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by Robert Wise




  PROLOGUE

  Hansel was bored. He’d been staring at the dull glow of his computer screen for the past half an hour now, clicking at random windows, trying to interest himself with passing news stories and the digital bounce of an online game that urged him to hop a square edged character through a world of overgrown plant pots and jungle shaped shrubbery. Neither however, had managed to take his eyes off the tiny clock that sat at the bottom of his monitor for more than thirty seconds. It was almost as though he expected each numeral to shift by the moment and finally disprove his theory that the last hour of the day was always the longest. He ran a web of fingers beneath the frame of his glasses and sighed. Thirty-five minutes…

  His eyes fluttered, feeling heavy. A daydream threatened to take hold but he resisted its darkening advance and clicked away the host of emails that had grouped within his browser. Then he drummed at the mouse until a pale blue shimmer set across his face. A blank document flashed before him and the cursor blinked, an almost mimicking pause, an invitation to write across a welcoming canvas of dazzling white. Writers block had bloomed to its utmost, agonisingly, uncivilized potential and now mustered within the back of Hansel’s mind like a towering wall, laced in vines and thorns that kept out all things creative. Not to worry, nothing important, he thought. He fashioned a sentence of nothingness, something sluggish. His fingers fell into each key, lazily moving from letter to letter. Again, the cursor came to a flickering halt and Hansel sighed and retracted each word. He peered over the brim of his booth. Home time was approaching at its usual glacial pace and final pieces were being submitted, listlessly. Work came as ‘the informer’ a relatively well known newspaper in Munich. Next Tuesday would make it four years since Hansel had been hired. Two of the most recent of those years had been spent lurking around the sports section, contributing photographs and small segments and pre-match notes to the columnist who then bathed in the richness of sporting success. Hansel had learnt to hide his disappointment well. Even his passion for the game had wilted. Everything had become a statistic, a formula of percentages. His Father had never understood his wilful desire to venture into journalism; he believed the papers these days were nothing but glorified gossip, he was old in his ways. This being said, amidst all the disgruntled comments and dinner table jibes, Hans Kortig Senior had offered at least one fragment of advice, something that Hansel would always remember.

  Be Patient, no matter what is it, be patient and in time it will be yours.

  After standing pitch side in the harsh Bremen snow for over two hours covering a mid-season cup tie Hansel was starting to think that the suggestion hadn’t been that well-versed. Patience is often easier to cope with when there is a promising position in sight, however at The Informer, nothing was certain. Gaining any kind of promotion or credibility had seemed impossible as of yet and Hansel couldn’t help but feel as though his efforts were being cruelly overlooked.

  The squashing of keyboard keys had vanished. Shoulders motioned into jackets and overcoats and umbrellas were readied. Clouds had muddled together for most of the afternoon, dark and stout, spilling down beads of silver from the grumbling heavens until Munich was swamped in scattered puddles. Hansel consulted his watch and made a reach for his satchel when a figure stooped clumsily over the brim of his booth.

  ‘Hans, I’ve just been in with Weber, he’s giving me a trial run of the Friday morning column, great huh?’ It was Markus Koch, a colleague of Hansel’s, who at the present moment happened to be wearing an incredibly large grin.

  ‘Congrats,’ Hansel replied soberly, doing well to hide a mouthful of bitterness. Pushing his designer glasses up to the bridge of his nose Markus Koch sniffled and snatched a post-it note away from Hansel’s computer screen and spat a well chomped piece of chewing gum into its crinkled fold. Hansel grimaced.

  ‘Any way,’ Markus continued, tossing the fortified gum into a waste paper basket with annoying precision,

  ‘Weber wants to see you in his office.’ With that he swung his bag over his shoulder and walked away leaving Hansel buzzing with curiosity.

  ‘Wait, why?’ Hansel yelled after him.

  ‘I’m just the messenger!’ Markus replied, offering a backwards wave as he descended through the maze of scuffling office booths. Peeling his jacket away from the curve of his chair Hansel collected his satchel by its hold and thumbed at the computer monitor until it powered down.

  ‘Goodnight Hansel,’ said a colleague as they passed.

  ‘Night,’ he replied. As he tugged at the cord below his desk lamp he found that a smile had set upon his face. It had been a while since optimism had occupied a chamber in his mind.

  Jens Weber was a skinny man who rarely smiled. His hair was neatly combed, swept away from a forehead of deep, wavy wrinkles and large greying eyebrows. He reminded Hansel of James Jonah Jameson, the hot headed editor-in-chief from the Spiderman comics. This was mainly due to the pin striped waist coats and the number of heated incidents Hansel had witnessed while working beneath Weber’s cigar welding fist… And that was the other thing; the heavy scent of cigar smoke that lingered throughout the office was a sure sign of Weber’s rising blood levels. In fact, as soon as Hansel’s nose began to burn with Weber’s signature blend of Navarre Double Corona he would try his utmost best to vacate the office floor, fearing the inevitable wrath that was surely quick to follow.

  Hansel struck his knuckles against the door and a few nearby booth dwellers halted where they stood, apparently eager to witness the fate of yet another summoned employee.

  ‘Ah, Mr Kortig,’ coughed the editor, ‘come in, take a seat.’

  Chewing the inside of his mouth Hansel nodded and plotted amidst the narrow confines of a small leather armchair, his shoulders instantly hunched. A coat rack stood by the window, its ivory arms laden with more waist coats and blazers and herringbone jackets.

  ‘What are you working on at the moment?’ Weber said urgently, plucking at the end of an aging cigar.

  ‘Well Sir, Jost and I are actually...’

  ‘Drop it for now,’ spat Weber.

  ‘I’m sorry, Sir?’ Hansel replied, befuddled.

  ‘Whatever it is, leave it for now,’ Weber said, only this time with a deeper tone of stern authority. His face was now squashed into a frown and he ran a scratch of fingers across his cherry red chin.

  ‘I have something else for you.’

  Hansel’s wandering stare loomed in on Weber’s slanted smirk and stayed there. Optimism began to barrel through his mind like a speeding train but Hansel had to stop himself, he couldn’t get carried away. But then what if this was his break? What if Weber was about to hand him a chance to finally prove himself? A chance that would ease all those recent years of frustration and snow bitten distress...

  Hansel’s buoyancy would be short lived.

  Weber kept the crooked grin and latched open one of his desk drawers, delving a hook of fingers inside. Hansel watched closely. A ticket hit the desk with a cold thud. For a moment Hansel mulled, studying the blocked band of neatly pressed letters that were shepherded at the ticket’s rigid zenith with deteriorating hope. He could smell disappointment. It was right there, mixed into that cigar scent of earth and spice.

  ‘Paris?’ Hansel croaked, going over the ticket once more, ‘I-I don’t under…’

  Weber puffed at the birth of his cigar and then released the departing smoke.

  ‘Paris,’ Weber confirmed with a nod and a palm cupped cough,

  ‘Munich have drawn the French champions in the European cup and I need you to cover the images and notes for Wednesday’s paper.’

  Hansel pondered glumly over the ticket, reluctantly taking it within his hands as he went over the trails of blocked print with disdain. Then came a thought,


  ‘Sorry Sir but doesn’t Wern usually handle the European ties?’

  ‘Wern’s taken a job elsewhere,’ Jens Weber hissed unkindly. Ah, Hansel thought, there was the reason for the editor’s early evening smoke.

  ‘So,’ Weber went on, ‘do a good job and I may consider you to be his full time replacement.’

  Hansel felt the aching numbness of disappoint muster at the centre of his chest. More ‘might’s’ and ‘maybe’s.’

  ‘Your train leaves at eleven. I’ll expect the pictures for the online edition right away. ’

  And with a cigar flailing hand Jens Weber motioned towards the door. Hansel reserved a deep sigh, planning to vent his rage at the radio on the drive home, and pushed away from the armchair, smiling curtly at the editor as he went.

  ‘Kortig,’ barked Weber, just as the young journalist arrived at the doorway.

  ‘Yes Sir?’

  Jens Weber ushered his cigar into the powdery depths of a fine ash tray and attempted a smile.

  ‘You’ll get your chance, just be patient.’

  Hansel thanked him and left. Another day over, another shallow promise collected.

  Raindrops landed against the slope of the windscreen and Hansel watched as they boiled in unaccompanied beads, only to be thwacked flat by the juddering spread of oncoming wipers moments later. His fingers beat restlessly at the steering wheel and he readied his foot for take-off even though a steady procession of fuzzy brake lights had built up ahead of him. His mind was a stampede of thoughts. He attempted to play out a scenario or two where the conversation with Weber had ended rather differently.

  ‘Ah, Mr Kortig,’ a beaming Jens Weber would say, ‘I trust you’ve had a pleasant stay, stuck at the bottom of my shoe, but here’s a thought, why don’t you have your own column, something that craves creativity, something…’

  Hansel gave up the thought half way through. Even his imagination couldn’t conjure up a situation where his ‘spidey hating’ editor offered him a better role. No longer could he list every what if or if only. Wasn’t that just a monologue for the bitter? A long list of things that could have been or should have been or would have been? He cranked the radio dial and let the mellow tones of a passing song ease his troubled mind. The car in front jolted and took off. Checking his mirror Hansel followed suit, grumbling a soft whisper of rants as he went.

  The lights were off and the space where Mila’s teal green Toyota normally sat was empty. Hansel snatched up the handbrake and made his way across the rain swept car park shielded only by the arc of his jacket. He made a fumble for his keys and pushed into a dark hallway which soon became ablaze with soft yellow light. After collecting his mail he climbed the stairs and pushed through the front door, flopping onto a sofa of colourful cushions that had been compiled neatly before his arrival. From the bloom of flowery fabric he turned his squashed face to exhale a deep sigh. A headache threatened to form. His eyes struggled to stay open. The burn of Paris lingered at the front of his mind and he rubbed the ripples across his forehead in hope that it would relieve the dull throb beckoning. Just then a small, damp nose nudged against his trailing arm, followed by a sequence of muted purring. Not content with the reaction of his owner, Hansel’s cat Domino hopped onto the sofa and began climbing all over his rain soaked shirt, pawing and licking at Hansel’s ears. Rolling onto his front Hansel watched the hungry cat skip down onto the wooden flooring and patter off towards the kitchen, hovering sheepishly around his empty bowl. Hansel flicked at the lamp beside the sofa and pushed away from the layer of cushions, succumbing to Domino’s squeaky demands. After sprinkling the cat’s bowl with treats Hansel slumped back onto the sofa and jabbed at the television remote. A programme fizzed out of the darkness and the volume shortly followed. Hansel fixated on the pale blue lustre and ignored the figures moving beyond the screen. Sleep loomed and he had no intention of fighting it. Domino joined him, curling up into a small furry ball beside his feet. Hansel turned into the cushions. Paris was far from his mind.

  He woke, unable to describe his dreams. They would flash at the back of his eyes, in time, short reels of indescribable imagery that would lead to brief investigation but then fade as his awakening tiredness grew. An angel perched over him, her wet hair brushed against his cheeks.

  ‘Evening,’ she said, planting a kiss upon his forehead, ‘how was your day?’

  ‘Perfect,’ Hansel replied with a stretch and a groan, ‘couldn’t have been better.’

  ‘So awful then?’ Mila smiled, placing a brown paper bag upon the kitchen counter.

  ‘Cold takeaway,’ she said guiltily. Hansel joined her in the kitchen and sleepily pulled two plates away from the cupboard unit above the sink.

  ‘So what happened?’

  ‘The usual,’ Hansel replied blankly, ‘Weber managed to squeeze in a few more broken promises, Markus Koch got another promotion...’

  ‘Oh baby,’ Mila said, dividing a pocket of chips onto the two plates.

  ‘You know,’ Mila continued past a mouthful of stolen chips, ‘I was reading our star signs today, want to know what yours said?’

  ‘Humour me,’ Hansel replied, adding a burger to each chip fortressed plate.

  ‘It said that while your dreams may be put on hold, a fortuitous opportunity is not far away.’

  Hansel didn’t let Mila finish before snorting in derision.

  ‘Weber’s sending me to Paris tomorrow, to cover the Munich game. Fortuitous opportunities seem pretty far away to me.’

  ‘Oh Hansie,’ Mila hissed, ‘we’re supposed to be having dinner with my parents tomorrow evening, remember?’

  ‘I’m sorry,’ he sighed, carrying his plate into the living room and shooing away a prowling Domino. The television sparkled in the background but neither of them paid it any attention.

  ‘You’ll get where you want to be Hansel,’ Mila assured, ‘you just have to be....’

  ‘Patient, I know.’

  Mila frowned.

  ‘I’m starting to wish I’d taken that job with my Father all those years ago.’

  ‘Oh yeah,’ Mila spluttered sarcastically, ‘I could really see you working in a garage all day, grease all over your clothes, in your hair…’

  Hansel declared himself defeated with a smile.

  ‘Seriously though, I used to see a future in writing. Now I can’t even resurrect that book, even that’s buried underneath a pile of your magazines on the bedside table!’

  ‘A book isn’t written in a few weeks Hansel.’

  ‘But it should be in two years, or at least nearly finished. I’m chasing these dreams but I’ve got nothing to show for it.’

  He plucked a small piece of seeded bread away from his burger bun and lowered it down to Domino who gently snatched it within his paws and took off towards the hallway.

  ‘Just for once, I want to feel like I’m actually headed somewhere.’

  ‘But you are,’ Mila began, barely able to contain a cute grin, ‘you’re going to Paris tomorrow, remember?’

  The rain had ceased sometime during the night and Munich was left to simmer beneath a film of warm hazy mist. Hansel had showered and packed an overnight duffel bag before kissing goodbye a sleepy Mila. And then, after a short drive through the hauntingly vacant streets of Munich, he arrived at the station, his face hot from the humidity. When he stepped onto platform six, his train sat waiting, a long yellow vessel, ready for takeoff. Hansel followed his ticket to a seat beside the window and crammed his overnight bag into the overhead compartment, but not before taking out a pen and notepad. Over the course of the journey he penned at the lined pages, filling them with thoughts, random words and lazy sketches. The wide windows became black before long and Hansel hid a yawn, pondering the effortless respite of sleep that could, at any moment, follow.

  Why couldn’t he just write? Was he trying too hard? Hansel had hoped that his writers block may have disintegrated within the gloom of the tunnel, although as Paris flashed by in a colourful
blur, he realised that the wall was higher than ever.

  Cabs lurked on the curbs of the main entrance, windows half wound, eager eyes watching the procession of quick feet spilling from the platform. Hansel climbed into the closest and checked his pocket for the address of the inn, relaying it to the driver word for word. From his jacket pocket he took out his mobile and brushed a thumb over the power button until it flickered to life. Two small envelopes blossomed at the corner of the screen and at first glimpse he smiled...

  Mila: I love you. Have a safe flight x

  Mila: You’ve left your camera behind...

  ...And then grimaced. The camera, he thought. Typical. Biting his frustration, Hansel leaned forwards and tapped at the driver’s seat,

  ‘I don’t suppose you know where I can get a decent camera around here do you?’

  Smirking at Hansel’s weak attempt to speak a mixture of French, English and German the driver nodded and turned at a set of lights, heading down a road that was humming with shoppers and lined in tall, pristine trees. The cab came to a stop just outside a store with televisions and cameras and other electronic devices displayed neatly in the window and Hansel climbed out from the backseat with a grunt, catching a mere glimpse of the dangling price tags.

  ‘You know what,’ Hansel said, ‘the inn isn’t far from here. I think I’ll walk the rest of the way.’ The driver snatched Hansel’s offered fare and wished him a nice day before speeding off into the distance. If Hansel had it right the inn was only about a ten minute walk away, the stadium even closer. Seven hours until kick off. He figured he would sort out the business with the camera (the bill being sent directly to Weber’s office) and then check in at the hotel, take a shower, lounge around for a while and then leave an hour or two before the two teams clashed. The shop was cold and a young girl looked up jadedly as Hansel entered. Aside from the sparkle of a hundred television screens the shop appeared dull and empty and Hansel studied the wall of cameras with intent. His hands found one, a square instrument bordered with silver dashes and cool blue buttons. It didn’t match the tall and slender scope of his Nikon back home but it would do. And he paid for it, pinching at the card reader with the image of Weber’s scowling face stuck inside his mind. He gave it a little more thought as the receipt was swiped away from the trundle of the till and found that, for once, he might enjoy Weber’s rage. Bundling the new camera into his overnight bag, Hansel took to the streets of Paris and did his best to banish the treacherous beginning of his journey. Knowing not, that everything was about to change.

 

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