But I was begot and born to misfortunes;—for my poor mother, whether it was wind or water,—or a compound of both,—or neither;----or whether it was simply the mere swell of imagination4 and fancy in her;—or how far a strong wish and desire to have it so, might mislead her judgment;—in short, whether she was deceived or deceiving in this matter, it no way becomes me to decide. The fact was this, That, in the latter end of September, 1717, which was the year before I was born, my mother having carried my father up to town much against the grain,—he peremptorily insisted upon the clause;----so that I was doom’d, by marriage articles, to have my nose squeez’d as flat to my face, as if the destinies had actually spun me without one.
How this event came about,---and what a train of vexatious disappointments, in one stage or other of my life, have pursued me from the mere loss, or rather compression, of this one single member,---shall be laid before the reader all in due time.
CHAP. XVI.
MY father, as any body may naturally imagine, came down with my mother into the country, in but a pettish kind of a humour. The first twenty or five-and-twenty miles he did nothing in the world but fret and teaze himself, and indeed my mother too, about the cursed expence, which he said might every shilling of it have been saved;—then what vexed him more than every thing else was the provoking time of the year,——which, as I told you, was towards the end of September, when his wall-fruit,1 and green gages especially, in which he was very curious, were just ready for pulling:—— “Had he been whistled up to London, upon a Tom Fool’s errand in any other month of the whole year, he should not have said three words about it.”
For the next two whole stages, no subject would go down, but the heavy blow he had sustain’d from the loss of a son, whom it seems he had fully reckon’d upon in his mind, and register’d down in his pocket-book, as a second staff for his old age, in case Bobby should fail him. “The disappointment of this, he said, “was ten times more to a wise man than all the money which the journey, &c. had cost him, put together,---rot the hundred and twenty pounds,——he did not mind it a rush.”
From Stilton, all the way to Grantham,2 nothing in the whole affair provoked him so much as the condolences of his friends, and the foolish figure they should both make at church the first Sunday;——of which, in the satirical vehemence of his wit, now sharpen’d a little by vexation, he would give so many humorous and provoking descriptions,---and place his rib and self in so many tormenting lights and attitudes in the face of the whole congregation;---that my mother declared, these two stages were so truly tragicomical, that she did nothing but laugh and cry in a breath, from one end to the other of them all the way.
From Grantham, till they had cross’d the Trent, my father was out of all kind of patience at the vile trick and imposition which he fancied my mother had put upon him in this affair.---“Certainly, he would say to himself, over and over again, “the woman could not be deceived herself;——if she could,——— what weakness!”——tormenting word! which led his imagination a thorny dance, and, before all was over, play’d the duce and all with him;——for sure as ever the word weakness was uttered, and struck full upon his brain,—so sure it set him upon running divisions3 upon how many kinds of weaknesses there were;——that there was such a thing as weakness of the body,——as well as weakness of the mind,----and then he would do nothing but syllogize within himself for a stage4 or two together, How far the cause of all these vexations might, or might not, have arisen out of himself.
In short, he had so many little subjects of disquietude springing out of this one affair, all fretting successively in his mind as they rose up in it, that my mother, whatever was her journey up, had but an uneasy journey of it down.——In a word, as she complained to my uncle Toby, he would have tired out the patience of any flesh alive.
CHAP. XVII.
THough my father travelled homewards, as I told you, in none of the best of moods,---pshaw-ing and pish-ing all the way down,----yet he had the complaisance to keep the worst part of the story still to himself;—which was the resolution he had taken of doing himself the justice, which my uncle Toby’s clause in the marriage settlement empowered him; nor was it till the very night in which I was begot, which was thirteen months after,1 that she had the least intimation of his design;---when my father, happening, as you remember, to be a little chagrin’d and out of temper,——took occasion as they lay chatting gravely in bed afterwards, talking over what was to come,—— to let her know that she must accommodate herself as well as she could to the bargain made between them in their marriage deeds; which was to lye-in of her next child in the country to balance the last year’s journey.
My father was a gentleman of many virtues,—but he had a strong spice of that in his temper which might, or might not, add to the number.----’Tis known by the name of perseverance in a good cause,—and of obstinacy in a bad one:2 Of this my mother had so much knowledge, that she knew ’twas to no purpose to make any remonstrance,—so she e’en resolved to sit down quietly, and make the most of it.
CHAP. XVIII.
AS the point was that night agreed, or rather determin’d, that my mother should lye-in of me in the country, she took her measures accordingly; for which purpose, when she was three days, or thereabouts, gone with child, she began to cast her eyes upon the midwife, whom you have so often heard me mention; and before the week was well got round, as the famous Dr. Maningham 1 was not to be had, she had come to a final determination in her mind,——notwithstanding there was a scientifick operator2 within so near a call as eight miles of us, and who, moreover, had expressly wrote a five shillings book upon the subject of midwifery, in which he had exposed, not only the blunders of the sisterhood itself,——but had likewise super-added many curious improvements for the quicker extraction of the fœtus in cross births, and some other cases of danger which belay us in getting into the world; notwithstanding all this, my mother, I say, was absolutely determined to trust her life and mine with it, into no soul’s hand but this old woman’s only.—Now this I like;—when we cannot get at the very thing we wish,-----never to take up with the next best in degree to it;---no; that’s pitiful beyond description;—it is no more than a week from this very day, in which I am now writing this book for the edification of the world,---which is March 9, 1759,3——that my dear, dear Jenny 4 observing I look’d a little grave, as she stood cheapening a silk of five-and-twenty shillings a yard,—told the mercer, she was sorry she had given him so much trouble;—and immediately went and bought herself a yard-wide stuff of ten-pence a yard.— ’Tis the duplication of one and the same greatness of soul; only what lessen’d the honour of it somewhat, in my mother’s case, was, that she could not heroine it5 into so violent and hazardous an extream, as one in her situation might have wish’d, because the old midwife had really some little claim to be depended upon,—as much, at least, as success could give her; having, in the course of her practice of near twenty years in the parish, brought every mother’s son of them into the world without any one slip or accident which could fairly be laid to her account.
These facts, tho’ they had their weight, yet did not altogether satisfy some few scruples and uneasinesses which hung upon my father’s spirits in relation to this choice.—To say nothing of the natural workings of humanity and justice,—or of the yearnings of parental and connubial love, all which prompted him to leave as little to hazard as possible in a case of this kind;——he felt himself concern’d in a particular manner, that all should go right in the present case;—from the accumulated sorrow he lay open to, should any evil betide his wife and child in lying-in at Shandy-Hall.——He knew the world judged by events, and would add to his afflictions in such a misfortune, by loading him with the whole blame of it.——“Alas o’day!—had Mrs. Shandy, poor gentlewoman! had but her wish in going up to town just to lye-in and come down again;---which, they say, she begg’d and pray’d for upon her bare knees,——and which, in my opinion, considering the fortune which Mr
. Shandy got with her,—was no such mighty matter to have complied with, the lady and her babe might both of ’em have been alive at this hour.”
This exclamation, my father knew was unanswerable;----and yet, it was not merely to shelter himself,—nor was it altogether for the care of his offspring and wife that he seem’d so extremely anxious about this point;—my father had extensive views of things,——and stood, moreover, as he thought, deeply con-cern’d in it for the publick good, from the dread he entertained of the bad uses an ill-fated instance might be put to.
He was very sensible that all political writers upon the subject had unanimously agreed and lamented, from the beginning of Queen Elizabeth’s reign down to his own time, that the current of men and money towards the metropolis, upon one frivolous errand or another,—set in so strong,—as to become dangerous to our civil rights;—tho’, by the bye,——a current was not the image he took most delight in,--a distemper was here his favourite metaphor, and he would run it down into a perfect allegory, by maintaining it was identically the same in the body national as in the body natural, where blood and spirits were driven up into the head faster than they could find their ways down;——a stoppage of circulation must ensue, which was death in both cases.6
There was little danger, he would say, of losing our liberties by French politicks or French invasions;——nor was he so much in pain of a consumption from the mass of corrupted matter and ulcerated humours in our constitution,—which he hoped was not so bad as it was imagined;—but he verily feared, that in some violent push, we should go off, all at once, in a state-apoplexy;—and then he would say, The Lord have mercy upon us all.
My father was never able to give the history of this distemper,---without the remedy along with it.
“Was I an absolute prince, he would say, pulling up his breeches with both his hands, as he rose from his arm-chair, “I would appoint able judges, at every avenue of my metropolis, who should take cognizance of every fool’s business who came there;---and if, upon a fair and candid hearing, it appeared not of weight sufficient to leave his own home, and come up, bag and baggage, with his wife and children, farmers sons, &c. &c. at his backside, they should be all sent back, from constable to constable, like vagrants as they were, to the place of their legal settlements. By this means, I shall take care, that my metropolis totter’d not thro’ its own weight;—that the head be no longer too big for the body;---that the extreams, now wasted and pin’d in, be restored to their due share of nourishment, and regain, with it, their natural strength and beauty:--I would effectually provide, That the meadows and corn-fields, of my dominions, should laugh and sing;—that good chear and hospitality flourish once more;—and that such weight and influence be put thereby into the hands of the Squirality7 of my kingdom, as should counterpoise what I perceive my Nobility are now taking from them.
“Why are there so few palaces and gentlemen’s seats, he would ask, with some emotion, as he walked a-cross the room, “throughout so many delicious provinces in France? Whence is it that the few remaining Chateaus amongst them are so dismantled,—so unfurnished, and in so ruinous and desolate a condition?—Because, Sir, (he would say) “in that kingdom no man has any country-interest8 to support;---the little interest of any kind, which any man has any where in it, is concentrated in the court, and the looks of the Grand Monarch;9 by the sun-shine of whose countenance, or the clouds which pass a-cross it, every French man lives or dies.”
Another political reason which prompted my father so strongly to guard against the least evil accident in my mother’s lying-in in the country,——was, That any such instance would infallibly throw a balance of power, too great already, into the weaker vessels10 of the gentry, in his own, or higher stations;----which, with the many other usurped rights which that part of the constitution was hourly establishing,—would, in the end, prove fatal to the monarchical system of domestick government established in the first creation of things by God.
In this point he was entirely of Sir Robert Filmer’s opinion,11 That the plans and institutions of the greatest monarchies in the eastern parts of the world, were, originally, all stolen from that admirable pattern and prototype of this houshold and paternal power;---which, for a century, he said, and more, had gradually been degenerating away into a mix’d government;——the form of which, however desirable in great combinations of the species,——was very troublesome in small ones,—and seldom produced any thing, that he saw, but sorrow and confusion.
For all these reasons, private and publick, put together,—my father was for having the man-midwife by all means,---my mother by no means. My father begg’d and intreated, she would for once recede from her prerogative in this matter, and suffer him to choose for her;—my mother, on the contrary, insisted upon her privilege in this matter, to choose for herself,—and have no mortal’s help but the old woman’s.— What could my father do? He was almost at his wit’s end;—— talked it over with her in all moods;—placed his arguments in all lights;—argued the matter with her like a christian,—like a heathen,—like a husband,—like a father,—like a patriot,—like a man:—My mother answered every thing only like a woman; which was a little hard upon her;—for as she could not assume and fight it out behind such a variety of characters,— ’twas no fair match;—’twas seven to one.—What could my mother do?——She had the advantage (otherwise she had been certainly overpowered) of a small reinforcement of chagrine personal at the bottom which bore her up, and enabled her to dispute the affair with my father with so equal an advantage,——that both sides sung Te Deum.12 In a word, my mother was to have the old woman,—and the operator was to have licence to drink a bottle of wine with my father and my uncle Toby Shandy in the back parlour,—for which he was to be paid five guineas.
I must beg leave, before I finish this chapter, to enter a caveat in the breast of my fair reader;—and it is this:——Not to take it absolutely for granted from an unguarded word or two which I have dropp’d in it,——“That I am a married man.”---I own the tender appellation of my dear, dear Jenny,----with some other strokes of conjugal knowledge, interspersed here and there, might, naturally enough, have misled the most candid judge in the world into such a determination against me.---All I plead for, in this case, Madam, is strict justice, and that you do so much of it, to me as well as to yourself,—as not to prejudge or receive such an impression of me, till you have better evidence, than I am positive, at present, can be produced against me:---Not that I can be so vain or unreasonable, Madam, as to desire you should therefore think, that my dear, dear Jenny is my kept mistress;—no,—that would be flattering my character in the other extream, and giving it an air of freedom, which, perhaps, it has no kind of right to. All I contend for, is the utter impossibility for some volumes, that you, or the most penetrating spirit upon earth, should know how this matter really stands.----It is not impossible, but that my dear, dear Jenny! tender as the appellation is, may be my child.——Consider,—I was born in the year eighteen.—Nor is there any thing unnatural or extravagant in the supposition, that my dear Jenny may be my friend.——Friend!—My friend.—Surely, Madam, a friendship between the two sexes may subsist, and be supported without———Fy! Mr. Shandy:—Without any thing, Madam, but that tender and delicious sentiment, which ever mixes in friendship, where there is a difference of sex.13 Let me intreat you to study the pure and sentimental14 parts of the best French Romances;——it will really, Madam, astonish you to see with what a variety of chaste expression this delicious sentiment, which I have the honour to speak of, is dress’d out.
CHAP. XIX.
I Would sooner undertake to explain the hardest problem in Geometry, than pretend to account for it, that a gentleman of my father’s great good sense,——knowing, as the reader must have observed him, and curious too, in philosophy,--wise also in political reasoning,—and in polemical (as he will find) no way ignorant,---could be capable of entertaining a notion in his head, so out of the common track,---that I fear th
e reader, when I come to mention it to him, if he is the least of a cholerick temper, will immediately throw the book by; if mercurial, he will laugh most heartily at it;—and if he is of a grave and saturnine cast, he will, at first sight, absolutely condemn as fanciful and extravagant; and that was in respect to the choice and imposition of Christian names,1 on which he thought a great deal more depended than what superficial minds were capable of conceiving.
His opinion, in this matter, was, That there was a strange kind of magick bias, which good or bad names, as he called them, irresistibly impress’d upon our characters and conduct.
The Hero of Cervantes argued not the point with more seriousness,----nor had he more faith,----or more to say on the powers of Necromancy in dishonouring his deeds,—or on DULCINEA’S2 name, in shedding lustre upon them, than my father had on those of TRISMEGISTUS3 or ARCHIMEDES,4 on the one hand,—or of NYKY and SIMKIN5 on the other. How many CÆSARS and POMPEYS, he would say, bymere inspiration of the names, have been render’d worthy of them? And how many, he would add, are there who might have done exceeding well in the world, had not their characters and spirits been totally depress’d and NICODEMUS’D6 into nothing.
I see plainly, Sir, by your looks, (or as the case happen’d) my father would say,—that you do not heartily subscribe to this opinion of mine,—which, to those, he would add, who have not carefully sifted it to the bottom,—I own has an air more of fancy than of solid reasoning in it;----and yet, my dear Sir, if I may presume to know your character, I am morally assured, I should hazard little in stating a case to you,---not as a party in the dispute,—but as a judge, and trusting my appeal upon it to your own good sense and candid disquisition in this matter;——you are a person free from as many narrow prejudices of education7 as most men;—and, if I may presume to penetrate further into you,—of a liberality of genius above bearing down an opinion, merely because it wants friends. Your son!---your dear son,---from whose sweet and open temper you have so much to expect.—Your BILLY, Sir!—would you, for the world, have called him JUDAS?—Would you, my dear Sir, he would say, laying his hand upon your breast, with the genteelest address,---and in that soft and irresistible piano 8 of voice, which the nature of the argumentum ad hominem 9 absolutely requires,—Would you, Sir, if a Jew of a godfather had proposed the name for your child, and offered you his purse along with it, would you have consented to such a desecration of him?—— O my God! he would say, looking up, if I know your temper right, Sir,--- you are incapable of it;——you would have trampled upon the offer;---you would have thrown the temptation at the tempter’s head with abhorrence.
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