by Amanda Foody
“So she’s told you about me,” Luca says, clearly amused.
“Just for tonight,” I say. “I have bodyguards coming tomorrow and for the rest of the time in Gentoa.”
“I have a life, Sorina,” she says.
“I realize that.”
“I don’t think there’s anyone after us.”
“It’s better to be safe.”
She pouts her green-painted lips. “But the parties.”
“There’ll be parties when we get to Sapris.”
“Beach parties—”
“Oh, just give it up,” I say. Before she can whine more, I hoist her Strings into my mental Trunk and lock it. Her defeated groan lingers in the air for a moment before she is entirely gone. “She’s such a baby.”
“It’s better that she’s safe,” he says. “You’ve made the right decision, keeping them locked away while in Gentoa.”
“You think so? I feel like I’m only going to start a panic. And I’m worried about Crown, who’s been coping with Blister’s death by convincing himself it was an accident,” I say. “After all this time looking for the killer, I feel like we haven’t made any progress. I feel like I haven’t protected my family at all.”
“Sorina,” he says, and the force in his voice quiets me. “You have gone above and beyond to protect them. I promise that the two of us will find out who is responsible. I will do anything I possibly can to help you. I don’t... I don’t know your family very well, but I care about you quite a bit.”
My heart skips a beat. “I care about you ‘quite a bit,’ too,” I say, imitating the posh way he speaks.
I don’t know which one of us moved first, or if I ever made the decision to move at all. One moment, we were at least a stride apart, and then the next, my chest is pressed against his and his arms are around my waist, our lips meeting with urgency.
This isn’t anything like the last time we kissed, when I was the only one involved. Luca’s mouth opens and his hands press hard into my back. He seems to want this as much as I do.
I squeeze the Giamese tortoiseshell moth vial in my hand, unwilling to drop it, but not knowing what to do with it. After a few minutes, when Luca makes it clear from his tugging on my hand that he wants to move to the floor, I pause for a moment to return the precious insect to the chest.
“It’s an interesting bug,” Luca says.
“You’re lying,” I say, kneeling beside him. “You don’t think it’s interesting.”
“I think you’re interesting.”
I pull him closer to me by his vest. His poison vials jingle. In my head, the knocking on the Trunks of the illusions grows louder. My head aches, but I ignore it. “You’re making it difficult to concentrate,” I say, kissing him again.
“Let me know when you want to stop, then,” he says, his lips moving to my neck.
“Are we moving too fast?” I ask suddenly.
The knocking sharpens.
His fingers trace their way down my back. “Maybe. This is all rather new territory.” When I begin to pull away, he adds, “But I’m all right with exploring for a few more minutes.”
He reaches up and unties the back of my mask and slips it off. While I frequently remove my mask around my family, this feels more intimate than if he lifted off my shirt. He presses our foreheads together, and we’re both warm and sweating in the September heat.
I slip his vest off his shoulders and inch myself closer to him. There seems to be no space left between us.
My head pounds harder, and I wince.
“Are you all right?” he asks.
“It’s difficult to concentrate while we’re doing this,” I say.
“Do you want to stop?”
“No, but we probably should.” I collapse next to him and adjust myself so that my head rests against his chest. I can hear the rapid thump thump thump of his heart.
“You’re not going to fall asleep, are you? Lying like that?” he asks.
As much as I’d like to continue lying against his chest, he’s right. It’s entirely too comfortable, and I’d drift off in minutes. The Trunks would fly open. I sit up and push my hair out of my face. “You’re right.”
“There are about ten hours until the Freak Show,” he says. “Another six before people are up and moving about. So we have time for some of my questions.”
“You have questions for me? I thought you already knew everything about me.”
“I’m deeply, passionately curious,” he says, smiling in a way that tells me he’s lying, “about your bug collection. And I’d love for you to go through each one and tell me all about them.”
I rub my aching forehead and laugh. “I thought you’d never ask.”
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
We survive the first night in Gentoa. The following afternoon, Nicoleta and I walk to the Downhill together. We’re mostly silent until we pass the twin obelisks. I’m exhausted, and a little loopy from it. I munch on kettle corn for the much-needed sugar.
Nicoleta keeps her head high and her walk brisk. A slight smile plays at the corner of her lips. If I didn’t know Nicoleta better, I’d say she was excited. I’ve forgotten about her wild side over the past year.
Gentoa is a coastal city, with long stretches of white, rocky beaches and salt winds that tussle my hair. It’s beautiful. Even the weather is perfection, I realize, as we pass through Gomorrah’s smoke into clean air and blue skies.
One hundred yards behind Gomorrah, a single tent is situated on the dunes.
“Why don’t you want Villiam to know that you’re working with Luca?” Nicoleta asks. “I don’t think it’s wise to keep that from him. It seems awfully suspicious. I can’t see him being an overly protective father type.”
“It’s not about that,” I say. “I was going to tell him, but then I decided I was just going to tell Luca to call it quits, so I kept quiet. Then Luca and I kept working together. Then I found out how much Villiam and Chimal distrust people who weren’t born in Gomorrah.” That came out as a mess. The whole situation is a mess.
“I just don’t want to make him angry,” I finish.
“What are you doing with Luca that’s different from your investigation with Villiam?”
“Luca believes the killer is within Gomorrah. Not related to the Alliance.”
“Then it seems like Luca’s theory provides better means but less motive.”
Nicoleta has voiced exactly what I have been struggling to put into words. “Exactly. I don’t know which theory I believe more,” I say. “When I’m with Villiam, I agree with him. And then the opposite is true when I’m with Luca. I’m easily persuaded, I suppose.” I wait for Nicoleta to voice her own opinion, but she doesn’t. “Do you think I should be working with Luca?”
“I think both theories are valid, and I also think you would wound Villiam by telling him now. Temporarily keeping Luca a secret is not a terrible idea.”
“You’ve never been an advocate of sneaking around.”
“The past few weeks have been terrible. I think we’ve all changed our tunes a bit.”
As we approach the tent, the guards outside come into view. They’re dressed all in black, with swords tucked into their sheaths. Menacing, tall and muscular—these are the men I want protecting my family while I cannot.
Inside, we find Chimal, Agni and a few other men I don’t recognize. It seems my father has yet to arrive—probably because he insisted on walking by himself this time. Chimal straightens when he sees us and leaves his conversation with Agni.
“Sorina, Nicoleta, these are the men and women who will be assisting you next week.” Chimal introduces each of the individuals, but I forget their names almost immediately after he says them. There is a woman who is an expert in Up-Mountain politicians. She’ll be able to
give us information on the people we might encounter. There’s also an apothecary to supply us with the drugs we’ll use to knock out the Alliance’s leader.
“Agni will be helping, as well,” Chimal says. “We’re hoping to take advantage of his fire-work to serve as a minor distraction to any officials there.”
Even though we’ve been planning this for several days now, it hasn’t felt real until this moment, when the men and women who will be working with us stand before me. Nicoleta and I are going to kidnap an Up-Mountain archduke. I shiver at the idea of returning to an Up-Mountain city, considering what happened while Luca and I were in Cartona. If all goes well, no Up-Mountainers will notice me. I will be merely a moth. But I’ve never needed to maintain an illusion for so long under pressure.
Then there is the question of whether Nicoleta’s abilities will pull through. We’re all counting on her.
Chimal rests his hand on my shoulder. “Sorina, why don’t you go with Villiam and practice maintaining your illusion-work? I know you said you’re concerned about how long you can maintain the image of the moth. We want to have a good sense of your limit.”
I whip around to face my father, who stands in the doorway leaning on his crutches. Despite his injury, his strong posture and confident smile make it clear that he’s in his element. He’s not simply a proprietor. He’s a general.
Before I leave with him, I turn to Chimal. “I want to ask something of you,” I say.
“Anything,” he answers.
“My family is restless now that we have arrived at a new city, as new cities have lately brought tragedy. I would appreciate it if you could spare a few members of your guard to watch over them. More than there already are.”
“Of course. We have a few men stationed in your neighborhood, but I can absolutely add more. Escorts, too.”
“Thank you.”
I follow Villiam outside, onto the uneven ground of the dunes. I feel almost naked being out on the beach, unprotected by Gomorrah’s smoke. Anyone traveling from far away would spot us as two dark flecks on the shoreline.
“Is it safe to be out here, in the open?” I ask him.
“No one will notice one man walking along the beach.”
“There are two of us.”
“That person would have to have spectacular vision to notice a moth from such a distance.”
I take that as my cue to concentrate on my illusion. I’ve used this image so many times that it appears naturally, the way muscles remember repetitive motions. The two of us walk closer to the water’s edge. It froths white along the sand and shards of broken shells. What a peaceful spot to plot a battle.
“Your footprints are showing, Sorina,” Villiam says.
“The wedding will take place in a church, won’t it?” I ask. “I won’t need to worry about sand.”
“It’s not about that. It’s about the concentration. Any jynx-worker improves through practice.”
I begrudgingly cast illusions to cover my footprints. As we walk, the images become more difficult to conceal. The weight of the jynx-work makes my thoughts trip, as if I’m drunk.
Within moments, my exhaustion takes a toll on the illusion. The fluttering of the moth’s wings fades, and gradually, more details disappear. The smell of me—smoke, like everyone in Gomorrah—returns.
“I can see your silhouette. It’s barely been three minutes,” Villiam says. “That’s unlike you.”
“I slept terribly last night. It’s difficult to focus.”
“If there has ever been a time to focus, now is it.”
“I know. I’m sorry.”
He shakes his head and then kisses my forehead. I wait a moment in shame under his questioning gaze. Then, to my surprise, he says, “It’s fine. I am more concerned about Nicoleta than you, my dear. You’re always spectacular. A born performer. Why don’t you go home and sleep?”
“Will Chimal mind?”
“Chimal is focused on Nicoleta. He probably won’t notice.” As I turn to leave, he adds, “But, Sorina, you must be more prepared tomorrow. Half-heartedness simply won’t do.”
* * *
Later that day, fresh from ten hours of sleep—thanks to the new guards stationed around our tent—I slip down my neighborhood’s central path to see our local charm-worker, Agatha. In my pocket, a jar with holes the size of needle pricks contains a rare northern cicada, which I found crawling over my pillow this morning, as if it were a present. I haven’t personally added a new bug to my collection in a while. It feels comfortingly normal.
Agatha is setting up her stand of charms and trinkets. Most of them are hand-crafted jewelry with charmed stones, some for peace of mind, some for strength or power or meditation. I scan the bracelets for one Venera, or even Nicoleta, might like.
“Sorina,” she says. She appears not a day over thirty due to one of her beauty charms, yet her frail voice hints at her true age. “I was wondering when you’d come back. It’s been almost a week.”
“A week? I haven’t seen you in a month,” I say, confused.
She furrows her eyebrows. “You came last week, with the butterfly. Probably one of the prettier of the disgusting insects you bring to me. Have you come with another?”
Last week? A butterfly? Maybe Agatha is growing senile in her old age. But then she produces a small glass vial, and within it, a perfectly preserved butterfly, its wings a vibrant purple.
“Are you sure I gave this to you?” I ask. “It wasn’t...a gift or anything?”
“Villiam had me charm that cricket, but that was a while ago. You gave me this butterfly.” She feels my forehead. “Are you feeling all right?”
“Dandy, as always,” I lie. Perhaps I didn’t sleep as soundly as I thought. Or maybe Agatha is just senile and doesn’t remember Villiam giving this to her instead of me.
I pull the jar with the cicada out of my pocket. “Here’s the cute little critter.”
Agatha grimaces, as she always does. “My daughter collects rings. I wish you’d find yourself a different hobby.”
I slide the jar toward her and lean against her stand.
“Here’s two copper pieces,” I say. The usual payment.
Agatha nods and ushers me inside her tent. The inside contains even more charms than on the outside. I sit on her floor cushion while she pulls the cicada out from the jar. To my left, resting on a table, is a handmade doll that resembles Agatha’s daughter.
“What’s that?” I ask.
“It’s a charm doll,” Agatha tells me. She cups the cicada within her hands and then kisses her thumb. “There’s magic in a kiss.”
When she opens them, the cicada is frozen, petrified. She roots around for one of the glass vials she uses to store my bugs. Once she finds one, she slips the cicada inside and hands it to me.
I take the cicada and then run my fingers through the doll’s hair.
“You shouldn’t touch it,” Agatha says. She gently takes it from me. “Charm dolls are linked to a person. This one is linked to my daughter. Whatever I do to the doll, she will feel.”
“How are they linked?”
“It’s very simple charm-work—it only requires a small item from my daughter, something important to her. I sewed the item inside it, and then I give the doll its life.” She holds the doll up to my ear, and I hear a heartbeat.
“What do you use it for?”
“Oh, all sorts of things. If I pinch the doll’s arm, my daughter knows to visit me. If I bless the doll, my daughter is blessed. But charm dolls do not have the best of reputations. Without proper protections placed on the doll, someone could use one to cause another harm. Even kill them. They are simple but powerful jynx-work.”
A shiver runs down my spine. The doll looks like a toy, yet it could become a deadly weapon.
“Thank you for your work,” I say. “The cicada is beautiful.”
“If you say so.”
* * *
Luca walks me to the edge of Gomorrah, his hand in my mine. We have not kissed since that first night in Gentoa, but hand-holding has become our normal. His hand feels warm and steady. Something I could grow used to.
“We should stop here,” Luca says as we approach the edge of Gomorrah’s caravans. Once again, the Festival is on the move. “I know you don’t want Villiam seeing me.”
I suppose I should introduce Luca to Villiam properly at some point. Not as someone helping me investigate my family’s murders but as my friend. Well, more than my friend, really.
Maybe after all of this blows over.
“This is our last day here,” I say. I squeeze his hand tighter. I’d be lying if I claimed I wasn’t nervous. This is more than the greatest performance of my life—it’s my first role as a Gomorrah proprietor.
“Do you want me to meet with you before you leave for the wedding?”
“I... I don’t know.” In my head, I’m simply picturing this as a performance. It’s the only method that doesn’t leave me panicking from anxiety. Before a Freak Show, our only pre-show rituals are tolerating the bickers of Unu and Du and the sounds of Hawk tuning her fiddle. Or Blister’s high fives.
“I won’t be offended if you don’t want me there,” he says.
“I don’t want to make a big deal of it.”
“It’s sort of a big deal.”
“But I want to pretend this is normal. That this is what I do. I am the Girl Who Sees Without Eyes. I can make an illusion. I can fool them all.”
He nods, but, from his expression, I can tell he doesn’t understand. He gives me a hug, and I press my nose and mask into his shoulder. “Be careful,” he says.
“Always am.”
“Break a leg.”
“Naturally.”
He pulls away, his face stern and shadowed. I don’t want him to worry about me. Nicoleta and I will walk out of that wedding alive and with the leader.