“What?!” Lia was stunned. “Are you sure about that?”
“Your father leveraged virtually his entire investment portfolio in a railroad spur line that went belly up and now his creditors are knocking. He’s already used up the funds Sizemore gave him back when Em got married. But Sizemore’s had some shady dealings in the horse-racing circuit. Not only is he on the edge financially, but he’s liable for some criminal acts. Lia, Em’s husband could go to Sing Sing if any of it gets out. My father’s collected enough evidence to destroy both of them and I think part of him loves the idea of having your father under his thumb. It is beyond twisted, but there’s nothing I can do about it.”
Lia looked down to see that her hands were shaking. “My God,” she said. “Let me see if I understand this: your father is willing to bail out my father to see this wedding happen, but if you don’t go through with it, your father will ruin my father and Hiram Sizemore. Doesn’t he care about the position he’s putting his own son in?”
George shook his head. “I told you what obsessive love can do to a person.” He laughed ruefully. “But here’s the rub: I’m just like him.”
“You are nothing like him,” Lia said.
“Oh, but I am. I’ll be honest with you. If it were only your father, I’d say the hell with him and gleefully watch him fail. He took Em from me and I’ll never forgive him for that. But I can’t bear to have her, after all she’s sacrificed, go through the pain and humiliation of Sizemore’s fall.” He shook his head and looked down again. “I just can’t bear it.”
Lia rose from the bench and took George’s arm in hers. She looked at him for a long moment. “You are a good man, Mr. Powell. A very good man. And I thank you for your honesty.”
“So what’s it going to be?” he asked.
Lia thought back to the sense of righteous indignation she’d felt at the beginning of the conversation, and the confidence she’d had in appealing to George’s common sense. He did have common sense. But he was also a man in love—it just didn’t happen to be with her. Could she do this thing that felt so wrong? But could she not do it and watch not only her father’s life, but her sister’s and even her own life crumble as well? She saw how all three of them—George, Emma and her—were nothing but pawns put in untenable situations. If they refused to participate, it would mean utter ruin for the people they loved. It shouldn’t be that way, but she didn’t know how to make it better. “I think there is a wedding in our future,” she said, with none of the joy that would normally accompany that phrase.
CHAPTER TEN
July 25, 1896
On a warm, bright day less than two weeks after her conversation in the park, Lia took a deep breath, tried to push her fears aside, and became Mrs. George Britland Powell II. She and George exchanged vows in the First Presbyterian Church of New York City, known among her father’s upper crust friends as “Old First.” Her father hadn’t set foot in it or any other church since her mother’s death, but George’s parents were prominent members. It felt like even more of a farce knowing how much money had changed hands to ensure the most spectacular wedding event of the season.
More than two hundred wealthy people attended the nuptials. Lia could count on two hands the number of guests she actually knew. Neither she nor George had bothered inviting many friends; she didn’t know what George thought about it, but she was embarrassed by the hypocrisy of it all.
The pretense hadn’t stopped their parents, however. Apparently her father and father-in-law had carefully screened the guests for their community status, business connections, and manner in which they might benefit either the Bennetts or the Powells down the road. It sickened her.
Lia wore the silk gown fit for a princess, complete with intricate beading and long flowing train. She had drawn the line at wearing a tiara, however. Instead she wore her long, curling dark hair in a swept-up style in the hope that she wouldn’t appear too inconsequential standing next to George who, at six foot two, was nearly a foot taller than she was. Her bridal veil was delicate, with tiny lace edging. She felt almost comfortable behind it, as if she were safely removed from the curious onlookers. But she knew the feeling was temporary, and when George finally lifted the veil, it would signify much more than the loss of a wisp of tulle.
George looked regal himself in a dark gray cutaway suit; unlike Lia, he was completely at ease in formal attire. He was a superb illustration of that phrase, “to the manor born.”
And Emmaline. Standing to Lia’s left, discharging her duties with self-contained grace and style, she looked to Lia like an exquisitely shaped, richly toned sapphire, while Lia felt like a pale, washed-out citrine. Lia watched as George followed Emmaline’s every move. She couldn’t blame him, and only hoped others didn’t notice.
The wedding breakfast after the ceremony was held at the Powell’s mansion on Central Park West. By rights, Lia’s father should have hosted or at least paid for the event. But George the elder had declared that his wife Margaret was “the perfect choice” to plan the entire affair, and Lia had gladly left it in her now mother-in-law’s capable hands. The Powells insisted on paying for everything, and Lia had cringed when her father made the token resistance everyone knew was a sham. In the end, her mother’s dream of joining the two families had come true, except that Lia felt, deep in her heart, that her mother would not have wanted it this way.
At the reception, Hiram drank too much, as usual, and grew bellicose, as usual. With apologies to the family, Emma took him home. It was probably the one time, Lia thought, that Em was glad her husband had acted out.
Eventually, inevitably, the time came for Lia and George to leave. Because of George’s busy work schedule they were going to pass on a honeymoon, which Lia didn’t mind at all. But he had been kind enough to reserve a room for their wedding night at the new Waldorf Hotel on Fifth Avenue. It was a lovely place, built on the site of Astor’s former mansion, but Lia was too preoccupied to appreciate much of what it had to offer.
An iced bucket of French champagne and a silver bowl filled with hothouse strawberries was waiting for them when they arrived. George immediately poured two glasses and handed one to Lia before drinking his down in one long gulp. Refilling his glass, he turned resolutely to her.
“I don’t know if I told you, but you looked stunning today,” he said.
Lia looked down at her plum-colored traveling dress. She’d already forgotten her wedding ensemble. She was taking the whole absurd situation just one step at a time.
“Look, I want to be candid with you about…about what goes on in the bedroom,” he said.
Lia cocked her head. “Are you talking about…um…what happens between a man and a woman in a physical sense? I believe I know the mechanics.”
George frowned. “No, that’s not what I meant, although I’m certain that even if you didn’t know, we would muddle through. But the thing is, I wanted to say that even though the road to this point has been…less than optimal, well, I am a normal, functioning male, and since you are a beautiful woman, I don’t foresee any problems in…um, having marital relations and making a child together.” He let out a breath and took another long swallow of the high-end liquid courage.
“Have you been rehearsing that?” Lia asked with a smile. “As long as we’re being honest with each other, I will tell you I am a bit nervous, but I find you physically attractive as well, and I am hoping that that will be enough for us.”
George smiled back, relief evident in his expression. “Well then,” he said. He took her hand and led her to the bedroom.
Two hours later, lying next to her husband, who was snoring lightly in his sleep, Lia understood two things clearly. One was that George was indeed capable of performing husbandly duties that could result in a child, and the other was that the act held none of the magic it would have held, had they been in love with each other.
March 1897
Lia sat in the pew next to George, feeling fat and awkward. She wore a high-waisted
black silk bombazine gown and willed herself to remain comfortable despite her advanced state of pregnancy. George had proven quite adept at discharging his husbandly duties and Lia had gotten pregnant almost immediately. As soon as he heard the news, he’d moved into a separate bedroom in their townhouse, not wanting to “disturb” her anymore. She had no problem with the change in sleeping arrangements. Frankly, she’d never gotten past the disturbing sensation, though it was false, of lying with her brother.
“Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. May our brother Hiram rest in peace, the great race run and finally won.” The minister must have been a horse racing fan.
Seven and a half months into her pregnancy, Lia and the rest of the family were shocked to hear that Hiram Sizemore had been killed in what the newspapers called a “botched robbery.” Lia didn’t believe that for a minute. Hiram had always “played the ponies,” as he called it, and had even gone in with partners to form the Coney Island Jockey Club in Brooklyn. They built the Sheepshead Bay Racetrack right next door and he spent more time there than in the Manhattan mansion he shared with Em, even in the off season. On the day he died, apparently, Hiram had been wining and dining some members of a racing syndicate out of Kentucky; he was found the next day in his apartment at the club with his throat cut ear to ear. Lia was sure it had less to do with robbery and more to do with the race-fixing scandal George’s father had been keeping under wraps. Now it no longer mattered.
The sparsely attended service concluded and everyone filed past the closed casket to say good bye—or more like good riddance, Lia thought. Emma stood by stoically, accepting condolences with her usual gentle grace. When it was George’s turn to pay his respects, he took Em in his arms and held her close, causing more than one eyebrow to raise. Lia, no stranger to such displays, quietly tapped him on the shoulder so that she could take his place. She told her sister how very sorry she was that Emma had to go through this ordeal. She did not say how sorry she was that Hiram was dead.
As usual, Emma was less concerned about herself than about Lia. “Oh, you look so beautiful,” she whispered.
“I feel like a bowling ball,” Lia groused.
Emma smiled briefly, though her eyes were sad. “It won’t be long now,” she added. “You are so very fortunate…and so am I. I am going to be an auntie.”
Despite the innuendo associated with Hiram’s life and death, he did prove to be the “good man at heart” that Em had said he was. Or maybe he was just being practical, Lia thought in her more cynical moments. Although creditors devoured much of his estate, he’d put many of his assets in his wife’s name and they couldn’t be touched. Now, for the first time in her life, Emma was free to do whatever she wanted without relying on a father or a husband, or being subject to their will. Lia would have given anything to be in her place.
At night, alone in her room, Lia would give in to her hormones and let the tears flow. She cried for the way in which George subtly but unmistakably patronized her, telling her she could not paint because the fumes weren’t good for the baby and thus depriving her of the one activity that gave her life true meaning. She cried for the myriad ways in which her husband longed for a woman he could never have. And she cried for the absolutely abysmal timing that Hiram Sizemore had shown by not dying eight months earlier. If he had, Emma could have married George, and Lia would have been free.
The rain associated with April arrived right on schedule, as did the birth of George Britland Powell III. Little Georgie looked like a miniature version of his father, which pleased both his father and his grandfather greatly. He was a healthy baby delivered with relative ease, and that pleased Lia even more. She loved everything about her little man, and she looked forward to capturing his life on canvas. He had quickly become as much a part of her as her art, and she was confident she’d be able to blend her passion seamlessly with motherhood.
George, unfortunately, had other ideas.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
February 1899
My Dear Miss Starling,
I have pondered your question as to whether art can ever truly measure up to the complexity of nature, or if nature can ever fully reveal a level of truth that art is capable of expressing. I am not certain if we are talking apples to apples, but as to whether one can make a substantive, qualitative judgment, it remains to be seen. I am looking forward to your next series of sketches illustrating the conundrum.
Yours sincerely, William Keith
Lia finished reading the letter aloud and folded it before putting it away in the pocket of her painting smock. “You see, he’s intrigued,” she exclaimed to her dear friend and fellow art student Sander de Kalb. The two were setting up their work in one of the upstairs bedrooms that Lia had turned into her studio. Little Georgie, soon to be two, slept in the nursery down the hall.
Sandy was a gracefully tall, fine-boned young man with wavy chestnut hair and an exotic face that many considered “pretty.” He was charming, supportive, and well to do. He was also uninterested in Lia as anything other than the sister he’d never had.
“‘My Dear Miss Starling’?”
“I know, but I sign all my work that way and I didn’t want to confuse the man. Besides, ‘Amelia Bennett Powell’ sounds like an accounting firm.”
“You’ve got a point. So what are you going to send him this time?” Sandy cocked his head as he propped up his half-finished study of a bowl of apricots. Heaving a sigh, he began lining up his supplies: palette, brushes, and tubes of the usual yellow ocher, raw sienna, Prussian blue.
“I think the woodland nocturnes,” she said. She busied herself getting the turpentine, water, and containers ready for their brushes.
Sandy frowned as he began to mix his colors. “But those are oils,” he said.
“I know.” Lia smiled broadly. “I’m going to see if I can get him to finally comment on my work. I have to know if it’s any good, Sandy.”
“Don’t you believe Miss Withrow? ‘Well, my dear, you have bold instincts,’” he mimicked in a deep woman’s voice. “And dammit, you do…unlike me who is stuck with this piece of animal dung I have been struggling with all week.”
Lia laughed. “You’re ridiculous…but delightfully so, my friend.” She was in the midst of giving Sandy a hug when George stepped into the room. Sandy immediately stepped away, even though he had met George on several occasions already.
“Uh, good afternoon, Mr. Powell,” he said.
“Mr. de Kalb.”
Lia smiled benignly. “Hello, George. Home early today?”
George walked over to see the work in progress. “Yes, obviously. I had an itch to see little Georgie. Where is he?”
“Down for a nap. Polly said she’d watch him when he woke up so that I could work. Our final project is due on Friday.”
George puckered his lips as he picked up an open bottle on Lia’s work table and sniffed it. “Haven’t you been working quite a bit this week? Is it the same project?”
Lia glanced at Sandy, who raised his eyebrows. “Yes, it’s quite complicated, and I want to do well. It takes time.”
George nodded. “I’ll be glad when it’s over.” He looked directly at Lia. “I’m sure little Georgie will be happy then too.”
Lia said nothing. In the awkward silence, the upstairs maid Polly could be heard calling in a singsong voice, “And there’s my little master Georgie up and ready to go. Are you ready to get up, my sweet little boy?”
They could all hear the toddler’s happy chortle in response. George looked again at Lia before nodding briefly to Sandy and leaving the room.
“Should I leave?” Sandy asked.
Lia shook her head. “No. Of course not.”
“Um, I don’t think he likes you doing this.” Sandy gestured around the room.
“You’re right, I’m afraid. But it’s too bad, because that’s who I am.” Irritation had crept into her voice lately whenever she spoke of George. Not a good thing. She tried to shake it off and began to prep her canv
as. The image in front of her was that of an old fashioned clock with a man’s pipe and stack of books nearby. The usual studies of violets and other flowers, which had brought Miss Withrow such fame, were just…flowers. Mine have to tell a story.
Three hours later, Lia and Sandy had finished for the day. Sandy wrapped up his brushes, put his paints back in his satchel, and went to empty the containers he’d used.
“Oh, I’ll do that,” Lia said.
“You’re sure? I don’t mind.”
“No, you go. You’re already late to meet Neville. That’s his name, isn’t it?”
“That’s right. He’s a jolly chap…” Sandy heaved a mock sigh and patted his heart. “But he can’t compare to your husband.”
Lia continued putting her paints away. “So I’ve heard,” she murmured.
“Don’t be too hard on him, dear one. He’s probably jealous of the time you spend on your art, that’s all.”
“If only it were that,” Lia said. “But scoot now. I’ll see you at the salon on Friday.”
Lia walked Sandy downstairs and then went looking for her son. She found him in George’s office, playing with a set of toy horses and cows on the floor. Her husband had a stack of reports on his desk that he had undoubtedly brought home to review.
“There’s my little man,” she crooned, lifting Georgie in her arms. “Has he been good this afternoon?”
George put down the document he’d been reading and pinched his nose between his eyes, a sure signal that he had something unpleasant he needed to say. He did that more and more lately. In fact, from the time she’d told him she was pregnant, George had begun to turn, slowly but surely, into a milder version of her own overbearing father. She felt herself shift into battle mode, but George lobbed the first round.
“Yes he was, no thanks to you.”
“What is that supposed to mean?”
“It means you are spending entirely too much time with your hobby and not nearly enough with your child.”
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