“I’m sorry,” Blake said. “This is difficult.”
His brother’s eyes narrowed with concern. “Lord Neufeld was kind enough to explain that you have been unwell. He said you do not remember how you came to be here, or even where you come from.”
Blake noticed his sister-in-law backing away from him, as if she were only then coming to understand the strangeness of the situation.
“That is correct,” he replied.
“Then you don’t know us,” she said.
He wet his lips. “I’m sorry…”
“Can you tell us anything about where you’ve been for the past month,” Lord Hawthorne said, “or what you remember about your life?”
“I don’t remember anything at all,” Blake replied. “I was rather hoping you would be the ones to supply the information tonight.”
The couple exchanged looks and seemed to speak to each other with their eyes. Blake could see straightaway that they were close.
“Why don’t we sit down,” his brother suggested.
Blake moved to the sofa. He was aware of Chelsea and Sebastian taking seats by the window. Part of him did not want them there, but they were his hosts and had saved his life. Despite what had just occurred, he would not ask them to leave just now.
“How did you find me?” he asked his brother.
“You’ve been missing for a month,” Devon replied. “We have been searching everywhere for you, and two days ago there was a piece in the newspaper about a man who was found washed ashore here on Jersey. The description seemed to fit, and we had already ascertained that you set off for France with some acquaintances around the same time, so in our minds it was not improbable that the man who washed up onto the beach was you.”
“Perhaps you could fill in some holes for us,” Chelsea said, and Blake felt a sudden irritation with her. These were his questions to ask, not hers. “When I found your brother, he was gravely wounded.”
“How so?” Devon asked.
Blake placed his hand over his abdomen. Sometimes he could still feel the bloody gash in his side as if it happened only yesterday.
“I was impaled somehow,” he said.
“Impaled? Do you mean stabbed?”
“We’re not sure what happened,” he answered. “Were there any reports in London of ships run aground or lost at sea in this area? If there was such an accident, I could have gotten caught on a harpoon, for all we know.”
“No, nothing,” Devon replied. “Are you recovered now?”
“Yes, fully. These people were very…” He paused. “They summoned a physician.”
Some of the tension relaxed in his brother’s rigid posture, so Blake decided to leave out the part about being locked in his room while they drugged him into a stupor.
At least for now.
“We owe you a great debt,” Devon said to Chelsea and Sebastian.
A great debt indeed. Blake had to work hard to control his hostility.
“That is not necessary,” Sebastian replied. “I am sure you would have done the same if you’d found yourselves in our position.”
Lady Hawthorne tilted her head to the side. “My word, Lord Neufeld, your lip is bleeding.”
Sebastian spoke with his eyes fixed on his shoes. “Yes, I walked into a door earlier.”
She seemed to accept this explanation, while Blake could not help but wonder if they were terrified he was going to reveal their devious plot to his brother, who was heir to a dukedom. They were probably shaking in their shoes. And if they weren’t, they certainly should be.
“So we still do not know how I came to be here,” he said, forcing himself to forget about Chelsea and Sebastian for the time being.
His brother shook his head. “No, but we may find out eventually if we can locate the people with whom you were traveling. Vincent is searching for them in France as we speak.”
“You know who they are?”
“Yes. We discovered that you recently became acquainted with a gentleman by the name of John Fenton. His father is Baron Ridgeley, who is the chairman of the London Horticultural Society. You went there to look into their affairs, and that’s how you met the man’s son.”
Blake drew back slightly. “Do I have an interest in horticulture?” He could not imagine it.
“No,” Devon flatly replied. “But our father does, and you had your reasons for familiarizing yourself with the society.” He paused and looked across at his wife. “This is where the story of your life becomes rather out of the ordinary, Blake. I am going to have a hard time explaining this to you, but it cannot be avoided.” He turned to Sebastian and Chelsea. “I do apologize, but would you excuse us? This is a family matter of a somewhat private nature.”
“Of course,” Sebastian replied. “We will be in the library.” They both stood and walked to the door.
Blake did not so much as glance in Chelsea’s direction as she moved past, but he could feel the intensity of her mood chafing up against his own. She was anxious and apprehensive, afraid of what he was going to reveal to his family when she was no longer in the room.
He was glad. She deserved to perspire a little.
“Do you have any memory of our home, Blake?” Devon asked after the door closed behind them. “Do you remember Pembroke Palace where you were raised? Do you remember anything about our father, the duke?”
“No.”
Devon sat back. “Then I shall be blunt. He is not well. He is growing old, and he is also…I am sorry to have to say this, but there is no gentle way to put it. He is going mad.”
“Mad?”
“Yes. We have hired the best doctors, but there is nothing that can be done for him. All we can do is shelter him from the public eye and do our best to keep him as comfortable as possible.”
Blake sat back and contemplated this news.
“I see,” he said at last.
He wanted to know if he should be grief-stricken to hear this, because presently he felt nothing but a detached sympathy for the family. He did not know the man to whom Devon was referring. He could not summon any genuine, heartfelt sorrow, for he could not picture his father’s face in his mind. There was nothing there—no images, no feelings, no wish to return home as quickly as possible to hold his father’s hand and ease his burdens.
Only then did a true sense of mourning come upon him, as he realized he was as good as dead inside. He cared for no one. Nothing was important to him. Perhaps he would have been better off if he’d drowned on the night he was lost.
“I am sorry to hear that,” he said nevertheless, aware of his brother staring at him and recognizing this appalling indifference that he could do nothing about. He was not that good of an actor. He could not pretend to be devastated when he felt only a disconnected regret for these people sitting across from him, and for the aging duke who was losing his mind. “Is there anything I can do?”
Devon’s shoulders rose and fell with a sigh. “There is, actually. It is something we have all been asked to do—all four of us. You, me, Vincent, and Garrett.”
When Devon did not elaborate right away, Blake frowned. “What is it?”
His brother bowed his head and pinched the bridge of his nose. “This is all so difficult to explain, Blake, but I will do my best.” He looked up. “One of the most obvious symptoms of Father’s illness is his stubborn belief that the palace is haunted and cursed. He believes that if all of his sons are not married by Christmas, a flood of biblical proportions will sweep everything away—the house, the gardens, everything.”
“A flood? But that is madness,” Blake said.
“Exactly. Unfortunately. Father had his wishes written in his will before he was deemed insane—minus the part about the curse—and his solicitor stands by it. If just one of us does not marry, we will all be disinherited, so we have been forced to trust and rely on each other. If one of us fails to abide by the terms of the will, Father will leave his entire unentailed fortune to the London Horticultural Society. I will
get the title and property, of course, but with agricultural prices at an all-time low, I will have a difficult time maintaining it. The rest of you will have nothing.”
“Which is why I was visiting that particular organization,” Blake reasoned.
“That is our assumption.”
“But why did I go to France?”
“From the information we gathered, the baron goes there often with his son to bring back non-native seeds and bulbs, rare flowers and shrubs, that sort of thing. But we believe also that you might have been courting his daughter. Like us, you’ve been looking rather urgently for a bride, and no one would be more suitable in Father’s eyes than a young woman with an interest in horticulture.”
“Good God, have I proposed to her?” he asked.
“We’re not sure. There have been no announcements about it, and we did not hear any news of that nature while we were investigating your whereabouts. From what we gathered, you were closer to the young lady’s brother, staying out late at night, drinking and gambling, but I suppose anything is possible.”
Blake closed his eyes. “What is her name?”
“Elizabeth Fenton,” Devon replied.
Blake cupped his forehead in a hand and whispered irritably, “Christ.”
“Do you remember something?” Lady Hawthorne asked, overlooking his unseemly oath and sitting forward in her chair.
Blake lounged against the seat cushions and tipped his head back to look up at the high, frescoed ceiling. “No. But I might have said her name once or twice in my sleep.”
“Perhaps you are in love with her, then,” she replied with a hopeful, somewhat romantic lilt in her voice.
He lifted his head and spoke to her icily. “I don’t even know what the woman looks like.”
Looking bewildered, she frowned at him.
Devon frowned also.
“What is wrong with you both?” Blake asked. “Why are you looking at me like that?”
Lady Hawthorne’s voice was gentle but firm. “It is not like you to speak to me in that tone, Blake.”
After everything he’d been through, he was in no mood for a scolding.
“My apologies, Lady Hawthorne,” he replied. “I’ll try to speak more courteously next time.”
“You have always called me Rebecca,” she said.
He turned his embittered gaze to his brother. “So let me get this straight. You expect me to return to England and do my duty for you—and two other brothers I don’t recall—and marry someone by Christmas. Possibly a woman I have no memory of.”
“Well…”
“What if I say no?” he blatantly asked.
They both looked at him the same way again, as if two horns had just sprouted from the sides of his head.
“What is the problem?” he asked.
Rebecca cleared her throat. “I beg your pardon, Blake, but when you first disappeared, some suggested that you might have run off and deserted us as an act of rebellion because you did not wish to marry, but then we decided that that couldn’t be possible, because it is not you.”
Devon picked up the thread of what she was saying. “She’s right. Out of all of us, you are the most responsible. You’ve always been the voice of reason and harmony at the palace. You smooth out everyone else’s problems and quarrels. I don’t think any of us have ever seen you lose your temper.”
“Are you sure you are not mistaking me for the brother you lost?” he asked. “Because I assure you, ever since I woke up without any knowledge of who I am, I lose my temper quite often.”
“I make no mistake,” Devon replied.
Blake turned his eyes toward the window. “Then maybe the brother you knew died on those rocks down there.”
Looking deeply concerned, Devon leaned forward. “Let me tell you a little something about the man you are. Over the past three years, you have remained steadfast at home, taking care of everyone and everything tirelessly, while I have deserted the family to spend time abroad, and while Vincent has lived a wild and reckless existence in London. As far as Garrett goes, we don’t even know where he is, perhaps on a sailboat writing poetry somewhere in the Mediterranean. He doesn’t keep in touch. You, on the other hand, have always been the rock in our family. You have always done what is necessary to hold us together.”
Blake sat forward also. “So what are you trying to tell me? That you expect me to do what you ask, because it is in my nature to be helpful and agreeable?”
By the looks on their faces, they were both growing increasingly sick with worry.
He scoffed. “Are you absolutely sure I am the brother you think I am? Because I sure as hell don’t feel dutiful or agreeable toward anyone right now. What I’d really like to do is walk out of here and go find…What did you say his name was? Garrett? Yes, I have half a mind to tell you all to go to hell with your duties and expectations, because all I want to do is walk out of here this instant and start the hell over with my life.”
“Good heavens,” Rebecca said.
An uncomfortable silence ensued until his sister-in-law rose to her feet, crossed over the carpet and sat down beside him. “I understand this must be very difficult for you to hear,” she said. “You’ve been through a terrible ordeal, Blake. But may I offer you some advice?”
“If you feel you must,” he replied.
“You are a very fortunate person to have been born into the Pembroke dynasty, and I am not just referring to your family’s wealth, power, and property, but to the devotion and loyalty of loved ones who would do anything for your happiness. Might I suggest you consider that? In the past, you have always honored that loyalty in return.”
He glanced at his brother, who merely inclined his head in agreement.
“So your message to me,” Blake said, “is that if I want the benefits and protection of my influential family, I have to do what you tell me to do.”
“It is not quite like that,” she replied. “We do not wish to force you into anything.”
“The brother I grew up with,” Devon said, “would want to do it of his own free will.”
Blake studied Devon’s eyes. “Did you marry her because you had to?”
He hesitated. “Yes, as a matter of fact I did. But as you can see, it worked out very well.”
“Yes, obviously. Are you the only one who has done his duty thus far? You said Garrett is out of the country. What about Vincent?”
“He was just beginning his honeymoon when you were declared missing. His bride waits for him at home.”
“They are deeply in love,” Rebecca added. “As we hope you will be one day.”
“One day…” he repeated. “You mean before Christmas. That rather puts the pressure on, does it not?”
Neither of them gave any response, so Blake decided it was time to end this conversation. There was another rather pressing one that required his attention.
He rose to his feet. “If you will both excuse me, I must go and speak to my hosts. But first I would like to know when you plan to return to England.”
Devon paused. “That depends.”
“On what?”
“On whether or not you intend to come with us, because we will not leave here without you.”
Blake stood still for a moment, pondering what he now knew about his life and his future, while he regarded two very determined individuals who promised him an insurmountable family loyalty.
He could not deny he was curious about the other particulars of his life. He wanted to see the place where he was born and raised. His mother and father. He needed to know who he really was.
“I am eager to go home,” he told them. “Perhaps seeing the palace will help me remember everything else.”
“Then we shall leave in the morning,” Devon replied. “At first light.”
“So it seems the rush has already begun.”
“It began quite some time ago,” Devon somberly replied, “when our father began talking to ghosts.”
Chapter 16
“We need to talk,” he said to Chelsea, then turned to the others. “If you will excuse us.”
Melissa stood and hurried out, but Sebastian was reluctant. “I will not excuse you if you are still inclined to hit things.”
“Hit people, you mean.” Blake was feeling impatient, and did not want to dally there while dancing around the point he intended to make. “No. You already satisfied my killer instincts sufficiently well, thank you. I’m quite over it now.”
“It’s all right, Sebastian,” Chelsea said, touching her brother’s arm. “I’ll be fine.”
Her brother rose and crossed the room, stopping beside Blake to deliver a warning glare. “If you lift one finger to harm her…”
They stared at each other for a moment, then Sebastian walked out.
“Your brother is quite adamant, suddenly, to be your heroic protector,” Blake said as soon as the door swung shut behind him. “Too bad he’s so selective in that regard, and didn’t come to your rescue when I was helping myself to your virtue. If you could call it that. I doubt you know the meaning of the word.”
Chelsea swallowed the rest of her brandy and set the glass down on the end table. “Must you be so vulgar?”
“I don’t see why I shouldn’t be. Ours was a vulgar affair from the beginning. It’s not as if there was any affection between us. You said it yourself, we were using each other.”
He saw her throat bob as she swallowed. “What did you want to discuss with me? I take it you’re leaving.”
“Yes, first thing in the morning, and you are coming with me.”
“I beg your pardon?”
“You heard me.” He paced around the room, fighting to keep his animosity under control, when so little else was within his power. Ever since he woke up on this godforsaken island he’d felt completely lost, with nowhere to go and no one to trust except this woman—and that turned out to be a bloody, ridiculous sham.
Now he was again finding himself plunked down upon a road not of his choosing, with a family who claimed they would do anything for his happiness, while they were dragging him back to England in a mad dash so he could marry someone—anyone—before the year was out.
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