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by Regina Scott


  Turner sniffed. “That was before she started making eyes at the master.” She blushed furiously and bobbed a curtsy. “Begging your pardon, your ladyship. It’s none of my affair, even if the whole servants’ hall is abuzz with it.”

  So now they all found Amelia an object of pity. “What passes between a husband and wife is no one’s affair but theirs and God’s,” Amelia said, her voice coming out entirely too sharp.

  “Yes, ma’am. Just as you say.” Turner closed the wardrobe with considerable force, then turned to Amelia, head cocked. “I could help you, though. Fix your hair just right, find the perfect gown.”

  “I’ve had my hair fixed just right since I was six,” Amelia told her. “It hasn’t made anyone love me.”

  Turner’s face pinched, and Amelia turned away.

  “Forgive me, Turner. I seem to be in a maudlin mood this afternoon. That will be all for now.”

  “Yes, ma’am,” she said. Her hand was on the knob when she spun to face Amelia. “But I will just say that if someone like you can’t win a fellow’s love, there’s simply no justice on this earth!” Obviously aware she had overstepped her bounds, she wrenched open the door and fled.

  No justice on the earth. That might explain some of the things that had happened to her and John, but Amelia couldn’t blame God. Though bad things might happen, she believed fervently that good would triumph in the end. The ebb and tide of human affairs were guided by a powerful hand, and God would set things right. But there were moments when she wished He would move just a little faster.

  With a squeak of protest, the wardrobe popped open. Amelia went to shove the dresses a little deeper.

  Forgive me, Father, for my impatience. I just want my life different now. I want my father to treat me with respect, John to look at me with love. I want a child to love and teach and watch grow the way John watches his foals. If You are the God of love, why is it so rare?

  Her own father came immediately to mind. Love did not appear to be part of his life. He seemed incapable of lavishing his attention on anyone or anything beyond his own ambitions. If he loved, it was only the power of his position. And her mother was equally possessive, if only to defend herself.

  But John. Oh, John had a heart. She saw it when he chose to curry a foal himself. She heard it when he spoke about his past. Sometimes she thought she glimpsed it when he looked at her. Why couldn’t she reach him?

  She managed to squeeze the wardrobe shut once more, then moved to the window, gazing out onto the green pastures, the wall of Calder Edge running along the rim of her world. But if she looked closely, she could also make out her reflection in the glass.

  Her hair was like creamy satin, her eyes bluer than the summer skies. She’d had poetry written about both, recited by fervent young men on bended knee, no less. She smoothed her gown over her hips, turned this way and that. Her figure was still accounted quite good. In short, she had lost none of the beauty for which London had once sung her praises.

  If she altered her hair, dressed differently, as Turner suggested, would she be manipulating him? Would such changes truly make any difference in how John saw her?

  What did she have to lose?

  She hurried to the highboy along the opposite wall. She’d dress for dinner tonight, her best gown, her finest jewels. She’d show John she was Caro’s equal.

  No, her superior.

  She’d flirt and laugh and flutter her lashes. She’d be the woman no man could take his eyes from. She’d prove her right to stand by his side.

  And when the others had retired for the evening, she would speak to him alone, tell him how she felt, her hopes, her dreams. It would be the boldest thing she’d ever done, and the riskiest. For if he didn’t have the heart to accept her, she knew her own heart would break.

  *

  John rode Magnum across the pasture, Amelia’s father at his side on Providence. The way Lord Wesworth had eyed the colts in the stable, John was sure he was sizing up which one he’d demand next summer. But John had other matters on his mind.

  “You had a man watch the farm,” he said. “Why?”

  The marquess guided the mare around one of the obstacles, a shallow pond that reflected the blue of the sky. “I find it wise to ensure that my agreements bear fruit.”

  “What did you think?” John challenged. “That I’d mistreat Amelia or fail to supply that colt?”

  Lord Wesworth spared him a withering glance. “Strong words, my lord. If you are unable to control your emotions, you cannot blame me for doubting your intentions.”

  John refused to let him see that he had scored. If the man truly had been trying to ensure Amelia’s safety, he understood the necessity even if he did not appreciate the methods.

  “I have every intention of honoring our bargain,” John said. “It is your intentions that I question.”

  Lord Wesworth rode along as if his conscience did not trouble him. “I have ever been clear on my intentions.” He nodded toward where the last of the horses were being led to the stables. “I see you have several from previous years yet to sell.”

  The way he stated the matter implied deficiency, either in the horses or in John’s ability to attract buyers.

  “The right master has yet to approach me,” John replied.

  “I know a few with sufficient funds to afford one of your mounts,” Amelia’s father said.

  John turned Magnum toward the nearest obstacle, a stone wall. “Sufficient funding is only one of my criteria.”

  Turning his horse as well, Lord Wesworth glanced at John, pale blue eyes as shallow and cold as the ice John’s men chipped from the outdoor water troughs in winter. “If you hope to support my daughter, funding is the only criteria that matters. The Hascot barony is rather land poor, if I recall. And you cannot rely on investment with the war over.”

  He should have considered whether John was well-off before selling his daughter. “You need have no concerns for Amelia,” John told him. “I can provide for her.”

  “And what of her family?” Wesworth urged Providence to keep pace with Magnum. “It would be good to know that I can count on you if needs require.”

  Now John eyed him. “Is there a problem, my lord?”

  “Not at the moment,” he acknowledged, gaze going out toward the hills. “Not financially. But I am concerned about Amelia’s social standing. She must have gowns, jewels, the appropriate accoutrements that females require for a good showing on the ton. Even if you have the funds to cover all that, you will not do her credit if you refuse men of consequence.”

  John had made a few enemies by refusing to sell to men with low reputations, but he found it difficult to believe the ton would turn on Amelia for such behavior.

  “Amelia assures me that my unending ability to be churlish is no reflection on her,” he told her father. “Her friends will stand by her.”

  “Amelia has no friends,” he replied. “She was wise enough to keep her distance from sycophants and enviers.”

  Was that all the man considered other people to be? Surely a woman as sweet as Amelia had managed to garner close friends, true friends, in her time in Society. He thought back to the women who had attended the wedding. Though many had smiled and offered congratulations, only Lord Danning’s new wife had begged a private word with Amelia. He’d assumed she’d be surrounded by friends. Was she so very alone?

  “I can help you,” Lord Wesworth said as if he’d guessed the directions of John’s thoughts. “I have any number of acquaintances, men of standing on the ton, whose wives can assure Amelia the place she deserves in Society.”

  They were nearly at the wall. John gave Magnum his head, and the black picked up speed. Hooves churning the sod, the stallion gathered his haunches and launched himself over the stone barrier. For one brief, glorious moment, John was flying.

  Amelia’s father did not take the jump. Instead, he rode Providence around the wall and met John and Magnum on the other side. Yet there was something in his gaze
that suggested he wished it otherwise.

  “She will bear you over,” John advised.

  Lord Wesworth patted Providence on the neck. “Of that I have no doubt. But I stopped leaping obstacles some time ago. My interests lie elsewhere now.” He dropped his hand. “I think you should consider my suggestion.”

  “I have,” John replied. “But somehow I can’t believe it free of stipulations. What is my part in all this?”

  A smile tugged at the marquess’s thin lips. “The Duke of York has three officers who covet a Hascot horse. Simply oblige them.”

  “Officers.” The word sounded too much like a curse. “Active campaigners?”

  “Oh, the war has ended,” Amelia’s father insisted. “Your horses will likely do no more than ride in a victory parade or two.”

  He wished he could believe that. “So you ask me to compromise my principles for my wife’s happiness.”

  “Marriage is compromise, sir,” he returned. “Believe no one who says otherwise.”

  He wanted to argue, to stand his ground. But he could not deny that Amelia seemed lonely. Would having more friends help? If his horses were truly safe, why shouldn’t he sell to a military man, especially if it brought her comfort?

  “I will take your advice under consideration,” he promised Amelia’s father, who graciously inclined his head as if knowing he’d won.

  Yet how seriously should he take the fellow? John couldn’t help thinking about the matter as they rode back to the stables. From what he’d seen of Lord and Lady Wesworth, their marriage was not a happy one, so taking their advice on how to improve his seemed rather foolhardy.

  On the other hand, Lord Wesworth counseled compromise, and John could not deny that compromise was inherent in any human endeavor. If he wished for more hay than his fields would produce, he must come to an agreement with another farm in the dale willing to sell its surplus. The greater the need, the more he might be willing to pay.

  What was he willing to do to secure Amelia’s happiness?

  Reams, who now served as valet, was waiting to help him with his boots.

  “My black coat tonight,” John told him. “And a fancier waistcoat.”

  “My lord?” Reams ogled him as if John had asked to wear Magnum’s bridle down to dinner.

  “I own suitable evening clothes, do I not?” John demanded.

  “Yes, my lord,” Reams assured him. “I’m sure I can find something appropriate. Just give me a moment.” He almost ran for the dressing room.

  When John went down to dinner a short time later, he fancied he would do credit to his wife. His uncooperative hair was pomaded in place. His black evening coat and trousers were set off by the emerald-striped satin waistcoat Reams had found in his closet. At least he hoped the fellow hadn’t borrowed it from the major’s trunk. His footman had even tied John’s cravat in some fanciful formation dubbed the Trone d’Amour, and John found it more than a little difficult to turn his head.

  Compromise, indeed.

  He heard his guests before he reached the withdrawing room. Someone was laughing, a joyous sound that leaped about the air like one of his foals at play. He didn’t think it was Caro. Did they have another guest?

  He paused in the doorway, none too sure he wanted to find out. He spotted Caro right away, hanging on the major’s arm as if he was everything to her. Yet the look on her face when she gazed up at the officer was nothing short of dismay.

  John could see why. The major was entirely absorbed with the woman standing by the hearth. Platinum hair swung in curls beside her face; sapphires glittered in the lace-edged neck of the satin gown, which matched the color of her eyes. He’d always known Amelia was a beauty. Tonight, she outshone the stars.

  “Ah, there you are, my lord,” she called out. She held out her gloved hand, graceful, polished. “Do lead me in to dinner. I’m positively famished.”

  Bemused, John came to do as he was bid.

  It was like dining with a fountain. Amelia was all movement and joy, sharing stories, encouraging conversation. He couldn’t remember taking a bite of the first course before the second was brought in. Major Kensington was clearly enthralled, and even her own father was watching her with that twitch of his lips that suggested approval. John didn’t remember Caro’s presence until she spoke up as they all walked to the withdrawing room after the meal.

  “Allow me to offer some entertainment this evening,” she said, moving to the front of the room. “After all, we wouldn’t want poor Amelia to have to resort to whist again.”

  Amelia might have taken offense at the implied slight to her skills as a hostess. Instead, she laughed. “Particularly when I am so very good at losing.”

  Major Kensington eyed Lord Wesworth. “I wouldn’t mind a hand or two, but we are odd numbers for cards.”

  “That’s why I suggest charades,” Caro said, taking up a dramatic pose as if prepared to act out her part.

  Lord Wesworth raised a brow. “I abhor mindless parlor games.”

  Caro stilled, one hand raised. Even Amelia dimmed, as if she had been about to suggest such a game, as well.

  “I used to sing for my parents,” John heard himself say.

  They all stared at him. Caro’s eyes were wide, as if she thought he’d gone quite mad. Major Kensington was grinning, as if he thought it a fine joke. But Amelia’s look of glowing gratitude propelled John forward.

  “It’s been a few years,” he admitted, taking his place at the front of the room as Caro retired to a chair nearby. “But let’s see if I remember.” He coughed into his hand to clear his throat.

  Major Kensington leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms over his chest. The set of his mouth told John he was ready to critique the piece, and the major fully expected to have a great deal to complain about. There was nothing for it but to dive in.

  “Oh, stay, sweet warbling woodlark, stay,” John sang, the words coming back to him. His voice had always been deep. Now the notes rolled from inside him and echoed in the otherwise silent room.

  “Nor quit for me the trembling spray.

  A hapless lover courts thy lay,

  Thy soothing, fond complaining.

  Again, again that tender part,

  That I may catch thy melting art;

  For certain that would touch her heart

  Who kills me with distaining.”

  All gazes had turned to his, but the only one he sought was Amelia’s. Her lips were parted in wonder, her eyes soft. Did she know he was singing to her?

  “Thou tells of never-ending care;

  Of speechless grief, and dark despair.

  For pity’s sake, sweet bird, no more,

  Or my poor heart is broken.”

  He finished and bowed, afraid to see how Amelia had taken it. But when he straightened, he saw an answering smile on her lovely face.

  “Well done!” Caro proclaimed, applauding. The others joined in. Even Major Kensington looked impressed.

  “Perhaps a duet next,” John said, and Caro popped to her feet. John held out his hand to his wife. “Amelia, will you join me? Surely you know ‘Return My Heart.’”

  She rose slowly, gaze on his. “Yes, I know it. Will you take melody or harmony, my lord?”

  John chuckled. “Melody will be difficult enough, I fear.”

  “Then you lead,” she said with a smile, “and I’ll follow.”

  He thought for a moment, hearing the appropriate note in his head. Then he started.

  “I prithee send me back my heart,

  Since I cannot have thine;

  For if from yours you will not part,

  Why then should you have mine?”

  Amelia joined on the second verse, their voices blending.

  “Why should two hearts in one breast lie

  And yet not lodge together?

  O love! Where is thy sympathy,

  If thus our hearts you sever?”

  All he could see was her, her blue eyes meeting his, her clear vo
ice sweeping away any other thought but the story of lovers parted and then united. Did she know she’d captured his heart? Destroyed the last of his defenses?

  They finished together.

  “Then farewell care and farewell woe;

  I will no longer pine;

  For I’ll believe I have her heart,

  As much as she hath mine.”

  The song faded, and John caught his breath. Amelia’s lips trembled, and she leaned closer. He met her halfway, touching his lips to hers. And breath and thought became impossible.

  Applause reminded him of their audience. John pulled back to find Lord Wesworth on his feet.

  “As fine an entertainment as I’ve ever heard,” he pronounced. “You make me proud, daughter.”

  Amelia burst into tears and ran from the room.

  Chapter Nineteen

  Well, she’d done it. She’d succeeded in capturing her father’s attentions after more than twenty years of striving. And for what? Dressing better than usual and flirting shamelessly.

  And John, dear John, had noticed her, as well. Each word of his song echoed in her heart. And when they had sung together, she’d felt perfect for the first time in her life.

  She couldn’t bear it.

  This wasn’t her. She wasn’t someone to put herself on display, to manipulate people into liking her. Her head was throbbing, her breath was hitching and she just wanted to go upstairs and crawl beneath the covers. What was wrong with her?

  John caught her at the foot of the stairs. In truth, she wasn’t even sure where she had been going. All she’d known was that she had to escape before she said or did something further to disgrace herself.

  “Easy,” he said, laying a hand on her arm. His shoulders were down, his breath coming slowly, controlled. She’d seen the response before and knew its purpose.

  “Oh, John,” she returned, “I’m not one of your horses to be calmed at a word and a deep breath.”

  He ran his hand up her arm and down again, as if needing to reassure her as much as himself. “I know you aren’t a horse, Amelia. But I’m coming to realize that people act a great deal like them.”

  She didn’t want his touch to be so soothing, yet it was. She could feel her own muscles loosening. “Your horses do not dress up and make a spectacle of themselves,” she protested.

 

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