by Alexis Angel
"What’s up with you, though?" she asks.
I shrug. "Nothing."
She shakes her head. "No, you look different," she says. "What’s going on with you?"
I shrug again. I don't want to come right out and say it. A part of me wants to brag about the change in my life. I've lost my virginity. It's complicated with Lisa, though. I don't want to brag when she's obviously still not doing okay.
"How’s Thomas?" she asks.
I smile. I can't help it. A grin splits my face from ear to ear. "Yeah, he’s good," I say. "We’re seeing each other quite often, actually."
Lisa raises her eyebrows. "That’s good, right? I mean, you’re okay being involved with this guy?"
I nod. "Yeah, it’s no big deal."
I look down at my coffee. It's milky and sweet, the way Lisa always makes it, even when no one else drinks it the way she makes it.
"You slept with him, didn’t you?" she asks.
I snap my eyes up to her. I shake my head, but I'm smiling.
"You did! You sly dog, you slept with him!" She shifts in her seat, changing her position a little. "You have to tell me everything. Oh, my God, Nicole lost her V-card."
I shake my head, feeling silly now that she's making such a scene about it. At the same time, it makes me happy that she does. No matter how much I want to pretend it wasn’t important to me, it totally is.
"It’s no big deal, right?" I say. "You told me that."
Lisa gives me a look that suggests I should cut the bullshit. I laugh.
"Okay," I say. "It's a big deal to me. And it was fantastic."
Lisa smiles, looking satisfied with herself, like the idea that I had a good time in bed with a man was because of her, personally.
"I knew you would say that," she says. "I’m so glad you took that leap. What was it like?"
I shake my head, reeling a little. "I don’t know. A little sore. I guess that’s normal, right? He was nice about it, though. Gentle and all that. He makes me feel like I’m the only woman he’s ever been with."
"You’re not though, right?" Lisa asks.
I shake my head. "Doubt it, with a man as confident as he is. Besides, he knew what he was doing. I think he’s been with someone before."
Lisa nods. "Well, you did it. I’m so proud. You look different, too. I knew something was up. Are you going to keep doing it now that you’re over on the other side?"
I laugh, feeling embarrassed. "What kind of question is that?"
Lisa shrugs. "I’m just asking. The more you do it, the better it gets. The very first time is always the worst because it hurts, and you don’t know what the hell you’re doing. Once you have a couple of guys under your belt, it’s so much better."
I chuckle. "I don’t know. One time, or maybe two, at a time, okay? I can’t even think about my future sexual exploits. It literally just happened."
"Yeah, okay." She drinks some more of her coffee. "What is he like? I know you can’t compare him to anyone, but is he big? Was he good in bed? Did he do a lot of foreplay, or did he go right in for the kill?"
I roll my eyes, laughing. "Is this what I’ve been missing out on? Detailed discussions about men’s anatomy and their style of lovemaking?"
Lisa shrugs. "It’s how it works. Women are more disgusting than men when it comes to dirty talk. You should know that."
I don't have a lot of friends to compare my life with. Lisa has been my contact to the outside world when it comes to men and sex.
"I’ll see," I say finally. "About doing it again, I mean. I’m sure Thomas would want to. He’s been wanting to do it from the start."
"You’re going to keep going back to him?"
I shrug. Of course, I'm going to keep going back to him. "I like him," I say.
Lisa shakes her head. "Just because he took your virginity doesn’t mean he has to have a hold on you. You’re more than within your rights to say thank you and goodbye."
I shake my head. "You’re really a piece of work, you know that?" It seems to me that Lisa thinks like a guy more than anything else. "I want to go back to Thomas. I like him."
Lisa blinks at me. "So, when you say you like him, you don’t mean the way he is in bed. You mean as a person."
I nod.
"I thought you were going to go out there and lose your virginity so you could have fun. Wasn’t that what you said last time?"
"It’s what you said last time," I say. "I said I would think about it. And I did. But you know how I felt about it, Lisa. It’s not like I can just change my programming. It was important to me that I’m in love when I did it."
"So, you’re in love, now?"
I nod. "I think I am, yeah."
Lisa shakes her head and leans forward to put her empty cup on the coffee table. "That’s not possible," she says. "You barely know the guy. It hasn’t even been a month."
I pull up my shoulders. "We’ve been seeing each other a lot."
"And you think that’s the equivalent to knowing each other enough to be in love?"
I'm not going to argue with her. My definitions of love, sex, and life are different than hers. I don't argue with her because she sees things differently than I do. I don't have to defend myself, either.
"Look," I say. "He’s a nice guy. We get along well. What is time, anyway? Don’t you believe in soul mates and true love and all that?"
"I believe in a guy taking what he wants and then leaving," she says. "That’s the way they usually play it. You better be careful. What if he ditches you?"
I shake my head. "He doesn’t seem like the type, to be honest. He’s been good to me about everything. He didn’t pressure me into anything. He let me take my time. I think he’s like, an honest to goodness gentleman."
Lisa snorts. "They don’t exist. Trust me. It’s a mask. Sooner or later, they all show their true colors, and trust me, it’s never pretty."
I'm getting angry. "I know you’ve had a bad run, but that doesn’t mean that there isn’t hope for the rest of us. Just because your love life didn’t work out, that doesn’t mean mine is doomed."
I’ve hit a nerve, and I know it. But she isn't being fair. This isn't her life. It's mine. And Thomas is the guy I want to be with. If I’d been nervous about it before, I'm sure of it now. We’d slept together. He was the one I’d given myself to. That means something to me.
"How can you know that he’s the one for you?" Lisa asks. "You don’t know him. You can’t know him. Not this quickly anyway."
"I do know him. We know each other quite well. We’ve spent a lot of time together."
Lisa shakes her head. "You’ve got it all backwards. That feeling that you’re talking about, knowing it’s your true love or love at first sight, that’s sexual chemistry. That’s lust. That’s infatuation. It isn’t the same as love."
"But we didn’t sleep together until now."
"Three weeks after you met him? Honey, don’t kid yourself thinking you held out for something. Three weeks is nothing."
I'm furious. "Don’t tell me that it meant nothing. I know what it means to me. I know what I did, and I don’t regret it."
And I don't. I don't regret what I did because it felt right. My gut and my head and my body had all been on the same page, and that was all I’d needed. It had been the right time for me, and Thomas was the right man to do it with.
"You’re right," Lisa says. "I’m sorry. I just don’t want you to get hurt. Sometimes, you think you know a guy. I was with Graham for almost a year. I thought I knew everything there was to know about him. And where am I now? I don’t want that for you, and three weeks is so little in comparison."
I calm down now that she isn't attacking me. "I get that," I say. "I know you’re just trying to look out for me. But what am I supposed to do? Never give any guy a chance? If I assume every man is an asshole who’ll betray me, how will I ever have a decent relationship? How will I ever fall in love?"
Lisa looks up at me. I'm expecting her to tell me that I can't k
now what I'm doing. I've never dated before. I haven't had sex before. I don't have anything to compare this to. What do I have by way of experience? But she's wrong. I don't need experience. I have my heart, and it's happy. That's all that matters.
"I know what you’re saying," Lisa says. "And I know how that young-and-in-love naiveté feels. But I’m just saying, three weeks? You can’t know him that well."
"I do," I say.
"Really? What does he do?"
I shrug. "He just finished an MBA. He said he was going to work for his parents."
"Doing what?"
I open my mouth to answer and realize I don't know. I don't know anything about his life back in Elanda. I know nothing about the future he’s mapped out for himself. I don't even know where he lives. Is Lisa right?
A sinking feeling happens somewhere between my ribs and my gut. I push it away. I'm not going to let her sow doubt. I know what I'm doing. I'm happy. Just because she isn't doesn't mean I don't have a chance at happiness.
I can always ask Thomas, and he'll tell me. We just haven't talked about it yet. He’d never asked what I was going to do with my future. He knew, of course, because I told him. But he’d never asked. He just wasn’t as talkative. He wouldn’t volunteer information unless I asked.
All I have to do is ask.
It's simple. Everything is fine. Thomas is a great guy, and Lisa is just hurting, which is why she's so negative about the whole thing. My life is headed right where I need it to.
Thomas
Nicole's become much more comfortable around me. We’ve slipped into a groove.
Everything between us is like we’ve known each other for years. Since we’ve slept together, Nicole is comfortable in her own skin like I’ve never seen her before. She's confident, and that only makes her sexier. It's as if she’s come into her own.
As she's now more comfortable; I'm getting nervous. She’s been asking me questions the whole night. It's as if she's suddenly decided to get to know who I really am. I haven't told her much. Aside from everything to do with Elanda and my destiny, I don't have that much to tell her.
My royal lineage is a secret I intend to keep. There's no coming back from that. No way to put the genie back in the bottle once it's out. It would change things between us, and I don't want that to happen. I like the way things are going with us. Why ruin it now?
She asks me if I can take her to my apartment.
"I don’t even know where you live," she says.
I resist at first. I rarely ever bring women back to my place. I’d done that with Jessica, and that had turned into a goddamn nightmare. Still, Nicole is nothing like Jessica. I can't think of a good reason to tell her no.
We drive in my car, and I weave through the streets of the Upper East Side. It doesn't take long before I pull into the parking garage beneath my building.
"This is it?" Nicole asks.
I nod. "Yeah, this is it."
She looks around at the other parking spots. "There are a lot of expensive cars down here," she says.
I glance at the cars. My neighbors are all wealthy. They all have expensive cars, just like I do.
"I guess so," I say.
We take the elevator, and I press the button for the penthouse.
"Fancy," she says. I nod. The elevator doors ping and slide open in the lobby. Someone else calls for it. When the doors open, Nicole gasps and steps out of the elevator.
"This is just the lobby," I say.
"I know," she says, turning around. "Look at this place!"
I look at it the way a stranger might see it. The floor is marble, and the front desk is a colossal structure with a marble top. Large, real plants decorate the corners, bursting with colorful flowers. Security stands in front of the doors. It isn't exactly the kind of thing Nicole is used to.
This is why I don't want to bring women home with me. I've done it before, and the reaction is always the same. They're intimidated by my wealth. Either that, or like Jessica when she’d found out my status by accident, they stop seeing me as just a man. They’re more interested in my money and what I can offer them as a crown prince. I don't think Nicole would ever be like that, but I don't want to risk it. I have no more than eleven days left before going back home. There's no reason to ruin it all now. We have such a good thing going.
"This is amazing," Nicole says to me. "I can’t believe you’re so modest about it all. This is like walking into a palace."
I shrug. "Come on," I say. "I’ll show you my place before I take you home."
Nicole nods and walks back to the elevator. I press the button. The doors slide open almost immediately, and we step in. I press the button for the penthouse again. When the doors slide closed, we're in the elevator alone.
"What is it your parents do again?" she asks me. "I mean, you mentioned taking over the family business, but I never asked what that was."
I shrug. "It’s sort of a management thing, you could say. It’s not really for me, though. I don’t want to go into it."
"You’re not going to break away and do your own thing?" she asks.
I shake my head. If only. "My parents are a little overbearing. As their only son, I’m afraid I don’t have much of a choice."
"That’s a pity," Nicole says. "But the money in this business has to be worth it. I mean, I know that’s not what it’s about, but if you’re just out of school and already living in a place like this?" She looks at me. Her eyes are serious. "It just looks like a nice life."
I take a deep breath. "It’s complicated," I say. "I don’t really want to talk about it." She nods. I look at her. Nicole and I are enclosed in a small space, and I can smell her perfume. I breathe it in, and it awakens the primal side in me.
Over these last few weeks, I’ve been keeping my ravenous appetites in check. I don't want to scare Nicole away. But now that she has opened up to me, I can't hold back any more.
I pull her closer to me.
"I want you," I say. "Now."
"Here?"
I nod. "You have to do it in a public space at least one," I nuzzle her neck, my hand already on her breast. She moans, tipping her head back for me.
"Is that so?" she moans her breath sweet and warm against my ear as I massage her breast. She’s leaning into my touch and my kiss, so I know she wants me too.
"I think you want me," I breathe on her neck before tugging at her skin with my teeth.
"I always want you, Thomas," my cock grows as she speaks my name in that needy voice I’ve grown to love so much.
She might think she wants me all the time, but she has no idea what that’s really like. I, on the other hand do, because I’m used to having a woman every night and to my surprise Nicole is still the only woman I’ve been seeing, so if I don’t see her I go without, which leaves me with a constant hunger for her. And I do mean constant.
This might be too much for her, and I know I’m running the risk of her running off, but I want her so badly I can’t stop myself. Nicole isn’t the same girl I first started dating. Gone is the timid girl who wouldn’t tell me she was a virgin, so I trust she’ll let me know if she’s uncomfortable. Besides, even before she was comfortable and relaxed with me, she had no problem letting me know when enough was enough.
"Then let me have you," I slowly gather the hem of her dress, my fingertips running along her soft thigh with each exposed inch.
"We have to hide from the camera," she whispers conspiratorially while glancing at the camera in the top right corner of the elevator.
A deep desire rushes through me as I realize she’s going to let me have her in the elevator. She doesn’t know, but I was worried she would reject me. She’s been adjusting to me, becoming a freak, trying different types of acts and now she’s ready to try new places. My manhood swells as my fingertips feel the drenched lace of her panties.
"You’re soaked," I gasp when I slide my finger beneath the thin fabric to feel the slickness of her velvety opening.
"Ahh
," she moans, completely ignoring my observation.
She’s like putty in my hands, wanting me to mold her, bend her, and do whatever is necessary to get her off. In the past weeks we’ve become quite addicted to each other and although I often feel like its just me experiencing these feelings of intense attraction, I’m regularly given signs that she is right there with me and now is no different. She wants me, and she wants me bad.
She’s moaning in the elevator, and then she reaches behind her and pushes the emergency stop button hard. She damn near punches the button.
"What are you doing?" I ask, confused.
"We need time." She answers flatly, looking up to me with lust swirling in those beautiful gray eyes I love so much.
"Two seconds ago you were worried about the camera," I remind her, a mischievous grin on m face.
"That was before I realized you could block me," she explains, her hands humbling with my belt. I’m watching her in disbelief, she’s craving me like I want her to—exactly the same way I do her. After unbuttoning my pants, my heavy cock falls into her hands, stiff as a log.
Glancing over my shoulder, I look toward the camera, debating the best way to fuck her, hard and fast, without giving Andy, the security guard in the lobby, a free peep show. Realizing that Nicole is right, as long as we stay at this angle there's no way they’ll be able to see us; I make a move, but before I can turn to tell her the plan I feel a wet warmness on my cock.
"Oh fuck!" I blurt out, turning to see Nicole on her knees, a mouth full of my cock as she sloppily kisses my member before stuffing me down her throat.
She’s gotten so good at giving blow jobs, I have to really focus to stop from cumming, and that’s gonna be even more difficult today because of the circumstances. It’s just something about the secrecy and potential to be caught, especially since she’s pushed the emergency stop. My cock is hardening against her soft tongue as she moans with my cock in her mouth.