by Mark Henwick
Liu fixed me with his stare. “It is very difficult to kill people with swords on this…industrial scale,” he said. “Imagine what can be done with more modern technology today.”
I could imagine it indeed. I had seen it, far too close.
“So what do you want with me? I won’t fight her and I’m not going to spy on her.”
Mary ducked her head. Liu answered, “Be there for her, keep talking to us. I don’t mean behind her back. We want you to tell her you’re talking to us, and what you say. We need her to know we’re always here.” He paused. “Then, also, the dragon may listen to you,” he said quietly. “There is a little hope.”
“But you believe I’m going to become evil. Why do you want me influencing your daughter’s spirit guide?”
“You’re not there yet, Amber, and…”
The pair of them exchanged looks again.
“There’s something you want to tell me?” I prompted.
Liu cleared his throat. “If Athanate are truly evil or not…we disagree on this in the Adept community. But there is hope. If you can form a link to her and we can form a link to you. There is hope. Maybe for both.”
I rubbed my face in my hands. At some stage, I’d have to stop holding out on everyone, but it didn’t feel right telling them everything yet. I wanted to get out and let this percolate along with everything else that was happening. See if something smart might occur to me. But I had one question I wanted answered.
“I know there are Athanate who are evil, but the Athanate in Denver don’t seem evil to me. What argument have you got that they are?”
I waited. Liu looked uncomfortable.
“I know the way you were brought up.” Mary leaned forward. “I’ve met your mother, Stacy. She taught you that everything has a cost, doesn’t it?”
I nodded.
“So what price do Athanate pay for their powers? Or does someone else do the paying?” asked Mary.
I didn’t have an answer to her question. “What about Adepts?” I countered.
“We pay, Amber. Our own life force. Adepts who use their powers often, they live shorter lives. Yet within the Athanate kin, Adepts and humans live longer. Why? How?”
“Dammit, I don’t know. Some effect of the Athanate blood. It’s clear you don’t know either, but you’re just assuming it’s evil.”
Mary went quiet, as sure in her own viewpoint as I was in mine. Time to go. I got up.
“Liu, Mary,” I said. “Tullah’s like a sister to me and I’ll do what I can to keep her safe, short of trying to change her completely. I don’t think I’m evil. I don’t think all Athanate are evil. I’ve stopped fighting becoming Athanate.”
Liu followed me out the door. “You say you’re not fighting it, Amber,” he said quietly, his voice masked from the class by the noise they were making, “but you’re no more Athanate to my eyes than you’ve always been.”
“I get fangs, Liu. My senses have gone crazy. My heart rate won’t go over 120. I’m looking for kin. I’m there.”
Liu smiled and shrugged. “Your description is similar to changes the Were go through as well, you know.”
Damn, I hadn’t fooled him. He could see what was going on.
“Trust me, Amber,” he said. “I have known you longer than the Athanate, longer than the Were. There is a tremendous strength in you. I can help, if you let me. Athanate, Were or not. Keep up your training sessions here, and we will talk.”
His face became more serious. “That anger,” he tapped my chest and belly, “trapped in there. That is not good. Not for the human. Not for the Adept. Not for the Were. But especially, not for the Athanate.”
Chapter 26
“Ronit Chopra,” the voice said. I checked the number Skylur had given me. This was it.
“Amber Farrell,” I replied. “Can I speak to Arvinder?”
“Ms. Farrell, I am so very pleased you called. I am the Diakon for House Singh. Arvinder has asked me to set up a meeting with you urgently.”
“Ronit, I’ve had attempts to kill or capture me in the last week. You realize it’s all sorts of crazy for me to be risking a meeting.” I eyed the octopus on the computer and hoped he was doing his job hiding where I was as I drove slowly northwards.
“Ms. Farrell, we absolutely guarantee your safety.”
“That’s nice, but it might be difficult to make a claim against that guarantee.” I huffed. “If he really wants to meet, it’ll be tomorrow. I’ll make a call and ask him to show up alone somewhere. If I get any feeling that it isn’t safe, your fault or not, I’m out of there.”
“We understand, Ms. Farrell, and thank you.”
I ended the call. Whether I actually managed the meeting or not, at least I’d shown I was willing. His eagerness to set the meeting had my antennae twitching, but if he thought he could manage something with the security I was going to put in place, he had another think coming.
It was getting late, and I’d promised to be back at 7 p.m., at Jen’s house, Manassah. Only, that wasn’t what I was calling it in my mind. I was calling it home.
I called Alex.
“Wolfy, can you talk now?” I said when he answered.
“You are a—”
“Bitch?” I suggested. “Yeah, I can do that. I’ll be your bitch and you can be mine. Didn’t you enjoy my last call?”
He laughed. “Not as much as you did.”
“Well, it sounds as if you can get me back now.”
“Hmm. I’m more physical than verbal.”
That was an opening for me. Not one I’d been waiting for particularly. I’d have much rather done this face to face.
“About that, can I ask a tough question?”
“Not got doubts again already?”
“No.” I smiled. “Just asking.” I was painfully aware of how little I knew about Weres, how much Alex would be happy to talk about. The question had formed in my mind from other people’s descriptions about them. I wasn’t even sure what answer I wanted to hear.
That untamed look in his eyes, the wildness, it was scary. It spoke of danger, the potential for animal violence. But I liked scary; it turned me on. And I was no powder puff. I guessed I just wanted to know how much of a leash there was. Trouble was, how to put that into words?
“Well?” he prompted me.
“Er…when we were in bed yesterday, y’know, afterwards, when we were talking.”
“I like this part.” There was almost a growl behind his words.
“Just before your cell called you away and ruined it.” I tried throwing a bit of cold water on him. “You said not every girl was physically up to it.” I swallowed, hearing a deep silence on the line. Oh crap! Why couldn’t I just shut up?
“Yeah, we can get rough, dominant, and believe me, even in human form, we enjoy biting as well.” He paused. “I wish you were here,” he said, very quietly, very simply.
I’d pulled over and parked. That was a good thing because driving wouldn’t have gotten my attention at that moment. I’d wandered into difficult ground in a new relationship, a very important relationship for me, and all the nonverbal communication stuff was out.
“I wish you were here, too,” I replied.
“You’re in your car.”
“Doesn’t matter where we are.”
He chuckled. It was a deep, rich sound and it told me we were okay. “I didn’t come looking for someone to be submissive all the time, hot stuff, and I won’t promise I’ll always be gentle, but I am not a complete animal. Not even when I am.”
I laughed. I could handle that. “When do I get to see the complete animal? I’m guessing the full moon is just Hollywood.”
“Hey, full moons are good. Much better light to go running in the woods.” There were some background noises. “Hold on a second.”
I could hear him speaking to someone, promising to be out in a couple of minutes. Then he came back on.
“I gotta go. The client is back on board. I just want to be sure they
’re going to stay that way. I’m back in Denver tomorrow, and I’ve set up a meeting with the alpha in the morning.”
He gave me the address of a ranch off the Deer Creek road, out near the national parks, southwest of the city.
“Amber, this is a very bad time,” he warned.
“It’s never a good time.”
“Just give the alpha some leeway, okay? His name’s Felix Larimer.”
“Alex, I’m not accusing Felix of anything—”
“You are, whether you mean to or not.”
“What’s the big deal?”
“The big deal is the Athanate poking their noses into our business when it suits them and freezing us out when it doesn’t. Athanate making decisions on behalf of the whole paranormal community without consulting anyone else, and then demanding accountability from us. Taking and never giving. The world doesn’t revolve around the Athanate concerns, Amber.”
“Ouch. Sorry. I’ll be nice. And I’m not there as a rep for the Athanate.”
“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have gone off on you. It will help if you make it clear you’re just there personally. Look, gotta go.”
“Are you coming with me?”
“I’ll be there. See you tomorrow.”
We signed off and I sat thinking it through.
Hmm. ‘Be there’ rather than ‘come with.’
There was some justification in what he said about Athanate, at least in the way I’d be perceived. Maybe he had a point that Athanate tended to think the world revolved around them. Diana hadn’t made any mention of Were or Adepts in her plans to talk to the government.
I didn’t want to make trouble for Alex with his pack.
There was a text message on my cell, ordering me back to Haven. It was from Tom, who quoted it as coming from Skylur. Well, the decoy was running. I deleted the message.
I wasn’t as late as I feared. I got there just as Jen’s driver, Kingston, was emptying some bags from the trunk of her car. She’d been shopping and I saw she’d even had Tullah in tow.
“Another new car, honey?” Jen asked.
“It’s just on loan for a couple of days. Am I late?” I said.
“You’re early,” Jen said as we kissed cheeks. “Hell, early enough we can decide where to go for dinner.”
Tullah was quiet. She must have known where I’d been, and I guessed that was the reason. I would have to talk to her privately later.
“Why not eat in?” I said as we walked in.
“My treat.”
Now Jen and I would have to talk. It wasn’t that she couldn’t afford it. She had to be one of the richest people in Denver. It was all about my pride, and the sting when my sister had accused me of being dependent on Jen. Also, if I argued it and paid, it’d have to be on my card and I didn’t doubt the FBI would be tracking that if they were bugging my cells.
“You can’t just keep taking me out for meals. And I haven’t got anything to wear,” I said.
Tullah suddenly moved off down the hall. “I’ll go change,” she called over her shoulder.
Kingston came back from the other way. “All done, Ms. Kingslund.”
“Thanks, Kingston. That’s it for today. See you tomorrow, usual time.”
He slipped out the front door, and Jen took my hand and pulled me, protesting, along to the guest suite.
I realized why Tullah had run off. Jen hadn’t been shopping for herself.
“No, Jen. You can’t keep doing this.” I wasn’t really angry. Not really. I understood it wasn’t her fault. The total cost of all the clothes she had bought me probably meant as much to her financially as it would for me to buy Tullah a coffee. She just didn’t see that there was a difference. “Can’t you see the problem?”
“No, honey, all I could see was you don’t have any clothes left.” Now she was angry with me. There was more than a lack of understanding there. I could see a frustration boiling underneath. It wasn’t the cost, but this meant so much to her, and I needed to puzzle it out, quickly. The air felt dry as tinder, as if a spark might set it off.
“What do you want me to do?” she snapped. “How can I make it better if you won’t let me?” Her blue eyes seemed lit from within. She was seconds from blowing up.
I ran out of smart words, and I did the thing I knew I really shouldn’t do, because, despite that, it was what I wanted to do. I slipped my arms around her. Her body was stiff.
“I don’t need you to do anything, Jen. It doesn’t need making better.”
The breath left her and with it, all the tension from her body. Her hands slid over my back, and I closed my eyes.
“Sorry,” she whispered against my neck, lips like butterflies on my skin.
I smiled.
“What?” She pinched me gently.
“Just something totally inappropriate and cheesy I nearly said.”
“You can’t do that, honey. Tell me,” she said, “or the dinner’s off.” Hidden in a joke, she was asking if it was all right to go out, and I guess, having retreated from arguing about the clothes, I might as well capitulate on everything.
“Okay, we’ll go, but I choose where.”
“Done. That doesn’t get you out of telling me what you were thinking, sneaky.”
“Just how lovely you look when you’re angry. I did warn you it was cheesy.”
She giggled. “Really?”
“Yeah. Take it from me, that is really cheesy, I promise you.” She hit me. Luckily, it’s difficult to punch someone you’re hugging.
“You going to try some of the clothes on, honey?”
I could imagine getting my clothes off, but I was having difficulty imagining getting others back on in a hurry. And she hadn’t said anything that made me think she’d wait outside.
“Shy?” Her face looked so innocent.
I laughed. “After ten years in the army? No, Jen, not body shy. But actually, I do need you to do something for me.” I ran my fingers up into her hair, enjoying the feel of it. Little shivers ran down my body. If I didn’t stop this soon, I wasn’t going to be able to. I kissed her forehead. “I need you to wait until after the weekend, and I can explain everything about me, before we take it any further.”
She looked up at me, flushed but resigned. “Okay, honey.” I guess she’d gotten used to me being strange, and asking strange things. Her hands sank to hold my hips and rested there. Her teeth nervously worried at her bottom lip.
She took a steadying breath. “I’m not going to change my mind. I know we’re not in Kansas anymore, Toto.”
I tilted my head and looked at her, wondering. She knew about werewolves; part of her case had involved Alex’s pack. And I guess, like many things, once you’ve opened your mind, all kinds of other thoughts present themselves. Had she figured out what I was? At least approximately.
“So,” she said carefully, “do I miss you on nights with a full moon?”
I giggled. “I’m not playing twenty questions, but moonlighting is strictly Hollywood.” Before I could shut my mouth, my little demon made me say, “You might get me to howl, though.”
She looked up at me, big blue eyes blinking. “Why, honey, whatever do you mean?” Butter wouldn’t melt, etcetera.
I persuaded her to go off and change into something more casual while I picked out an outfit from the clothes she had bought me. She’d nailed it on the size and her taste was excellent. Not a single price was left on the clothes, but I could imagine. At the end of it, though, I was still in jeans and a shirt, just way upscale.
I was out before Jen, and Tullah was waiting in the sitting room. She smiled a little at the clothes. “That went way better than it might have, then,” she said.
She was still subdued.
“What’s up?” I asked, sitting beside her. I assumed she was expecting me to launch into a lecture from her parents.
I could see her check that Jen wasn’t around yet. She took a deep breath. “How well do you know Alex?”
A little ch
ill settled in my stomach. “Not well at all. Not really. Why?”
“I shouldn’t have gotten involved, Amber.” She rubbed her face. “But when you said that Alex’s old girlfriend had died, I had to check. I couldn’t help myself.”
“Check what?”
“There’s no death certificate,” said Tullah. “She’s officially listed as missing.”
I struggled to stay calm. “Hope was a Were too, I’m pretty sure. There are many reasons that it might not be a good idea for a human coroner to see her.”
“Yeah. It’s probably nothing, and I know you can take care of yourself. I had to tell you though. I’m sorry.”
“You did right, kiddo.” I wasn’t going to worry about this tonight. I would ask Alex tomorrow and he’d explain to me. Fine.
I gave her a hug just as Jen came in. Thankfully, my problems didn’t suddenly increase. Jen had figured out my relationship with Tullah, and all I got was a whisper in my ear when Tullah was on the phone making the reservation.
“Is everything okay?”
“Yeah, it was nothing really.”
Tullah was booking us in to Lario’s. My choice and the steaks were to die for.
“Is that your hand on my butt?” I murmured.
She sighed. “Just checking the fit, honey. Did I get it right?”
“Feels good,” said my demon. “The fit, I mean.”
She chuckled wickedly and then behaved herself as we piled into the Jeep. After making sure cell numbers were up to date, I let the guards stay at Manassah.
Lario made a fuss of me. I hadn’t been in for a month. Well, I couldn’t afford to eat there regularly, even with the discount I got. With kisses on cheeks all around, he ushered us to a corner table and let the wait staff loose on us. I doubt Lario noticed it was Jen; he wasn’t interested in much outside of his restaurant, but the staff knew who she was and the service zinged.
The steak and the wine did the job of unwinding us all. So much that I ended up agreeing to go out with Jen the following evening, not to a restaurant, but to the site of her new Quarter Horse race track. It was out towards Golden, on the west side of Denver. Although the stands and facilities would be a long time coming, the Quarter Horse Association wanted to run some inaugural races to celebrate. Jen had to attend the planning for a media ceremony formally signing over the site. I groaned inwardly; I had just agreed to go to a business meeting.