I came hard, spilling all over Jake’s chest. I blinked as I realised I wasn’t actually with River at all. Jake was looking up at me in awe, “Fuck, Jodie – that was incredible.”
I nodded, forcing a smile, “It sure was.” I said, “Come here – let me suck you.”
Jake went to sleep pretty quickly after he’d come but I was wide-awake knowing that River was in the house with those two guys, doing all sorts to each other. I heard his bedroom door click open and his footsteps going down the stairs. Right, I was going downstairs too, then. I slid out of bed, leaving Jake snoring softly and I made my way quietly down the stairs. I found him in the kitchen – thankfully he was alone.
He was wearing his bright orange boxer shorts that fit him like a second skin. Fuck he was sexy but I wasn’t here to ogle his beautiful body, I was here to give him a piece of my mind… “What the hell are you doing?”
He looked at me with one eyebrow raised, a challenging look on his gorgeous face, “What does it look like I’m doing? I’m getting a glass of water. I’m thirsty.” He said.
I narrowed my eyes, “That’s not what I meant and you know it – are you deliberately trying to hurt me by bringing two guys home to fuck?”
His eyes widened with surprise but then he just looked angry, “Let’s get something straight here,” he looking as if he was only just holding it together, “You decided that you couldn’t keep seeing me behind Jake’s back – and I agreed with you. It was wrong of us, we both accepted and agreed on that. Right?”
“Yeah.” I had to agree with him – I had agreed on it but I’d accepted it a little bit reluctantly…
He looked at me, “So are you telling me that you made a mistake and want to carry on?”
Oh, God. Of course I wanted to carry on seeing him. He was everything but I was with Jake. I couldn’t hurt Jake… “No.” I sighed.
He looked hurt. All I was doing was hurting everyone… “Then why are you so disgusted with me for wanting someone to hold me and to love me and to satisfy me?”
Fuck. I didn’t have an answer for that. I didn’t want anyone else loving him, holding him, satisfying him. I could do all of that. I’d been enough for him when we were together hadn’t I? “Two guys, though River?” I asked. Seriously? Why didn’t he just bring them all back for a gangbang?
His eyes looked glassy. Maybe I’d struck a nerve. “This is me,” he said with a shrug of his shoulders, “The real River. This is what I was like before you came along.” He said sadly, “Jake told you I was this guy – you just got star struck.”
That was total bollocks and he knew it, “No,” I argued, “I didn’t. Not ever. I saw something else in you, that’s all.” I took a deep breath. I’d seen the real River – the lost, hurt, beautiful person that he really was. I could see the difference between River the dancer and River the man. It was the two horny twinks in his bedroom that were star struck. Not me, “but I guess I was wrong. I guess you are the shallow lap dancer everyone sees you as. Nothing more.”
I had to turn away before he saw that I was lying through my teeth and that I was beyond hurt that he’d cheapen himself like this. He grabbed my arm, sending little electric charges through me. No one else’s touch had ever had such an effect on me, “But you’d still come with me to my room if those guys left.” He purred, “Wouldn’t you?”
I shrugged away from his touch. I probably would if it was just the two of us in the house but not now, “I’m not into promiscuity, River – and I never have been. This affair we’ve been having is something I never thought I would do. It’s probably for the best that you’ve moved on.” I had to get out of there.
Chapter 45 – Alone again...
River
Ashley and Shaun left the next morning before either Jodie or Jake had even woken up.
Jodie announced as soon as they did make an appearance that they were heading back to his parent’s house for Christmas dinner and not to expect them back before New Year’s Eve. Well. That was just fucking great, wasn’t it? Alone again. What a surprise...
Jake looked at me worriedly, “Will you be okay, man?” he asked.
I shrugged, “Sure,” I lied, forcing a smile I wasn’t feeling at all, “I’ll go over to the club – someone’ll be around.” No they wouldn’t. They’d all be happily spending Christmas with their families. I just didn’t have one. Well, not a close one, anyway. Mum had gone on a cruise with Hilary because I’d said my two good friends would be staying with me for Christmas. What a total fuck up I was...
*
I was dancing again on New Year’s Eve. I wondered if Jake and Jodie might show up at the club, but they didn’t.
The next morning as I made coffee, Jake nudged my arm and gave me a knowing grin, “I never did ask you what happened on Christmas Eve – did you have a good time – with the pair of cute twinks?” he asked.
I shrugged, “Well, I was having a great time with them both until I got home.”
He raised an eyebrow, “What do you mean?”
I smiled, “They were more into each other than they were into me – I let them stay over in the spare room.”
His jaw dropped, “Man – you’re losing you touch.” He laughed.
Jodie walked in at that moment, “What’s going on in here?” he asked with false joviality.
I turned away and started putting the coffee on.
Jake gleefully told him that I’d been ditched by the sexy twinks.
Jodie looked at me as I turned towards the fridge, “You mean,” he faltered, “You mean you didn’t sleep with them?”
I looked him in the eye, “That’s right,” I said, “I didn’t sleep with them – they wanted each other, not me – guess they were just star-struck.”
He nodded, blushing to the roots of his hair for the way he’d reacted to me on Christmas Eve, “Guess they must have been.” He said.
He started chatting to Jake about something then. I tuned out. He didn’t care about me. Not really...
Jodie
My heart was beating out of my chest. I’d torn a strip off him on Christmas Eve for sleeping with the two guys – and he hadn’t even done anything with them? So why hadn’t he defended himself? Was he deliberately trying to make me hate him? Oh, God... That was exactly what he was doing... He was trying to make me think badly of him to keep us apart – and it would have worked too – had Jake not opened his big mouth.
I’d even changed our plans for Christmas Day, choosing to drive all the way home to see Dad and Marcia than to have to look at him across the dining table, and had left him to fend for himself, which he’d valiantly agreed to do, saying he’d head over to the club and see who else was around. I’d totally fucked up his Christmas and he’d not complained even once. I was so fucking horrible. What was the matter with me? My jealousy was completely out of control.
“Are you guys on duty today?” Jake asked.
I nodded, “yeah, eleven through to seven tonight.”
River nodded, “Grueller.” He agreed, “But at least I’m not dancing tonight.”
Jake nodded, “I’m back at work tomorrow,” he said, looking at me in concern, “– you know that right?”
I nodded, “Yeah,” I said with a huge sigh, “I know.”
He came over to me and gathered me up in his arms, “It’s not forever, babe.” He said, “I’ll be a nine-to-five guy before long – it’s just while we get sorted out with the merger.”
I nodded, “Yeah,” I said, “I know that – it’s fine. Really.”
River looked at me, “Can we head out at half-ten?” he asked, “I just need to pick up a couple of things on the way – and there’s only the seven-eleven shop open this morning.”
I nodded, “Sure,” I said. My heart was lighter today than it had been in days – now that I knew he hadn’t bedded the twinks. I flashed him a grin, “I’ll go and get ready.”
Chapter 46 – Bathroom break...
River
What the hell
was I thinking? Picking up condoms on the way to work? But I had only one thing on my mind – and that was getting Jodie alone long enough to need them. We had a twenty-minute break at three o’clock. I’d been sporting wood for most of the day thinking about what I wanted to do with him.
Three o’clock came and we headed for the staff rooms. I grabbed his hand and pulled him towards the staff bathrooms. No one was in there.
I pushed Jodie into the stall and shot the bolt home. We stood staring at each other for a moment before my nerve started to fail me. “I…” What? What the fuck was I doing? We’d promised each other that this would never happen again. Jodie had chosen to stay with Jake. He wasn’t mine – he was my best friend’s boyfriend and this was so wrong – but so right...
Jodie’s chest was heaving, “We have five minutes before someone comes looking for us, dude,” he said.
I nodded, “I know – I should go…” I reached for the lock. This was utter madness. I had to stop this stupidity and go back before things got out of hand and people got hurt.
Jodie shot out his hand and grabbed my arm, “Don’t go.” He said, “Not yet. Just kiss me first – please.”
I hesitated. This was a new year for new starts. We hadn’t crossed any lines yet. Nothing had happened between us since we’d gotten drunk before Christmas other than a little harmless flirting. We could leave things like this. We didn’t have to continue with this madness…
Jodie had other ideas though. He closed the distance between us in a flash and pressed himself against me, “Feel that?” he whispered, “That’s all for you.”
Oh God. I pushed him back against the wall and pressed myself into him, “And that’s all for you, too.” I said as I rubbed my hard cock against his.
He groaned. “I want you so much.”
I nodded. I wanted him so much too it was physically painful – and not just in my crotch either although things were getting seriously short of space down there…
His face was so close to mine I could feel his breath on my face. All it would take was a slight movement and our lips would meet…
Jodie closed the gap. His mouth crashed into mine, wiping my mind of any rational thoughts. All that existed was me and him and this kiss, the tangle of his tongue with mine, his teeth hitting my teeth with his enthusiasm – his total exploration of my mouth that was leaving me breathless and tingling all over – and hard as steel…
“Oh, my God.” I managed when he finally dragged his mouth away from mine, “That was awesome.”
He nodded, his lips shining and swollen, his eyes dark with passion, “I am awesome.” He said and dropped to his knees, “You know I’m awesome.”
He made quick work of my fly and pulled both my work trousers and boxers down my thighs just far enough to free my very erect cock. We had very little time and knowing someone could come looking for us any second now heightened the thrill no end. I watched in utter fascination as Jodie’s lips closed over the head of my cock. I almost shouted out as his tongue started to explore the underside of my shaft and actually had to put my hands over my mouth to stop myself from making any noise. Of course sucking cock isn’t quite a silent affair and I revelled in listening to him as he slurped and sucked me. Pleasure erupted inside me and shot electrical pulses down my spine and straight to my balls, which tingled, making me very aware that I was about to come, “Stop, stop,” I panted in a whisper but there was no stopping him. He was totally into what he was doing. One hand was gripping the base of my cock and massaging me in perfect synchronisation with his sucking action. Holy shit. Nothing had ever felt so damned hot. I was so gonna shoot my load any second now. “I’m too close,” I hissed. He felt so damned good taking me right down his throat like that. He opened his eyes and looked up at me, his lips red and shiny around my cock. Nothing had ever looked so beautiful. He wasn’t going to stop and the realisation that he was going to keep sucking me right through my orgasm was incredible. I threaded my fingers through his hair and held on as my orgasm hit me, making me shake with the force of it. Jodie swallowed it all down, never breaking eye contact with me. He licked and sucked until I couldn’t bear it any longer, my dick was so damned sensitive. I think I must have whimpered because he stopped and smiled up at me. “And you’re awesome too.” He whispered.
It was a huge effort to pull him back to his feet. My legs were like jelly. He grinned and then I pulled him in for another kiss. I could taste myself in his mouth, fuelling my desire for him. I reached down and popped the button of his fly, “My turn,” I murmured in his mouth and then I tugged his trousers down in much the same way as he’d just done for me. His cock sprang out of his boxers. Oh my God. So long and thick and absolutely perfect. I was so gonna enjoy that in my mouth…
I slid down the side of the cubicle a little and pulled Jodie towards me. His cock slid into my mouth easily and I sucked and licked, holding him at the base while I fondled his balls with my other hand. The taste of his tangy pre-come covered my tongue. I could hear his ragged breathing and I knew he was getting close. I pulled back a little to take a breath of air before I pulled him in as deep as I could manage without gagging. He felt perfect, like silk over steel. “Oh, God.” I heard him gasp, “Coming.”
The first spurt hit me in the back of the throat and I very almost gagged but I managed to swallow it down before I choked. I managed the rest easily as I milked him through his orgasm. I finally pulled off him with a little pop and grinned, “How awesome am I now?” I asked him cheekily.
“Fucking awesome.” He whispered, “But we really have to get out of here before someone comes in.”
I nodded, the euphoric feeling of a moment ago fading fast. Shit. What the hell had we just done?
I pulled my boxers and trousers up and waited as Jodie did the same. “We really can’t do this again.” I whispered.
Jodie nodded looking around, “Yeah, bit risky in here, isn’t it?”
I looked at him, “I meant ever – what about Jake?”
I opened the cubicle door and stepped out. I went over to the sinks and started washing my hands. “We’re cheating on him – again.” I said quietly. “I promised that I wouldn’t take advantage of his long absences and yet I keep allowing it to happen.”
“We keep allowing it to happen,” Jodie said softly, coming to stand behind me, “Not just you – it took the two of us to feel this way about each other.”
“Right.” I agreed, “So we need to tell him – to apologise.”
Jodie looked at me as if I was completely off my head, “Oh sure.” He said sarcastically, “I’m sure he’ll be very understanding. He’ll probably give you a big hug and tell you not to worry about a thing.”
I looked at him. He was worried, I could tell, “Well, what are we going to tell him?”
Jodie leaned against the sink, “Nothing.” He said, “This was a one off. So we’ll pretend it never happened and we’ll go back to the way things were before.”
“Okay,” I agreed, “I promise I won’t tell him if you don’t, then – I’ll take it to the grave where it belongs.”
Jodie nodded, “To the grave.” He agreed.
Why did I have a sense of foreboding that our little pact was only going to last until we got home?
Chapter 47 – Better man...
Jodie
We drove home in near silence. Where the hell was this going to end?
In utter disaster, that’s where...
The house was in darkness and I could just make out Jake’s snores from upstairs. He was fast asleep.
River looked at the ceiling and chuckled, “Sleeping Beauty’s out for the count.”
I nodded, “Yeah.” I agreed.
“Go to bed, Jodie.” He said, “I’m sorry I keep crossing the line with you. I truly am – I’ll try to be a better man.” He smiled at me sadly.
I nodded, “See you in the morning.” I whispered and kissed him softly.
*
I woke up the next morning t
o a soft kiss on my forehead. I blinked and brought Jake’s face into focus, “Oh, hi.” I smiled, “Are you going to work?”
He nodded, “No rest for the wicked.” He quipped, “I’ll see you on Wednesday.”
I sighed and nodded, “Yeah, see you then.”
I followed him down the stairs and waved him off.
I got myself a glass of water and headed back up the stairs. River’s door was slightly ajar...
With my heartbeat in my throat and my dick hardening just at the thought of him, I pushed his bedroom door open.
He was lying in his bed, his eyes met mine and he groaned as he saw me stood there. “What are you doing?” he whispered.
“Nothing.” I replied with a little smile, “Yet...”
He shook his head, “We can’t do anything.” He said, “We promised each other we’d stop this.”
“I can’t.” I said, my voice cracking.
“Then tell him – and be mine.”
I sucked in a sharp breath. “I can’t do that either...”
“I love you,” River blurted out, “And I can’t live with all this sneaking around anymore – I want to tell everyone in the world the way I feel about you – that we’re lovers – that we love each other... oh....” he trailed off and I realised that I was probably staring at him in something close to horror. He thought I didn’t feel the same... that couldn’t be further from the truth.
I rearranged my face, “I do love you, River.” I said emphatically, “Please don’t ever think that I don’t – but I love Jake too... I’m so sorry for being so weak.”
He sighed, “Come here.” He said, “Just come and lie with me – I just want to hold you – nothing more.”
We fell to sleep like that and woke up hours later, legs tangled up together and his arm around my waist – utter perfection...
I rolled over to face him. “I’ve made a decision.” I said.
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