by J. D. Robb
She recognized her location. The old ports on the east side. She could smell them: water, bad fish, and old sweat. Transients wearing their uniform of blue coveralls were looking for a handout or a day’s labor. She flew by a group of them jostling for position in front of a placement center.
Subject armed. Rifle torch, hand explosive. Wanted for robbery homicide.
Great, Eve thought as she careened after him. Fucking great. She punched the accelerator, whipped the wheel, and kissed off the fender of the target vehicle in a shower of sparks. A spurt of flame whooshed by her ear as he fired at her. The proprietor of a port side roach coach dived for cover, along with several of his customers. Rice noodles flew along with curses.
She rammed the target again, ordering her backup to maneuver into a pincer position.
This time her quarry’s vehicle shuddered, tipped. As he fought for control, she used hers to batter his to a stop. She shouted the standard identification and warning as she bolted from the vehicle. He came out blasting, and she brought him down.
The shock from her weapon jolted his nervous system. She watched him jitter, wet himself, then collapse.
She’d hardly taken a breath to readjust when the bastard techs tossed her into a new scene. The screams, the little girl’s screams; the raging roar of the man who was her father.
They had reconstructed it almost too perfectly, using her own report, visuals of the site, and the mirror of her memory they’d lifted in the scan.
Eve didn’t bother to curse them, but held back her hate, her grief, and sent herself racing up the stairs and back into her nightmare.
No more screams from the little girl. She beat on the door, calling out her name and rank. Warning the man on the other side of the door, trying to calm him.
“Cunts. You’re all cunts. Come on in, cunt bitch. I’ll kill you.”
The door folded like cardboard under her ramming shoulder. She went in, weapon drawn.
“She was just like her mother—just like her fucking mother. Thought they’d get away from me. Thought they could. I fixed it. I fixed them. I’m going to fix you, cunt cop.”
The little girl was staring at her with big, dead eyes. Doll’s eyes. Her tiny, helpless body mutilated, blood spreading like a pool. And dripping from the knife.
She told him to freeze: “You son of a bitch, drop the weapon. Drop the fucking knife!” But he kept coming. Stunned him. But he kept coming.
The room smelled of blood, of urine, of burned food. The lights were too bright, unshaded and blinding so that everything, everything stood out in jarring relief. A doll with a missing arm on the ripped sofa, a crooked window shield that let in a hard red glow from the neon across the street, the overturned table of cheap molded plastic, the cracked screen of a broken ’link.
The little girl with dead eyes. The spreading pool of blood. And the sharp, sticky gleam of the blade.
“I’m going to ram this right up your cunt. Just like I did to her.”
Stunned again. His eyes were wild, jagged on homemade Zeus, that wonderful chemical that made gods out of men, with all the power and insanity that went with delusions of immortality.
The knife, with the scarlet drenched blade hacked down, whistled.
And she dropped him.
The jolt zipped through his nervous system. His brain died first, so that his body convulsed and shuddered as his eyes turned to glass. Strapping down on the need to scream, she kicked the knife away from his still twitching hand and looked at the child.
The big doll’s eyes stared at her, and told her—again—that she’d been too late.
Forcing her body to relax, she let nothing into her mind but her report.
The VR section was complete. Her vitals were checked again before she was taken to the final testing phase. The one-on-one with the psychiatrist.
Eve didn’t have anything against Dr. Mira. The woman was dedicated to her calling. In private practice, she could have earned triple the salary she pulled in under the Police and Security Department.
She had a quiet voice with the faintest hint of upper class New England. Her pale blue eyes were kind—and sharp. At sixty, she was comfortable with middle age, but far from matronly.
Her hair was a warm honey brown and scooped up in the back in a neat yet complicated twist. She wore a tidy, rose toned suit with a sedate gold circle on the lapel.
No, Eve had nothing against her personally. She just hated shrinks.
“Lieutenant Dallas.” Mira rose from a soft blue scoop chair when Eve entered.
There was no desk, no computer in sight. One of the tricks, Eve knew, to make the subjects relax and forget they were under intense observation.
“Doctor.” Eve sat in the chair Mira indicated.
“I was just about to have some tea. You’ll join me?”
“Sure.”
Mira moved gracefully to the server, ordered two teas, then brought the cups to the sitting area. “It’s unfortunate that your testing was postponed, lieutenant.” With a smile, she sat, sipped. “The process is more conclusive and certainly more beneficial when run within twenty-four hours of an incident.”
“It couldn’t be helped.”
“So I’m told. Your preliminary results are satisfactory.”
“Fine.”
“You still refuse autohypnosis?”
“It’s optional.” Hating the defensive sound of her voice.
“Yes, it is.” Mira crossed her legs. “You’ve been through a difficult experience, lieutenant. There are signs of physical and emotional fatigue.”
“I’m on another case, a demanding one. It’s taking a lot of my time.”
“Yes, I have that information. Are you taking the standard sleep inducers?”
Eve tested the tea. It was, as she’d suspected, floral in scent and flavor. “No. We’ve been through that before. Night pills are optional, and I opt no.”
“Because they limit your control.”
Eve met her eyes. “That’s right. I don’t like being put to sleep, and I don’t like being here. I don’t like brain rape.”
“You consider Testing a kind of rape?”
There wasn’t a cop with a brain who didn’t. “It’s not a choice, is it?”
Mira kept her sigh to herself. “The termination of a subject, no matter the circumstances, is a traumatic experience for a police officer. If the trauma effects the emotions, the reactions, the attitude, the officer’s performance will suffer. If the use of full force was caused by a physical defect, that defect must be located and repaired.”
“I know the company line, doctor. I’m cooperating fully. But I don’t have to like it.”
“No, you don’t.” Mira neatly balanced the cup on her knee. “Lieutenant, this is your second termination. Though that is not an unusual amount for an officer with your length of duty, there are many who never need to make that decision. I’d like to know how you feel about the choice you made, and the results.”
I wish I’d been quicker, Eve thought. I wish that child was playing with her toys right now instead of being cremated.
“As my only choice was to let him carve me into pieces, or stop him, I feel just fine about the decision. My warning was issued and ignored. Stunning was ineffective. The evidence that he would, indeed, kill was lying on the floor between us in a puddle of blood. Therefore, I have no problem with the results.”
“You were disturbed by the death of the child?”
“I believe anyone would be disturbed by the death of a child. Certainly that kind of vicious murder of the defenseless.”
“And do you see the parallel between the child and yourself?” Mira asked quietly. She could see Eve draw in and close off. “Lieutenant, we both know I’m fully aware of your background. You were abused, physically, sexually, and emotionally. You were abandoned when you were eight.”
“That has nothing to do with—”
“I think it may have a great deal to do with your mental and emotional sta
te,” Mira interrupted. “For two years between the ages of eight and ten, you lived in a communal home while your parents were searched for. You have no memory of the first eight years of your life, your name, your circumstances, your birthplace.”
However mild they were, Mira’s eyes were sharp and searching. “You were given the name Eve Dallas and eventually placed in foster care. You had no control over any of this. You were a battered child, dependent on the system, which in many ways failed you.”
It took every ounce of will for Eve to keep her eyes and her voice level. “As I, part of the system, failed to protect the child. You want to know how I feel about that, Dr. Mira?”
Wretched. Sick. Sorry.
“I feel that I did everything I could do. I went through your VR and did it again. Because there was no changing it. If I could have saved the child, I would have saved her. If I could have arrested the subject, I would have.”
“But these matters were not in your control.”
Sneaky bitch, Eve thought. “It was in my control to terminate. After employing all standard options, I exercised my control. You’ve reviewed the report. It was a clean, justifiable termination.”
Mira said nothing for a moment. Her skills, she knew, had never been able to more than scrape at Eve’s outer wall of defense. “Very well, lieutenant. You’re cleared to resume duty without restriction.” Mira held up a hand before Eve could rise. “Off the record.”
“Is anything?”
Mira only smiled. “It’s true that very often the mind protects itself. Yours refuses to acknowledge the first eight years of your life. But those years are a part of you. I can get them back for you when you’re ready. And Eve,” she added in that quiet voice, “I can help you deal with them.”
“I’ve made myself what I am, and I can live with it. Maybe I don’t want to risk living with the rest.” She got up and walked to the door. When she turned back, Mira was sitting just as she had been, legs crossed, one hand holding the pretty little cup. The scent of brewed flowers lingered in the air.
“A hypothetical case,” Eve began and waited for Mira’s nod.
“A woman, with considerable social and financial advantages, chooses to become a whore.” At Mira’s lifted brow, Eve swore impatiently. “We don’t have to pretty up the terminology here, doctor. She chose to make her living from sex. Flaunted it in front of her well-positioned family, including her arch-conservative grandfather. Why?”
“It’s difficult to come up with one specific motive from such general and sketchy information. The most obvious would be the subject could find her self-worth only in sexual skill. She either enjoyed or detested the act.”
Intrigued, Eve stepped away from the door. “If she detested it, why would she become a pro?”
“To punish.”
“Herself?”
“Certainly, and those close to her.”
To punish, Eve mused. The diary. Blackmail.
“A man kills,” she continued. “Viciously, brutally. The killing is tied to sex, and is executed in a unique and distinctive fashion. He records it, has bypassed a sophisticated security system. A recording of the murder is delivered to the investigating officer. A message is left at the scene, a boastful message. What is he?”
“You don’t give me much,” Mira complained, but Eve could see her attention was caught. “Inventive,” she began. “A planner, and a voyeur. Confident, perhaps smug. You said distinctive, so he wishes to leave his mark, and he wants to show off his skill, his brain. Using your observation and deductive talents, lieutenant, did he enjoy the act of murder?”
“Yes. I think he reveled in it.”
Mira nodded. “Then he will certainly enjoy it again.”
“He already has. Two murders, barely a week apart. He won’t wait long before the next, will he?”
“It’s doubtful.” Mira sipped her tea as if they were discussing the latest spring fashions. “Are the two murders connected in any way other than the perpetrator and the method?”
“Sex,” Eve said shortly.
“Ah.” Mira tilted her head. “With all our technology, with the amazing advances that have been made in genetics, we are still unable to control human virtues and flaws. Perhaps we are too human to permit the tampering. Passions are necessary to the human spirit. We learned that early this century when genetic engineering nearly slipped out of control. It’s unfortunate that some passions twist. Sex and violence. For some it’s still a natural marriage.”
She stood then to take the cups and place them beside the server. “I’d be interested in knowing more about this man, lieutenant. If and when you decide you want a profile, I hope you’ll come to me.”
“It’s Code Five.”
Mira glanced back. “I see.”
“If we don’t tie this up before he hits again, I may be able to swing it.”
“I’ll make myself available.”
“Thanks.”
“Eve, even strong, self-made women have weak spots. Don’t be afraid of them.”
Eve held Mira’s gaze for another moment. “I’ve got work to do.”
Testing left her shaky. Eve compensated by being surly and antagonistic with her snitch and nearly losing a lead on a case involving bootlegged chemicals. Her mood was far from cheerful when she checked back in to Cop Central. There was no message from Feeney.
Others in her department knew just where she’d spent the day and did their best to stay out of her way. As a result, she worked in solitude and annoyance for an hour.
Her last effort was to put through a call to Roarke. She was neither surprised nor particularly disappointed when he wasn’t available. She left a message on his E-mail requesting an appointment, then logged out for the day.
She intended to drown her mood in cheap liquor and mediocre music at Mavis’s latest gig at the Blue Squirrel.
It was a joint, which put it one slippery step up from a dive. The light was dim, the clientele edgy, and the service pitiful. It was exactly what Eve was looking for.
The music struck her in one clashing wave when she walked in. Mavis was managing to lift her appealing screech of a voice over the band, which consisted of one multitattooed kid on a melody master.
Eve snarled off the offer from a guy in a hooded jacket to buy her a drink in one of the private smoking booths. She jockeyed her way to a table, pressed in an order for a screamer, and settled back to watch Mavis perform.
She wasn’t half bad, Eve decided. Not half good either, but the customers weren’t choosy. Mavis was wearing paint tonight, her busty little body a canvas for splatters and streaks of orange and violet, with strategically brushed splotches of emerald. Bracelets and chains jangled as she jittered around the small, raised stage. One step below, a mass of humanity gyrated in sympathy.
Eve watched a small, sealed package pass from hand to hand on the edge of the dance floor. Drugs, of course. They’d tried a war on them, legalizing them, ignoring them, and regulating them. Nothing seemed to work.
She couldn’t raise the interest to make a bust and lifted a hand in a wave to Mavis instead.
The vocal part of the song ended—such as it was. Mavis leaped offstage, wiggled through the crowd, and plopped a painted hip on the edge of Eve’s table.
“Hey, stranger.”
“Looking good, Mavis. Who’s the artist?”
“Oh, this guy I know.” She shifted, tapped an inch-long fingernail on the left cheek of her butt. “Caruso. See, he signed me. Got the job free for passing his name around.” Her eyes rounded when the waitress set the long, slim glass filled with frothy blue liquid in front of Eve. “A screamer? Wouldn’t you rather I find a hammer and just knock you unconscious?”
“It’s been a shitty day,” Eve muttered and took the first shocking sip. “Jesus. These never get any better.”
Worried, Mavis leaned closer. “I can cut out for a little while.”
“No, I’m okay.” Eve risked her life with another sip. “I just wanted t
o check out your gig, let off some steam. Mavis, you’re not using, are you?”
“Hey, come on.” More concerned than insulted, Mavis shook Eve’s shoulder. “I’m clean, you know that. Some shit gets passed around in here, but it’s all minor league. Some happy pills, some calmers, a few mood patches.” She pokered up. “If you’re looking to make a bust, you could at least do it on my night off.”
“Sorry.” Annoyed with herself, Eve rubbed her hands over her face. “I’m not fit for human consumption at the moment. Go back and sing. I like hearing you.”
“Sure. But if you want company when you split, just give me a sign. I can fix it.”
“Thanks.” Eve sat back, closed her eyes. It was a surprise when the music slowed, even mellowed. If you didn’t look around, it wasn’t so bad.
For twenty credits she could have hooked on mood enhancer goggles, treated herself to lights and shapes that fit the music. At the moment, she preferred the dark behind her eyes.
“This doesn’t seem quite your den of iniquity, lieutenant.”
Eve opened her eyes and stared up at Roarke. “Every time I turn around.”
He sat across from her. The table was small enough that their knees bumped. His way of adjusting was to slide his thighs against hers. “You called me, remember, and you’d left this address when you logged out.”
“I wanted an appointment, not a drinking buddy.”
He glanced at the drink on the table, leaned over to take a sniff. “You’re not going to get one with that poison.”
“This joint doesn’t run to fine wine and aged scotch.”
He laid a hand over hers for the simple purpose of watching her scowl and jerk away. “Why don’t we go somewhere that does?”
“I’m in a pisser of a mood. Roarke. Give me an appointment, at your convenience, then take off.”
“An appointment for what?” The singer caught his attention. He cocked a brow, watching her roll her eyes and gesture. “Unless she’s having some sort of seizure, I believe the vocalist is signaling you.”