queried, hoping he would start at her sudden intrusion. She had, after all, no more patience for anything equestrian after such a day.
“As much as the next person, Lady Givens,” he replied smoothly, not even looking up from the horse.
Damn the man!
Henry Princely, in his stead, was doing his best to train his eyes off of Anabelle's slightly mussed form. She looked positively radiant with the faint glow of the outside behind her, and her lavender gown clung to her form most invitingly; with her red hair tumbling over her shoulders, for Anabelle had not had time to do anything with it, she looked ripe for ravishing.
If Henry had been that kind of man, of course.
Instead, he pretended that all of his interest lay
in the horse before him, who, if he was not mistaken, was damn near flirting with him.
“It appears that you've had quite the day, Anabelle,” he said softly, without looking up at her.
“Tried to save my sister from an unchaperoned outing with Lord Haversham,” Anabelle replied, before she could stop herself. And just like that, she was mortified.
Noticing the color that rose to her cheeks at the unexpectedly frank admission, Henry felt a rush of protectiveness. He too knew what it was like to have to save family from themselves and he was quiet for a long moment, searching for some way to make her know that.
“Lord Haversham and your father seem to share a love of horses,” he finally said, unable to think of anything witty or clever.
“Oh, they do. And considering how our father ended up—” Here, Anabelle clipped off the end of her own sentence and stood there, hanging her head. She heard, rather than saw, Henry coming towards her in the soft straw.
“You would think people learn from past mistakes, but they don't,” he said gently, leading her over to a well-piled bale of hay. Behind them, Marjorie nosed around her stall, her hoofs making soft thuds on the ground. “When my father went, my mother would hole up nightly in his study with a fresh decanter of brandy. I took to emptying all of them around the house, and told her she would end up little better than my father if she kept it up. She promised me she would not, and a fortnight later, I found her on the bed, senseless from drink.”
Anabelle drew in a breath. Who shared this kind of information? And yet, strangely, it seemed quite all right; her heart, in fact, was swelling with empathy for a most familiar situation. Sitting beside her, he seemed at once magnificent and also small. His title notwithstanding, he had been through quite a bit himself; that nobility he bore so well had come at a very high price.
“I used to do the same thing with my father, but to no avail. I had so many thoughts about why he got on that horse after the jockey did not, and I still think that if he was sober, he would not have done it,” she said finally, figuring he knew most of the sordid details from the gossipmongers anyway. He did not know, of course, the final detail, the most devastating one of all, about her father's final words, but she could not bring herself to share that with him or anyone. It was her burden alone to bear.
“It is devastating to see the people you love so much destroy themselves with such alacrity and ignorance,” said Henry, and Anabelle felt her heart pound painfully in her chest. She could not have phrased it better herself.
“This is the stable where we used to play together. Do you remember it?” she asked him, needing to break the spell, for it was too heavy to handle.
He turned his fantastically light eyes on hers and she felt rooted to the spot. “This is the stable where I had my first kiss for the very first time,” he replied. Her cheeks burned as she realized he was talking about her, and quite suddenly, the years fell away between them. “Do you recall, Anabelle? I told you that you would be my wife and you swore that you would be independent and have no one but yourself.”
She laughed aloud, but mixed in with the delight of the memory was a sharp pang of pain. What had she known back then, she, a mere slip of a foolish girl? How could she have known what the long years were going to bring her, the heavy burden of responsibility compounded with complete isolation?
But Henry was not finished yet. “Do you still feel that way, Anabelle?” he asked her, and the look in his eyes was too much to bear. She shook her head no, feeling her breath catch sharply in her chest as she realized that in that moment, he was as naked as she was, that there was a sincerity to his question that was completely disarming. She had the power to hurt him. She did not want to hurt him. She would never.
“Then will you marry me, Anabelle Givens? Will you be my wife?”
And just like that, with the most random of fate's toss of dice, Anabelle's life clicked into place. With her heart hammering so loud she was sure that Henry could hear it, Anabelle reached out towards his face and kissed him. Who gave a damn about propriety? Here was someone who knew her.
Henry had lost the ability to distinguish between his attraction towards Anabelle as a woman and his intense vulnerability before her as a person. All of these, combined with the image of her as a child pinned beneath him in the hay, rolled over him until the moment crackled with electricity. Her mouth on him, the mouth he knew had never touched another’s, made him feel home. How long had it been since he felt like that? He did not know. He gathered her in his arms, her form slight against him, her back firm against his hands and her breasts lush against his chest. He leaned her over the bale of hay, nestled her in, and broke away. Could this be her, could this be his Anabelle? Henry had not retained any romantic notions about returning home to any first loves until that very moment, until Anabelle's wide brown eyes looked up at him, trusting as a kitten with a brand new owner. He would not hurt her. Ever.
“I mean it, Anabelle,” he said hoarsely, certain parts of his anatomy meaning it perhaps a bit more against her.
“I mean it, too, Henry. I will not belong to anyone but myself, but I want to share a life with you.”
“Good,” he replied, clasping her wrists in his hand and raising them above her head so that the lush curve of her breasts pressed against the neckline of her gown. “Because I do not want someone who needs saving. I do not need saving. I want a partner, and you have been the right one since the moment I kissed you ten years ago.”
She made a small noise in her throat, heart full, and he lowered his mouth back on to hers. It was so gorgeously wonderful that she wanted to remain there forever. He tasted like water, and whenever he lifted his head from hers, he was unable to tear his eyes away from her lips, making them feel plump and lovely, capable of diverting his attention for all time. She loved the feeling of having her hands bound above her, entirely at his mercy. How intoxicatingly and unexpectedly lovely not to have to be in charge of the kisses after having to make so many decisions at home. Lovelier still because Anabelle knew that she was not being truly bound by Henry; he was not being rough with her in a way that she did not invite, and at a moment's notice, she knew that her hands could be released. She was free.
How surprising still that she did not shy away from him. It was as if she knew his body her entire life. As he pressed down upon her, scattering kisses above the neckline of her dress, she groaned, a completely un-ladylike sound that she did not care at all if he heard. She wanted him to hear it. He was her partner, after all, not somebody she had to mend, sew, protect, or hide anything from. So there he had it, the real Anabelle Givens, and he could damn well take it or leave it.
At the fierce look in her eyes, Henry knew he was in trouble. She was challenging him, daring him to take her pleasure away. He felt a shock of sadness that she would react this way; how many of life's small joys had she been robbed of? He knew only of a few, and he vowed that she would not know unnecessary loss every again.
“I want to give you something, Anabelle,” he told her, and hiked her skirts up past her knees.
She squealed, attempting to push them back down, but stilled as Henry lifted one of her legs over his shoulder. What a strange sight, to see one's own limbs displayed in such a manner. But these thoughts, too, were quelled as Henry slowly fingered his way up her leg, squeezing her calves and thighs in such a manner that every coiled-up muscle in her body relaxed in his hands. Then, to her surprise and confusion, he kissed her thigh. The sensation was not unpleasant, nor was the gentle way he handled the sensitive skin of her inner thigh. Pulling aside her underclothes, he revealed her to his sight and Anabelle Givens was new reborn.
Anabelle hardly knew what happened after Henry Princely bent his head and kissed her firmly in the one spot that she thought would never see the light of day. As Henry's tongue sought out a particular spot in that area, Anabelle shivered, feeling the wet organ lick her; as he passed over a particularly sensitive place, she let out a little moan. Picking up on the
cue, he licked it again, and at her responsive hip buck to it, knew he was in the correct place. Drawing his tongue in circles around it elicited a tightening of Anabelle's thighs around his head, and so he repeated the motion again and again, causing a hot feeling to slide from the pit of her belly all the way down to her toes.
Oh, but it was delicious! She could hardly think, did not want to think; all she wanted was the feeling of Henry thrashing his tongue in that one focused spot, but simultaneously, she wanted him all over her. As she grasped his head with her hands, forcing him in between her thighs, she was surprised to discover that he not only did not struggle against her hands, but seemed to feed off of her groans in the air and intensify his efforts. It was wonderful; she felt as if she was building on the brink of something monumental, but it was just there, just slightly out of reach. In the haze of need that awakened and sharpened in her she realized that Henry had managed to free one of her breasts from the confines of her dress and was now kneading it in synchronicity with the motions of his mouth on her flesh. As he rolled the breast in his fingers, he alternated the pressure between light and firm, so that Anabelle hardly knew what to pay attention to—the tingling that was radiating from her nipple or the wetness between her thighs.
“Henry,” she breathed, and he brought his mouth to close over hers as he drove his fingers directly into her wet slit, bringing her to a most monumental finish.
It was endless, waves of pleasure rolling over her entire body until she convulsed over his fingers, holding nothing back. And he, who drank in her cries of delight straight from the source, looked over her face as it contorted into an open-mouth, slack-jawed expression, felt an absurdly proud feeling come over himself, mixed in with an unexpected sense of possession. Anabelle Givens was his. To have, to hold, to pleasure. And one day soon, to make love to. He could not wait.
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