“You stay there,” she said. “I’ll be right back.”
He had no intention of going anywhere. Now at least he could open his eyes and look out the restaurant window at the city below, at the web of lights, the intermittent traffic patterns, the busy glow of streetlights spread on the horizon. He was high enough to feel above it all, though not exactly superior to anything down there. From this vantage point he could see the logic of patterns, lines, grids, but he knew they were just diagrams, schemata, they didn’t tell even a fraction of the real story. Down at ground level there was all that confusion, all that necessary, deceptive human clutter; and below the street surface it got even worse: tunnels, sewers, drains, concealed voids, unmapped spaces that he knew absolutely nothing about. As for Marilyn, it seemed he didn’t know a damn thing about her either. What kind of person would want to live her life alone up here, squatting in the unrevolving restaurant of an abandoned hotel?
When Marilyn came back, she no longer looked remotely like herself, or like anybody Zak knew or ever expected to know. The glasses, the bookishness, the hipsterism, the baggy clothes, they’d all gone. She was now wrapped in an enveloping floor-length iridescent black … well, he couldn’t quite put a name to it … a robe, a gown, a cape? And was it real leather or fake? Or some kind of man-made material, perhaps developed as a by-product of the space program? And could those strips of leopard skin around the hem and the cuffs be as authentic as they looked?
“Zak,” Marilyn said briskly, “there are one or two things you should know about me before we get started.”
“I want to know everything,” said Zak. It seemed like the right thing to say, but mostly he wanted to stare.
“I’m not talking about innermost hopes and dreams. I’m just talking about sex, okay? I’d like to lay down some ground rules before we start. It saves time.”
“Okay,” said Zak, although saving time wasn’t uppermost in his mind.
“Well,” said Marilyn, “I’ll swallow if I like the taste; I’ll spit if I don’t. You shouldn’t take it personally.”
“Then I won’t,” said Zak.
“I don’t mind being held down, but I don’t want to be tied down, and I definitely don’t want the ball gag and the handcuffs.”
“Good.”
“Sex toys are fine, but I don’t like actual equipment. So a pony harness, no, but vibrators and butt plugs are fine, and available on request.”
“Okay,” said Zak.
“And you know, I really do like dressing up: boots, lingerie, fetish gear if it isn’t too ridiculous. On the other hand, I absolutely, positively don’t want you to dress up.”
“I’m glad,” said Zak.
“If you want to take some dirty pictures, that’s fine, but I don’t want to see them all over the Internet, at least not showing my face, and definitely not under my real name.”
“I can understand that,” said Zak.
“Spanking’s okay, but I think it’s more blessed to give than to receive. Water sports, well, all right, if you really want, though frankly it doesn’t strike me as much of a sport, though I do understand the nature of territorial pissing.”
“The map is not the territory,” said Zak, then wished he hadn’t.
“And I guess we should use condoms,” Marilyn continued. “You don’t look like a guy who barebacks with other guys, but how would I know? Oh, and if you want me to wear a strap-on, I will, but I can’t promise to keep a straight face.”
“That won’t be an issue,” said Zak.
He understood the advantages of talking to women: learning what they wanted, telling them what he needed. Nobody liked everything, and nobody liked everything equally. Even so, he thought it might be better if you worked those things out as part of the process, rather than as preconditions. Marilyn seemed to be giving him a map of her sexual landscape, but there were times when it was much more fun to be without one, to find your own way, to get lost for a while. Even as he thought this, Zak wondered if he might be too immersed in the business of Utopiates.
“Other than that,” said Marilyn, “you can do whatever you like.”
She stood up and let the robe or gown or cape, or whatever it ought to be called, fall away. Zak took a deep, desperate breath. She was wearing a strange, gorgeous, ornate halter corset—he thought “steampunk” was probably the word to describe it—made mostly of leather, though there were bands of suede and silk, some laces, metal clasps and buckles, studs. It was a substantial and devastating piece of costume, curling up around her neck and shoulders, cupping her breasts and framing her crotch, while at the same time leaving them completely, emphatically exposed.
“Fuck,” said Zak.
“That’s the general idea,” said Marilyn.
25. WHAT HAPPENED IN GREENLAND
Zak Webster had never believed those narratives where the hero wakes up in a strange bed with a strange woman and doesn’t know quite where he is or how he got there. Zak always knew where he was when he woke up: not much of an achievement, since it was invariably in his own bed, in the apartment above Utopiates, usually wishing he was somewhere else. And that morning, however strange it seemed to be waking up in the nonrevolving restaurant at the top of the derelict Telstar Hotel, and admittedly not strictly in a bed but, rather, on an inflatable mattress, on the floor, in a tangle of sheets, he knew perfectly well where he was.
But as he stirred and floated up to full consciousness, he realized Marilyn was no longer next to him, and looking out across the room, he saw that she was already up and dressed in her familiar, quasi-hipster street duds, sitting at one of the many tables scattered around the Canaveral Lounge, finishing her coffee, drinking from a mug bearing the Telstar logo of an atom and a communication satellite. Last night’s erotic fancy-dress extravaganza seemed a very long time ago.
“Shouldn’t you be getting ready for work, Zak?” Marilyn said.
He looked at his watch, and yes, he could see he was going to be a little late. After a night like the one he’d had, a different man might have thought he was entitled not to go to work at all, but Zak was not quite that man, and it seemed that Marilyn knew it. Unless, of course, she just wanted to get rid of him.
“Are you trying to get rid of me?” said Zak.
She didn’t say no, but offered the perfectly reasonable observation that “You’re never going to be able to get out of here without me.”
Zak thought of the guard, the dog, the dubious elevator, the reputedly feral squatters, and saw the truth of this. He got up.
“How’s the face?” Marilyn asked.
“It doesn’t feel like mine,” he said.
“Still looks like yours,” she said. “More or less.”
She crossed the room, patted his cheek briskly, as though she were dismissing some rather unlovable nephew. Ten minutes and a quick mouth-wash later Zak was outside the hotel, at the gate, being seen off by Bob the security guard and his dog.
* * *
Zak decided he would play it cool. He wouldn’t call Marilyn in the course of the day, would avoid seeming pushy or besotted or desperate. Instead, despite some serious misgivings, he’d call one or two collectors, tell them he had something special for sale, something rather unusual, perhaps a little macabre, not for everyone, just for connoisseurs: the infamous Jack Torry rape map. “You never heard of that? Oh well, perhaps it’s not for you. Oh really? Well, let me describe it for you…” This would not be a display of the highest moral character, but it was what his job entailed. He was looking at a list of clients, wondering who to call first, when Billy Moore strode into Utopiates.
Zak jumped in his chair: Billy Moore had again succeeded in scaring him. Zak suddenly saw the attraction of having a Taser or a sawed-off shotgun, though he also had a feeling that waving a weapon at Billy Moore would only be likely to make things worse. Billy, like Marilyn just a short time before, scrutinized Zak’s face closely.
“You’re in a state,” he said.
“Yo
u should know,” said Zak. “Look, if you’ve come here to beat me up, why not go ahead and get it over with?”
“I’m not going to beat you up,” said Billy. “Not yet anyway. But I do want to know what the hell you were doing there last night.”
Zak thought he might as well tell the truth.
“I was trying to impress a woman,” he said.
Billy considered this. It wasn’t the most improbable thing he’d ever heard.
“Did it work?”
“I guess it kind of did, yes.”
Each in his own way was quietly surprised by this admission.
“You know, your face could have been a lot worse if I’d wanted it to be,” said Billy.
“Am I supposed to say thank you?”
“No, just so long as you don’t expect me to say sorry.”
“The thought had never crossed my mind.”
“You’re smarter than you look.”
Zak watched Billy Moore do a silent circuit of the store, then stop at a framed reproduction of Buondelmonte’s map of Constantinople, the only survivor from before the Turkish siege: turrets, city walls, a hippodrome, a drawbridge that seemed to end in the middle of water.
“Look, I don’t get it,” Billy said at last. “I just don’t get this whole map thing.”
“Does that matter?” said Zak.
“Yeah, it does. You’re the smart guy. Help me on this.”
“Why? Why do you want to ‘get it’?” Zak said.
“Because I’m trying to understand what I’m involved with. Just like I think you are.”
Zak was reluctant to consider that he and Billy Moore had anything in common. But if Billy was telling the truth, then yes, maybe they did share a basic urge to comprehend the situation they were in, and perhaps an urge to be free of it. Also, Zak couldn’t quite resist the opportunity to demonstrate his expertise. In exchange maybe Billy would share some information that Zak could take back to Marilyn.
“Basically, of course,” Zak began, as simply as he could, “maps tell us where we are and how to get where we’re going. And not just in a literal way, but in a political, metaphorical, and philosophical way too. No map can ever show everything, so every map involves selection, putting in what’s considered important and leaving out what isn’t. Every map shows the concerns and prejudices of the mapmaker.”
Billy Moore nodded slowly.
“And maps are always nostalgic one way or another,” said Zak, “always referring to the past, to something that no longer quite exists, because no matter how current a map is, whatever technology you’re using, whether it’s printed on paper or created by a satellite or a computer, it’s out of date as soon as it’s been made. Maps can only ever tell one fragmentary, temporary version of the truth. But that’s okay. And a map doesn’t even have to be ‘true’ to be useful.”
He couldn’t tell if Billy Moore was looking at him with grudging admiration or confusion or contempt.
“Let me show you something,” said Zak.
He took the cylindrical leather map case from a drawer in his desk and removed the Jack Torry map, unrolling just a couple of feet of it.
“Take this map here,” said Zak. “You couldn’t use it to get anywhere, but you could use it to learn about certain events.”
“Like what?” said Billy.
“It shows where certain rapes occurred. So it’s only partly a map concerned with place: it’s more of a map concerned with recording actions.”
“Who’d want a map like that?”
“Some people just do.”
“Sick fucks?”
“Not always,” said Zak. “But let me try a less loaded example.”
Putting away the Torry map, Zak crossed the store and pointed out a framed eighteenth-century map of Greenland, or Carte de Groenland, according to the uneven italic script along its lower edge. It was a copper engraving with an elaborate cartouche, bright coloring, not large, not really all that valuable.
“Let me tell you about Greenland,” Zak said. “Let me tell you about Alfred Wegener.”
Billy looked at him suspiciously.
“Don’t worry. It’s not rocket science. It’s barely even cartography.”
Billy was not immediately reassured.
“Alfred Wegener was a meteorologist who spent a lot of time looking at maps. And one day he looked at all the ins and outs of the Americas and he saw how they could be fitted into all the outs and ins of Europe and Africa. And he came up with this wild idea of continental drift.
“Everybody thought Wegener was crazy. Maybe he even had some doubts himself. But then he went on an expedition to Greenland, and while he was there, he kept looking at old maps, and he made some new maps of his own. Then he compared the two, checked the longitude and latitude of the coast, and he calculated that over the previous hundred years—between the making of the old maps and his new one—the coast had moved a whole mile, which is a colossal amount of movement for a landmass. This was great news for Wegener. As far as he was concerned, this was absolute proof that his continental drift theory was right.”
“Yeah?” said Billy Moore.
“And the continental drift theory is right, more or less. But Wegener was completely wrong about the coast of Greenland. It hadn’t moved at all. It was right where it had always been. Wegener was a better mapmaker than his predecessor, that’s all. The old map had simply been inaccurate; it had put the coast of Greenland in the wrong place by one mile.”
“Okay. I get it, I think,” said Billy. “Or maybe I don’t. What are you telling me?”
“I’m telling you that the inaccuracy didn’t matter. The old map was ‘false,’ but it showed Wegener something that turned out to be true.”
“And that’s a big deal?”
“It can be,” said Zak. “Take those maps tattooed on the women. We don’t know what they mean. Maybe they’re maps of real places, maybe they’re not. Who knows? But they’ve got to be a map of something. Maps always mean something to somebody, and they always mean more to some people than to others.”
Billy stared at the map of Greenland, thinking about what Zak had said, and thinking about much else.
“So you don’t know a damn thing about these maps on the backs of those women?” he said.
“No,” Zak admitted.
“You don’t know who did them or why. You don’t know what they mean to Wrobleski or why he needs these women taken to him. Or what he’s going to do with them.”
“I’m afraid not,” said Zak. “I was hoping you did.”
“So correct me if I’m wrong: for all your knowledge about maps and meanings and continental drift, you don’t know any more than I do.”
“Well…” said Zak.
Billy Moore’s cell phone rang. He saw it was Akim, and he knew that his lesson in cartography was over.
“Zak,” Billy said, “maybe you aren’t any smarter than you look.”
Zak was left with his phone and his list of customers. He wondered when, if ever, it would be appropriate to try getting in touch with Marilyn. Probably he should wait for her to call him. Maybe he could distract himself by doing a little research into the history of the Telstar Hotel.
26. MARILYN OFF THE GRID
That night, Marilyn returned alone to the Grid. Although Zak had said he sometimes went there to lick his wounds, and he surely had plenty to lick now, he wasn’t there, and she was relieved. Sex complicated everything. She probably shouldn’t have taken him back to the Telstar. She wondered how long it would be before he called her: too soon, she was sure.
The place was a lot less welcoming and a lot more crowded than when she was there the first time: there was nowhere to sit. She bought herself a drink and took up a spot standing, wedged in by the piano, where she could listen to Sam, who was now playing something melancholy and formless and, she assumed, improvised. She found that encouraging. She dropped a couple of bills into his tip jar, and when he took a break, she offered to buy him a dr
ink. Funny how if you’re a young woman and you offer to buy a drink for some guy and say you’re really interested in his work, he can be surprisingly willing to talk to you. He slid along the broad piano stool so Marilyn could sit next to him.
“My friend tells me you used to be a cop,” Marilyn said.
“Who’s your friend?”
“Zak Webster. Map guy. Comes in here once in a while.”
“I don’t remember names,” Sam said. “Or faces.”
“Wasn’t that a problem when you were a cop?”
“It was the least of them.”
“You were one of those profiler guys, right?”
“Aren’t you the little Nancy Drew?”
“Seriously, can I ask you a question, Sam?”
“Don’t tell me you’re a writer? Journalist? Documentary filmmaker?”
“No, no,” she said quickly. She was ready with a lie or two she’d worked out. “I’m an actress.”
He looked her over. Yes, he could believe she was an actress, though he couldn’t believe she’d ever be a very successful one.
“I’m working on a part,” Marilyn explained quickly.
“Lady Macbeth?”
On another occasion she’d have been prepared to be insulted, and to deliver an insult in return. Instead, she said, “No, it’s a brand-new play. It’ll be the premiere. We’re workshopping it, doing some improvisation. So I need some background.”
“You’re playing a cop?”
“No, I’m playing the murderer.”
He smiled at her just a little condescendingly and said, “You don’t look the type.”
“Well, that’s the whole point.”
“So, what do you want? Help with your motivation?”
He exhaled a small snort of ridicule.
“What’s wrong with that? Don’t cops try to work out motivation?”
He snorted again, but he didn’t argue.
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