Cillian kissed my brow and we were quiet for a while before he began to drag us back inside.
“Wait,” he began as I reached to key in the code. “I can finally say I do love this fuckin’ Club…not as much as I love you but if I love the woman who loves my Club then I’m hopin’ her heart is big enough to love it enough for the both of us.”
“I will, babe, until you can truly say you love Lucifer’s Saints as much as you love me.”
He kissed me again, this time with passion and longing. “Yeah, I think I can handle that.”
“I know you can handle it.”
“Do you always have to have the last word?” he wondered as we walked back inside and he shut the door firmly behind me.
“Of course, I’m an attorney.”
“Here we go again.”
“Cillian?”
“What?”
“Just shut the fuck up, kiss me again and then take me back to your old bedroom so we can fuck like teenagers.”
“With pleasure,” he whispered and when his mouth met mine in a soul-searing kiss that stole my breath away, I knew I’d always belonged to him.
This was where I was meant to be, and soon, Cillian and I would make our union legal and binding.
I was where my heart and soul were meant to be, and because that was wherever Cillian was, I finally had a place to call home.
The End
Author’s Note
I purposely left Cillian and Gisela’s story open because I’m not through with them yet but that doesn’t mean I won’t be moving on to other characters you’ve met in this story.
The Rough Riders was always meant to be a multi-faceted series. In the future, all the Cox siblings—Ronan, Quinn, and Misty—along with Kink, Cricket, Bookie, and Trey Lennon, will have novels written about their lives, trials and tribulations of being part of the Lucifer’s Saints.
The series will eventually expand to include characters from the Demon’s Bastards, Aztecas Infierno, the Jackson crime family, the Abandonato Mafia family, and the White Knights.
I’m not sure how long I will write The Rough Riders Series but as long as readers continue to enjoy this complex world of Northern Nevada and the crazy inhabitants in it, I will write until I can’t write anymore.
I hope you enjoyed this novel and if you did, please leave a review.
Thank you for reading and have a wonderful holiday season and here is to a brand new year full of unimaginable possibilities for you, your friends, and families!
Selene Chardou
December 17th, 2013
The Rough Riders Series continues with
Naked Dirty Love (Trey & Kyra’s story)
Coming Spring of 2014
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Selene Chardou is a world traveler and the alter-ego of Elle Chardou.
Ms. Chardou’s writing is all about hot romance and exciting times with the wild, damaged, out of control, rich and famous set in the world of Contemporary Romance.
She is currently working on Love TKO, the first novel in the Love Unexpected Series and Covet, the first novel in The Covet Duet. The Rough Riders Series will continue with Kyra and Trey’s story in Naked Dirty Love, which will premiere this summer.
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Copyright © 2013 by Nicole Jacquelyn
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Cover photo by Kara Pesznecker
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Cover designed by Sommer Stein
Edited by Madison Seidler
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ISBN-13: 978-1492164425
Dedication
To Johni, who told me I should write a book.
I did it.
I wish you were here to see it.
I miss you friend.
Contents
Chapter 1: Brenna
Chapter 2: Brenna
Chapter 3: Dragon
Chapter 4: Brenna
Chapter 5: Brenna
Chapter 6: Brenna
Chapter 7: Brenna
Chapter 8: Dragon
Chapter 9: Brenna
Chapter 10: Brenna
Chapter 11: Brenna
Chapter 12: Dragon
Chapter 13: Brenna
Chapter 14: Dragon
Chapter 15: Brenna
Chapter 16: Brenna
Chapter 17: Brenna
Chapter 18: Brenna
Chapter 19: Brenna
Chapter 20: Brenna
Chapter 21: Dragon
Chapter 22: Brenna
Chapter 23: Brenna
Chapter 24: Brenna
Chapter 25: Brenna
Chapter 26: Brenna
Chapter 27: Brenna
Chapter 28: Dragon
Chapter 29: Brenna
Chapter 30: Brenna
Chapter 31: Brenna
Chapter 32: Dragon
Epilogue: Brenna
About The Author
Chapter One
Brenna
How could someone make decision after decision attempting to get away from their past and somehow end up right back where they started?
I’d spent the last five years running, and now, it seemed I was going to have to retrace every excruciating step. My heart told me that nothing good could come from heading back to the place I’d grown up, but I knew we had nowhere else to go. Every ache, every pain, and every bruise reminded me that we had to escape. I couldn’t lie to myself anymore; there was one place in the world where he’d never reach us. We just had to get there.
I’d grown up rough. I’d seen more than one woman slapped around by her man, and to be truthful, it had never really bothered me much. It was the way of the world, or at least, it was the way of our world. It was all I knew.
I wanted a different life though, so I’d gone away to college, and later, I’d tried to carve out a life in the beige community where mothers brought their children to school in minivans and joined the PTA. I wanted a husband who paid taxes and would take his car to a mechanic for routine maintenance. He wouldn’t get his hands dirty, wouldn’t raise his voice, and wouldn’t carry a gun.
I’d never imagined the world I chose would be far worse than the one I had left.
I only had three days to get to where I needed to be, and I wasn’t going to hesitate. I wanted to be there and settled before my clean-cut husband came looking for us.
So, for the past week, I’d counted down every minute until his business trip. He had no idea that I was planning to leave, and honestly, I thought he would have killed me if he had. My first order of business was to pack two duffel bags full of things I refused to leave behind: mementos, my laptop, and a necessary change of clothes for each of us. I refused to waste precious space on anything I could easily buy later.
The morning after he’d fl
own out on his business trip, I raced around the house as fast as someone covered in bruises from neck to thighs could—which wasn’t very fast. I’d spent so many hours planning our escape in my head—organizing items in order of importance and deciding what we would take and what would be left—that it only took me an hour to pack everything we needed.
By the time I was finished with the bags, I was in a cold sweat from both pain and nerves. He’d never come home from a business trip early, but I felt like every moment I wasted was one more chance for him to change his habits, and I was strung as tightly as a violin string.
When everything was packed into our car, I picked my girl up off the couch where she was watching cartoons and got her ready for the day as if it were any other morning.
On Tuesdays, we usually went to a Mommy and Me class at a yoga studio downtown. This meant, as I pulled out of the driveway, the neighbor across the street wouldn’t wonder where I was going. He wouldn’t think about me or even pay enough attention to realize when I left. I also felt comfortable dressing her in yoga pants and a tunic without anything standing out. Perhaps I’d seen too many spy movies or read too many books or maybe it was just my natural inclination toward paranoia, but I was sure that we needed to be as inconspicuous as possible.
Except for Tuesdays, my husband expected my girl to be dressed like an advertisement for some snobby boutique—no jeans, no rain boots, hair perfectly parted into ponytails with elaborate hair ribbons that matched her outfits. She looked adorable, but it was hard watching her sit stiffly on a chair in her frilly dress while other girls jumped and rolled around on the floor in their overalls. It wasn’t normal. I had a feeling he had this obsession with my daughter’s appearance because she looked nothing like us.
When we moved here from Eugene, new people always did a double take when we were together. My husband had light brown hair and eyes, and his skin was a ruddy pink that I’d originally found extremely attractive. It wasn’t until I saw it redden with anger that the pink hue started to remind me of a petulant child’s. My skin was pale with a peaches-and-cream complexion. A stereotypical redhead, I have a few freckles and green eyes. This is why, when people commented jokingly, “Wow, she doesn’t look like you guys, does she?” about my olive-skinned, dark-haired child, he began to imply that she was adopted.
From the beginning, he had known that the child I carried before we were married wasn’t his, but at the time, he’d claimed that it didn’t matter. Once he saw her, the bigoted asshole had changed his tune. It was one thing to pretend she was his if no one would know the difference; it was quite another matter entirely if the truth was written across her beautiful face.
God, I couldn’t wait to get her away from him. It was so close I could taste it.
We’d gotten on the road at around ten, but I didn’t feel my tension ease until Portland was over an hour behind us. About an hour and a half south of Portland, we made our first stop. We had to lose my BMW. We needed something less expensive and far less ostentatious if we wanted to fly under the radar—plus, I hated it.
It was pure luck that the car was even in my name. When we bought it, my husband had been called away for some work-related problem, and by the time the paperwork was finished, the title was in my name only. He hadn’t been happy about that turn of events, but once I committed another transgression, his focus had changed, and he didn’t bring up the title again. It was one of the few possessions that was mine, free and clear.
Earlier in the week, I had posted the Beemer on Craigslist in Salem, and thankfully, I’d gotten a hit. That Craigslist post was the reason I’d brought my laptop with us. I’d taken down the posting, and if he didn’t have the computer, I hoped it would be hard for him to trace our steps.
The buyer was meeting me in a grocery store parking lot in a little town outside of Salem. The post had stipulated cash only, and I knew the man meeting me was a sure thing because the price I was asking was so low. It was just enough money for the used Toyota I’d also found on Craigslist.
When we arrived at the grocery store, my nerves were back in full force. What if the buyer didn’t show? What would I do with our bags in the thirty-minute lag between selling one car and buying the other? What if the seller didn’t show, and I was stranded in this tiny town without even a taxi service? What if we looked suspicious, and the police decided to stop? My mind raced with the possibilities.
I parked the car close to the store entrance and waited for the buyer. He’d said he’d be driving a late model green SUV, and I clocked him the minute he turned into the parking lot. When he and a woman pulled up and parked across from us, I felt a sense of relief. Meeting with a strange man, hours from home, made me a little nervous. Watching his lady grab a screaming infant from behind her seat calmed my nerves even more.
I quickly climbed out from the car and walked to stand in front of my girl’s door. While I was comforted to know the man had brought his family along, I wasn’t taking any chances.
“Hey! You Kate?” He walked toward me with his hand lifted in order to shake mine.
“That’s me,” I said with what I hoped was an easygoing smile.
“Man, she’s a beauty. Is your asking price the same as when we emailed?” he asked.
He seemed perplexed as he looked at my car that he’d probably expected to be trashed. It was far from trashed. Back in my old life, my car could have been called cherry. No crumbs marred the seats, no fingerprints were on the windows, and the rims sparkled in the late morning sunshine. I didn’t blame him for being confused. If I were buying a car far below Blue Book from someone I didn’t know, I would have been waiting for the other shoe to drop, too.
“Yep. That’s it. I’d just like to sell it. I’m not comfortable doing a test drive with you, so if you want it, you’re going to have to just, you know, buy it without driving it.” I tried to sound confident, but I wasn’t sure if this was going to work. “I’m sure you understand. I’ve got my girl in the car. I’m not driving around with a stranger.”
While I spoke, he nodded his head.
“Yep, no problem. With the amount you’re selling it for, and since you already drove it here, anything that could be wrong with it, I could easily fix, and I would still be getting a deal.”
His face reddened, and I was sure he was wishing back those last few words. Who in the world told someone they were selling something too cheap? Eh. It didn’t matter. I just wanted it gone.
“Okay then. Did you bring the cash?” I asked him impatiently. I wanted to get this transaction over with.
“Yep, it’s in the car with my wife. Give me just a second.”
He walked over to his wife’s window, and I watched them banter for a minute before I reached in my purse for the title. I wondered if they were genuinely that happy with each other or if this was a show put on for the outside world. I knew all too well the difference between what was shown in public and what went on behind closed doors. I knew how quickly a charming smile could turn to a scowl the second no one was looking. I repressed a shudder before walking back to meet him to exchange the title for cash. I breathed a sigh of relief when he didn’t notice the name on the title.
Once we were done, I grabbed a grocery cart and piled our bags and my girl’s car seat inside. We watched him drive away with satisfaction. Well, I felt satisfaction anyway; the girl in my arms, sleeping on my shoulder, hadn’t woken up during the whole transaction.
We waited only fifteen minutes before I saw my new car pull into the parking lot. By this time, my girl was awake and begging to get down, so I sat her in the cart and ran my hand through her hair, hoping she’d be patient just a little longer. This transaction was the trickier of the two. I knew my car would be easy to sell without a test drive, but I was also going to have to buy this new car without testing it out first, which meant I was relying on the honesty of someone I hadn’t met. This car had to get us to where we were going, or we’d be screwed.
The woman who jumped out
of my new Toyota was in her mid-fifties with salt-and-pepper hair in long dreadlocks down her back. She was wearing some type of multi-colored gypsy skirt, and as she walked toward me, she jingled as if she were wearing a hundred little bells.
I slowly stepped toward her as I watched her take in our appearance. I knew we looked weird. I was sure she’d never seen someone show up to buy a car with only a grocery cart filled with duffel bags and a toddler. However, she didn’t say a word. If I was judging her correctly, she had an almost knowing look on her face.
“Hi, are you Stargazer?” I asked hesitantly.
I had assumed that, for whatever reason, the name she used in her ad was an alias; however, looking at her now, it was probably her actual name. I could feel the corners of my eyes getting tight, and I was hoping that we could get this over with quickly. Between the stress of exchanging cars and the physical exertion of moving around our bags, my body was beginning to revolt. At this point, I wanted to buy the car, so I could just get in and sit down.
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