I look at her more closely; she’s starting to fade a little. I need to bring her back. “Why didn’t you tell me that you were a Pomp, Lissa? I found you on Facebook last night.”
“I’m surprised it took you that long,” she says.
“Well, what with the shooting, and the running, and your appearing and disappearing… I’m a Pomp, not a detective. And then I had a lot to drink.” The hangover’s circling again and, in the busy street, everything’s starting to tilt into the surreal. Lissa gives me a look that could pass as sympathetic but for the edge to it. Her gaze holds me and, stupid as it is here and now, I’m thinking how beautiful she is. My kind of beautiful—and I’d never really been aware that I’d had a kind of beautiful before I met her. Why now?
“I’m sorry,” she says, “but death is… confusing. Painful, scary, everything moves so fast. I was shifting from Pomp to Pomp. With the first one I was fine, not that it helped him—knife to the back, horrible. But by the time I got you—and I wasn’t controlling who I ended up with—I was rather…scattered.”
“But how did you shift from Pomp to Pomp in the first place? That’s not possible is it?”
“Look, I was desperate, and dead, Steven. Who knows what’s possible?”
“How long has this been going on?”
“I know about as much as you. Two days at least. You saw me those first times. I was confused. You grounded me.” She swings her face close to mine. I could just… I mean I want to… Those lips. There’s a charge shooting up my spine. An ache I thought I’d never feel again.
Enough.
“That’s my job. You know how it is,” I say, and step away. She doesn’t. How could she? Lissa is so far out of my league. I’m actually feeling a little lousy about not recognizing her from the start, because I did know her. Not personally, but enough that I realize that I recognize her. There aren’t that many Pomps working in Australia. “You work in Melbourne.”
“Um, I used to work in Melbourne,” she says slowly. “No one does, now. They’re all dead. There’s a whole Night of the Long Knives thing going on.”
I must be looking at her blankly because she slows it down even more. “You know, the Night of the Long Knives? Hitler gets an out-with-the-old-and-in-with-the-new attitude and kills his Brown-shirts’ leaders—”
I clear my throat. “I know about Nazis. I’ve got the History Channel, watch it all the time. You think this is an inside job? It doesn’t make any sense.”
Lissa regards me with those striking green eyes of hers, and I’m feeling stupid. “Think about it, Steven.”
How can I think about anything when she’s looking at me that way?
“Anything else doesn’t make sense,” she says. “Whoever’s doing this has to understand our communication system, our computers. We don’t outsource any of that.”
We stop at the corner of George and Ann, waiting for the lights to change. Big trucks and maxi-taxis roar by, dragging curtains of dust and diesel fumes. I don’t hear the phone, just feel it vibrating in my pocket. Number Four, the LCD says. I show it to Lissa. She looks from the little screen to me, and back again.
“You better answer it.”
I don’t know what I’m going to hear, don’t know if I want to hear it. I lift the phone to my ear. “Yes?”
“Steven?”
Finally, someone I know. “Morrigan, thank Christ.” In the background, above Morrigan’s voice, the One Tree creaks. Morrigan is definitely in Number Four.
Words pour out of me. “I tried to get into work. The door was locked, wouldn’t shift, and then the door was something else.” I sound like a child, reporting to their head teacher. Lissa watches me and my face burns, though there’s no judgment in her expression.
“It’s lockdown in here,” Morrigan says. “Only we haven’t done the locking. I don’t know who it is. There’s three of them. Stirrers from the feel of it, but not like any I’ve encountered before. For one, they’re using weapons. They’ve not yet made it into the main offices. You’re lucky you couldn’t get inside, believe me. Everyone in the vestibule is dead.”
“Do you want me to come back?” Something shatters. A gun fires. Even down the phone the sounds have me flinching.
“No, that would be… unwise.” Morrigan’s voice lowers to a whisper. “We’re holed up here. I’m trying to get some word out. Just keep away. Derek’s here. If we can keep them out of the main office, I can still keep track of people.”
I hesitate. “I’m not far away… I could—”
“You’ll do no such thing,” he snaps. “You keep away, Steven. Keep moving. You did good running. They’d have just gotten you too. We’re losing Pomps.”
“I know, Lissa told me.”
He’s silent for a moment. Then, “Lissa—Lissa Jones is with you?”
“Not exactly.”
“Oh.” I can hear the sadness in his voice. Morrigan knows everyone. He may be based in Brisbane, but he has a lot of influence in the other states, too. You don’t get to the top without knowing the people beneath you. “You listen to her, Steven. This is worse than I thought. If Lissa’s gone, Melbourne’s gone, too, probably Sydney as well. She’ll help you. I need you to stay out of this. Tell her, I’m sorry.”
“Maybe Tim—”
“No, keep him out of it. The last thing we want is the government involved. If they trample over this the whole country’s going to circle the drain. He’s your cousin, Steven, but he’s not one of us. He made his decision.”
“OK, no Tim.”
“Good lad. Steven, I should have seen it coming.”
“Seen what?”
“I’d found references in some books, though I never believed—” The phone dies, there’s nothing down the end. I smack it with the palm of my hand.
“That’s not going to do anything,” Lissa says.
“Makes me feel better.” I jut out my lower lip, and scowl. Just how petulant can I be? My face reddens again but Lissa’s ignoring the show, considering the problem like I should be. After all, I’m the living one here.
“Is there some drift?” she asks.
I shake my head. “No, the signal’s strong.” I show her the phone.
“The under and upper worlds are in sync. They’re almost rubbing up against each other.”
“Maybe that’s why all this is happening. All this death. All these murdered Pomps.”
“It’s not murder,” I say. “It’s assassination.”
And then I have a terrible thought.
Something so obvious that the realization hits me hard and cold.
“Gotta call Mom and Dad.”
“Too late, Steve,” says a voice at my ear.
It’s Dad, and Mom is with him.
“Been too late for at least half an hour,” he says.
6
This is the moment I’ve dreaded all my life. I’d always imagined it differently. But here it is, as it is for civilians: unexpected, sudden and utterly terrible.
Dad’s in his usual attire—pants, and a light tan sports jacket. All of it crumpled. He’s even wearing his favorite fedora, hiding his thinning hair. Pomps are well dressed in the main. Most of the time we’re in a suit, black, of course; comes from going to so many funerals. But Dad could get away with wearing a pink Hawaiian shirt to a funeral. Charisma, I guess. He dresses sloppy, but it’s charming sloppy. I’ve never really understood it but people tell me it’s there. Everybody loves my dad.
“It’s not your fault, Steve,” Dad says. His face is lined, but those lines were drawn by smiles. It’s a generous face, though he’s already losing that—the emotions are slipping away to the One Tree. He frowns. “Did you have a big night last night? You sounded like it on the phone.”
I shrug: avoid eye contact. Standard guilty son response. “I may have… indulged.” Parents, even dead ones, know how to push the right buttons.
“Look at me, boy. That’s better. Son of mine, I worry about you.” And he does, it’s in his f
ace, even if it is fading. It shames me a little.
I want to hold him. I want to hold Mom. But I can’t. The moment I do, they will go. “Dad… What happened? How?”
He coughs. The spirit clings to these old habits. “It was fast, didn’t even suspect, until it was over. We hadn’t even finished breakfast. Just don’t go over to our place. Promise me that.”
I nod my head, feeling sick to the stomach.
“Same happened to me,” Lissa says, and Dad turns toward her.
“This is Lissa,” I say.
“Ah, Melbourne isn’t it? The Joneses?” Dad asks, and then he catches me looking at him. “Never forget a face.”
“Particularly a young woman’s,” Mom says. She’s as I remember her, in a sensible woolen jumper and pants, both mauve, both as neat as Dad’s are crumpled. She’s wearing (technically projecting) her favorite brooch: a piece of Wedgwood. There’s a clarity and a calmness about her that she’d never had in life. That’s over for her now, only the One Tree waits. There’s still enough life left, though, to bring up these age-old arguments.
Lissa turns a remarkable beetroot red.
“Now, that’s not exactly fair,” Dad says, hands raised placatingly. “The Joneses are an old pomping family. Hardly any Black Sheep, too, I might add.”
“Not that old,” Mom says. She looks at Lissa. “I was very sorry about your loss last year. Both parents, and so quickly.”
“It’s all right,” Lissa says. “We of all people know that.”
“Still—”
“Leave off, Annie,” Dad says. “She obviously doesn’t want to talk about it.”
“I’m trying to be compassionate here, and you start on this. You’re just uncomfortable talking about your feelings. And look at what that did to your son.”
“Please,” I say wearily, though I really don’t want an end to this. Mom and Dad can argue for as long as they want if it means I can still have them here. “This isn’t the time or place.”
But there’s no time, and only one place for them, and we all know it.
“Sorry,” Dad says.
Mom nods. “Yes, he’s sorry.”
Yet again, I’m waiting for the lights to change, on the corner of George and Ann Streets, the edge of the CBD. I can’t move. Dead people who no one else can see, though their presence must be raising some hackles, surround me. I don’t care. I don’t want to share this space with anyone. There’s a huge black dog barking madly across the road, its eyes firmly fixed on my posse and me. It strains on its leash, the dog’s owner shaking her head with embarrassment, doing her best to stop it pulling her across the road.
The living are stepping around us as though I’m stinking of urine and praising some cruel deity at the top of my voice, a vengeful one, obviously.
The lights have changed a half-dozen times at least, but I’m not ready.
I’m dazed.
Various cousins and aunts and uncles, well their spirits at any rate, keep dropping by. Uncle Blake dressed in his golf clothes shocks me with how calm he is, dead or not. There’s none of the bluster, the fire that made a lot of the de Selby Christmas parties so interesting. He just seems resigned. Aunty May grabs my arm, perhaps in shock at her death, and is pomped at once. There can’t be that many Pomps left in Brisbane. The conversations are mainly like this.
“Steve, oh, they’re—”
“Did you?”
“Boyo, be careful.”
“Who’s that? Oh—the Jones girl.” (Am I the only one who doesn’t know this girl and her family?)
“Love, be careful.”
It’s my younger cousins that hurt me the most. Too young, all of them. Too young. They sigh and moan as they pass through me.
My Aunt Gloria looks at me sadly. “Just call Tim, will you? Promise me that. Let him know that Blake and I love him and that we always will.”
I think about what Morrigan told me. Maybe calling Tim isn’t such a good idea. But I can’t keep this from him. “He knows that already, Aunty G. He knows how much you love him.”
She gives me a look—the family look—a mixture of stern disapproval and dismay that only someone who truly loves you is capable of, and that engenders a kind of cold, chemical, panicky reaction in my stomach.
“I’ll call him. Once I sort this out.” That last bit has become something of a refrain. But I don’t think I’m ever going to sort this out. Then she pomps through me, and is gone.
The lights change but I hover on the corner. All of this is really starting to sink in. I’m in serious trouble, half the Pomps I know are dead, and most of those are family. Now my entire living family consists of poor Tim and an aunt in the UK.
“Are you all right?” I ask Mom, and she’s looking at me with the eyes of a dead person. There’s love there, but it’s a love separated from life. I’m regretting that I haven’t been around to see them outside of work in a while, and now I’ve promised to not see what is left.
She blinks, looks at Dad, then back at me. “It didn’t hurt, if that’s what you’re asking.”
“Absolutely,” Dad says. “Whoever did it was a professional. Quick and painless.”
Of course it hurt, but they’re trying to spare me that. I try and respect their pretense and play along, but I can’t. Quick death is always painful, always dislocating.
“Mom, I need to—”
“You don’t need to know at all. You want to.” Her voice hardens. “Steven, you know the deal, we all do. I’m not happy with this, but it’s happened.”
“But why? Why has it happened?”
“If either of us had any idea, we’d be telling you,” Dad says. “But we don’t. You’re going to have to find out, and even that may not save you. I had no inkling of this in the office, and I thought I knew everything.”
I think about the phones, the rise in Stirrers. Something had been coming. Maybe I’d even felt it before I first saw Lissa. It’s easy to see that with hindsight. But that isn’t going to help now. I will get to the bottom of this. If this is death most definite then I’m determined to understand it. I just—I just wish I felt a little more capable.
Mom and Dad smile at me. Part of me is missing them already, and another part of me is so damn mad that I could kill someone. But there’s no one, or thing, I can direct my anger at. Not yet.
“We’ll come with you for as long as we can,” Dad says. “But…”
“I understand,” I say, though I wish I didn’t.
There’s more dead coming through. Pomps and regular punters, drawn to me because the number of living Pomps is shrinking. I’m giddy with it and feeling sick at the same time. I’ve never had this many people to deal with.
Pomping hurts. Each pomp is like a spider web pulling through my flesh. The silk is fine, but every strand is crowded with tiny hooks that snag and drag until they’re through. It’s more of a discomfort than a hurt, but with enough of them things begin to ache. I’m raw with the souls I’ve pomped.
I’ve heard stories about the world wars, about the Pomps there, how it nearly killed them. So many dead rushing through. I lost a lot of great-uncles, most to the meat grinder of the front, but some to the job itself. I don’t want that to be me.
The lights change. Time to get moving.
I’m moving down Roma Street, up and over the overpass, heading toward the Transit Centre, the underbelly of which is Roma Street Station.
“You know I love you,” I say to my parents. I’d said it nearly a dozen times in the walk between Ann Street and the overpass. I knew I didn’t have much time; they couldn’t stay with me forever.
“Course we do,” they say in unison, and like that, in the blinking of an eye, they’re gone.
The last contact I get is their passage through me. Such a swift pomp. I’m never going to see them again. I try to hold on, to keep their souls with me, but there’s nothing I can get a grip on. All it does is draw out the hurt.
The grief is almost paralysing when it hits.
Just because I know what goes on in the afterlife doesn’t mean I’m not missing my parents. I need time.
But there isn’t any.
“Hey. Hey,” Lissa says.
“You’re still here?”
I look at her, and even that hurts me. She’s beautiful, and I won’t get a chance to talk to her in the flesh. My mourning tugs me this way and that. Have to slap myself. My cheek stings.
Doesn’t help.
Lissa looks at me as though I am mad. There’s pity in her expression as well, and that makes me more than a little angry: mostly with myself.
She isn’t gone yet. I’m not quite alone.
I walk into the station.
“Hey!”
I spin on my heel, cringing. When’s the bullet coming?
“Your ticket!” The guard at the gate frowns at me, looking through Lissa, though I know how uncomfortable that must make him. It doesn’t help that she then swings a tight circle around him. His face twitches in synchrony with her movements. At any other time it would be amusing to watch.
“Yeah, right. Sorry.” I dig my pass out of my wallet.
He takes it from me. Nods. “Next time think about what you’re doing.” He pushes it back into my hand.
I nod, too, smile stupidly, and walk through the gate into the underpass that leads to the platforms.
“You have to be more careful than that,” Lissa says. “You have to stay focused. Something like that may get you killed.”
“I’m doing the best I can.”
She’s clearly not happy with my answer. But it’s all I’ve got.
I know where I have to go. The only place that I might possibly find some answers.
It might also kill me. That’s on the cards anyway. In fact, I imagine that’s where this will all end up. I’m a Pomp after all. Death is what it’s all about. Death is what it’s always about.
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