The Piano Player's Son
LINDSAY STANBERRY-FLYNN
Published by Cinnamon Press
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The Piano Player's Son is a work of fiction, Any resemblance to any person is entirely co-incidental.
Acknowledgements
I would like to thank Jan Fortune for her belief and encouragement, and everyone at Cinnamon Press for their hard work and dedication. My thanks also to my writing group who read the early chapters and gave me good advice and to Cornerstones Literary Consultancy whose guidance helped strengthen both characters and plot. Elisabeth Drake's help with Italian was invaluable, and Judith Selby's eagle-eye pinpointed some discrepancies. I am also grateful to my writing students who keep me exploring the craft of writing and to friends for their support. My love and gratitude goes to my family whose belief and pride in my writing mean so much to me. Above all, I owe a huge debt to Trevor – without his love and encouragement none of it would be possible.
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About the Author
Lindsay Stanberry-Flynn writes novels and short stories. She published her first novel Unravelling in 2010, and it went on to win three awards. She won the Cinnamon Press Novel Award with The Piano Player's Son, her second novel. A number of her short stories have also been published by – amongst others – Cinnamon Press, Rubery Book Award and Fish Publishing. Lindsay worked as an English lecturer in further and higher education before leaving to take an MA in Creative Writing at Bath Spa University. She now works as a creative writing tutor.
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Table of Contents
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Thirteen
Fourteen
Fifteen
Sixteen
Seventeen
Eighteen
Nineteen
Twenty
Twenty-one
Twenty-two
Twenty-three
Twenty-four
Twenty-five
Twenty-six
Twenty-seven
Twenty-eight
Twenty-nine
Thirty
Thirty-one
Thirty-two
Thirty-three
Thirty-four
Thirty-five
Thirty-six
For Gavin, Hugh and Hannah
One
By four in the morning, the vigil was over. Isabel's lips touched his forehead. He already felt cold. 'I love you, Dad,' she whispered.
The others had said their goodbyes and would be waiting in the car park. Their impatience tugged at her, but she couldn't go. It didn't seem right to leave him on his own. She gazed at the bristles spiking his chin. How long does a beard keep growing?
There was a noise behind her and she glanced round.
A nurse was standing in the doorway. 'I thought you'd all gone.' She indicated the trolley in front of her. 'There are one or two things I need to do.'
Isabel clamped her fists to her sides as the nurse's hand, reddened and capable, touched her father's pale arm. 'What will happen to him now?'
'I'll make him comfortable, and then he'll be taken to the mortuary.'
Isabel frowned. Comfortable? What on earth was that supposed to mean?
He looked so peaceful, you heard people say. He could have been asleep—platitudes to ease the pain. But never, ever, would she have thought her dad was asleep. Sleeping people wake up, they come back to you: I had a bad dream, they'll say. I love you, they'll murmur. But this was different. This awful quality of absence slashed a gulf between you and them, between sound and silence.
The glass doors slid open and Isabel stepped out. The early morning air stung her cheeks after the fug of the hospital. She hesitated at the top of the steps, looking down at her mother and brother waiting at the bottom, their faces blobs in the shadow cast by the sodium light. Her mother clung to Rick's arm.
Isabel started down the steps and joined them. Closer, Rick's eyes were bloodshot. Before he arrived at the hospital last night, she hadn't seen him for several months and was surprised to see his hair streaked with grey. Her mother's mouth was pinched and lifeless without its red lipstick.
The three of them formed an awkward little circle. No one spoke. Isabel's fingers searched for the ring on her left hand. She couldn't get used to its absence.
She settled her mother into her old Volvo and followed Rick out of the car park. As they passed St Joseph's, Isabel glanced at the statue of Mary, baby Jesus cradled in her arms, which stood in the church forecourt. Her mother made the sign of the cross and lowered her head. When Isabel was young, she would sprinkle holy water on them all, or offer up Hail Marys as they left for school when they had exams or something big happening. But the Blessed Virgin hadn't come up trumps this time, had she?
Rick was already in the kitchen when they arrived at the house. He was tapping numbers into his mobile.
'Sit down, Mum,' Isabel said. 'What can I get you?'
Her mother, usually so talkative, so loud, shook her head.
'Brandy's good for shock. Dad's got a bottle somewhere.'
Rick looked up from the phone. 'I've sent Georgie boy a text.'
'Saying what?'
'No point driving like a maniac. Dad's gone.'
Isabel glared at Rick. 'You told him that in a text?'
'Credit me with some sense. I said no rush now.'
Isabel turned away. She glanced at the wall where her father's old station clock hung. Over the years, the long black hands had announced when it was time for school, piano lessons, her driving test, and the moment she and her father left for church on her wedding day. 'The clock,' she said. 'Look. It says five to four. That means it stopped when Dad—'
'I'll sort it out.' Rick pulled open the glass front.
'No!' Isabel caught his wrist as his fingers reached towards the clock. Only her father wa
s allowed to wind it. It had been one of his rules.
Rick shook off her hand. He searched around on top of the case and Isabel heard the staccato clicking of the mechanism as the key turned. She stared at her brother's back, his outstretched arm as he closed the front again and returned the key to its home. He was taller, slimmer, but it could almost have been her father standing there.
She crouched beside her mother's chair. 'What about some tea?' Her voice sounded bright and artificial.
Rick turned from studying the clock, which now showed twenty past five. 'Not for me. I'm shattered.'
'Go to bed, caro,' her mother said.
'And you, Mum. Isabel can bring tea up to you.'
Their mother stood up, catching hold of the back of the chair. She suddenly looked much older than sixty-eight. 'You won't forget about Grace?' she asked, from the doorway.
'I'll ring her now.'
While she waited for the kettle to boil, Isabel dialled Grace's mobile. When they'd realised their father's condition was serious, she'd phoned her sister in Italy. She would leave immediately, Grace had said. She wanted to be there. But a few moments before he died, the nurse had come in with a message. There were technical problems: Grace was stuck in Naples.
Grace took an age to answer. Isabel pictured the airport: lights dimmed; row upon row of travellers trying to sleep, whiling away the hours that held them suspended between one moment in their lives and another. It was the worst of settings to receive such news.
*
The bedside light was on in her mother's room and she was sitting up, tiny against the plumped up pillows. Isabel tried not to look at the empty space beside her.
'When I first came to England,' her mother said, sipping the tea, 'I hated this dreadful stuff.' She pulled down her mouth at the memory. 'I was nearly sick more than once.'
'I phoned Grace,' Isabel said.
'Poor baby. All on her own.'
'Flights resume in the morning. I'll pick her up from Heathrow.'
'And mi tesoro?'
Isabel took the cup from her mother's hand and put it on the bedside table. 'George will be here soon.'
Her mother closed her eyes. Isabel watched the rise and fall of her chest. When she was sure she was asleep, she leant forward and kissed her cheek.
Her mother's eyes shot open. 'Isabel! Why are you here? Where's your father?'
'Mamma…' These days Isabel rarely called her mother that. She'd left the name behind with toys and dressing-up clothes. It was her father who would say Ask Mamma; you'd better tell Mamma.
Her mother reached up and stroked her cheek. 'You're a good girl, Isabel. A good daughter.' She smiled. 'Tell Henry I want him.'
'Mamma. Dad's gone.'
'But he hasn't said goodbye. Henry always kisses me goodbye.'
Isabel put an arm round her shoulders. A pad of flesh covered the bone. 'Mum, you remember. You went in the ambulance with Dad.'
Her mother's fingers clutched at the bedcover, her long nails red against the cream material. 'Gone. He's gone,' she repeated as if she was learning a new language.
'Mamma…'
Her mother dropped back on to the pillow. 'I'll be all right on my own.' She pushed Isabel's hand away. 'You get home. Brian will be wondering where you are.'
'I doubt he will.'
'Why? Has Brian gone too?'
'We split up, didn't we?' Isabel said.
'Did you?'
'I'm in that flat now. Dad helped me sort it out.'
Her mother slapped her palm against her forehead. 'I'm all confused.'
'It's shock.'
'I can't manage on my own.'
'I'll help you.' Isabel hoped she sounded confident. Her father had been a saint when it came to dealing with her mother.
'Henry did everything for me.'
'I know,' Isabel said. Too much, people used to say. 'You and Dad were perfect together.'
'Perfetto.'
'I wish I'd been half as lucky with Brian.'
'He'll come back. They always do. Make him pay a little and then forgive him.'
Isabel stared at a brown stain on the wallpaper above the bed. It looked like tea, or blood. She'd never noticed it before. 'It's not so easy.'
'Forgiveness. Isn't that what marriage is all about?'
'You should know, Mum.'
'What makes you say that?' Her mother's voice was sharp.
'You and Dad were married a long time, that's all.' Isabel felt for the words as if she was negotiating a route on a rocky path. 'You must have had to forgive a few things over the years.'
Her mother's face wrinkled into a smile. 'You were his favourite.'
'Dad didn't have favourites.'
But you have. Isabel watched her mother. And it's no secret who.
On the landing, a strip of light shone from underneath Rick's old bedroom door. She tapped and waited. No answer—he'd probably fallen asleep with the light on. She pushed the door open.
Rick was sitting on the narrow bed, his laptop open on his knees. He looked up. His face was grey in the computer's bluey glow. He kept his fingers poised over the keyboard. 'What?'
'I thought—'
'What do you want?' His voice rasped as if he'd just smoked a pack of twenty.
Isabel smoothed down the edge of the carpet with her foot. It always caught on the door. 'Someone will have an accident on that one day,' her mother used to say. Dad had never got round to sorting it out. 'I thought you might want to talk.'
Rick's heavy eyebrows dived towards each other and a furrow appeared. 'What's to talk about?'
For a second, Isabel was a little girl hovering at her big brother's door: Do you want to play? Shove off! I'm busy.
She shrugged, the urge to communicate shrivelling away like melting snow. 'What are you doing?'
'Making a list.' Rick's gaze had returned to the screen.
'A list of what?'
'What is this? A catechism?'
Isabel edged the door shut with her heel. 'Ssh. You'll wake Mum up.'
Rick sighed and laid the laptop on the bed next to him. 'Right. You've got my attention. What do you want?'
A prickling sensation started in Isabel's nose, and she bit her lip hard. 'Why do you have to be so vile? Dad's just died. I thought there might be things to talk about.'
'Isabel.' Her mother's voice called from across the landing.
'Mum's awake.' Rick lifted the laptop back on to his knees.
'Isabel.'
'You'd better see what she wants.' His fingers raced across the keyboard.
A lamp burned on the bedside table, and her mother was sitting at the dressing table, plaiting her hair.
'I thought you were asleep, Mum. What are you doing up again?'
'You know I can't go to bed without doing my hair. You shouldn't have made me.'
Isabel sat down on the bed and looked at her mother's reflection as she wound the long, thick hair round her fingers. At one time it had been the colour of burgundy, but now there was more white than anything else. She looked different in the mirror. There was something about her eyes, the shape of her mouth with that slight droop in the corner that made her seem a stranger.
'He used to love watching me do this.' Her mother smoothed a stray strand of hair. 'Morning and night, he'd sit on the bed and hand the clips to me. Except yesterday. He didn't want to get up.' She gripped Isabel's hand. 'If I'd called someone then, he might still be with us.'
'It was a major heart attack. Nothing could have been done.'
'I should have known. He was always up first.'
Her mother's eyes had a distant look as she contemplated some private world Isabel couldn't begin to imagine. Isabel followed her gaze across the room. Her father's dark suit, the one he wore for best, was hanging on the wardrobe door.
'We were going out for his birthday next week. He'd got his suit out to be cleaned.' Her mother turned back to the mirror. 'I didn't deserve him.'
'He adored you.'
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nbsp; 'Sometimes I think he loved me too much.'
Her mother's voice was a whisper, so at first Isabel thought she must have misheard. Surely, her mother could never have too much adoration?
'He'd have done anything to make you happy.'
'That was the trouble.'
'How do you mean?'
Her mother shook her head and the newly wound plait twisted snake-like on her shoulder. 'It doesn't matter.' She sat on the edge of the bed and swung her legs round. 'I'm tired, Isabel. I think I could sleep now.'
'You can't say something like that, Mum, and then shut up.'
'Your father made me promise not to tell anyone.'
'If there's something I should know about…'
Her mother lay back against the pillow and closed her eyes. 'Perhaps it would be better.'
'It's no good bottling things up. Isn't that what Dad always said?'
'My eyes hurt. It's too bright.'
Isabel switched off the bedside light. For a few moments darkness and silence coalesced, and then her mother began to talk.
Isabel hung her key on the hook in the kitchen. The flat was cold and silent. She went back into the hall and hesitated outside Rose's room. The door was ajar and she could hear the soft sound of her daughter's breathing. She hadn't expected Rose to wait up, but still she felt disappointed, like a child coming home from school to an empty house.
In the kitchen, she fished around in the back of a cupboard and found the bottle of gin. She poured a large measure. There was a time after Brian left when she drank every night. It got especially bad when Josh went to live with his dad. After the first couple of glasses she hardly felt the pain. She used to fall asleep at the kitchen table, waking up cold and stiff in the early hours, to climb into Josh's bed and cuddle his pillow.
One night when Rose was staying with a friend, she'd phoned to say there'd been a row, and she wanted to come home. Isabel tried to persuade her to get a taxi but she wouldn't hear of it, sobbed down the phone. Isabel went. It still made her shudder to think what might have happened.
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