by Clark, Wayne
seem to think I’m not fit for civilization. Sad right? Great news though, I
get to see my twin daughters in a few weeks’ time, it would be my first
time seeing them, just wish it was with Jennifer though. I can’t stop
thinking about Jennifer, all I do is think what if time could be reversed?
Could I have changed what had happen? Maybe I could have kept my
mouth shut, I suppose anyone would do the same if they were in my
shoes right? I heard someone walking towards my room.
“Hello John, are you ready?”
“Yes I’m ready, have been for the last hour”
It’s not as bad as you think it is though, I got TV in my room, the bonus
tablet that stops me from having them dreams. Although I few minor
hiccups’ kind of like hands coming out of the wall trying
to grab me... just kidding. I seem more angry and hitting out, hence why
I’m here, I suppose the words is called crazy. I do still see things though
but I keep hush so I can get out of here, it’s hard not to hit out
but that is due to the medication they feed you.
“john I’m going to be taken you today, please try be on you best”
The guy was talking to me as if I was ten years old? Don’t you hate it when
people talk like that?
“Really? Right, one I’m going to my wife’s funeral, second stop talking to me as if I’m a child”
“I didn’t mean anything by it John, my apology”
Yes I will admit I could punch his face right now, sarcastic asshole. I was
escorted out side to a car where I will make my way to the funeral, yes it’s
back in pluckley village. I am glad I’m not in chains though, I’m not at that
stage where I need them. Few hours passed we had arrived in pluckley, I
felt sick to be seeing my wife be buried forever. The guy that was taking
me was really nice to me even though he was an asshole back at the
hospital.
“I know this is going to be hard for you John, believe me I no”
“Really? How could you possibly know?”
“Because I lost my wife five years ago in a house fire”
“I... I’m really sorry”
“Don’t be, just remember it does get easier”
He wasn’t bad at all, I suppose I am not the only one who had lost
someone close to me. We just arrived at the church, my mother was
waiting for me at the gates. As I got out the car my mother had run up to
me and held me, I felt safe, like I was a baby being held.
“My poor boy”
“Mum, I’m sorry about everything “
“John nothing is your fault”
I couldn’t accept that, if I hadn’t of banged on that window at the
hospital, then Jennifer would be alive, well that’s what I think anyway.
Mother and I was walking inside the church to meet everyone else, I felt
out of place, lime I was to blame, that I shouldn’t be here, maybe they are
thinking that? When I was standing there, all I could see in front of me
was Jennifer’s coffin, I was in tears all I wanted was to hold her one last
time. But that sort of thing doesn’t happen, does it? When you lose
someone they are gone for good.
“Are you ok John?”
“Yea I suppose I have to be”
She didn’t know what to say bless her, I don’t either, I just need to get on
with it. We all sat down to say prays and our goodbyes, mother asked if I
would like to say anything, I just could t, nothing will bring her back, so
what is the point. Ten minutes had passed by, we all headed outside for
the last goodbyes, I wasn’t myself at all, I just wanted time to roll back so I
could change what had happen. Who am I kidding. My mother gave me a
rose to lay on Jennifer’s coffin, thoughtful of her. The vicar was saying his
prays while Jennifer was being lowered into the ground, we all throw our
rose’s on Jennifer’s coffin. Strange thing then happened, I heard Jennifer
screaming, banging around inside the coffin.
“Get me out of here, some one!”
No one was batting an eye lid, they couldn’t hear her but I could.
“What’s wrong with you all, Jennifer is alive in there?”
No one was listening to me nor looking or responding to me, I jumped
down to try and help her, my
name was called, I had then turned around and there he was, doctor
Carter. He spoke to me?
“If only you could turn back time. I have you john. What’s real, what’s fake? You chose”
Do you want to know what was funny? I had woken up from a coma, I was
in a coma for two months, Jennifer and the twins where fine, me I was I’ll.
I was told by doctors that I was in a coma when Sargent Jackson had
phoned an ambulance as I passed out at home and that I only had just
woken. Jennifer was on her way to see me, she had been told I had woken
from the coma. I can safely say this is no dream. I really couldn’t wait
much longer to see Jennifer and the twins, I was saddened I wasn’t
around to see the birth of our baby’s, but what matters is we are both
alive. I was speaking with the doctor about why I has slipped into a coma,
they didn’t have an answer to that at this moment. Jennifer had then
walked in with our baby’s.
“John, I have been worried sick about you”
“I am so sorry about all this “
“John darling, I want you to meet our baby’s, I hadn’t named them”
I looked over the double buggy, and there they were, so beautiful,
sleeping away without a care in the world. I was so happy, strange I
thought I had been given a second chance, could this be?
“How are you feeling John?”
“Headache, sick, tired. They don’t even know what is wrong with me?”
“I wouldn’t worry too much right now John “
Jennifer and I was talking away, about our future with our children, the
doctor had walked in.
“John. I have some news”
I was prepared for the worse. What could scare me more? The Dreams, or
death its self? The dreams of course. Who would want to live having
messed up dreams that feel like reality?
“Ok, fire away, I’m dying right? “
“No you are not dying John, you have Narcolepsy”
I didn’t understand what the hell that was till he explained better. It’s a
disorder characterized by sudden and uncontrollable, though often brief,
attacks of deep sleep, sometimes accompanied by paralysis and
hallucinations. I was terrified, I don’t want to keep having dreams like
this?
“So what next? “
“In mild cases john, making some simple changes to your sleeping habits can help. If the symptoms are more severe, you will usually need to take medication however, you are passed mild now”
“So my husband will just crash out whenever then?”
“It’s hard to say, however specialist will prescribe a type of medicine known as a stimulant, such as modafinil, dexamphetamine or methylphenidate”
“Doctor, what is that going to do for me?”
“These medications stimulate your central nervous system, which can help keep you awake during the day. They are usually taken as tablets every morning, I will be back again john, ok?”
“Ok, oh doctor, just want to say thank you”
All I am hoping for now is the m
edication to work. Jennifer looked upset,
can’t blame her. I can’t dwell on this, it happens to many people right?
Jennifer was feeding the twins, I asked if she wanted any help.
She didn’t want me picking them up right now, how can I not dwell on
this? I can’t even pick up my own child for God sake.
“Jennifer I have got to try?”
“John, just not right now, ok?”
Doctor had come back round to talk with me more.
“Right then, we need to keep you in for a few days to keep a close eye on you, I know you would want to go home but right now it’s not advised john“
“Why can’t you just give me the medication and send me on my way?”
“It’s not as easy as that I’m afraid”
I suppose I was trying to pull a fast one, nothing would pull the wool from
his eyes. He then left again, I needed to talk with Jennifer about how she
is coping back at home.
“How are you coping at home Jennifer?”
“Ok, I suppose, jack does miss you, I miss you top, its cold there without you”
“Why don’t you ask Cathy to stay with you?”
“Who?”
“Cathy, your best friend? “
“John I don’t have a friend called Cathy?”
“You do, she came to our house with her friends to investigate the tunnels?”
“John, that never happen, I don’t have a friend called Cathy, they is no tunnel”
“But you know about the story of Doctor Carter right? I showed you the reports?”
“Yes you did, but tunnels where covered over years ago, before our time John, I get your related to doctor Carter, but you are becoming way to obsessed“
“Can I ask you one thing Jennifer?”
“Sure?”
“Do you believe that house is haunted?”
“Of course, yes things have been happing there “
“There you go, does that answer things?”
“No not really john, you are attracting the negatives”
“So I’m crazy?”
“No, I never said that John, I understand what you are going through”
Jennifer and I was talking for some time now, she had to head back home
as it was getting late.
“How are you getting back?”
“Well I had told your mum you have woken up, so she will see you for ten minutes then give me a lift home”
“Oh right”
“Speaking of your mum, she just texted me that she is just finding a parking space”
Jennifer was then getting ready to go back home. Me well I was feeling
trapped, confused, that they was no such thing as Cathy, only fiction of
my imagination. I spent most of the day asking Jennifer so
many questions about our life in that house. I needed to know what was
real and what was fake. It’s like adding up the pros and cons.
“Is Sargent Jackson real?”
“Yes John he is real.”
Thank God he was, I don’t know what I would think if he wasn’t real.
“I blame him for this John?”
“Huh? Why?”
“Because he has been giving you all this information, drumming things into your head, you need to keep away from him.”
“Ok. I will keep away.”
“Baby. I just need you better for our children?”
“Ok, well we will get back on track OK, no more of this”
Mother had just walked over to us. She gave me a big hug, I felt safe
again. You know that feeling when you are held by your mother? Nice
isn’t it? Mother didn’t stay long, she had to take Jennifer back home.
“I will try see you soon son, try rest as much as you can”
They had then both left, I guess all I can do is rest, nothing else I can do
right now. A week had passed by, I had been home for a few days now,
and feels great to be home, tablets seem to be working wonders, which is
a result. Jennifer and I had named the twins Lilly and eve, the day I had
came out of hospital. Jennifer and I had visitors coming today, George and
his lovely wife Anne. The doorbell had rung.
“John darling can you get that please!”
“Yes just going now honey!”
I felt really happy, felt as if life was finely back on track, I had answered
the door.
“Ah John, how are you?”
“Yes, I’m keeping well thank you, come in both of you”
I had invited George and his wife into our home while Jennifer was
changing the baby’s.
“Would you both like a drink?”
“Oh no thank you, we can’t stop long”
Jennifer had walked into the living room with Lilly and eve, we was all
chatting away, it was lovely to have had a visit with George and his wife.
As Jennifer got up, they was a loud bang upstairs.
“John is jack upstairs? “
“No. he is lying in his bed over there Jennifer.”
“Right, me and my wife have to go, but we will come and see you both soon?”
George and his wife Anne felt very out of place and seemed very anxious
being here.
“Yes, sure, it was really nice having you both here”
“Defiantly, we will see you both soon, we will let yourself out”
George and Anne had then left, Jennifer told me to look after Lilly and eve
while she takes a look upstairs, I insisted to check myself, she didn’t want
me to? Jennifer was about to walk upstairs had then
a book case from the top of the stairs came tumbling down, just missing
her by inch’s.
“Wow! Why that was dam close!”
“Jennifer, what was that?”
“You know what John this place don’t faze me anymore”
“Right, but what was that falling down the stairs?”
“Just the book case”
She was brave. She didn’t care that this place was crazy, she was showing
know fear. I then walked in the hallway to see what had happen, it was
broken.
“Babe you go look after Lilly and eve, I will clear this up”
“Yes sure, I think we will keep the top of the stairs clear from now on John”
Jack ran upstairs barking at our bedroom door, lily and eve where both
crying, it was a mad house.
“Jack, give it a rest!”
I than took the book case outside in the back garden. I then had felt faint
and dropped the book case. I had then stopped for a rest for a while, I had
then taken the book case outside. I thought I would chill
outside with jack for a while playing fetch with jack. I then had thought
about something when I was a kid, I would sleep in the basement of my
house. Every night I would sleep with my little dog. One night I
had woken up, I was just scared for no reason. No bad dreams, nothing
happened, not even a noise... I was just terrified. Then my dog goes
insane. He gets off the bed, starts barking with his hair standing up,
he acts like he is chasing, squaring up with something... showing his teeth,
and leaning forward. He then chases something I can't see at all into the
corner, he was barking trying to keep it in the corner.
Needless to say, I was confused, scared like hell. After a while my dog just
calmed down and moved away from the corner like the threat was gone.
It was weird. I always had weird stuff happen like that as a child.
Even when I hit the age of twenty two, even then what happen when I
was with my ex-girlfriend I was
staying at my ex-girlfriend’s house. Woke
in the early morning with some guy wearing a hat with a mullet standing
over our bed shaking his head. Freaked the hell out of me, I turned
the light on and the guy is still there but has faded slightly. Still shaking his
head? He walks Backwards and steps into my ex-girlfriends open
wardrobe where he stood looking at the floor Shaking his head till he
eventually faded to the point where I couldn't see him. Freaks me out to
This day because it was very real, and we can't work out who the
apparition was. My ex-girlfriend Said the family who lived there before
herhad killed his wife and took his own.It was getting cold I Headed back
inside with jack. Jennifer and I was trying to get Lilly and eve to sleep so
we could Spend some time with each, few hours passed it was around ten
at night, Jennifer and I was on the sofa watching a film, Jennifer was
getting paranoid about Lilly and eve being upstairs on their own. However
I said we have the baby monitoring kit on, she was still paranoid.
“John can we keep Lilly and eve with us tonight please”
“It will be OK, you said we should forget right?”
“Well...yes, but it’s hard to considering having a book case being aimed at you John?”
“Jennifer, tell you what we will do tonight, we will keep ours and there bedroom door open tonight?”
“I suppose so John”
We both sat watching TV feeling more in love, drinking wine together, I
noticed her looking at me as if we both met for the first time again. Time
was getting on I couldn’t stop yawning.
“You tired John?”
“Yea absolutely, you?”
“Yes, come on you”
We headed upstairs to go to bed, we both sneaked into Lilly and eves
room to check on them, they were both fine, both of them looked
adorable as they were sleeping.
“Oh John, we are so lucky aren’t we?”
“We most definitely are”
We had then went to bed just lying there cuddling and talking away, I feel
Jennifer and I have become a lot closer than ever before.
“I really love you Jennifer”
“Aww honey I love you too”
We was talking but Jennifer and I suddenly heard footsteps going down
the stairs.
“Shhh, John can you hear that?”
“Yea, sounds like footsteps going down the stairs?”
“John we need to get Lilly and eve in here with us”