by Glen Cook
To bargain? I thought. Then its hold on us could not be as strong as it would like.
I smiled. And stood on the forecastle looking forward to the coasts of Freyland. It had been a long time since we had sailed them.
The black birds circled overhead. After a time, one by one, they settled into our tops. They seemed less outraged than they had been.
VIII
Spring had only recently conquered the western shores of Freyland. The cove where we anchored was surrounded by low, forested hills blushing green. The afternoons were warm and lazy.
There was nothing to do. For the first time since I had come aboard, Dragon was in perfect repair. Half the ship's work being done was stuff Toke and Lank Tor conjured up because they did not have anything to do either. For several days we just plain loafed.
But in the background lurked the nagging questions, the aching doubts. What would Colgrave decide? Would it be the right thing?
"Right thing?" Mica demanded. Pure amazement animated his features. "What the hell kind of question is that, Bowman?"
He and I and Priest had rigged us a couch of folded sail and were lying back staring at cloud castles while dangling fishing lines over the side. Fishing was something I had not done since boyhood.
I could not remember that far back. I just knew that I had liked to fish.
"It's a valid question," Priest insisted. "We have come to the crossroads of righteousness, Sailmaker. We stand at the forking of the way...."
"Oh, knock it off, Priest," I grumbled. "Don't you ever give up?"
"I think I got a bite," he replied.
"Take it easy, Bowman," Mica said. "He's getting better."
That he was, I had to admit. I used to loathe Priest because he insisted on being our conscience while remaining one of the worst sinners himself.
Priest dragged a small fish over the side. "I'll be damned."
"Doubtless. We're all damned. We have been for ages."
"That's debatable. I meant the fish."
It was a little speckled sand shark about sixteen inches long. Not exactly what we were after. I started to smash its head with my heel.
"Why don't you just throw it back?" Mica asked. "It ain't hurting nothing."
Trouble was, the shark did not want to go. Not with our help. Its little jaws kept going chompity-chomp. Its skin sandpapered the hide off my fingers when I tried to hold it so Priest could get his hook back.
It died before we could save it.
"You was talking about doing the right thing," Mica told me. "What made you say that? I never heard the Bowman talk that way before."
I gave him a look.
Priest took his side "He's right. Colgrave's the only man here meaner than the Bowman."
I did not agree. At least, I had never thought of it that way. I rated Priest and Old Barley meaner than me any day.
The Kid came up and joined us. He had been keeping a low profile lately. He seemed to be completely tied up inside himself. Ordinarily, he was our number-one showoff, our number-one mouth man.
I was at the end of the sail couch. He sat down beside me. Amazing.
I kind of liked the Kid. Really. He reminded me of myself when I was younger. But he had no use for me. I never understood, unless it was true that I looked like somebody he had hated before coming aboard.
"Hey, Bowman. What do you think?" he asked.
"Hunh? About what, Kid?" Why was he asking me? Anything.
"About this. About us coming back." He sat up, started making himself a fishing line of his own. He fumbled around. It was obvious that he had never fished in his life. I helped him get it right.
And I asked him why he was asking me.
"Because you're the smart guy now that Student's gone. Toke. Lank Tor. They're just zombies. And the Old Man wouldn't give me the time of day if I begged."
"Kid. Kid, I...." I let it drift off unsaid.
"What?"
I forced it. "I never much cared about anybody. But it hurts me to see you here, so young."
He looked at me strangely, then smiled. That smile was worth a ton of gold. "I earned it, Bowman."
"Didn't we all?" Mica mused.
"That we did," Priest declared. "The sins on our souls...." He shut himself off, said instead, "The question is, are we going to go right on deserving it?"
Mica got a bite. He hauled in another goddamned shark. This one was more cooperative. Or we had gotten better at handling them.
"Kid, I don't know what to think. That's the gospel. I'm lost. I go half crazy worrying about it sometimes."
A body plopped down the other side of Kid. I glanced over. It was the Trolledyngjan, the final addition to our mad crew. We had picked him up off an Itaskian warship we had taken in our next-to-last battle. He had been confined to her brig.
He had a name, Torfin something, but nobody ever used it. He was one long drink of silence. I don't think he had spoken twenty words the whole time he had been aboard. He did not say anything now. He just looked at me and Mica.
We had tried to kill him once. Before he had become part of our crew. Back when we were raiders. We had attacked his ship. He had tried boarding us. Me and Mica had dumped him into the drink.
And then he had turned up aboard the Itaskian, and Colgrave had decided he ought to replace Student or Whaleboats.
A treaty of forgiveness passed between us without words being spoken.
Trolledyngjan said, "There be tales told in the Fatherland of the Oskoreien. The Wild Hunt. They be souls of the damned who ride Hell's stallions through the high range hunting the living."
The Kid passed him a hook and some line. He started fiddling with it. "What're you driving at?" I asked. "We be the Oskoreien of the sea." He baited his hook and flipped it over the side. We waited. Finally, he continued, "They tell of the Wild Hunt that they be hating none so much as they be hating one another."
We waited some more, but that was all he had to say.
It was enough. It made me think. He had stated a truth and had posed a question in a characteristically oblique Trolledyngjan manner.
Hatred had always been the one shared, unifying emotion aboard Dragon. And we hated each other more than any outsiders.
Only, we were getting along now. More or less.
The others saw it too. Even the Kid. "What's it mean. Bowman?" the boy asked.
"I don't know."
The changes were progressing. I no longer knew myself. If ever I had.
Fat Poppo laboriously clambered to the forecastle deck. His appearance was another declaration of how the crew regarded me.
"Welcome to the philosophy klatch, Poppo," I said. "What brings you dragging your ass all the way up off the maindeck?" He seldom moved if he did not have to, so fat and lazy was he.
He dropped to his knees behind me, whispered, "In the trees across the cove. Under the big dead one you guys been calling the hanging tree."
I looked. And I saw what he meant.
There were four of them, and they wore livery. Soldiers.
The honeymoon was over. "Mica, slide down and dig up the Old Man. Tell him to take a gander at what we've got under the hanging tree. Try to keep it casual."
Colgrave had been holed up in his cabin since we had dropped anchor. He was studying the wizard's things. He would not appreciate being disturbed.
But this was important. Maybe I made a mistake. The rest of us might not have been recognized. We were well-known, but there was nothing really unique about our appearances. Not the way Colgrave's was unique.
I reached for my bow and quietly strung it behind the mask of the railing.
IX
Jolgrave strode from his cabin dressed for a day at court. Mica dogged along behind him as he climbed to the poop. He turned his one grim eye on our watchers.
"The dead captain!"
It carried clearly over the water* Brush crackled. I leapt to my feet and pulled an arrow to my ear.
"It's them! That's the Archer!"
"Bowman. Let them run."
I relaxed. Colgrave was right. Wasting arrows had no point. I could not get them all. Not through the trees.
Still, a gesture seemed necessary....
One turned, stared back through a small opening in the foliage. He bore a spade-shaped shield. A griffin rampant was its device. I let fly with a waste arrow, a practice arrow. It pierced the griffin's eye.
I still had it. After however long it had been, my shafts still flew true.
The soldier's jaw dropped. I bowed mockingly.
"That wasn't smart," Priest told me.
"Couldn't help myself. I had to do it."
The black birds above cursed me in their squawky tongue. I glared my defiance.
My archery was my one skill, my one way of defying the universe and its perversity. The gesture had been important to me. It was a statement that the Bowman existed, that he was well, that his aim was still deadly. It was a graffito on the walls of time, screaming I AM!
Colgrave beckoned.
I shook in my seaboots. I was going to catch hell for defying orders....
But he did not mention my shot. Instead, he gathered Toke, Lank Tor, and myself, and told us: "The decision is at hand. Within two days the whole island will know we've returned. They'll know in Portsmouth in three days, in Itaskia in four. They won't endure us anymore. Our return will scare them so much that they'll send out every ship they have. They won't trust warlocks this time. They'll destroy us absolutely, with fire, at whatever cost we demand."
He stared at the western sea, his one good eye gazing on sights the rest of us could never see. He said again, "At whatever cost we demand."
Tor giggled. Fighting was his only love, his only joy. He did not care whether he would win or lose, only that he would be able to swing a blade in another battle. He was the same old Tor. I did not think there was anything in him capable of change. He was a hollow man.
Toke said, "There's no hope, then? We have to depart this plane memorialized by mountains of dead men and seas scattered with burning ships?"
I sighed. "There's nowhere to run, Toke. Destiny's winds have blown us into the narrow channel. We can't do anything but ride with the current."
Colgrave looked at me strangely. "That's odd talk from you, Bowman."
"I feel odd, Captain."
"There's still the sorcerer who recalled us," he said. "And we aren't forgotten of the gods. Not completely." He glanced at the black birds.
The creatures strained their necks toward us.
I surveyed my longtime home. Forward, against the base of the forecastle, I could discern a tiny, almost invisible patchlet of dark fog. I had not noticed it since the day the sorcerer had boarded us. I imagined it had always been there, unnoticed because it stayed behind the corner of my vision.
"I'll give my orders in the morning," Colgrave declared. "For today, celebrate. Our final celebration. Tor. See to the arms. Toke, tell Barley to use his keys."
My guts snapped into an agonized knot. Rum...!
"We'll sail at dawn," the Old Man told us. "Be ready. I'll tell you our destination then."
He scanned us once with that wicked eye, and it seemed that there was pain and care in his gaze. He left us there, stunned, and returned to his cabin.
Emotion? In Colgrave? It was almost too much to bear.
I returned to the forecastle and plopped my ass down between the Kid and Little Mica. I leaned back and stared at the clouds, at the green hills where four terrified soldiers were racing to unleash the hounds of doom. "Damned!" I muttered. "Damned. Damned. Damned."
The Kid was first to ask. "What did he say, Bowman?"
I glared at the hills as if my gaze could drop those Freylanders in their tracks. "We sail with the morning tide.
He hasn't decided where or why."
The Trolledyngjan hooked a sand shark. We went through the routine, dumped it back.
"Think it's the same one?" Priest asked. "It don't look any different."
"Why would it keep coming back?" Mica wanted to know.
The Kid asked me, "What do you think he'll decide. Bowman?"
"To spill blood. He's still Colgrave. He's still the dead captain. He only knows one way. The only question is who he'll go after."
"Oh."
"Give me a line." I baited my hook and flipped it over the rail. "Priest, Barley's passing out grog." I needed a drink something cruel. But I was not going to give in first.
I watched the torment in his face. And he watched it in mine as he replied, "Don't think so, Bowman. Too far to walk. Besides, I'm getting a nibble."
He got the nibble, but I caught the fish. It was the same damned shark. What was the matter with that thing? Couldn't it learn?
Dragon rocked gently on quiet swells. A breeze whispered in the trees surrounding the cove. We kept catching that sand shark and throwing it back, and not saying much, while the sun dribbled down to the horizon behind
X
Toke, Lank Tor, and I clambered up to the poop. The crew gathered on the maindeck, their eyes on the Old Man's cabin door. The sun had not yet cleared the hills to the east.
"Tide's going to turn soon," Toke observed.
"Uhm," I grunted.
Lank Tor shuffled nervously. The blood-eagerness in him seemed tempered by something else this morning. Had the changes began to reach even him?
Colgrave came forth.
The crew gasped.
Tor, Toke, and I leaned over the poop rail to see why.
He wore old, battered, plain clothing. It was the sort a merchant captain down on his luck might wear. There wasn't a bit of color or polish on him.
A new Colgrave confronted us. I was not sure I liked it. It made me uneasy, as if the man's style of dress were the root of our failures and successes.
He ignored everybody till he had reached the poop and surveyed his surroundings. Then, "Make sail, First Officer. North along the coast, two points to seaward. They're watching. Let them think we're bound for North Cape."
Toke and Tor went to get anchor and sails up. I stood beside Colgrave, searching the shore for this morning's watchers.
He said, "We'll keep this heading till we're out of sight of land. Then we'll come round and run south. We'll stay in the deep water."
I shuddered. We were not deepwater sailors. Though hardly any of us had set foot on dry land in years, we did not want to let it out of sight. Few of us had been sailors before fate shanghaied us onto this devil ship.
And deep water meant heavier seas. Seas meant seasickness. My stomach was in bad enough shape, having had no rum.
"What then?" I asked.
"Portsmouth, Bowman."
"The wizard wins? Dragon runs to his beck? We do his murders for him?"
"I don't know, Bowman. He's the crux. He's the answer. Whatever happens, it'll revolve around him. He's in Portsmouth. We'll take our questions to him."
There was uncertainty in Colgrave's voice. He, the megalithic will round which my universe turned, no longer knew what he was doing. He just knew that something had to be done.
"But Portsmouth? You're sure?"
"He's there. Somewhere. Masquerading as something else. We'll find him." There was no doubt in him now. He had selected a course. Nothing would turn him aside.
I could not fathom Colgrave's thinking. He wanted to take Dragon into the very den of our enemies? Just to confront that sorcerer again? It was pure madness.
No one had ever accused Colgrave of being sane. And only the once had he come out loser.
We sailed north. We turned and ran south once Tor could no longer discern land from the maintop. A steady breeze scooted us along. By nightfall, according to Toke, we had come back south of the southernmost tip of Freyland. But Colgrave did not alter course till next morning. Several hours after dawn he ordered a change to a heading due east.
He shifted course a point this way, a point that as we sailed along. He had Toke and Tor put on or take off canvas.
A plan was shaping in his twisted mind.
Time lumbered along. The sun set, and it rose. Tension built up till we were all ready to snap. Tempers flared. Some of the old hatred returned. We were not very tolerant of one another. The sun set again. I had seen Colgrave's matchless dead reckoning before. I was not overwhelmed when he brought Dragon into the mouth of the Silverbind Estuary with the same accuracy I showed in speeding a shaft to its target.
We were all dismayed. To a man we had hoped that he would change his mind, or that something would change it for him.
We had not seen one ship during our time at sea.
They had taken our false trail for true. The fleet had cleared Portsmouth only that morning, heading north in hopes of catching us in the wild seas between Freyland and Cape Blood. The only vessels we saw now, as we eased along the nighted Itaskian coast, were fishing boats drawn up on the beaches for the night.
Watchfires burned along the Estuary's north shore. They winked at us as if secretly blessing our surreptitious passage.
Those winks conveyed messages. A steady flow were coming from the north. Fat Poppo tried reading them, but the Itaskians had changed their codes since he had been in their navy. No one noticed our little caravel creeping along through the moonless night.
The lights of Portsmouth appeared on our starboard bow. Little bells tinkled over the water ahead. Then Poppo softly announced that he had spotted the first channelmarker buoy. Its bell pinged happily in the gentle swell.
Colgrave sent Tor to the forecastle to watch the markers.
He meant to try the impossible. He meant to take Dragon up the channel by starlight.
Colgrave's confidence in his destiny was justified. Dragon was surely a favored charity of the gods that night. The breeze was absolutely perfect for creeping from one bellbuoy to the next. The current did not bother us at all. We penetrated the harbor basin two hours after midnight. Perfect timing. The city was asleep. Colgrave warped Dragon in to a wharf with a precise beauty that only a sailor could appreciate.
Fear had that ship by the guts. I was so rattled that I don't think I could have hit an elephant at ten paces. But there I was on the forecastle, ready to cover the landing party.