“What?” Sarah says. “What kind of noise?”
“I don’t know, a noise. Like someone was here, outside his office. Maybe around three o’clock or later.”
“Did you see anyone?”
“No.”
“So what if you heard a noise?”
“Nothing,” I say. “Unless it was you or Artie. Was it?”
Artie snorts. “At three? We were asleep.” Then he catches himself. “Oh, shit.”
Sarah glares at him. “Nice move, Weiss.”
So it’s true about them. I don’t understand Sarah; sleeping with Artie, but crazy about Armen. And Artie and Armen are so close. Were so close.
“Oh, what’s the difference now?” Artie says. “I don’t care if everybody knows, it’s not like we’re doing anything wrong.” He looks at me and Eletha, his eyes full of pain. “I love her, okay? We fuck like bunnies, okay? Is that okay with you?”
“Sure,” I say. Eletha nods uncertainly.
“See, Sar, the world didn’t end.”
Sarah ignores him and presses REDIAL. “The important thing is to find Ben.”
I walk away from the tense group. I want to see Armen’s office before they do. Alone. I stop in the doorway, bracing myself. Still, I feel a sharp pang at the sight. My gaze wanders over the exotic brocade, the strange-looking documents, and the Armenian books in their paper dust jackets, frayed at the top. The place smells of him still; I can almost feel his presence. I can’t believe he would kill himself. Why didn’t I know? Why didn’t I see it coming?
I enter the room and finger the papers on the conference table. Everything is the way I remember it, except that some of the Hightower papers are gone, the ones he was working on at home. The cases are scattered over the table; the laptop is at the edge. Even the dog hairs on the prayer rug are the same. It reminds me of Bernice. Where was she last night when he killed himself? Where was I, sound asleep?
Suddenly I hear a commotion in the outer office, then shouting. I rush to the door and see Artie shove Ben up against the wall, rattling a group portrait of the appeals court.
“Artie, stop it!” I shout, but Eletha’s already on the spot. She steps in front of Ben, shielding him with her body.
“He deserves it!” Artie says, his chest heaving in a thick sweatshirt. He stands over Ben, who begins to kack-kack-kack in his old man cough, rubbing his head where it hit the wall.
“Back off!” Eletha says, in a voice resonant with authority. A sense of order returns for a moment; Eletha is in charge and we are in chambers. The king is dead, long live the queen. Then it passes.
“Where have you been?” Sarah shouts at Ben, who struggles to his feet, hiding almost comically behind Eletha.
“Go to hell, Sarah. I pulled an all-nighter, so I slept in. Do I need your permission?”
“You worked all night? On what?”
“Germantown Savings. I wanted to finish it.”
“You didn’t hear the phone?”
“No.”
“The fuck you didn’t!” Sarah looks like she’s about to pick up where Artie left off and Eletha wilts between them, her strength spent.
“Okay, Sarah,” I say, “cool it. You want to talk to Ben, do it when you’re calmer.”
Her eyes flash with anger. “Playing Mommy again?”
“Yes, it comes naturally. Now go to your room. Time out until the press conference.” I point to the clerk’s office.
“Press conference?” Eletha says. “Who’s givin’ a press conference?”
I check the clock above the chambers door. “Susan is, in fifteen minutes.”
Eletha’s eyes threaten to tear up again. “How can she? Before Armen’s body is even cold.”
“It’s not like it’s so easy for her,” Sarah says defensively, “but she feels the need to explain. The public has the right to know.”
I feel my heart beat faster. “She’s going to explain why he committed suicide?”
“That’s what she told me on the phone.”
“It’s his business, not the public’s,” Ben says, smoothing his tie.
Eletha looks as surprised as I do. “But how does she know? There was no note.”
“She’s his wife, Eletha,” Sarah says.
His wife. The word digs at me inside. If he hadn’t died, they’d have filed for divorce. Today.
We gather around the old plastic television in the law clerks’ office, watching Senator Susan Waterman take her place at the podium. I suppress a twinge of jealousy and scan her face for a clue about what she’s going to say. Her stoic expression reveals nothing. She looks like a wan version of her academic image; her straight dark-blond hair, unfashionably long, is swept into a loose topknot, and her small, even features are pale, a telegenic contrast to the inky blackness of a knit suit.
“Ladies and gentlemen,” she says. She glances up from the podium, unaffected by the barrage of electronic flashes. “My husband, Chief Judge Armen Gregorian of the Third Circuit Court of Appeals, died this morning by his own hand, here in Philadelphia. He loved this city, even though it had not always been kind to him. Even though the press had not always been kind to him, and especially of late.” She glares collectively at the press, which dubbed the fierce expression “Susan’s stare” during her campaign.
“They’re all pricks,” Sarah says, but even she sounds spent.
Susan takes a sip of water. “My husband did not leave a note to explain his actions, but it is no mystery to me. Some are already saying he did it because of the press’s criticism of his liberal views, but I assure you that was not the reason. Armen was made of sterner stuff.” She manages a tight smile at the crowded room, having reprimanded and absolved them in one blow.
“I’ve heard others say it was because of the death penalty case he had to decide, and the stress and strain it may have caused him. It would break anyone, but not Armen Gregorian. He was made of sterner stuff.” She lifts her head higher, in tacit tribute. Eletha, in the chair next to me, squeezes my hand.
“On the surface, my husband had everything to live for,” Susan says. “He was the chief judge, and we had a wonderful, happy marriage that was a solid source of comfort and support to us both.”
What is she saying? They were on the brink of divorce.
“But my husband was Armenian. The genocide of the Armenian people is called the forgotten genocide. Most of his family was murdered. His mother survived, only to commit suicide herself. This month—April—is when Armenians remember their tragic history.” She looks around the room. “Like the Holocaust survivors who later died by their own hand, my husband was a victim of hate. Let us pause for a moment of silence to remember Armen Gregorian and to remember that the power of hate can destroy us if we do not fight against it.” The camera lingers on her bowed head.
Sarah begins to sob, and Artie hugs her close.
I lean back in my chair, as if pressed there by a gigantic weight. Armen told me about the genocide, though he didn’t tell me about his mother. But still, would he commit suicide because of it? That night? The genocide was on his mind, but so was Hightower. And me. I feel like crying, but the tears won’t come.
Neither will Ben’s. He looks knowingly at Sarah and Artie, cuddled together.
His dark eyes are bone dry.
6
Judge Galanter’s breath carries the harsh tang of Binaca. Cigar smoke clings to the fine wool of his double-breasted suit. His movements are deliberate and his speech formal, as if he were trying to control each syllable. I know as sure as he’s standing before us, flushed slightly in front of Armen’s desk, that Galanter has been drinking. It evokes another memory of my father, flitting like a ghost across my mind.
“You law clerks can stay on for a week or two,” he says.
“We hadn’t even thought about it,” Artie snaps from the doorway.
“I’ll attribute that crack to your extreme emotional distress, Mr. Weiss.”
Artie looks away from Galanter, out
the window. The courthouse flag flies at half mast, flapping in the wind that gusts off the Delaware River.
“Finish up the cases you’re working on. Draft the bench memos as before and hand them in to me. Argued cases will have to be reargued.” Galanter slides a gleaming Mont Blanc from his breast pocket and makes a check in a leather Filofax he’s holding like a missal. I can imagine what it says.
Things to do: Take over. Before noon.
“Next order of business. The office will have to be packed up. How much time will you need, Eletha?”
Eletha sits at the end of the conference table, fuming. “I would have to talk to Susan about that,” she says, crossing her slender arms across her chest.
“Senator Waterman? Already spoke with her. She said it’s up to you. Box the stuff and ship it to the house, she’ll go through it there. How long will it take you? I have to plan my own move.”
“You mean you’re takin’ this office?” Eletha asks.
Galanter jerks his chin upward, as if the folds of his turkey neck were pinched in his collar. “Of course, it’s the chief judge’s. I’d like to be in in two weeks. By the way, I understand the staff attorneys need an extra secretary, so there’s room for you there. Talk to Peter about that.” He makes another check in his Filofax, and Eletha breathes in and out, in and out.
“Judge,” I say. “I was wondering—”
“Of course. I forgot about you. They may need an extra staff attorney downstairs. You should apply. Part-time will be a problem, you’ll have to step up to a normal work week.”
“No. I wanted to ask about Hightower.”
He purses his thin lips. “I’ve reassigned it. The death warrant expires Monday, but we’ll have it decided well in advance.”
“Who was it reassigned to?”
“That information is strictly need-to-know. Did I mention the memorial service?” He shoots a questioning look at Ben, who’s standing against the bookshelves. Ben shakes his head discreetly.
“Not a high priority,” Artie says.
Galanter points at Artie with his pen. “Don’t test me, young man. I’ve just about had it with your lack of respect.”
“Respect?” Artie explodes. “Who are you to talk about respect? Armen just died and you can’t wait to take his office. Can’t wait!”
“Artie,” Sarah says nervously.
“Listen, you,” Galanter says, raising his voice. “This court has to maintain operations. We have a public trust.”
“Fuck you!” Artie shouts, almost in tears. He storms out of the room into his office and slams the door.
“I’ve never seen such conduct in a law clerk! Ever!” Galanter says.
“Judge Galanter.” I start talking, almost reflexively. “Artie and Armen were close. This is hard for him. For us all.” I hear an involuntary catch in my voice, but Galanter’s gaze is fixed in the direction of the clerks’ office. I feel a shiver of fear inside, from somewhere deep, but press it away. “You were saying, Judge, about the memorial service?”
Galanter looks down at me, still lost in his own anger. “What did you say?”
“The memorial service.”
“The memorial service? Oh, yes.” He exhales sharply, regaining control, and returns the pen to his breast pocket. “Memorial service. The day after tomorrow, Thursday. In the ceremonial courtroom. The time’s not fixed yet.”
“Have you heard about the funeral arrangements?”
“No idea. Senator Waterman said she’d call about that. Eletha, get me that memo I sent you.”
Eletha doesn’t move a muscle. “Memo? What memo, Judge?”
Galanter hasn’t drunk enough to miss the challenge in her manner. He tilts his head ever so slightly. “The one about the new sitting schedule. I sent it this morning, on E-mail.”
“I was busy this morning.”
“So was I. Get it now,” he says, staccato.
Eletha leaves the room. In a second she’s slamming her desk drawers unnecessarily.
Galanter hands me some papers from his book. “Xerox these for me and come right back.”
I take the papers and leave the office. When I open the door to the hallway, Eletha’s giving the finger to the wall.
I read the papers on the way to the Xerox machine. It’s a complete sitting schedule, with Armen’s initials crossed out next to his cases and a new judge’s written in. All of Armen’s cases, reassigned so fast it’d make your head spin.
READY TO COPY, the photocopier says. I open the heavy lid, slap the paper onto the glass, and hit the button. The light from the machine rolls calcium white across my face.
Suicide? I don’t understand. They were going to file for divorce, if what Armen said was true. I feel a pang of doubt; would Armen lie? Of course not. Afterward we talked for a long time, holding each other on the couch. He was an honest man, a wonderful man.
READY TO COPY. I hit the button. You don’t kill yourself just because you’re Armenian. Armen was a survivor. And he hated guns, was against keeping them in the house. Where did he get the gun?
READY TO COPY, says the machine again, but I’m not ready to copy. So much has happened. We found and lost each other in one night. I stare at the glass over the shadowy innards of the machine; all I see is my own confused reflection. What was that noise last night, and does it matter?
I turn around and look down the hall, but it’s empty. There are only two occupied judges’ chambers on this whole floor, ours and Galanter’s; the rest are vacant, the chambers of judges who sit nearer their homes in Wilmington and northern New Jersey. Only eleven people work on the entire floor.
Now it’s ten.
A boxy file cabinet sits against the wall next to the judges’ elevator. A few paces to the left is the door to the law clerks’ office. To the right, down the hall, are Galanter’s chambers.
Everything looks perfectly normal.
I step away from the machine and peer at the government-spec brown carpet. There’s nothing on the rug, no trace of anything. I straighten up, feeling stupid. What am I looking for, muddy footprints? Clothing fibers? What am I thinking? I shake my head and turn back to the Xerox machine.
ADD PAPER, it says. The words blink red, like the old pinball machines that go tilt.
Damn it. Why am I the only one who refills this thing? I look in the cabinet next to the machine for a ream of paper, but it’s empty except for the torn wrapper. The law clerks never pick up after themselves. I slam the cabinet door and walk down the hallway back to chambers.
Bbbzzzzzz goes the security camera, as I tramp angrily by.
Then it hits me. I do an about-face and look up at the camera. It’s black and boxy, and looks back at me like a mechanical vulture perched above the judges’ elevator.
The camera’s on all the time, monitored by the federal marshals. It saw everything that happened in the hall last night and probably recorded it, like at ATM machines.
It knows if anyone came into chambers and saw Armen and me together. And it knows who they are.
7
His breast pocket bears a plastic plate that says R. ARRINGTON over the shiny five-star badge of the marshal service. His frame is brawny in its official blue blazer, and his dark skin is slightly pitted up close. “Lunchtime!” I say to him, making an overstuffed tuna hoagie do the cha-cha with a chilly bottle of Snapple lemonade. “All this can be yours.”
He does not look impressed. “No can do, Grace.”
The hoagie and the lemonade jump up and down in frustration. “All I want is two minutes. I look at the monitors, then I’m outta there.”
“There’s twenty monitors, Grace,” he says, sighing deeply. Maryellen, the cashier in the building’s snack shop, cocks her head in our direction. She may be blind, but she’s not deaf. I decide to be more quiet.
“Come on, Ray. You said only one monitor shows our hallway. How long can it take to look at a monitor?”
He folds his thick arms. “Maybe if you tell me why this matters.”<
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I glance at the jurors behind us buying newspapers, gum, and fountain soda. The ice machine spits chunks into a tall paper cup, and a juror plays mix-and-match to find the right size lid. He’ll never find it; I never can, and I have a J.D. “Let’s just say I want to check security.”
“Come clean, Rossi.”
I consider this. Ray is one of the few marshals who liked Armen; he’s also one of the few African Americans, which I suspect is no coincidence. “Tell you what. Get me in. If it pays off, I’ll tell you why.”
“What am I supposed to tell the marshals?”
“What marshals? You’re the marshal.”
“I’m a CSO, technically. A court security officer. I mean the marshals watching the monitors.”
“Tell ’em I’m checking security, that I’m the administrative law clerk to the chief judge.”
“Grace.” His somber expression reminds me of something I’d rather not dwell on. Armen is gone.
“Forget it, I’ll tell them something. I’ll handle it. Just get me in, I’ll owe you. Big-time.”
Suddenly he snaps his fingers. “I know what you can do for me.”
“Anything.”
“You can introduce me to your fine friend, the lovely Eletha Staples.”
“Eletha? Don’t you know her?”
“I’ve been workin’ here as long as she has, but she won’t give me the time of day. She seein’ anybody?”
I think of Leon, Eletha’s boyfriend, who gives her nothing but grief. “No.”
“Hot dog!” He rubs his hands together; it makes a dry sound. “Lunch. I’ll start with lunch, take it nice and easy. Can you set it up?”
“Deal.” I set the tuna hoagie and Snapple on the counter in front of Maryellen. At the last minute, Ray tosses in two packs of chocolate Tastykakes.
“What are you having today, Grace?” Maryellen says. Her cloudy eyes veer wildly around the room.
“Thanksgiving dinner,” I say to her and she laughs.
After we leave the snack bar, Ray leads me through a labyrinth of hallways to the core of a secured part of the courthouse. It would have been impossible to find this myself, and when I reach the barred entrance I understand why.
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