by Jade Allen
“Just breathe,” he told her softly without looking at her. That was easy for him to say. She’d bet he didn’t feel like his heart was pounding a thousand beats per minute, and given that he was flying the helicopter, she seriously hoped the world wasn’t beginning to spin out of control for him like it was for her. If she made it back from this stupid coffee run alive, she was going to have her head examined. A problem with her brain was the only explanation for her sudden descent into insanity.
Chapter 4
Cade watched her out of the corner of his eye as he flew over the bright lights of Las Vegas. She was terrified and yet she’d climbed aboard anyway. The woman definitely had nerve—even if it was borne of aggravation over his taunting.
“You’re even braver than I thought,” he told her, and he meant it, even if he wished he didn’t. It was almost enough to make him turn around. Almost. Her courage gave birth to a newfound respect for her, and that bothered him. He wanted to convince her to open up to him, to let him find what it was about her that had him captivated. And then he wanted to get as far away from the beautiful temptress as his wings would carry him.
“Thanks, but anytime you want to put us back down on the ground, I’m good with that.”
He should have done exactly that, but instead, he continued on the flight path to his destination. The silver-haired beauty was silent beside him. He considered making small talk to pass the time for her to take her mind off the flight, but there were so many things he wanted to ask her, he didn’t know where to start. Her childhood? Is that where her secret was hidden? Did she have some mystical past he could sense unknowingly?
“So, what is it you do when you’re not on stage captivating the audience, Ava? What’s your story?”
“There isn’t much of a story to tell. I ended up in Vegas a few years ago and then landed a job with Adam. I’m sure it’s nothing in comparison to the flashy life of a billionaire like yourself. I have a feeling I spend a whole lot more time on the ground than you do.”
Not the most prolific answer, but it was a start. At least she wasn’t focused on proving he was an arrogant prick at the moment. And more than that, her answer seemed ironic, given his penchant for taking flight whenever he could. “You’re probably right. I do like to fly.” She had no idea how right she was. “But you must do something when you’re not on stage?”
“Not much, really.” That seemed about all he was going to get out of her at the moment, so he turned his thoughts inward, running possibility after possibility through his mind, though not one of them explained why he was so captivated by this human.
“Where are we?” she asked as he started to land the helicopter. “We can’t possibly be anywhere close to Las Vegas. Is that Carson City?” The tone of her voice said she was less than pleased.
“Actually, we’re in Santa Monica.” If she wasn’t pleased thinking they were in Carson City, then finding out she was in Santa Monica wasn’t going to thrill her either.
“You mean, Santa Monica, California? You said coffee, not California!”
“Yes, but I never said where we’d be having coffee.”
“Maybe you can up and go wherever you want, but I can’t just fly off to a different state on a whim.”
“Actually, you just did.”
“No, you did, without even checking with me first. I need to get back. I can’t be this far away from home.”
“Unfortunately, the helicopter’s not going to fly much further without refueling; certainly, not all the way back to Las Vegas. I suppose you’re stuck here with me for a while, so you might as well make the most of it.”
“You’ve got to be kidding!” The pallid color that her skin had taken by mid-flight suddenly gave way to a healthier—albeit angrier—hue.
“I’ll tell you what. I’ll put in a call for refueling while you join me for coffee on the beach. And the moment the helicopter’s ready, I’ll take you home. Deal?”
“Everything is about deals with you, isn’t it? Wait…did you say ‘beach’?”
He couldn’t tell by the tone of her voice if she was pleased or irritated. It seemed there was more shock in her tone than anything else, and that was precisely the vibe he was getting from her body, too.
“Yes. Why? Do you have something against the beach?”
Without answering, she stepped out of the helicopter and surveyed her surroundings. It was like he’d told her they had just landed on Mars, not some quiet strip of beach on the Pacific coast. He followed her out, utterly perplexed by her sudden change in behavior—and not too many things left him perplexed. The woman was bad news; she was just too fascinating. This couldn’t possibly be a good idea.
“That’s the Pacific Ocean,” she told him when he stood next to her. “I’ve never seen the ocean before,” she said simply, looking out at the moonlit water.
He’d only intended to try to throw her off guard a little, get her out of her comfort zone to the quiet beach with nothing but the sound of waves lapping at the sandy shore. This wasn’t what he’d had in mind, and yet suddenly, he wouldn’t go back and change it if he could.
Wonder was radiating from her pores as she looked out over the water. He wanted to absorb every drop, but at the same time, a slash of jealousy ripped through him at her sheer amazement. The world had become so dark, so bleak to him, and yet she could find so much beauty in something as mundane as a body of water.
He tried to remember back to the first time he’d seen the ocean. What was it—seven, maybe eight-hundred years ago? Had his response come anywhere close to the fascination he saw in her now? No. He’d long since hardened himself by then, to the world and everything in it.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” she asked him.
“Like what?”
“Like I’m an alien from another world and you’re trying to figure out whether I’m friendly or hostile.”
“Maybe because I’m waiting to see if you’ll chew me out for flying you out of state, or if you’ll let me off the hook. What do you say we walk off some of your frustration before you decide?”
She mulled over his suggestion and then nodded her head in agreement. Her fascination with the ocean seemed to have tempered her ire with him. He typed a request for refueling in his phone quickly and then they started down the beach in silence, meandering close to the water’s edge.
“Ow!” she gasped all of a sudden, not thirty yards from where they’d started. Her hands flew to her eyes and she turned away. A gust of wind had picked up the loose sand on the beach and blown it into her eyes. “It seems the beach has a way of defending itself against intruders,” she joked. But instead of turning back to him, she looked out at the dimly lit ocean and was silent. She seemed completely engrossed in the view.
“It’s beautiful,” she whispered after a moment, and there was none of the aggravation in her tone he’d heard there earlier. “My mother always talked about taking me to the ocean; a big family vacation with just her, me and my dad.” The shocked expression she wore told him she hadn’t thought about what she was saying. It just slipped out.
“But you never went. Why?”
“She died,” she replied simply.
Even if he couldn’t delve intuitively into her tone and her body language, he would have known there was more to the story than that. Not that he could blame her. She barely knew him, and if he was smart, he’d keep it that way. But then she turned to him, and his breath caught in his throat. Nothing had ever caught him more off-guard than the woman before him.
Her eyes, they were no longer murky brown. The sand must have irritated them and forced her to remove her contacts. The icy blue gaze that stared back at him should have seemed cold, but it didn’t. It was anything but cold. The fascination and wonder, and the sadness in those eyes left him speechless. And there was something else there that was unmistakable—desire.
It was unbelievable. Why the hell had she ever covered up something so beautiful with those brown contacts? An
d what was even more unbelievable than that was the realization her guard was coming down. And while it wasn’t like he could look into someone’s eyes and know everything about them, it was a glimpse.
Over the years, he’d learned to recognize shrewd eyes and hard ones, conniving eyes and even on rare occasions, kind ones. This was his chance; this is what he’d wanted from the moment he’d seen her on stage. Perhaps not the only thing he wanted from her, his own desire reminded him loudly, but he’d wanted to see what laid beneath the contact lenses. What she was like when she wasn’t in the midst of a performance or closed off in anger.
But Ava’s eyes were unlike any others. What he saw in hers left him even more puzzled because there wasn’t just one thing there. He saw everything. She was hard and soft at the same time; kind but bitter; skeptical, but God how she wished she didn’t have to be. On top of all that, right then she was fighting with everything she had to deny the fire that had begun its hot burn through her veins.
Why deny it so vehemently? She was a grown woman, and she had to know he wanted her, too.
Looking down at her, violent shocks of desire jolted through his body. There was no one around. He could lay her down in the sand right there on the beach and bury himself deep inside the most enigmatic woman he’d ever met. He couldn’t remember ever wanting a woman more. And yet, right from the beginning, she’d fought against it, as if she seriously worried that sex with him would leave her scorched.
He took a step forward, bridging the distance between them, and he settled his hands on her hips. She didn’t pull back; she just continued to stare up at him with eyes like icy fire. He never would have guessed that a stroll along the beach would get him so thoroughly behind her defenses, but it had.
He could feel the fire deep inside and he fought to hold it back—not the desire he felt for her, but something else: the beast inside him that threatened to take control. He prided himself on the mastery he’d developed over that side of him, but with Ava, it was overwhelming. It was as if it wasn’t just the man who wanted her, but the dragon, too; something he’d never experienced with a woman before—not like this.
He knew she wasn’t going to resist. She wanted this—at least, most of her wanted this. He could see that some small part of her whispered in opposition, but desire was drowning out the sound.
He could see it and hear it, and as much as he wanted to ignore it, as much as the beast inside him raged against it, he couldn’t. He wanted her—God, how he wanted her—all of her. When the hell it had begun to matter to him, he didn’t know. Since when did he care if a woman had doubts lingering in the back of her mind? Never, damn it, but he did now.
Cade stepped back, trying to take control, silently cursing himself for his foolishness. Her body swayed toward him in response, confirming he’d been right. He could have had her; he could have had every naked inch of her. Instead, he took a deep breath and turned away. He had to, even though he knew it was the last thing he wanted to do. He needed to put distance between them; to get as far away from her as he could before he lost the tentative grip he had.
He started slowly along the path they’d been walking a moment before. It took her a split second to recover, but she fell in step next to him and he could already feel her distancing herself once again. Good, he thought. He needed her to keep her distance.
But Cade couldn’t leave it alone; not entirely. “So, there really isn’t anything to your story outside of work?” he asked before she could withdraw completely. He needed some part of her; her mind, her body or her soul…something.
She shook her head. “What about yours?” Exactly the question he’d been expecting. “What are you going to do with your life now that you have…well…everything?” Okay, that wasn’t the question he’d been expecting at all.
“I suppose I don’t know.” It wasn’t the truest answer, but it wasn’t altogether a lie. She wanted to know what he was going to do with the next fifty or sixty years of his life, and he knew the answer to that. He was going to continue doing what he’d been doing, making more and more money until he had so much, no one could ever stand in his way. Of course, he’d eventually have to become more low-key than he’d been in Vegas, withdrawing from society entirely to keep his secret. It had never been a problem before the age of television, news and social media, but it was becoming impossible to stay out of the public eye these days.
In the long run, though, as for his grand scheme? He had no idea. There was only one goal he’d had in mind: the same goal that had been at the forefront of his mind for centuries. He’d been tracking her all this time, but to no avail. Nevertheless, one day, he would find her, the woman who’d done this to him, and he’d make her pay.
It wasn’t the duality of what he was that made him so angry. Hell, Cade had been this way for so long, barely more than a child when it happened, that he couldn’t remember which form was truly his. It was the endlessness of what she’d done. He’d prayed for death so many times, watching everyone around him come to their natural end, but not him. He continued on endlessly, always alone, knowing he always would be.
“I’m sorry to hear that,” Ava’s whisper broke into his thoughts.
There was empathy in her tone. She understood his plight—at least, she thought she did. She knew what it felt like to be directionless, and he wondered how she knew. There was no point in pursuing the answer, though. She wasn’t going to give him that. So, he abandoned the subject, focusing on random conversation that wouldn’t put her on edge.
Before long, he could sense her wall coming down as they continued to stroll further down the beach. She talked about her early childhood, her work now and the waitressing jobs she’d had before landing the gig with Adam Natas. She even shared the secrets behind a couple of tricks she had learned early on—not that he wouldn’t have been able to figure them out on his own.
Cade told her about the places he’d been, leaving out the fact that the last time he’d visited some of those places had been more than a century ago. He couldn’t believe how easy she was to talk to, and how it seemed she’d begun to feel that same ease in return. There were things she wasn’t saying, like what filled the missing void between her early childhood and her first job as a waitress in Las Vegas. He couldn’t blame her, though. It wasn’t like he was being upfront about the details of his own life.
He thought that he should turn around and take her back. Though he wasn’t keeping track of time, at least an hour must have passed since they’d started down the beach. But he didn’t want to turn around. Right then, he would have been happy if the beach stretched on forever. He would have been content to continue walking side by side with her until she’d shared everything; not just because she was a mystery to him, but because the more she talked, the more he genuinely wanted to know her.
He froze, mid-step, as that last thought ran through his mind. Since when had he wanted to know about her for any reason other than satisfying his curiosity? He didn’t want to get to know the woman; he simply wanted to solve the mystery, didn’t he? No human had ever been more than a passing amusement, so what the hell was it about this woman that made her so different from the rest? What made even the beast in him threaten to take over just to have her?
“I need to go home, Cade.” She stopped suddenly, too, and looked up at him with beautiful blue eyes full of panic. It was for the best, even if too much of him didn’t want it to be true.
“Alright.” He turned and started back the way they’d come, though his mind warred with itself every step of the way. He didn’t want the evening to end, but at the same time, he needed it to. By now, he should have known everything he wanted to know about her, and he should have had her naked and writhing beneath him, satisfying the last of his curiosities. Instead, he’d resisted the urge to have her, and every question she’d answered had only fueled the need to know more.
So, now what? Should he take her back home, drop her off and never think about her again? And why was she
in such a rush to get home anyway? He didn’t get the feeling she just wanted to get away from him. It was something more, but what was it?
“Why are you in such a hurry?” he asked when they were about thirty yards from the helicopter.
“I just…don’t like to be out too late, that’s all. I guess I’m not much of a night owl.” Her steps slowed as they neared the helicopter. “Why the hell couldn’t you be like normal men? You know…walking…driving? I have to find the one guy in the whole state of Nevada who prefers to fly around in a tin can,” she muttered under her breath as she climbed into the helicopter.
He chuckled as she dropped herself unceremoniously into the passenger’s seat and crossed her arms in front of her chest. The movement drew his attention and he couldn’t help but watch the rise and fall of her breasts as her breath came quicker. For an instant, an image of her naked, grinding on top of him flashed through his mind, but the image that appeared next wasn’t what he expected. He saw her on his back as he flew through the sky, stretching his iridescent wings. She held on tight, but they both knew she didn’t have to; he would never let her fall.
He shook his head, trying to banish the unrealistic image from his mind. It wasn’t possible; humans were terrified and judgmental of everything they couldn’t understand. There may be something unique about her, something he’d never sensed in anyone before, but ultimately, she was human and she would be no different. And why the hell was he even entertaining such ridiculous thoughts? Did he really want her to know what he was, even if she wouldn’t go running in horror? The answer that came to mind surprised him. He barely knew her, but he wished he did, and he wished she wanted to know him in the same way.