Accidental Daddy: A Billionaire's Baby Romance

by R. R. Banks

  The woman just knows how to piss me off.

  “Eric,” Vance says. “Why don't you get out of here? Take the rest of the day and chill out, man. Go get something to eat. A drink or something. Jean and I can handle the rest of your consults this afternoon.”

  It's not a bad idea. I need to get out and clear my head. Calm down. This little row with Jean is nothing new and I shouldn't be feeling as worked up about it as I am. I'm self-aware enough to know that my issue isn't with Jean. Not really. I'm pissed about something else and am taking it out on her. I know this and yet, can't stop myself from doing it – because she knows how to push my buttons.

  “Yeah, that's probably a good idea,” I say.

  Vance nods. “Good. Yeah, that's good.”

  I take off my coat, drop it on my chair, grab my bag, and walk out of the office without another word. I'm just so over today.

  Chapter Eight

  Calee

  I'm awake shortly before the sun, just staring at the ceiling of our cabin. My stomach is roiling and I feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm doing all I can to fight off the nausea that's gripping me tight. I stifle the moan that threatens to escape my lips. I don't want Ruth to know that I'm sick again because given the fact that I've been sick first thing in the morning every day this past week, I know it will only lead to questions I don't want to answer. Questions I don't even want to contemplate.

  Her words from that first day come back to me. Maybe you're pregnant. At the time, it was an offhanded remark that I'd just brushed off. Even though I've been sleeping with Danny for a little while now, I didn't think it was possible. We're always careful and always use condoms. It's not possible that I'm pregnant.

  Is it?

  I'm scared and I need to talk to Danny. If it turns out I am pregnant – I don't know what I'm going to do. I know that if I'm pregnant, Raymond and his Shepherds would do horrible things to me. They might even kill me. I once heard a story about one of Raymond's brides – after she'd been set aside – getting pregnant by a boy in town.

  She disappeared.

  From what I've heard, Raymond explained it away. He told his flock that she'd been exiled for her sins and that she'd been sent to live with another family to have her child – well away from the Ark, where she couldn't contaminate others with her poisonous sins. The person who told me that story, an older woman named Clea, didn't believe it for a minute and was sure the woman had been killed and her body buried somewhere on the compound.

  I don't want to end up that way. Dead and buried in some shallow, unmarked grave. I don't want to end up dead at all, actually. Which means, I really need to talk to Danny. And that means, I am going to need to come up with a reason to go into town.

  Our movements are strictly monitored by Raymond and the Shepherds. We must have approval to leave the compound and are sometimes escorted into town – depending on how paranoid Raymond is feeling at the time. Most of the time, he's able to maintain his composure. He knows his followers need the illusion of calm and stability. And being that he's a very capable chameleon, he gives them that.

  But every once in a while, his grip on his calm slips. I've seen him fly into a rage and it's terrifying.

  The Ark is raided by the local authorities pretty regularly. Sometimes, even the FBI and the ATF show up once in a while too. Outside of the compound, Danny tells me that Noah's Children is thought of as a cult. And Raymond, being the fanatical religious leader, is often compared to Jim Jones or David Koresh.

  But if they ask me, I can tell them that Noah's Children – and Raymond – are so much more than that. Something so much scarier. Something so much more dangerous.

  The authorities know there are illegal weapons on the compound, but they've yet to find them. I really wish there was a way for me to tell them where to look, but I can't without exposing myself to risk. I'm not even supposed to know. I accidentally stumbled into the underground bunker one day.

  Raymond is smart and simply uses religion as a pretext to keep all of his followers obedient and in line. When I was still in his good graces, I once overheard him telling his Shepherds that religious fanatics are the easiest people to control because they're the most weak-minded – which is why they prey on them. He doesn't know I eavesdropped on that conversation, but it's something that's stuck with me for a long time.

  I remember that it was the first time I saw through his mask of piety and saw Raymond for what he really is – a violent, evil man who preys on the weak. I never wanted to be part of this cult – I was forced into it. And if I wasn't so afraid of dying, I'd run away.

  “You up?”

  The sudden sound of Ruth's voice startles me and pulls me out of my thoughts. I clear my throat and sit up on the edge of my bed, doing my best to push down the feelings of nausea that welled up within me.

  “I'm up,” I reply.

  Ruth slips her shapeless gray dress over her head and sits down on her bed to put on her shoes. I take the dress hanging in the peg next to my bed and put it on. We have to get over to the kitchen to help start making breakfast for the community. It's not my favorite thing to do, but it's way better than the back-breaking work of tending to the gardens.

  I tie my shoes and stand up, smoothing the wrinkles out of my dress. I feel the bile rise up in my throat and taste the vomit in my mouth. Not wanting Ruth to know – or suspect – anything, I force myself to swallow it all down.

  “I'm going to ask Raymond if I can go into town today,” I say. “Do you need me to pick anything up for you?”

  “What are you going into town for?” Ruth asks. “Normal shopping day isn't until Thursday.”

  “I need a few – personal items.”

  Ruth nods as if she understands. “Come, we need to get over to the kitchen.”

  I follow her out of the cabin and across the compound to the kitchen, where I begin my chores for the day. This is what life is like for one of the Fruitless – an existence of endless chores and serving others. I hate it. More than I can even possibly express.

  Chapter Nine

  I stand at one of the stands in the local farmer's market, looking at the display of fresh fruits and vegetables. I can see some of the townspeople casting furtive glances in my direction and whispering to one another in hushed tones. I'm used to it. The plain gray, shapeless dress I wear singles me out as one of Noah's Children. And if there's one thing I've learned, it's that the people of Elk Plains don't care much for Raymond and Noah's children – not that I can really blame them.

  But you'd think that Raymond's cult, being part of the community more or less, for as long as they have, people would get used to seeing us. Or would eventually grow bored with all of the whispered insults and dirty looks. It took some time, but I eventually learned to just let roll off my back.

  The sound of a Greyhound bus rumbles by behind me. I turn and watch it go, part of me still wishing I could hop aboard and just go – anywhere. It doesn't matter where. I just want to go anywhere that isn't the Ark. Actually, if I had my choice in the matter, I'd never set foot in the state of Wyoming again.

  When the time is right, I keep telling myself. When I'm strong enough and ready, I'll leave. I'll put the Ark and Noah's Children and Raymond behind me. Forever. When the time is right.

  I've thought about running away more times than I can count. I even started to head toward the bus terminal in town once. But then I remembered – like I always remember – Raymond's warning. Every time I step foot off the Ark, he reminds me that there is nowhere I can go that he won't find me. Even remembering his words – and the tone of his voice when he says it – right now still sends chills down my spine.

  And I've seen his Shepherds drag enough runaways back to the compound that I believe him. I have no idea how he does it, how he tracks down the runaways, but he somehow manages to find them. And when he gets them back, they face severe consequences – like the girl who'd just been lashed.

  The threat is real enough that it keeps me in li
ne. Keeps anybody thinking about running away in line. Not that there are all that many of us. Most of the girls he keeps on the Ark are broken down, brainwashed and subservient to him. Raymond is good at that.

  Having overcome that – most of it, anyway – I guess I'm one of the lucky ones.

  It took me a long time to see him for who he is, but now I see it plain as day. Well – time and help from Danny. Before I met him, I was a mess. A shell of a person, really. I'd let Raymond beat me down and take away any sense of my own power and control. Raymond ran my life and dictated everything to me.

  I know it's all part of his need to control me. It's all part of how he programs and controls everybody who comes to live at the Ark – especially the young girls. That's just who Raymond is.

  In the beginning, like all the other girls on the Ark, I'd been broken down. I'd been made to feel useless. Worthless. Degraded. I came to believe that without Raymond, I was nothing. That he was my whole world and my only salvation in this life. He made me feel good. Important. Like I mattered.

  At least, until I hadn't provided him with a child and had been set aside. Had become one of the Fruitless. Now, I'm barely a consideration to Raymond. I'm little better thought of than a house maid. I guess now that he considers me past my peak child bearing years, my only value to him and the community is as a servant.

  It had been the lowest point of my life and there were a million times I thought about ending it all.

  But then Danny and I struck up a friendship, and things began to change. My whole world began to change, actually. During my trips into town, we'd talk quite a bit. It took a while – and a lot of patience and persistence on his part – but he finally started getting me to open up to him. I told him all about the horrible life out on the Ark and the abuse I – and the other women – suffered at the hands of Raymond and his Shepherds.

  Over time, Danny showed me how wrong my thinking had been. Had showed me that I actually was worth something. That I could have my own thoughts and feelings. With Danny's help, I'd started to piece together all those shattered pieces of me. It would take some time to heal completely – if I ever really did – but I was starting down that road.

  “Hey, I wasn't expectin' to see you today,” he says softly. “I was surprised to get your text.”

  I turn at the sound of Danny's voice and try to offer him a smile, but feel it falter before it ever crosses my face. I can feel the tears welling in my eyes and curse myself. The last thing I need is for the townspeople to see me crying – or Danny comforting me.

  I have no idea how Raymond knows the things he knows. The only answer that makes sense is that he has spies among the people in town. Spies that report back to him, tell him what we're doing when we're in town. Elk Plains is a small town and we tend to stick out like sore thumbs, so it wouldn't be too difficult to keep tabs on us.

  It's one of the reasons Danny and I keep our relationship a secret. Why we jump through a million different hoops to see one another. He keeps a cell phone for me in his cabin that I use to contact him when I'm going into town. We take separate routes to the cabin and arrive at different times.

  We take every precaution we can think of to keep from being seen together – and still I worry. The last thing I want is for anything bad to happen to Danny because of me. Because of our relationship.

  “You okay?” he asks.

  I pick up an apple and pretend to inspect it, gritting my teeth and willing away the tears threatening to spill down my cheeks.

  “No, not really,” I whisper.

  “Did he do something to you?”

  I shake my head. “Can we go to the cabin?” I ask. “We need to talk.”

  Danny looks around and nods, a pensive look upon his face. “Yeah, sure,” he says. “I just need to get Tom to watch the stand.”

  During the school year, Danny is a teacher. But he also helps out at his friend's fruit and vegetable stand when school isn't in session – which is where we meet when I'm able to slip into town on my own. It's actually where we met for the first time – he'd been working and I was picking some things up for the compound.

  “Okay, I'll meet you there,” I said. “Oh, I need you to pick something up first.”

  “Sure, what?”

  When I told him what I needed him to pick up, his eyes grew wide and his face paled. But he nodded and said he'd grab it and meet me there.

  I pay for the apples and leave the stand, walking back the way I'd come – back toward Danny's hunting cabin out in the woods. It's in a secluded section of the forest and he owns the land around it, making it a nice little hideaway. One well away from prying eyes where we can be together without having to worry about being discovered.

  Danny's cabin is where I began to put the shattered pieces of my life – myself – back together again. It's where I discovered that I'm not what Raymond made me believe I am. It's where I learned that I'm not just an extension of Raymond, that despite what he's made me believe, I am my own person, free to have my own thoughts and feelings. Free to form my own opinions. Free to question.

  Danny's cabin is where I've been finding salvation and redemption for myself.

  But now, I'm terrified that all of the work I've done is going to be undone. That my world is about to come crashing down around me.

  Please – if there is a God out there – don't let my worst fears be true.

  ~ooo000ooo~

  “I – I can't believe it,” he says.

  Danny is sitting across from me at the kitchen table in his cabin looking every bit as dumbfounded and shell-shocked as I feel. I look again at the stick in my hand and shake my head. I can't believe it. I really can't believe it.

  “I'm pregnant,” I say, my voice a quavering whisper.

  Danny sits back in his seat and runs his hand over his face. “I – I can't believe this,” he says again.

  “How did this happen?” I ask. “We've always been so careful. So safe.”

  He sighs. “Nothing is ever one hundred percent,” he says. “We happened to roll snake eyes.”

  It feels like there is a physical pressure to the air around us that's pressing down on me. My heart is thundering in my chest and the adrenaline is flowing freely through my veins. I look at the pregnancy test again and see the trembling in my hand is getting even worse. Honestly, I'm terrified.

  Danny stands up and paces around the room, running his hand through his short, brown hair. His face is tight, his eyes pinched. He's the picture of stress. And I can only imagine the look on my face mirrors his.

  Maybe it was stupid. Naive. Or maybe I'd just been too caught up in enjoying the first taste of freedom I've ever had in my life. Danny was the first man I'd ever willingly given myself to. He's a good man with a good heart. He's the polar opposite of Raymond. I enjoy our times together. Enjoy being with him – not just sexually, but in every other way.

  But pregnancy was not something I ever really thought about.

  I look up and see Danny turn to me, a smile on his face. He sits back down across from me, his smile seeming to grow even wider and looks like he'd just had the most brilliant thought to ever cross the mind of man.

  “Danny, I don't think we have much to be smiling about right now.”

  He nods his head. “Actually, we do,” he says. “We're just looking at this the wrong way, Calee.”

  I shake my head, not knowing what to say to him. Turning up pregnant at the Ark – given that I'm one of the Fruitless and have supposedly been untouched by any man since I was set aside – is surely going to mean my death. Raymond doesn't tolerate betrayal, and even though he has a dozen other wives, he isn't going to see this as anything but that – a betrayal.

  “I don't understand,” I say. “I don't know what other way there is to look at this.”

  “This is actually great news,” he says.

  “Great news?” I ask. “I don't see how this –”

  Reaching across the table, he takes my hands in his. “This
gives us our way out, Calee.”

  “Our way out?”

  He nods and gives my hands a squeeze. “You know you can't stay out there with Raymond,” he says. “Not being pregnant with somebody else's child.”

  “I know.”

  “I know you're scared to leave the Ark,” he says. “I know you've been waiting for the time to be right or whatever. Maybe this is your sign that the time is right.”

  “Where will I go though, Danny?” I ask. “I have no money. No job. No place to stay. I can't just leave and –”

  “We can figure all of that out,” he says.

  “We?”

  He nods eagerly, his smile even wider. “Yes, we,” he says. “You, me, and our child. We can leave here and start fresh somewhere else. We can build a life together, Calee.”

  His words hit me like a sledgehammer and I don't know what to think or say. Whenever I thought about running away, it was always just me. I've always pictured myself building a new life somewhere alone.

  “I love you, Calee,” Danny says. “And I want to us to be together, hon. This gives us that chance. Don't you see that?”

  “Danny, I –”

  “We can be a family,” he says.

  Love. It's such a small word but one that has so much meaning. I've never really thought about whether or not I love Danny. I enjoy our time together. Enjoy being with him. But do I love him? I don't know. I really don't know. I certainly care about Danny. That's not even a question. But love? I'm just not sure.

  My automatic reflex is to say yes. To tell him what he wants to hear. To tell Danny I love him and want to run away and start a family with him somewhere. It's been second nature for me to make others happy – but I know that's the default setting Raymond had programmed into me. For so long, it was something ground into me. Ingrained into me. As Raymond's wife, my only thought, my only goal, was to say or do whatever it took to make him happy.