GUN SHY
LILI ST. GERMAIN
CONTENTS
TITLE PAGE
Prologue
LEO
CASSIE
THE GIRL IN THE WINDOW
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER TWENTY
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
CHAPTER FORTY
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
ONE YEAR LATER
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
THE BOY IN THE BOX
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
CHAPTER FIFTY
CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
CHAPTER SIXTY
Epilogue
About Verona Blood
About the Author
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PROLOGUE
ONE
TWO
THREE
LOGO
GUN SHY is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
Copyright ⓒ 2017 by Lili St. Germain
All rights reserved.
Cover design by Kellie Dennis / Book Cover By Design
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ABOUT THIS BOOK
HAVE YOU SEEN THIS GIRL?
In the middle of a fierce snowstorm in Gun Creek, Nevada, a teenage girl disappears without a trace.
The second girl in nine years.
Identical cases. Identical conditions. Only last time, the girl was found. Dead, stuffed in a well beside the creek that feeds the town's water supply.
The killer was never found.
As the small town mobilizes and searches for newly vanished Jennifer Thomas, one suspect comes to the fore. But did he do it? Or is there something else at play? Something nobody could have anticipated?
For Jennifer's friend Cassie Carlino, the worst is yet to come. As she pins MISSING posters to store windows and joins the search, she begins to suspect that Jennifer's disappearance might be much closer to her than she could have ever imagined.
For my husband
“Will you walk into my parlor?” said the spider to the fly;
“’Tis the prettiest little parlor that ever you did spy.
The way into my parlor is up a winding stair,
And I have many pretty things to show when you are there.”
“O no, no,” said the little fly, “to ask me is in vain,
For who goes up your winding stair can ne’er come down again.”
* * *
- Mary Howitt
You would think that when you bury someone deep enough in the ground, you’d be able to keep them hidden. Smooth your shovel over fresh-tilled soil, compact it under your boots and pray nobody ever digs there.
But dirt doesn’t let you forget what lies beneath it. It keeps settling, leaving a hollow in the earth, a dip in the landscape that reminds you of the horror encased within. A hollow that demands to be filled until it rises up instead of curving down. You give it one body, then two, and still it hungers for more.
Lie down, Death whispers, greedy in its want, a faint rasp carried on a summer breeze.
Join me.
PROLOGUE
THE GIRL IN THE CREEK
LEO
NINE YEARS AGO
It’s not every morning you drink dead girl juice.
Wait. Let me explain.
It was the dog barking that woke me. Rox was our built-in security system, not that we had anything of real value to steal.
Technically, the five acres of rock and dirt that backed on to Gun Creek was owned by the State of Nevada. But in a dying town like ours, they didn’t exactly have a use for it.
The mayor of Gun Creek had been friends with my grandfather before he passed, and so he turned a blind eye to the double-wide and assorted makeshift dwellings that my family called home.
The fact that my mother also dabbled in meth production and small-time drug dealing made me realize, eventually, that the mayor’s eyes were being turned not with compassion, but with favors from mommy dearest.
I couldn’t think about that, though. My mother was a fuck-up who’d had too many kids to a somewhat questionable number of different daddies, but she was the only mother I had. I didn’t want to think about some greasy guy in a cheap suit putting his chubby hands on her.
“Rox!” I hissed at the dog through the narrow window, mindful not to wake my girlfriend.
Beside me, Cassie breathed long and even, her chest rising and falling in time. Her hair was covering her face, her expression weary even in sleep. I kept telling her she worked too much, but she just laughed and told me the more she worked, the faster we’d be out of this town. It was one of the reasons I loved her so much.
We’d both been raised to believe that we’d never get out of Gun Creek, but Cassie was smart. She had that spark inside her that matched mine. That’s how I knew, unequivocally, that we’d be the ones who got away.
It was peaceful inside my room. I’d built it myself when I was twelve from an old shipping container somebody had dumped on our property. It leaked in the winter and there were gaps where the corrugated steel sheets attached to the ground. I’d filled the gaps with expanding foam as best I could, but sometimes the mice still chewed through. My dog made quick meals of them if that happened. I didn’t mind the mice. They were less intrusive than my mother in her rotting double-wide up near the road.
Rubbing sleep from my eyes, I walked as quietly as possible from my bedroom to the kitchen. Loose definitions for one long, narrow space that was separated by a hanging bed sheet.
I’d been having a dream when Rox’s bark woke me, but I couldn’t remember it. I just knew that I felt antsy, and I needed to go and shut the goddamned dog up before Ma came down and started yelling.
I went to the makeshift sink, a metal bowl with a hole cut in the bottom that I’d plumbed in myself. It drew water directly from our well, so I didn’t need to pump water manually to make it flow. I even had a shower with heating that
I’d made from old PVC piping and plastic sheeting, lifted from the garage where I fixed cars after school for cash. That had come later when I’d decided that if Cassie were sleeping over, she should be able to wash up without having to go up to my mom’s trailer to do it.
I turned the tap on at the sink and filled up an old jam jar. My eyes itched - the pollen was off the charts and fucking brutal in the spring.
After setting the jar down, I splashed cool water on my face. The pipes inside the well made the water smell of metal sometimes, and today, especially so. Eyes itching considerably less, I turned off the water and reached for my jar.
I took an extra long drink of water. I can still taste it now, all these years later. Straight away I knew that something wasn’t right. The taste of rot and pennies filled my mouth, and I almost gagged.
What the …?
I held the clear jar up to the thin streak of sunlight coming through a crack in my homemade curtains. The water was a dirty rust color, still opaque, but stained like someone had taken a dropper of red ink and squeezed it into the liquid.
I looked at the small mirror I’d hung above the basin. My face looked kind of dirty, too. I grabbed an old T-shirt and wiped my face dry as best I could, Rox’s barking reaching fever pitch.
The fucking dog. The fucking well. Fucking all of it. I was so tired of living with shit that didn’t work properly, trash pieced together from more trash. When people looked at us, I know that’s what they saw — pieced together trash.
When I left Gun Creek, I was getting Cassie and I a real house. One with rooms and curtains and a real bathroom. A house without wheels underneath, without foam to seal up the fucking gaps. A house with a proper front door, painted her favorite color, blue.
Winter might have been months gone, but the mornings here still chilled your bones. I hopped into a pair of jeans and threw on a hoodie, unlocking and opening the door as quietly as I could. It creaked in response. I made a mental note to get oil for the hinges.
Rox wagged her tail, curling her body sideways as she made her way towards me, her head and her back end pointing at me as she did her dog version of an excited crab walk.
“Hey, girl,” I murmured, putting my palm out for her. She licked it, right in the center, and when she pulled her pink tongue away, the skin there turned cold.
“What’s up, Rox?” I asked quietly, scratching behind her ear. Rox was a mutt, motley-colored and missing one eye, but she was sharp as a tack. She whined a little, running off in the direction of the well.
I had to check the damned thing anyway. Might as well follow her lead. I backed up a few steps, slipping back inside to grab a flashlight from the ledge I’d built next to the door. Stupid well was always clogging up. That’s the thing about living illegally on land you don’t own — water isn’t exactly an automatic thing to come by, even when you live right near a creek.
I picked my way down the stony sand path that led to the well, the dirty taste still in my mouth. I zipped my hoodie up over my chilled skin as I walked, my feet complaining loudly. Should’ve worn my boots, I thought, but I was too lazy to turn back.
I was three steps away from the well when I heard a twig snap behind me. I jumped, turning quickly, gripping my Maglite tightly and bracing.
Oh. Damn. I saw Cass, shielding her eyes from the flashlight I was shining in her direction as she stood, bleary-eyed and wearing my old snow jacket over the oversized football jersey of mine she insisted on sleeping in. She’d slipped her feet into my boots, far too big for her, so when she walked she had to kind of drag her feet.
“Hey,” I said softly. Sometimes it made my chest hurt when I thought about how much I loved her. Especially in the morning, when she was tired and warm and bleary-eyed.
“Come back to bed,” she murmured, her voice still full of sleep.
She looked fucking adorable. I didn’t want to be out fixing the well. I wanted to be back in bed with her.
I walked over to her, Rox momentarily forgotten. “The well’s backed up again,” I said, planting a kiss on her cheek. She turned her face, going for the lips, but I leaned back, covering my mouth.
“No,” I said, jerking my thumb back toward the well. “I’m pretty sure I just drank dead mouse water.” I didn’t mention that it was probably something bigger than a mouse. Girls hate stuff like that.
“Eww,” Cass said, wrinkling her nose up. “Brush your teeth before you get the plague or something.”
I laughed, turning back to the well. Fifty feet or so and I was there, bracing myself and holding my breath as I lifted up the lid. The water had been fine the day before, so the dead thing must have been pretty recent.
I folded the heavy wooden lid back on its hinge and peered inside. The sides of the well were made from stone, and cold stale air rose up to greet my face. I shivered, my flashlight landing on something large and unmoving as Cass came to a standstill beside me.
Shit.
It wasn’t a mouse. It wasn’t a raccoon, either. It might be a fucking dog. A small calf. I thought of my younger brothers, little band of shitheads they could be, and wondered what accident they’d tried to hide in the well.
Course, when you were six or seven years old, you didn’t understand that by killing animals from neighboring farms, you were marking yourself as a potential serial killer. The triplets, we called them, because there were three of them. Matty was five, Richie was six, and Beau was seven. They loved to break shit, kill shit, steal shit, and then lie about it.
My mom excelled at breeding. She’d really hit her stride when she met the triplets’ father and banged out three in as many years before he OD’d in her bed and she left his corpse tangled in her bedsheets for three days thinking he was asleep.
My mom was fucking crazy.
Hence having my own makeshift room, as far away from her as I could get.
“It’s something big,” I said to Cass. Her cheery demeanor quieted a little. When we were talking about things stuck down wells, big was more serious than small.
“You think—”
I knew what she was thinking. Her mind always went to the worst possibility.
“Nah,” I said, shaking my head. “Definitely not. Not big enough. I bet you anything those little shitheads killed something and threw it down here.”
Cassie opened her mouth to say something and then closed it again. “You can shower at my house?” she said, her tone trying to be helpful, as though we could just shut the well and be done with it.
I was the oldest. I was the man of the house. It was my responsibility.
“We need water,” I said. “They all need water.”
“You want me to try lowering you down?” she asked dubiously. I shook my head. We both knew she was too small to bear my weight.
“Get Pike,” I said, flicking the flashlight off. “I can climb down there okay, but he needs to hoist me back up.”
She nodded, standing on her tiptoes to kiss my cheek. I remembered again that I’d washed my face with the dirty water. Gross. After I fixed this, I was going to run the water clear and have a scalding hot shower for like, three hours.
“Be careful,” Cass murmured. “You know what, just wait. I’ll get Pike and we can both lower you down with the rope. Last thing we need is you breaking an ankle before football finals.”
Cass was going to get out of Gun Creek based on her smarts, and I was going to get out based on my athletic abilities. Old Tanner Bentley may not have gifted my brother and I with money or any kind of upbringing. However, he had passed down to me his ability to smash anyone I was up against in football. Cass and I were scholarship bound, baby. We were on our way.
I stood there for a moment as I watched Cass disappear up to the main trailer. I was impatient, my major downfall in life. I never could wait around for anything the way I should.
I should have waited like she said, but I couldn’t be bothered. I’d climb down, bracing my bare feet against the rock walls like I’d done countless t
imes as a kid. I’d fix the problem, save the day, and then they’d bring me back up in a few minutes. Hot showers for all. And after I was clean, after I’d scrubbed my skin and my teeth clean, I’d take Cassie into the shower with me.
I swung a leg over the lip of the well and got a good grip with my hands. Then I inched one leg down, the flashlight under one arm and my feet better than any rock climbing shoe as I shimmied down.
The problem wasn’t getting into the well because the rocks were relatively dry up top near the surface. It was getting out, because once you were down the bottom, the rocks became smooth and wet, and it was impossible to gain purchase against them.
Once you were in the well, you were in.
Still, how bad could it be? Whatever was down there smelled, so it was dead, and therefore it couldn’t hurt me. That was the logic I applied, anyway.
I gripped my feet against the rocks, my heart rate accelerating as I got closer to the dark lump of something in the bottom. Whatever it was, was against one wall, so I made my way down and winced as my feet touched freezing cold water. It came up to my ankles, sloshing about as I kept the flashlight gripped tightly under my arm. If I dropped it, I’d be screwed.
The smell down here wasn’t as bad for some reason. It was as if the water had absorbed some of the scent and the rest had risen, bilious gases searching for freedom outside the confines of the narrow stone walls. But despite the smell improving, the feeling in my stomach only got worse.
My skin crawled as I tried not to think about what was in the water, my teeth clenched tight as I braced my bare feet on the bottom of the well and took the flashlight in hand, aiming it at the mysterious lump.
For a moment, I couldn’t figure out what I was looking at. Dark hair. Blood. A dog? I’d been expecting a dog. Those fucking brothers of mine had killed a dog before, last summer, slit the poor Labrador’s throat and dumped it in the creek.
The thing in front of me wasn’t a dog.
It was a girl.
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