by Wendy Wax
Brooke laughed. “Thanks for the warning, but it looks like we’re both having another one.”
“Damn straight.” Claire raised her glass and clinked it against Brooke’s. “Let the mingling begin.”
Edward left them to their own devices, only stepping in to facilitate a conversation or to draw someone on the fringes into the group.
The decibel level was nearing a dull roar when he stepped up in front of the big-screen TV. “Ladies,” he shouted with a smile. “We’re about to get started. The bar will remain open, but there’s no intermission planned, so you might want to take care of refills now.”
Still chattering, women began to make their way to sofas and chairs. Samantha Davis entered, her face aglow, her hair artfully blown-dry, her form-fitting T-shirt tucked into skinny jeans that rode low on her slim hips. She looked so perfect—so not in need of Zachary’s services—that some of Brooke’s sense of well-being fled. Out of the corner of her eye, Brooke watched her accept the concierge’s effusive greeting and a drink from James. Instead of hot appetizers, she took a bag of popcorn from Isabella and began to scan the crowd. When she spotted Brooke and Claire, she smiled and headed their way.
“Hi,” she said, stopping in front of them. “How are ya’ll doing?”
“Good,” Brooke said.
“Better,” Claire said raising her glass in silent toast.
Samantha took a first tip of her drink. “Wow. I see what you mean.”
Claire smiled. “If I hadn’t seen James mix this, I would have sworn there was no alcohol in it.” She took another long sip. “I don’t know why I haven’t had one of these before. It’s pure genius.”
“Genius,” Samantha agreed, also taking a sip. “Where are we sitting?”
Brooke looked at her in surprise as Claire nodded toward the front of the room. “It looks like ‘our’ sofa is free,” she said, leading the way.
Without discussion they sank into the sofa. Brooke sat in the far corner and tried not to look as if she were hiding in it. Samantha settled in the center with a contented sigh. Crossing one long leg over the other, she took a delicate sip of her drink then set it on the cocktail table. Claire plopped down in the other corner, careful not to spill a drop of her drink. Brooke snuck a peek at Samantha from beneath her lashes, then flushed in embarrassment when she thought about Samantha witnessing Zachary’s put-downs and the way he’d tried to fawn all over her.
“I wasn’t sure you’d be back,” Brooke said tentatively.
“Me, neither.” A funny look passed over Samantha Davis’s face. “But I’m glad to be here. How about you?” She studied Brooke carefully. Was she searching for a warning sign of tears to come?
“Yes, I’m glad to be here,” Brooke said. “Ava and Natalie are with Zachary. He’s decided that he prefers Sunday nights to full weekends.”
Samantha considered her. “That’s good though, right? That they’re with him and you can come here?”
“Yes,” Brooke said, realizing that this was true. “It’s almost weird to have an activity of my own. I’ve kind of forgotten what that feels like.”
“I know what you mean,” Samantha said.
Certain the other woman had to be joking, Brooke studied her more closely, but saw no hint of humor in the earnest green eyes.
Claire raised her glass. “Let’s hear it for somewhere to go and something to do.” She took a long pull on her drink. Brooke and Samantha joined her.
“Now then, ladies,” Edward Parker said, clapping his hands to snag their attention. “We have plenty of seats so please go ahead and claim one. Drink and snacks are headed around.” Isabella, serving plate in hand, performed a curtsy. James bowed, holding the beer and lemonade aloft. They began to circulate.
The chatter died down as Edward spread his arms wide. “It’s a pleasure to have you all here tonight for episode two of Downton Abbey. Please let your friends and neighbors know that they’re welcome and that I can loan them the episodes missed if they want to be caught up when they arrive.” He gave them a stern look. “And no peeking ahead. No secret screenings. Remember, we’re in this together.”
There were murmurs and laughter. Beside her, Claire held her glass out for another refill, then drank eagerly. Brooke felt a kind of rosy glow surround her. Or maybe it was rising from the shandies within her? She took another sip and decided it didn’t matter where the feeling had originated as long as it continued.
She felt a tingle of anticipation as the lights went down and the room fell silent. Claire and Samantha leaned forward, their eyes fixed on the screen. The opening strains of music began. Downton Abbey appeared on the screen, solid and massive against the blue English sky. And Brooke was sucked into another world. One in which a middle-class lawyer meets the privileged world he must reluctantly join, a privileged young woman rebels against duty and expectation, and a less privileged woman dreams of something better.
* * *
WHEN THE EPISODE ENDED, THEY APPLAUDED ALL the way through the closing credits.
“Now then, ladies,” Edward Parker said as the credits came to a close. “We have trifle for ‘afters.’ Which you may have with tea or another shandy.”
Only two people opted for tea. James poured fresh drinks for the rest of them while Isabella passed out small bowls of trifle. Claire swayed slightly but remained propped upright in the corner of the sofa. Brooke had lost count of how many shandies the woman had had.
“I’m curious about your favorite characters this week,” Edward said. “Anyone?”
“I like Bates and Anna,” Callan said.
“And I wish Daisy would pay attention to poor William instead of Thomas,” her twin added.
“Maggie Smith still rocks!” Anna, the nurse from Emory, offered. “She’s so droll.”
“Any favorite lines?” Edward asked, egging them on.
“When Lady Mary says to Matthew, ‘Oh, I wouldn’t want to push in,’ after she hears him talking about how he knows the Granthams are going to try to push one of the daughters on him,” Mimi Davenport said. “Especially after we see how taken he is with her.”
“I like the dowager countess’s line—‘what is a weekend’?” Samantha said. “It’s such a telling remark.”
There were more shouted lines and laughter. They chatted animatedly amongst themselves, no one seeming in any hurry to leave even though it was close to eleven p.m. on a Sunday night.
“I wish we could have a Downton Abbey marathon,” Brooke said to Samantha. “Just sit down and watch one episode after another.”
“I don’t think I could drink that many shandies,” Claire said, her words starting to slur a bit. Brooke had the impression that the only thing keeping her upright was the corner of the sofa back.
“I don’t think the drinking part is mandatory,” Samantha said. “Besides, sometimes it’s better to spread out the good things. You know. So you have something to look forward to.”
Brooke looked at Samantha Davis in surprise. Surely the woman’s life was a string of good things, each one better than the next.
“Well, I wouldn’t suggest the marathon to Edward,” Claire said. “You might be put on a DA watch. He’s got a plan and I don’t think he wants us to devee-date.” She rolled her eyes. “I mean dee-vee-ate.” She looked inordinately pleased when she got it right.
Slowly people rose and began to say their good-byes.
“I’m walking you home,” Brooke said to Claire.
“Me, too,” Samantha said.
“Home is only six doors down the hall,” Claire said with what sounded like surprise.
“I know but the way you’re swaying, I’m afraid you’ll get on the elevator and end up somewhere else,” Brooke said.
“Like the bottom of the pool,” Samantha said.
Claire perked up. “Swimming would feel good right now.”
“I rest my case,” Brooke said.
“You’re definitely in no condition to be anywhere near a body of water.”
Samantha smiled.
Edward came up behind them. “Is everything all right, ladies?”
Yes,” Samantha said hooking her arm through Claire’s. “It’s been a great evening. And I see our numbers are growing.”
The concierge nodded, pleased. Then he turned his attention to Brooke, looking at her in the same assessing way he had earlier. “I wonder if you might be available to come talk with me sometime this week?”
Brooke’s good mood began to evaporate. She couldn’t imagine what the concierge would want to talk to her about. Was it the maintenance fees? Had there been a complaint about Darcy or the girls? “Is there something wrong?” she asked.
“No, not at all,” he said quickly. “I just think it’s too late to cover the topic I wanted to broach.”
“Oh, no,” Claire said. “Did he say there were roaches? I hate roaches. I spray the shit out of them—make them sleep with the fishes.” She said this in a fair imitation of Marlon Brando in the Godfather.
“That was ‘broach,’” Edward said drily. “And I promise you it’s nothing negative.”
“Well,” Claire said. “Thanks for . . .” Apparently unable to find the right words, she raised her arms to encompass the room. “It was fun.”
“Yes, it was really great,” Brooke agreed, but she felt his eyes on her as she followed Samantha’s lead and hooked her arm through Claire’s other elbow.
Claire swayed slightly on her feet. Because they were connected Brooke and Samantha swayed along like passengers on a wave-tossed deck.
Carefully, Brooke and Samantha walked Claire down the carpeted hallway. At Claire’s door they waited while Claire fumbled with the key. The second time it landed on the floor, Samantha bent down to pick it up. “May I?” At Claire’s nod, Samantha inserted the key smartly in the lock, then pushed open the door.
“Hey, thass good.” Claire’s voice indicated her admiration
“Now you go inside and lock the door behind you.” Brooke said this slowly and carefully as if speaking to one of her children.
Claire stood and stared into her condo as if she’d never seen it before. Brooke and Samantha looked at each other.
“Okay,” Samantha said. “I guess we’ll escort you in.”
“’Kay.” Claire stood and waited patiently, but she didn’t move.
“Turn sideways,” Brooke said. “If we’re going to stay linked together like this we’re not going to fit through the doorway head-on.”
“’S right. Too wide.” Claire nodded sagely, not moving. “No offense.”
Samantha snorted. “None taken. Hold on.” Keeping her arm linked through Claire’s, she realigned herself so that she was facing the doorjamb. Brooke did the same pulling Claire around with her. Samantha led a sideways sashay into Claire’s condo. “There.” They walked her to her bedroom alcove. “This is a great unit,” Brooke said, looking around.
“Yes, really functional. And very cute,” Samantha agreed. They lowered Claire onto the edge of her bed and pulled off her shoes. “Do you have any aspirin?”
Claire stared blankly at both of them. Then she yawned.
“Check the bathroom medicine cabinet,” Brooke suggested. She tucked Claire’s shoes halfway under the bed so Claire wouldn’t trip over them if she got up during the night. A picture of Claire and a girl in cap and gown stood on the nightstand. “Is that your daughter?”
“Hailey.” Claire nodded in confirmation. Her eyelids fluttered shut.
“Hold on.” Samantha returned with a bottle of aspirin. In the kitchen she filled a cup with water from the refrigerator door dispenser. “Take these first,” she said, opening the bottle. “You’ll thank me in the morning.” They waited while Claire slitted her eyes open and complied. “Thirsty.”
“I bet.” Brooke took the cup from her and set it on the nightstand. “Okay, we’re going to go so you can sleep. Why don’t you just come lock the door behind us and . . .”
Claire fell backward onto the bed. Her feet remained on the floor.
“No.” Brooke grabbed one limp arm and hauled her up. “We leave. You lock the door. Then you sleep.”
Brooke let go of Claire’s arm and she fell backward again. “What now?” she asked Samantha as Claire’s breathing evened out.
“I don’t know. I haven’t dealt with anything like this since college,” Samantha admitted. “I guess we tuck her in, lock the door, and slip the key under the door when we leave?”
“Good plan,” Brooke said. She’d done little partying herself in college. And once she’d dropped out to put Zachary through she’d been far too tired for drinking or much of anything that didn’t revolve around him.
Together they tucked Claire under the covers. Samantha refilled the glass of water and made sure it was within reach.
It was a short ride to the ninth floor. After saying good night to Samantha, Brooke stepped off the elevator and headed down the silent hall. All the way to her door and as she let herself in to her even more silent condo, she tried to imagine why Edward Parker had been looking at her in that X-ray sort of way of his. What he might have seen. And what in the world he could possibly want to talk to her about.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
ERNEST HEMINGWAY AND HIS PRODIGIOUS alcohol consumption notwithstanding, Claire had never found alcohol a particularly helpful part of the writing process. She couldn’t imagine how running in front of a herd of pissed-off bulls would contribute to anyone’s word count, either. But then she—and most female writers she knew—had never had a Paris, or any other kind of wife, to take care of them and keep the rest of the world at bay while they wrote.
She woke late Monday morning groggy and with a throbbing headache that seemed way out of proportion to beers laced with lemonade.
“Aarggh,” she said, though this was a word better typed than spoken. Burying her face in her pillow in an attempt to block out the sunshine, she willed herself back to sleep but it was a halfhearted effort. Finally she flipped onto her back, opened her eyes, and squinted up at the ceiling, hoping to find something there that would motivate her to get up. What she saw was a fresh coat of white paint and a circus of dust motes performing in the spill of sunlight that streamed through the windows.
“Shit.” This word was equally satisfying in printed and spoken form and she repeated it with relish. Her head lolled to the side and her eyes fell on her “desk” where her computer, and the book she was supposed to write on it, awaited. She closed her eyes and lolled the other way.
Slowly she replayed the night before in her head. Edward Parker’s warm smile. Bits and pieces of the Downton Abbey episode. Brooke and Samantha walking her back to her apartment. Squeezing sideways through the front door.
She groaned in embarrassment. Opening her eyes she contemplated the ceiling once again and tried to pull up Rory and—-oh, God, she couldn’t even envision her heroine well enough to give her a name—but her characters were twisted up with the inhabitants of Downton Abbey and the women who’d watched it with her. All of whom were far more fleshed out than her own paper-thin characters.
A tight fist of panic formed in her chest. It’s okay. You have a whole year to do this. What difference does one day make?
But that’s what she’d been telling herself for two weeks now and she had virtually nothing to show for it. Her eyes went back to the table and her laptop. In her former life, in those stolen minutes and hours, she would have already completed her character sketches and begun the first chapters. And she most definitely would have known her heroine’s name.
In the bathroom she washed her face and brushed her teeth. “You better get it together, girl,” she said to the ravage-faced woman in the mirror. “If you intend to write twenty pages a day like Nora Roberts does, you’re going to have to get started. Now. Today.” Nora hadn’t written the number of books she had or built a career that had spawned a legion of avid fans the newspapers referred to as “Noraholics” by avoiding her computer as if it carried the plague.
What would Nora do if her head throbbed and her stomach rumbled its emptiness like Claire’s was right now? Claire had no doubt Nora would sit down and produce those twenty pages anyway. And she’d make sure they were good ones.
Claire shucked off her wrinkled clothes and started the shower. A text dinged in from Hailey; just the word Well? accompanied by a smiley face. Claire flushed with embarrassment, glad her daughter wasn’t here to see her ravaged face and lack of will.
“You are going to figure this out today. No more avoiding, shirking, or panicking,” she told herself as she washed her hair, shaved her legs, and exfoliated her face. “No more excuses. No more bullshit.”
Resolute, she towel dried her hair, pulled on her sloppiest, hole-iest, most comfortable writing clothes and headed for her dining table/desk.
There was no shame in taking time to settle in and acclimate. Today was the day that she’d officially start. And if she faltered she would pick herself back up by thinking WWND—what would Nora do?
She detoured into the kitchen to make a cup of coffee and stared out the window as she drank it. Today was most definitely the day. She’d definitely get started. She would.
Just as soon as she replied to Hailey’s text. And ate some toast to settle her stomach. And right after she got all that had happened down in her journal so she didn’t forget.
* * *
BROOKE MACKENZIE’S FACE BORE THE LOOK OF A child who’d been summoned to see the headmaster as she stepped into Edward Parker’s office later that week.
“Good morning, Mrs. Mackenzie,” Edward said as he rose and came around his desk eager to put her at ease. Given the things that he knew were going on in her life, he imagined she could use every ounce of kindness and consideration she could get. “Thank you so much for coming.”
She watched him carefully, a line of worry creasing her forehead, her nice hazel eyes wary. “I’ve been wondering what you might want to talk to me about,” she said. “If it’s Darcy or the girls, I can try to . . .”