by Tania Carver
And so she should be.
Because, freed of thinking of her as Rani, as the woman he loved, he could do what he liked.
And there was so much he would like to do with her. She wouldn’t go easily, or quickly, and he would enjoy every moment. All the anger and uncertainty he’d been through the last few days, here was his chance to just have fun.
He unsheathed his knife, kept the blade covered. Didn’t want her to see the razor-sharp metal glinting in what light there was. Didn’t want her to feel it on her until it was too late.
He moved forward, deciding which side to approach from. The far side, next to the generator by the wall. Yes. That would maximise the biggest shock for her. Scare her the most.
He advanced.
Faces danced before his eyes. Women. His mother. His sister. Whores, all of them. Any woman he had ever met in his life. Whores.
Rani.
The serpent twisted, writhed.
Especially Rani. The way she avoided him, laughed at him, even. Then spurned him. That had made him angry. Brought it all back to the surface again. Whores. All of them.
So he had taken her. She had struggled, tried to fight him off, but it was no good. He was stronger than her. His hunger to have her greater than her hunger to get away.
And he had her. Any way he wanted.
Afterwards, he had cried, feeling guilty, hating himself. Then came the anger. At her for leading him on, at himself for the self-loathing.
And then came the fire.
And the rebirth.
He smiled. Nearer to this one now. Nearly on her…
He edged round the corner of the box, crouching, moving stealthily, in his mind’s eye a panther. A sleek, remorseless killer.
She was just in front of him, lying full length on the ground, head round the corner, expecting him to come at her from the front.
He nearly laughed. She was in for a surprise…
He crept up right behind her, knife in hand, arm outstretched…
Then stopped. Something wasn’t right.
The woman on the ground, she was…
‘Bastard!’
Pain, sharp, on the back of his head. His knees buckled, his hands went to the source of the pain. He fell to the floor, dropping the knife.
‘Bastard!’
Again, another dose of pain, bigger this time. He felt his skull crack, heard it in his head, tearing open.
He tried to turn. Saw the woman from upstairs, the one who had been Rani, standing behind him with one of the breeze blocks used to jam the doors of the boxes closed.
She had tricked him.
The whore had tricked him. Him.
Anger welled. He screamed, tried to get up.
She brought the block down again, hitting him in the face this time. He felt something break, hot liquid squirt in his eyes.
His hands went to his eyes, wiped them. Opened them.
Just in time to see what she was doing next.
She held the two cables from the water trough, hooked up to the generator. They were fizzing and sparking where drops of water hit the exposed ends. Holding them by their insulated sides, she thrust them towards him.
‘Die, fucking die, you bastard…’
She held them to his chest as the current coursed through him.
He tried but couldn’t pull away, couldn’t get his hands up to stop her, to rip the cables away. The current was too powerful.
She held them there, his chest sparking and arcing, his body vibrating and shaking.
He looked at her face. Saw Rani, grinning. Not as she had appeared to him in the other bodies but as she was first. Grinning, watching him die. Vengeful and happy.
He reached out for her but it was too late. She was gone.
And then so was he.
109
‘Right,’ shouted Wade, ‘you know your places…’ Mickey watched as the armed response unit surrounded the Dock Transit building. He and Anni had come straight out when the circus was mobilised. Wade’s team had barely had time to get changed from their last assignment. They were all in place, just awaiting Sergeant Wade’s order to move in. His arm was raised.
‘We’ll wait until they’ve gone in,’ said Anni, fastening the straps of her vest, ‘then we follow, yeah?’
‘Yep,’ said Mickey, doing the same. ‘We just-’ His phone rang. He shook his head in irritation. ‘Probably my mother.’
‘Answer it,’ said Anni. ‘Might be important. Might be the boss.’
He checked the display. The station. He answered it.
‘Mickey? Marina. Is that you?’
‘Yeah, Marina.’ He looked at Anni, rolled his eyes. ‘Look, we’re a bit busy at the moment. We’re on the quay, just about to-’
‘Yes, yes, I know.’ She cut him off. ‘Listen. This is important. Has anyone gone in yet?’
‘They’re just about to.’
‘Then tell them to stand down. Now. Do it…’
‘I can’t just-’
‘Turner says the whole building is wired. Just like the boat. If they go in they’ll be killed…’
Mickey took the phone away from his ear. Anni saw the look of urgency on his face.
‘Sergeant Wade,’ he shouted. ‘Get your team to-’
Too late. The front of the building exploded into a wall of flame.
110
Phil heard the screams, saw the lights. Went running over to the boxes.
He never made it.
At that moment the far wall of the building burst into flames.
He was blown on to his back, overwhelmed by the blast, the heat. Once he got his breath back he pulled himself up to his elbows, squinted ahead.
It was as if daylight, violent and flaming, had been brought into the night-time. The front of the building was ablaze, the flames spreading.
No way out.
Phil looked round, saw Suzanne Perry staggering over by the right side of the building, pulling herself slowly along the wall.
‘Suzanne…’
She heard him, saw him, crossed over to him. Slowly, as if in a daze.
Has she been hit? he wondered. He ran towards her.
‘You OK?’
She nodded, her face devoid of expression, mouth open.
‘You sure?’
Another nod.
‘Where’s…’ He pointed towards the boxes.
‘He’s… gone…’
Shock, thought Phil. That’s what it was. He needed to get her out of there. Both of them needed to get out of there.
‘Come on,’ he said. ‘We can’t go out that way, let’s look for somewhere at the back.’
He put his arm round her, turning her away from the flames, the boxes. Numbly, she let him guide her.
They made it back to the metal stairway leading up to the gantry. Phil looked up. Fiona Welch had come round, was staring down at him, her face a mask of pure hatred.
‘Get out of here,’ Phil shouted. ‘It’s not safe.’
‘Fuck you, copper…’
She turned and ran along the gantry, away from him.
There was another explosion behind them. Phil turned.
‘Christ, the whole building must be wired…’ He looked round. If the front was wired, would the back be? He couldn’t take the chance. Seeing no other alternative, he started up the stairs.
‘Come on, Suzanne, up here…’
With his arm around her, they made their way back up the gantry. By the time they had reached the top, Suzanne seemed to be more aware of what was going on. Phil didn’t feel like he had to hold on to her all the time.
‘You OK?’ he said. ‘Can you make it along here?’
She nodded. ‘Yes…’
‘Come on, then…’
Fiona Welch had run away in the opposite direction to them. They had no alternative but to follow. Phil and Suzanne ran along the gantry, dodging the swinging metal chains. At the far end of the walkway he could see the night sky. He tried to get his bearings.<
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They were facing the side of the building with the crane on it. It was a huge metal frame with a crane mechanism that moved along the heavy metal horizontal bar at the top, controlled by an operative in a cabin on the ground. There was a maintenance opening from the gantry on to the top of the horizontal bar. He doubted that had been rigged to explode. If they could get out there, edge their way along, they could climb down the other side, away from the flames.
He was sure Fiona Welch had had the same idea.
‘This way…’
He pulled Suzanne along towards the opening.
They reached it. He looked round. No sign of Fiona Welch.
She must have already gone ahead, he thought. Got away. She wouldn’t get far.
‘Come on…’
He opened the door, stepped out. The metal was rusted, not too wide. And a long way down. Might be better to sit on it, edge their way along that rather than run. That was a sure way to fall.
Phil swallowed hard. Felt his legs begin to shake, vibrate. He had a huge fear of heights. Always had a panic attack whenever he was up high. Someone had once told him that it wasn’t the heights he feared but what he would do when he was up there. What he wanted to do. He had laughed at that, said his friend was talking rubbish, but it had played on his mind ever since. And now that he was up high and unsafe once more, it came back to him.
But this time he had an answer.
He wanted to get down safely. Because he had a wife and daughter waiting for him.
He corrected himself. Partner and daughter. Had he really just said wife to himself?
Really?
He didn’t have time to think about that now. And he certainly didn’t have time for a panic attack. He looked back at the doorway, ready to tell Suzanne to sit down, pull herself along, but the words never left his mouth.
Fiona Welch was standing there. He could see the body of Suzanne lying behind her, on the gantry inside.
‘Have you killed her?’ he shouted.
She shrugged. ‘What do you care?’
She stepped outside, on to the beam. Phil tried to move backwards, away from her. He felt himself slip, his foot go over the edge. His body lose its balance.
Oh my God, he thought. I’m going to fall.
I’m going to die.
111
‘Look up there,’ shouted Anni. ‘It’s the boss…’
Mickey followed her arm. Saw Phil Brennan standing on the top beam of the crane mechanism. ‘What’s he…’
‘No… he’s going to fall…’
Phil brought his foot round. Placed it securely on the beam. Steadied himself. He didn’t fall. His breathing was heavy, chest heaving.
And then he felt it. The tightening bands round his ribcage, squeezing, tightening…
No. Not now. Ignore it. Not now…
Fiona Welch smiled at him. ‘One push. That’s all it takes…’
‘Give it up, Fiona,’ he shouted. ‘You’re going nowhere.’
‘Oh really?’
‘Look down there. That’s my team. They’ve got this place surrounded. You can’t get away.’
She laughed. ‘One push. And you’ll be seeing your team sooner than you think…’
‘Don’t be a fool, Fiona. You’ve got nowhere to go.’
‘Apart from the history books. I’m going to be famous, Phil Brennan. You’re not. You’re just going to be the latest in my list of victims.’ She laughed. ‘So I suppose you’ll be famous, too, in a way. Isn’t that exciting?’
The wind was getting up. If it got too strong the argument would be meaningless. They would both go. And there was the pain in his chest…
‘Fiona… don’t. Give up. Please.’
Another laugh.
Phil didn’t think he could hang on much longer.
Suzanne opened her eyes. Sat up. She saw two sets of everything, had a sharp, shooting pain in the back of her skull. She could guess what had caused that.
She looked round. Saw that woman, Fiona something, outside on the gantry. The way Phil had gone. She looked beyond the Fiona woman. Saw Phil standing there.
And from the looks of him, he wouldn’t be there long.
She had to do something. Stop her.
She looked round, trying to find something – anything – that could be used as a weapon. Nothing.
Did another sweep with her eyes. Looked back into the building. Looked up, looked outside.
She had an idea…
‘You a religious man, Phil? You look the type.’
He didn’t answer.
Fiona Welch edged forward. ‘Only, if you know any prayers, I’d start saying them now…’
He tried hard to keep his balance, keep his breathing in check.
‘You’d better start believing in the afterlife. Not that there is one – I know because I’m a psychologist – but it might make your last few seconds more comfortable.’
She edged closer.
Phil felt himself begin to totter…
Then Fiona Welch flung her arms out wide, a preacher beseeching her flock. Her eyes widened, her arms began windmilling.
‘No, no…’
She flung out her arm, fingers extended, grasping only air.
‘No, not me…’
Her eyes were wide with terror, with the realisation of what was about to happen.
Fiona Welch screamed. And fell.
To her death.
Phil looked at the entranceway. There was a hook on a chain swinging backwards and forwards through it. Suzanne Perry standing beside it. He smiled.
Suzanne returned it.
He edged slowly back towards her.
Ready to get down.
Ready to go on living.
PART FIVE
112
The only sound in the room was the soft bleeping of the life-support machine. Regular and rhythmic, it had a soothing quality.
‘That noise,’ said Marina quietly, like she was in a church and didn’t want to talk above a whisper, ‘I always thought… always used to think… as long as it was going, everything would be all right. There’d be hope.’
Her final word was choked off by a sudden sob.
Phil, standing beside her, tightened his grip round her shoulder.
‘But that’s not always enough, is it?’ she said, still whispering. ‘Sometimes you need the truth. Stop dreaming.’ Another sigh. ‘Start living.’
She stepped forward, looked down at the figure lying in the bed. Phil stayed where he was, behind her. There if she needed him.
Tony seemed to be shrinking. Every time she saw him he seemed to get smaller. She thought of that old black and white science fiction film she had seen when she was a child, a man shrinking, getting so small he eventually becomes a microscopic organism, an atom at the heart of the universe.
This was different, though. He wasn’t shrinking, just wasting away.
And he wouldn’t be falling into the heart of the universe. And he wouldn’t be coming back.
Marina bent down, made to kiss him. Then straightened up, turned to the nurse, panic on her face.
‘What if he can see me? Or hear me? That happens, doesn’t it? People in comas for years suddenly come back to life, say they can hear everything that’s been going on…’
The nurse, standing silently at the side of the room, stepped forward. ‘Sometimes,’ she said, her hushed tone matching Marina’s. ‘In some instances. It depends on the kind of injuries the patient has sustained. The state they’re actually in.’
‘And Tony…’
The nurse shook her head.
Marina knew that. They had had this conversation over and over. But she hadn’t heard what the nurse had actually said.
Until today.
Marina leaned over Tony, kissed his forehead. He didn’t flinch, didn’t smile or frown, gave no indication that he felt anything.
She straightened up. Mouthed one word: ‘Goodbye.’
She stepped back, looked for
Phil. His arm was straight back round her. She drew strength from his touch. She nodded to the nurse who then stepped forward to the machine at the side of the bed.
The noise stopped.
She turned into Phil’s chest, started to cry.
His arm strong around her, it felt like he would never let her go.
113
The sun was high, the beach flat. She could see for miles and miles. If anyone approached, she would know.
And that was just how Suzanne wanted it.
She sat on the wall of the house, looking out to sea. The house behind her was well protected. No one knew who she was, just a tourist renting a secluded beach-front house in a Norfolk village.
She had been advised not to go away alone, to always have someone with her, but that wasn’t what she needed. Newspapers had been on the phone to her constantly, wanting her to tell her story, offering prices that started off ridiculously high and just escalated. They gave her no rest, no respite. She had been tempted to choose one, the highest bidder, tell all and take the money. But once she had decided on that she hadn’t been able to go through with it. Didn’t want the whole thing opened up again in a way she had no control over, didn’t want to become public property, be stared at in the street, talked about in the supermarket. She just wanted to get away from all that. Run.
So she had.
And she couldn’t blame herself for doing it. Her best friend had been murdered. She had been stalked, kidnapped and imprisoned. And she had killed two people. The fact that it was in self-defence was something she was glad about in legal terms as it meant she wouldn’t have to stand trial or go to prison. But she, herself, had taken two lives. And that was just as hard to live with as everything else that had happened.
It had been five weeks since that night on the quayside and the nightmares still hadn’t stopped. They weren’t as frequent as they were at first, but they still came along, jumping out and surprising her when she thought she was healing, her life getting back on track. Claiming her day, her night, stopping her from moving forward.