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by Charlotte Lamb


  Her colour deepened. 'Thank you.'

  He grinned at her stiff voice and angry face. 'But you're worth listening to,' he soothed. 'That little girl voice is rather fetching. You're such a contrast to the sort of singers you usually find in places like that.' He watched her push her own plate away, only half-touched, and asked: 'Would you like a dessert?'

  She shook her head, her eyes down. Although she knew she wasn't a very exciting singer she did not much like being frankly informed of it.

  'Coffee?' He didn't wait for her to answer that, but clicked his fingers. The waiter appeared and Luc ordered coffee. When their plates had been removed he asked if she would mind if he smoked and, when she shook her head, he lit a cigar.

  'The song you sang the other night,' he began, study­ing the end of his cigar thoughtfully. 'Whose idea was that?'

  'Pierre's,' she said. 'He runs the band. He arranged the song and did the modern words.'

  The dark blue eyes shot to her face. 'You weren't happy singing it, were you? You got through it okay, but you looked like someone who was in acute dis­comfort.'

  Lissa did not answer that. The waiter arrived with their coffee and left the tall pot of coffee on the table when he vanished again to get the brandy Luc had de­manded for himself.

  Lissa watched the pale spirals of cream sink into her coffee. Luc watched her, but he wasn't saying anything. The brandy arrived and when the waiter had gone again Luc picked up his glass and sipped the drink in silence for a moment.

  'Girls of your type have gone out of style in England,' he told her as he put his glass down on the table.

  Lissa ventured a look at him and flushed at the wicked amusement in his eyes.

  'What do you mean, girls of my type?' she asked crossly. 'What type am I?'

  'I haven't got long enough to tell you,' he said softly, and her colour flared.

  She picked up her coffee and drank it to cover her disturbed sense of threat. The way the blue eyes cares­sed and teased made her want to get up and bolt like a frightened rabbit.

  She was very relieved when they had finished their coffee and could leave. It would be less intimate and more bearable for her when they were viewing the old fort, she decided, but when they strolled down the road and went in through the open gate they found the place empty. The young man selling tickets waved them through cheerfully. 'You know the way round, Liss,' he beamed.

  The walls were broken in places, the jagged masonry worn by wind and sea mists, the ground littered with tumbled stone. Lissa showed Luc the guardrooms with their deepset chimneys, the cells beneath the fort which had once held chained prisoners, the narrow winding corridors running darkly off the steep flights of stairs. A colony of bats lived in the ruined tower at one end of the fort. Luc insisted on climbing the stairs to stare down over the town from the wide parapet. Long ago French soldiers had stood here, watching for trouble either from land or sea, but the fort had not been in use for many years.

  The wind blew faintly today. In summer the town sweltered in the heat. It was only when the occasional hurricane roared over the ocean that the fort crumbled even further.

  Going down the stairs with Luc in front of her in case she fell, Lissa skidded on a sharply polished stone. She tried to grab the wall, but it gave her hand no pur­chase. Instead she found, herself grasping Luc's shoul­ders while he held her by the waist, half turned towards her in a reflex movement as he heard her cry of alarm.

  'Sorry,' she whispered, drawing back as she recovered her balance.

  He still held her waist, his hands almost meeting around it, and as she looked into his eyes a strange, drowning excitement engulfed her. Her mind blanked out. When Luc lifted her down to the same step as him­self she felt she was floating, light as air, dreamlike and somehow free of anything resembling volition.

  Luc's head bent and he brushed his lips over hers. It was the lightest of caresses and it affected her like the touch of fire. She jerked back involuntarily. The cold stone of the wall, the rough edge of flint, dug into her back. She stared into his intent blue eyes and her mouth shook-

  He placed both hands on the wall, leaning over her, and his mouth came down again, but now the coolness had gone, along with the gentleness. His lips were hard and hot, forcing hers to open, the pressure of them filled with a demand she helplessly obeyed. His hands suddenly gripped her wrists and raised her arms; plac­ing them round his neck. She woke briefly then, wrenching her head away, pushing at his shoulders with flattened hands.

  His palm against her check pushed her head round and before she could cry out in protest his mouth had her own captive again. Lissa tensed for a few seconds, twisting to escape. Luc shifted and she felt the whole weight of his body crushing her against the wall. She couldn't stop the moan which escaped her under his demanding mouth. Her hands slid along his shoulders and grasped his thick black hair, running through it in a trembling movement.

  Luc broke off the kiss to lift his head. Her lids flicked back and her green eyes stared, glazed and incredulous.

  She felt the piercing probe of those eyes with heated embarrassment and self-disgust.

  Luc stepped away, smiling. 'Be more careful as we go down the rest of these stairs,' he drawled. 'You never know what may happen if you slip.'

  Lissa couldn't move for a moment. Her legs were shaking under her and she was so hot she felt as though she had a fever. After a pause to drag herself back from that disturbed state of consciousness, she fol­lowed him slowly.

  CHAPTER FOUR

  Chris was in the foyer when they got back to the hotel. He was talking to the desk clerk with his back towards them, but at the sound of Luc Ferrier's cool voice he swung and looked across the empty foyer at them, a spot of red burning in each cheek. Chris was angry. Lissa saw the fury in him and stiffened in alarm. Luc sauntered away, a smile on his hard mouth, and she slowly walked towards Chris.

  He didn't say a word. He took her elbow and marched her into his office, slamming the door in Rebecca's face as she watched them.

  Swinging on Lissa, Chris asked tightly: 'Okay, why did you go off with him, and where the hell have you been? You've been gone most of the afternoon.'

  'He asked me to show him the fort,' Lissa began.

  'He what?' Chris reacted with outright fury, his flush deepening. 'He wasn't interested in any forts!'

  Meeting his blue eyes, she swallowed, and Chris watched the movement of her throat, his face hard.

  'What happened?' he demanded, keeping his eyes fixed on her. 'And I want the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, Liss!'

  'He said if I went with him he wouldn't play with you,' she confessed, and Chris looked at her in fierce stupefaction.

  'I was quite safe in daylight,' she began, but Chris wasn't even, listening.

  'You actually bargained with him about it?'

  'I was worried------' she began, and he cut her short with a loud, harsh expletive.

  'You talked to him about it? You discussed me with him? Told him you were worried in case I played with him?' He used words he had never used before in her presence and the charm and warmth was stripped from his face as though it had never been present. She did not know him. The hoarse tone of his voice frightened her.

  He grabbed her shoulders, his fingers digging into her, and shook her. 'You stupid little bitch,' he hissed. 'Do you know what you've done? Have you any idea? My God, I could slap your damned face for you!'

  Lissa shrank, trembling, looking at him with wide and horrified eyes.

  'He'll use every tiny scrap you fed him,' Chris bit out. 'You just tossed me into the jaws of a crocodile, you little bitch...'

  'Don't,' she winced as his cruel fingers clenched on her. 'You're hurting!'

  Tears burst into her eyes, partly of pain from the way he was shaking her, partly from misery because he was so angry. Chris stared at her as the drops slid down her cheek, and, she felt the rage in him die out. He drew a long breath and then sighed deeply.

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sp; 'Okay,' he muttered, drawing her into his arms. His lips brushed the top of her head. 'Don't cry, honey baby. Liss, stop crying. I can't stand to hear you cry like that.'

  She had never seen him so angry before. The brutal, violent face he had shown her was a face she did not recognise. She was so shaken that she trembled in his arms and Chris groaned under his breath.

  'Okay, it's okay, Liss. I realise you were only trying to save me from myself.' There was a peculiar smile in his voice, a secret amusement she didn't understand.

  He put a hand under her chin and pushed back her head. Wet-eyed, she gazed up at him, and Chris brushed his lips lightly across her trembling mouth.

  'I told you I wouldn't gamble with him!'

  'Then why were you so angry?'

  She caught a wary flicker in his eyes. He looked away as she watched him.

  'If you aren't going to gamble with him, why should it matter what I said to him?' she insisted, staring at him.

  An odd little shiver ran down her spine as she ob­served the shadow of some secret thought passing through his face. She had known Chris most of her life, but what did she really know about the man behind that handsome face?

  Chris's charm and easy smile didn't quite add up, and she had never realised it before. Even now she couldn't be certain what it was about him that was disturbing her. She had thought it was his urgent desire for her that made her hang back in nervous wariness, but behind her innocence she was intelligent enough to receive faint, puzzling signals from the atmosphere here in the island, fleeting indications that all was not what it seemed. Chris disturbed her, but she could not be sure why.

  'Why were you so angry?' she pressed, and Chris gave her a casual, impatient grin.

  'You never know—I might come up against him some day and I wouldn't want him to know too much about me. You shouldn't have let him see you were afraid he'd beat me. It's too revealing.' 'What difference does it make what I think?' Lissa asked, frowning as she watched him.

  Chris's mouth twisted. 'You could have picked it up from me,' he grimaced. 'This man is like a radar system, he picks up every tiny signal. If he reckons I'm scared of him that will give him an advantage.'

  'Don't play with him,' she said huskily. She paused, 'Chris, are you afraid of him?'

  He laughed curtly, 'No, Liss, but I'm no fool. I know his reputation. I'm wary of him, that's all. When I'm ready...' He broke off and she looked at him with anxiety.

  'When you're ready, what? You aren't planning to play with him?' -

  'What did you find out about him?' Chris asked, evading her question. 'Did he tell you anything? Or just pump you dry and tell you nothing?'

  She felt a curious reluctance to discuss Luc Ferrier with him. 'He didn't tell me anything,' she lied.

  Chris made a little face. 'I didn't imagine he would have,' he shrugged. 'Why on earth did you talk to him in the first place? How did you come to run into him?'

  She had never knowingly lied to Chris before. She had never hidden anything from him. Her nature and her old affection for him had made her as open as the day, but now she was evading issues, concealing feel­ings, and she felt alien to herself.

  'I went for a walk in the forest and bumped into him,' she said.

  Chris frowned. 'How did the subject of poker come up?'

  'He noticed my ring,' she explained, not meeting his eyes. 'He asked me who I was engaged to and I told him. Then he told me he'd met you, played poker with you.'

  'And what did you say?' Chris shot that back crisply, staring at her.

  It took her a great deal to turn and meet his eyes without showing anything which was going on inside her. She was deeply aware of the deliberate nature of her smile at him.

  'I told him I didn't approve of gambling.'

  She saw Chris relax and he half-smiled. 'And what did he say to that?'

  'He laughed,' Lissa shrugged, still keeping her eyes on him and smiling.

  'So how did he come to offer you this bargain?' Chris demanded.

  'He asked me to show him the sights of the town,' Lissa told him. 'And when I refused he suggested a bargain—if I took him round the town he wouldn't gamble with you tonight.'

  His eyes narrowed. 'What happened while you were with him?' She saw his hands tighten at his side. 'He didn't touch you?'

  Lissa could not stop the heat coming into her face and Chris watched it with a hardening stare.

  'So he did! What did he do?'

  'He kissed me,' she whispered, alarmed by the look in his face.

  Chris grabbed her arms, staring down at her with a fixed, aggressive expression. 'And? Her eyes widened. 'And what?' ‘And then?' he asked thickly, probing the wide startled eyes. The fierce pressure of his fingers on her arms slackened and he gave a stifled sigh. 'That's all? One kiss and nothing else?'

  'What do you think I am?' Lissa asked angrily. 'Do you think I wanted him to kiss me?'

  Chris laughed shortly. 'So you didn't fancy him? Well, I didn't imagine you had, but you never know with women.' There was a cold twist to his mouth. 'Even girls like you can fall for a good line, and Ferrier certainly has a great line.'

  Lissa frowned, disliking the cynical gleam in Chris's eyes. 'Well, I didn't.' She was lying and she knew it. She had not found Luc Ferrier's kisses distasteful. What's happening to me? she thought. She was meet­ing Chris's eyes and showing nothing of her secret thoughts, and her own ability to deceive was very disturbing.

  'In future keep right out of his way,' Chris told her. 'If he tries it on again let me know and the boys will sort him out.'

  Lissa shivered at the way Chris said that, the bright gleam of his eyes as he spoke.

  As she walked back through to the foyer she met Rebecca. Lissa knew who had told Chris that she had gone off with Luc Ferrier. She met Rebecca's cold smile with an unsmiling stare of her own.

  Pierre was in a teasing mood. 'I've had a request,' he told her. 'In fact, I've had dozens, for you to do the little song I wrote you. So how about it?'

  Lissa flushed. 'I...'

  'Come on, Liss,' he grunted. 'Either you want to be a professional or you don't. The people loved that song. They loved your dress, too. It's time you made up your mind whether you're going to give the people what they want or get out and let someone else do it.'

  'Someone else meaning Jo-Jo,' she suggested, half smiling.

  'Whatever,' Pierre said flatly. 'Chris wants you and you could be much better than you are, if only you'd do it the way the people want it.'

  It wasn't the first time Pierre had said as much. She looked at him uncertainly. 'I feel shy when I sing it,' she muttered.

  'Sure,' Pierre nodded, 'I know that. But you can sing it, Liss. All you have to do is grow up, for God's sake.' He put a thin arm round her shoulders in a brotherly hug, smiling. 'You were a sweet little kid, but now you're a woman. Start acting like one.'

  There was so much she could say to that that the words all jammed up inside her head. She was fright­ened of changing, of becoming a full adult, and she knew it. She looked up into Pierre's round dark eyes and smiled pleadingly at him.

  He gave her an encouraging nod. 'Going to try, baby?'

  Lissa drew a deep breath and nodded. 'That's my girl!' Pierre grinned, hugging her again.

  They went over the song a dozen times before he was satisfied with the way she was singing it. Lissa felt the provocative, ambiguous words sinking into her mind. They disturbed her even more now. Every time she sang them she thought about Luc Ferrier and her pulses raced. Pierre gave her an odd look when she was going.

  'You're coming on,' he told her, grinning, and she wasn't sure what he meant by that, but knew she didn't want to know.

  Chris gave her a sharp look as he saw her in the black dress that evening. 'I thought you preferred not to wear it,' he said with unhidden suspicion.

  Pierre came up and winked at him. 'I talked her into it. The fans were demanding another look at it.'

  Chris relaxed. 'Went down well, di
dn't it? I know. I got told as much over and over again.'

  When Liss walked out into the spotlight her eyes involuntarily slid to the table where Luc usually sat and widened in surprise as she saw he was not alone. One of the other guests sat with him, Lissa had seen her several times before; she was one of the wives whose husband rarely left the gaming rooms. Luc was smiling into the woman's eyes and listening to what­ever she was saying to him. The woman lifted her glass and sipped, fluttering her lashes at him over the edge of the glass.

  She was a very attractive woman, Lissa recognised, suntanned, slim, her low red dress provocative.

  Lissa felt a strange stab of anger and began to sing. She did not look at Luc again, but she sang as she had never sung before, using the purring voice she had heard Pierre use as he tried to get her to sing as he wanted.

  It was nothing but mimicry. She remembered the teasing looks Pierre had given her as he sang certain lines and looked round the audience in the same way, smiling. She heard the laughter start, as it had started the first time she sang the song. She paused where Pierre had paused, smiled where he had smiled, and her slender body moved in the sinuous gestures Pierre had used as he sang.

  She felt Pierre's excited look, saw his grin out of the side of her eye. As she ended, the audience erupted in whistles and shouts, as they had before. 'More, more!' they yelled. Pierre bent forward and whispered: 'Sing it again.'

  Lissa looked at him in startled disbelief. She had never sung a song twice before. Pierre nodded at her vigorously and struck up the bars which opened the song.

  The audience clapped enthusiastically and Lissa, off balance, turned to launch into the song again. She felt a movement at the back of the room and saw Chris standing there. He had taken the red carnation from his buttonhole and held it in his fingers. He was shred­ding it absently, staring fixedly at her.

  Something inside her hardened. She turned her eyes back to the grinning audience and began to sing.

  The applause, the enthusiasm, had melted her in­hibitions. She was relaxed, leaning on the piano, smil­ing. In the clinging black dress she suddenly had a new sophistication and was aware of it. Her old self was gone. She was no longer a little girl, Pierre had re­minded her; she was a woman, and it was a woman singing, breathing out the witty lines, glancing past the smiling faces in the audience as though she in­vited an interest from them which in the past she would have run from like a terrified child.

 

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