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by Willie Nelson


  It was our mother Myrle who was leaving. She and Ira were breaking up their marriage. Pretty soon Ira would hit the road, too, leaving his parents—Mama and Daddy Nelson—to bring up Willie and me.

  Thinking back on it now, the only time I can remember Myrle and Ira together is the day they split.

  But after our mother and daddy left, Willie and I felt just as warm and secure with our grandparents, maybe even more secure because we didn’t have to hear Myrle and Ira fighting. It was a real neat deal to go into the fields with Mama Nelson. You felt like you were helping the family. We had a happy family. We were poor, but we didn’t know it because everybody we knew was poor.

  Before I got my first real piano, Mama and Daddy Nelson made me a toy piano out of a pasteboard box. We colored it with Crayolas and drew the keyboard. I put it under the peach tree in the backyard and played concerts for hours.

  Willie would be listening to me and eating mud. We weren’t starving or anything. We just ate a lot of mud. Willie would bake mud pies and mud cookies on our little toy stove and then let them cook in the hot sun. When they were ready, he’d serve them like he was the dessert chef at a fancy restaurant.

  “These is especially great today. You’ll love my cookies and pies,” he would say. “Taste this, Bobbie. Ain’t it great?”

  Willie was always very convincing. I would eat the mud pies, some of the other kids would eat them, Willie would eat them. Willie ate so much dirt as a kid that I’m sure he really must have liked it.

  After our dessert of mud pies and mud cookies, we would have a smoke like the grown-ups did. We smoked cedarbark, corn silk, and grapevines that we called our Camels, Chesterfields, and Lucky Strikes. We’d inhale and get dizzy and stagger around.

  Willie was trying to fly in those old days. He would put on his Superman cape and jump off the roof and knock himself out cold.

  We had a friend named Moody who would hang out and help us in the fields, cutting the corn tops and all. Moody and Willie were big boxing fans. In the evenings they’d pull off their shirts and box. Moody was bigger than Willie and I think took it kind of easy, but hour after hour they would slug it out, Willie swinging as hard as he could and Moody punching hard enough so Willie would know for sure he’d been hit. Then they’d go to the well and bring up a bucket of clear cold water and duck their swollen, sweaty heads in it. They would shake hands and then fight for another hour. I’ve never seen Willie back down from a fight in his whole life, but I saw him start plenty of them.

  When it got too dark to fight, we would play hide-and-seek or kick the can or Annie Over—we had a lot of fun.

  After I got a real piano, Mama taught me to play it. I caught on quickly. I could read music just as clear as I could read English. Willie would sit on the bench beside me while I practiced. I’d tell him what chord I was hitting, what key I was in. Later when he got a guitar, he would try to find the chords and play along with me.

  We had a houseful of music books. I’ll never understand how Mama and Daddy Nelson could afford so many music books. Any music Willie and I asked for, they’d order it by mail.

  Right from the time we were five or six years old, Mama and Daddy Nelson had us performing. They sat us up onstage and said, “Our kids do things.” They’d look at us and say, “Now start doing.” And we did.

  At first it was mostly gospel songs. Maybe Willie would sing “When Irish Eyes Are Smiling” or “Tumbling Tumbleweed” or something, but we were strong church folks, Methodists. We went to church and Sunday school and Wednesday night prayer meetings. We could hear the Baptists singing across the street. Most of the Bohemian farmers around there were Catholics, and we could hear them singing, too. But the best singers were the Church of Christ. The Church of Christ didn’t allow musical instruments, so their choirs and congregations really learned how to sing beautiful harmonies.

  When I was sixteen I met Bud Fletcher and my life took a radical turn. Bud was six years older than me, quite an older guy in my eyes. He was good-looking, smooth, had the gift of gab, a real charmer. Bud invited me to go to a place named Shadow Land to dance. That place was so big and dark and mysterious—kind of dangerous, it seemed, with people drinking and carrying on in ways I hadn’t seen. I didn’t know how to dance. But Bud was such a great dancer that he taught me in no time.

  I met Bud in March and married him in April.

  Well, Mama Nelson was dismayed. Daddy Nelson had been dead for seven years, and I was Mama’s responsibility.

  “That boy is too rough for you. He’s too old for you,” she said. “Tell him he has to go ask your father.”

  So Bud went and asked Ira, who was then working as an auto mechanic in Fort Worth, if he could marry me.

  Ira said, “Sure. I’m all for it.”

  Bud organized a band called Bud Fletcher and the Texans. I was on piano, Willie played guitar and did vocals, Ira would sit in with us. Bud couldn’t play an instrument, so he stuck a broom handle down into a bucket of sand and whacked it like a bass. Bud fronted the band, told jokes, inspired people to get up and dance.

  Bud was so slick he got us booked into places we’d never dreamed of. Sometimes we only played a joint once, but we got in the door—which is a big thing when you’re starting out. We played Friday nights, Saturday nights, Sunday afternoons. Willie was thirteen years old, and Bud paid him $8 a show. In today’s terms that would be like a thirteen-year-old kid making $75 or $100 a show.

  We would go home and give our money to Mama Nelson to buy whatever we needed—clothes, food, school supplies. The $40 or $50 a week we took Mama, between us, was a fortune.

  Willie would hock his guitar every Monday for about $20. He said he hocked it so often the pawnbroker could play it better than Willie could. On Friday, Bud would get Willie’s guitar out of hock and the Texans would hit another weekend of beer joints. That’s sort of the story of our life ever since.

  After my sons Randy and Freddy were born, Bud got killed in a car wreck. I remarried, divorced, went to live near Willie in Tennessee, played cocktail lounge piano in Austin, remarried again—and finally joined my brother’s band nearly twenty years ago to keep on doing what Willie and I have been doing since we were children. Playing music together.

  You know, it’s funny. When we were kids, he was my little brother. Now that we’re grown, I think of him as my big brother.

  Mildred Wilcox, Willie’s cousin, helped raise him and his sister Bobbie. Mildred was at Willie’s birth—and named him Willie.

  Bobbie is Willie’s sister and plays piano in his band.

  PART TWO

  Family Bible

  Family Bible

  There’s a Family Bible on the table

  Its pages worn and hard to read,

  But the Family Bible on the table

  Will ever be my key to memories.

  At the end of the day when work was over

  And when the evening meal was done,

  Dad would read to us from the Family Bible

  And we’d count our many blessings one by one.

  I can see us sitting ’round the table

  When from the Family bible Dad would read,

  And I can hear my mother softly singing

  Rock of Ages, Rock of Ages, cleft for me.

  Now this old world of ours is filled with trouble.

  This old world would oh so better be

  If we found more Bibles on the table

  And mothers singing Rock of Ages, cleft for me.

  I can see us sitting ’round the table

  When from the Family Bible Dad would read,

  And I can hear my mother softly singing

  Rock of Ages, Rock of Ages, cleft for me.

  CHAPTER TWO

  You can grow up side by side with a blood relative, be bound to that person heart and soul through love—and yet no two human beings remember the same experiences in the exact same way.

  Some people call it Old-Timer’s Disease. That’s when you think everybo
dy you know is losing their memory.

  But even two people as close as me and my sister Bobbie Lee, who were never apart from the day I was born until she ran off and married Bud Fletcher at the age of sixteen, look back on our childhood in Abbott and recall the same events with wildly different emotions and impressions.

  She remembers it was fun to pick cotton when we were little barefoot kids, before we ever started to school. Mama Nelson, our grandmother, would let Bobbie ride on her cotton sack and pull her between the rows. Bobbie wore a bonnet to protect her beautiful skin from the sun—look at her today, not a wrinkle on her face—and when she got tired of picking, she took a nap in the shade.

  It wasn’t fun from my point of view. When I was three or four Mama would pull me along on her sack, too, and I’d sneak off and sleep if I got tired. But by the time I was seven or eight, I worked the rows beside Mama Nelson, and it was serious business. You got paid by the amount of cotton you put in your sack. The nice bosses would let the little kids like me pick whatever we could, but the nasty bosses would chase little kids out of the rows as a nuisance even though the kids needed work as bad as anybody. I saw grown men and women—whites and blacks and Mexicans—stooping to pick cotton in the most forlorn time this country has known since the Civil War. Mama Nelson, Bobbie, and I weren’t in the fields for exercise. We desperately needed the few dollars we could earn in a day. I saw the bigger boys who could pick more than me were getting higher pay. I knew that, eventually, I would have to outpick them, fight them, or outwit them. But mostly I just wanted to get out of those fields.

  I already knew, while Bobby and I were toiling in the fields for a living and beginning to learn music, that we weren’t going to spend our lives hauling sacks of cotton. Though I have total respect and admiration for people who labor with their hands—farmers like my folks, blacksmiths like my grandfather, mechanics like my dad Ira, hod carriers, carpenters, and other physical jobs that fill me with awe—my desire to escape from manual labor started in the cottonfields of my childhood and cannot be overstated.

  Four years before I was born my daddy, Ira, then sixteen years old, married my mother, Myrle, fifteen, and they packed up with Granddad and Grandmother Nelson and moved from the ridges and valleys of Searcy County, Arkansas, to Abbott, Texas, in search of a better life. They were tired of picking shoetop cotton on the slopes of the Ozarks for pennies and trusted that the fields of Central Texas would treat them better. It was the year of the stock market crash, called Black Tuesday, when Union Cigar stock dropped from $113 to $4 in only three hours and the company president took a header out of a hotel window. The stock market crash was big news in New York, but I doubt if my folks paid much attention to it. The big story of 1929 to most Americans was Admiral Byrd flying to the South Pole.

  The Great Depression didn’t really hit until 1931, a few months after Bobbie was born. By the time I came along in 1933, there were bread lines and soup kitchens in the cities. Franklin D. Roosevelt took office as president and started the New Deal six weeks before my opening act in Abbott, which was a loud yell at Dr. Simms. Prohibition was repealed, which opened up my future in beer joints. Adolf Hitler became chancellor of Germany, Chicago opened its World’s Fair, Walt Disney introduced a cartoon movie short of the Three Little Pigs singing “Who’s Afraid of the Big Bad Wolf?” and the top song of the year was “Stormy Weather.”

  Not that I knew any of this at the time, of course.

  But I did know, even as a baby, that I had been born into a world of music.

  All of my people on both sides of my family were musical people as far back as I know. I am including my Indian blood—which I got from my mother—as being musical. If you ever spent the night dancing and chanting in a huge circle with 15,000 Indians, like I did when they made me Indian of the year in the spring of 1987 in Anadarko, Oklahoma, you would understand how powerfully musical Indians are.

  My mother’s family was the Greenhaws of Arkansas and Tennessee. They were talented bootleggers and moonshiners as well as musicians. My mother told me that her folks used to run hideouts in the mountains where outlaws could come and find safety. When I was little, I would daydream about Billy the Kid hiding out with my mother’s family. My mother was a very strong woman, a beautiful woman. She had long hair and an Indian profile like Bobbie’s and mine. Sometimes, if it was necessary for their survival, the Indians in the Greenhaw family would claim to be Mexicans. Whether they were Indians or Mexicans makes no difference to me—I would be just as proud either way—but if you’ve ever seen an Indian head nickel you’ve got a pretty good idea of what I look like side-on with my hair down.

  The other side of the family—my daddy Ira’s side—was totally different than the Greenhaws, but they were even more musical. My granddaddy on Ira’s side was William Alfred Nelson. He’d made it through the second grade before he had to quit school to work in the fields. He married Nancy Elizabeth Smothers in the year 1900. The Ozarks in those times were full of English and Irish who were moving west in large numbers now that the Indians had been thrown off their land by the U.S. Army. These English and Irish immigrants like the Nelsons brought their folk music with them from the old country. They had a tradition as storytellers and singers and dancers and fiddle players. I believe in reincarnation and the laws of Karma. If I could have chosen as a soul about to be reborn, I would have chosen to come into the family that produced me. It wasn’t an easy life I was reborn into, but it was the right one for me.

  I never had any problem understanding why my parents split up. Myrle hit the road to get out of Abbott when I was six months old. Ira took off for Fort Worth a couple of years later. But they would come back to visit us and it was easy, even for a child, to see why they couldn’t live together. Myrle was smart, flashy, full of energy, sharp-tongued, and beautiful. She was a dancer and a card dealer and a waitress, and she loved the road and one honky-tonk after another. Ira was a handsome guitar picker, so naturally he attracted the ladies. But Ira wasn’t much for long-distance travel. He loved his life playing music in the beer joints, but he had another aptitude that has totally escaped being passed on to me. Ira was a master mechanic, like his daddy. Ira became the top mechanic at the Frank Kent Ford Company in Fort Worth. My mother could never have stuck it out as the wife of a Fort Worth mechanic who played music on weekends. Myrle had to be moving on. A child could see it.

  Dad and Mom Nelson filled our house with music. They studied music by kerosene lantern. Granddad would put me in his lap and teach me to sing “Polly Wolly Doodle All the Day” when I was barely out of diapers. They pushed Bobbie and me into music and into performing.

  I really don’t believe that our grandparents expected us to do anything but play music. Our dad, Ira, felt at some point in my life that I should give up a lot of that music bullshit and go find a job to support my family. Ira didn’t think I was a good enough musician to go on, and that’s not to say anything against him. It was his own personal opinion, and there were plenty of people who agreed with him. One problem my dad had was he couldn’t learn to pick guitar behind me. My style was nothing like his. He was on the beat, and to him it sounded like I was playing all over the place.

  Bobbie and I developed perfect pitch. All this means is our grandparents trained us to reproduce the memory of how many vibrations were passing through the tunnels between our ears. Music is vibrations. A housefly, for example, hums in the F key in the middle octave of your piano. Hit that key and hear it for yourself. The sense of pitch changes with the number of vibrations. A B-flat is 400 cycles of vibrating molecules, G is something else. You might hit a Bach note at 415 or hear the Austin Symphony playing at 440. Perfect pitch is when you can remember these vibrations and go back to them any time.

  The most powerful influence in my early life was Granddaddy Nelson. Along with teaching us music, he and Mama Nelson tried to raise us to be solid Methodists and obedient kids. They taught us if we ever took a drink of booze or smoked a cigarette or went danc
ing we were doomed to hellfire. This never did make sense to me, but a little kid was supposed to believe that his grandparents and the Methodist Church knew all about heaven and hell. I can’t tell you how many Sundays I would be singing in the choir in front of all those nice, churchgoing folks, and my heart would be sad because I was thinking I was going to fry in hell because I had already drunk beer and smoked grapevine, cedarbark, and coffee grounds. It didn’t seem right or fair, but how could a little kid disagree with the whole Methodist Church?

  One day when I was five, I ran off from Daddy Nelson’s blacksmith shop and went home without telling him. He was upset and worried about me. When he found me at home, he took his razor strap and hit me on the butt six or seven times. It hurt and it popped real loud and scared the daylights out of me. I never ran off from Daddy Nelson again.

  At the age of six, I got my first real guitar. Daddy Nelson put it in my hands. It was a Stella they bought out of a Sears catalogue. The strings were about an inch off the neck. My fingers would bleed from playing it. He gave me a chord book that had the basic simple major and minor guitar chords in it. I would watch Daddy Nelson make a D chord, and then I would take the guitar and he would put my fingers on the same notes, the same frets. I learned the D, A, and G chords—the three chords you have to know to play country music—from Daddy Nelson. I picked up the C and F chords later as I progressed. If I was teaching a child to play the guitar today, I would do it exactly like Daddy Nelson did. Once the kid learns these and can hit them nice and clear any time he wants to, then he can play almost any song you can think of.

 

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