When I was in junior high I had a fantasy of breaking him free, bringing him to my school, and letting him go to town on all the teachers who made me talk in class, and possibly break the windows. Then we’d run off for New York or something, and I’d be a famous actress while he leaned back in the darkest balcony box and watched me. We’d spend the long hours of the night at private parties, the toast of the town. And all day we’d sleep in a quiet, dark room, waiting for the sun to go down again.
It was the only way I made it through Spanish class.
. . .
“What do you want?” I ask him.
He doesn’t reply except to sigh very softly. I can smell the blood on his breath and see a small streak of it at the edge of his bottom lip. It’s not as overwhelming as it was upstairs, when I first took the Tupperware out of the microwave, but I still don’t like it.
I rephrase. “What do you want from me?”
“To go with you.”
My very first instinct is to go to the workbench and get the key. To free him. I don’t, of course, but I try not to ignore my instincts. Sophomore year, somebody told me to always go with my first guess on multiple-choice tests, and after that my grades improved noticeably.
I tighten my hands around his. “And then what?”
“Carefree nights and peaceful days?” he says with a smile.
I back away step by step. I’m off the carpet, and the concrete is rough under my toes. Like I’m five again.
“Let me tell you a secret, sunshine,” he whispers, leaning against the bars. His cheek presses into one, and he wraps his arms casually around it and folds his hands together. “An imprisoned vampire is good luck.”
“I know.”
“But.” He holds up one finger, the one he uses to feed himself. “A willing vampire—ah, sunshine, a willing vampire is what Washington had. What Charlemagne had. Elizabeth. Cleopatra—she got one from Caesar.”
I don’t know if I believe him. I want to. I imagine him again in new, clean clothes. Clothes he chose for himself. “I don’t want to be those people.”
“You wouldn’t have to be. Hundreds of people you’ve never heard of made friends of us, too.”
He could have killed me so easily, anytime over the last twelve years. He hadn’t. Did that mean I could trust him? Or was he only biding his time for this very moment? Waiting, because to him twelve years was nothing.
My brain—my dad’s voice—is screaming at me to go back upstairs. But the rest of me wants to know. Wants to know if he was my friend. Wants to know if I was his friend. Because if I am, wouldn’t I free him?
If I run upstairs, I’m using him. Just like Dad.
If I let him out, he might kill me. Kill my family. Everyone on the block, everyone in the city for all I knew.
If I run, I am afraid.
If I stay, I risk everything just to prove to myself what I am.
“Nicole.”
I blink. I’d been staring at him so long the light shoving through the slats of the window is strong and bright. Saxon stands unmoved, caught between the light from the window and the red light of the basement.
I walk into the sunlight and pick the key up off the worktable.
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A MURDER OF GODS
by Maggie Stiefvater
One of the things I’m most envious of is Maggie’s ability to create these sprawling ensemble casts, filled with light and texture and noise, and all the players still fully differentiated. This is a story characterized by disillusionment and snarkiness, but it’s also very tender. Despite the overarching presence of the gods, at the core this is a very human story. And I like that, too. (I like it most of all.) —Brenna
I’ll confess that I had only two things in mind when I began this story: writing a story with loads and loads of characters, and writing about fire. I’m ashamed to admit a lot of my stories begin with either one or the other of these. I can see hints of my current novel project whispered in this story, too, which was entirely unplanned. The seemingly ordinary narrator’s position as the voice of reason, Grin’s wanting to know where he fits in with this world—these are themes that I blew up and studied harder in my current novel. —Maggie
You would think that in a world full of normal people, freaks would be kind to other freaks. But Finndabar, which at its core is a school for freaks, proves this wrong. Rather than being sensitive to one another’s differences, the student body uses them for lunchroom entertainment. And believe me, when you have a student body like Finndabar’s, there is plenty to be entertained by.
There’s Stronghand Pol, whose left hand is twice the size of his right and can crush rocks. You can guess what else people talk about it crushing. The poor guy can’t even go to the bathroom without people asking if he and his hand were getting a little alone time. And then Merilyn, who has the head of a donkey but the body of a vestal virgin. She also can make inanimate objects sing, but that’s not what’s brought up in the lunchroom. “Assface” is. Then there’s Fergus, who can turn anything to gold with a single touch of his bare skin. While he’s struggling to open his pudding with his gloved fingers, people ask him what he’s “blinged” lately. We’re a strange bunch, to be sure, with the power of untrained gods, the faces of angels, and the raging hormones of a herd of teenage Justin Timberlake fans.
I wonder what you call a group of children of the gods. “Herd” really is too innocuous. I know a group of jellyfish is called a smack. I think that’s a lot closer.
The only one who doesn’t talk smack to the freaks is me, which is ironic, because I am the only one who seems to be pretty normal. Unlike Rjork, I don’t call down thunderstorms in the boys’ bathroom. Nor do I change forms when I get angry like Fionnuala. I don’t have to eat my weight in eggs every day like Ben, either. I’m just me—probably the product of a pairing between a clueless mortal man and a nymph lacking in maternal instincts. No one here knows who their parents really were—only that at least one of them was of the supernatural variety.
It’s not like it keeps me up nights.
It’s a fun life, for the most part, here at Finndabar, though it’s a bit dangerous. Every so often one of us accidentally kills one of the teachers or one of the other students. We never really forget that’s why we’re here.
But that doesn’t really keep me up nights, either. Most nights.
. . .
Lunchroom. It’s sort of the meeting place for all of the students, no matter what time of day it is. It’s a modest name for a rather awe-inspiring room. All of Finndabar is made up of old churches—structures that were condemned because of disrepair or doomed because of their location right in the middle of a future superhighway. The churches were shipped in bits and pieces and then cobbled together into a massive, star-shaped piece of irony with the separate “houses” on each point of the star.
The lunchroom has the highest ceiling of the entire building; it’s an old cathedral with a deep, brilliantly blue ceiling interrupted by vividly yellow ribs. The slender, pointed windows that stretch over our heads always remind me of really tall women for some reason, hands folded on their chests.
In the morning, when the students were laughing and chattering sleepily over breakfast, the entire school seemed benign and beautiful. Maybe a flock. A flock of gods’ children.
A few tables over, Grin Andersson was snapping his fingers, watching the flame that gathered on the tips of his thumb and forefinger in a rather bored way. He looked through the fire to where I sat and extinguished the flame. Abandoning his table of minions, he sat on the table next to my plate, making the old table surface creak and lean towards him.
“Good morning, Helen,” he said with a grin. He always said my name with an emphasis on “hell.”
I glanced up at his freckled face, his wide smirk of a grin underneath hard blue eyes and a riot of red hair. “Good morning, Grin.”
“Care to join me at the fun table?” He scrubbed his thumb lightly acr
oss the table surface beside him, leaving behind a black singe mark, before jerking his chin in the direction from which he’d come.
“No, thanks. I’m busy being an island of sanity in a sea of utter madness,” I said, shoveling a mouthful of tapioca pudding into my mouth. You had to give it to Finndabar’s: they had really good tapioca pudding.
“Don’t I know it,” Grin replied. “But we could use some sanity over there. We were just talking about what a danger to society we all were.”
I looked up at Grin, a bit longer this time. There was always something about him that put me ill at ease. Something about just how damn alive he was that made me feel like I was an underachiever. “I’m just trying to eat my pudding,” I said.
“It’s exceptional pudding,” he agreed, still smiling. “I was just telling Professor Lansing the other day how exceptional the pudding is here. I wonder where they get it. I’d like to go shopping for it some time. I was thinking of asking Lansing about it.”
“Now you’re just being wrong in the head,” I said. “Do you mean leave the school grounds?”
“Supervised,” Grin said. “Just a few students at a time. Just to see what it’s like.”
I put my spoon down. “And the first time one of us accidentally maims another shopper because we lean over to pick up a cantaloupe and shoot lightning bolts out our ass, the government will come in and have us all killed.”
Grin’s smile was painted on top of a face that was something entirely different. “This is why we need you at the table, Helen. See, I knew you would be the voice of reason.”
“Don’t I know it,” I said. “Now can I just finish my pudding?”
He made a little gesture like he was tipping a hat to me and retreated back to his own table. Later during breakfast, one of the juniors turned into a goat and ran through the breakfast bar, splattering pudding everywhere, and pretty much proved my point, I thought.
. . .
As the student resident advisor of my house, I get a room of my own, which is a rarity. It’s not big—just a tiny, wood-paneled room that used to be a confessional—but it’s quiet and it’s my own, which is important. I keep my door open until 10 P.M. in case any of the students in the house need my help for anything, and in reality, my room is usually occupied by at least two others until almost 11.
Tonight it was Minerva, a beautiful girl who looked nearly normal but for her four arms and long, long fingernails. She sat on the end of my bed, looking at the pictures on my walls and hugging her arms around herself.
“What happens to us after Finndabar?” she asked. “Do we graduate? Do we leave?”
“I don’t know,” I said. I handed her a cup of tea and sat down on the chair by the desk opposite the bed. The room was so small that my knees were nearly touching Minerva’s. “Do you want to leave?”
Minerva stared into the cup of tea. It was black, but not as black as her eyes were. They were wells of darkness, her eyes. It was unnerving, the pupil that covered the entire surface of her eye, until you got used to it. Her long nails tapped, tapped, tapped on the edge of the cup, and she didn’t drink it. “I’m getting so hungry, Helen,” she said, finally.
I didn’t say anything, because I sensed she wasn’t done. I just drank my tea and waited.
“I’m so hungry,” she said again. “I think I am hungry for the souls of men.”
“Oh, Min,” I said, and put down my teacup. I took hers, because she clearly wasn’t going to drink it, and I rubbed her cold hands in mine. I couldn’t offer her what she wanted, and I couldn’t tell her that she’d be free to go when she hit eighteen. “Let’s go watch Sleepless in Seattle.”
“Thank you,” Minerva said. I gathered other students on the way down to the media room, students who were listless or fighting or bored, and together we watched Sleepless in Seattle, and I didn’t get back to my quiet room until eleven.
. . .
“How does this work?”
I jerked awake, my eyes seeing nothing but darkness and the glowing green numbers of my alarm clock: 1:30 A.M.
“Do I just tell you what the problem is, and you make me feel better?”
I sat up slowly, disoriented in the darkness. I knew who the voice belonged to: not a member of my house, but familiar nonetheless.
“Turn on the light,” I said. “I can’t think with the light off.”
Grin lightly clapped his hands together, and a moment later light flickered into the room. I saw him on the end of my bed, his hands spread like a book in his lap, flames flickering in his palms.
“I mean the real light. Put that out before you burn off your dick,” I said.
“I didn’t know you cared what happened to it,” he replied.
I didn’t bother to dignify his comment with a response. I reached over and clicked on my dim bedside light as he closed his hands together, extinguishing the light. He looked pale underneath his freckles.
“I don’t suppose I have to tell you how much trouble you’d be in if you were found out of your house,” I said. “And in my room, to boot.”
“No, you don’t.”
“Okay then, talk. What made you come over here instead of talking to your own resident?”
Like all of the students who came into my room, he looked at the pictures on my walls. Photographs and magazine images: the turquoise sea and a tangerine sun above it. White beaches and white cliffs. Twisty trees ripe with fruit and olives.
“Because you’re clever, Helen,” he said, head tilted back to look at the wall better. He stood up, my bed rocking precariously, so that he stood face-to-face with an image of a sailboat bent low over a sapphire ocean. “Because we’re too busy being monsters to use our brains.”
He traced the line of the sail and I winced, remembering the singe mark on the breakfast table. But the paper remained unmarked beneath his careful touch. “What are these things, Helen? Do you wish you could go to these places?”
“I thought you came to talk about you,” I said.
“I didn’t say that,” Grin said, putting his hands in the pockets of his cargo pants and still carefully studying the photos instead of me.
“Yes, you did,” I replied. “You said you had a problem.”
Grin didn’t say anything, and it struck me that the line of his shoulders looked some-how vulnerable, in comparison to his usual cocky stance. I let my voice soften, just a touch. “Grin, you risked a lot to come over here. Just tell me what I can do.”
He turned to look at me, still standing, the light from below throwing strange shadows across his face. “I’d like to know who my parents are.”
I didn’t say anything. Not because he had more to say, but because I didn’t know what to say to that.
“I think we should have at least that,” he said. “If we have to stay here and we can’t leave, even for a few hours, and this is our whole life, then we should at least have that. We should at least know where we came from, even if we’re never going anywhere.”
“What do you want me to say?” I asked.
“I want you to say what you always say. That it’s stupid and that I should forget about it because it would cause more problems than it would solve. I want you to be the voice of reason, Helen, like you always are.”
I was surprised that he thought of me that way. Not as a wet blanket. “I don’t know,” I said, shrugging. “I really don’t see how that could cause us harm. I think that’s a fair question.”
He sat down in front of me again, blue eyes staring into mine so intensely that I was afraid he would see just how badly I, too, wanted to know who my parents were. Why I was here when I didn’t light fires with my hands or turn things to gold or turn into a goat.
“Okay then,” he said. “Okay, I’ll ask.”
He seemed about to say something else, but he just said, “Okay then,” again.
“Good luck,” I told him.
. . .
Because of our class schedule, I didn’t see Grin until dinnertime
the next day. He sat at a table by himself, no food in front of him, elbows on the table, just staring down. One fist clenched and unclenched, over and over again. I didn’t have to know what had happened. He’d asked.
What did I think would happen? I felt bad for not advising against it.
I would’ve gone to him, but my table was swamped with juniors having hissy fits over the new sofa placement in our house common room. And by the time I had settled them and gotten up, Grin was gone. For some reason, all I could think about was the longing way he had drawn a finger across the sail in my favorite photograph.
. . .
I awoke to the sound of screaming and the ground surging beneath me. It turned out to be just my housemates leaping on my bed—but the screaming was real.
“Helen!” shouted Hera, one of the younger nymph daughters who always smelled of fish. “Locke House is burning!”
My gut dropped out from under me, and I scrambled around in my bed to look out the tiny window across the courtyard.
In the night sky, orange and red burned the darkness away, smoke scudding across the courtyard between the houses. I saw teachers knotted in the smoke, getting hoses organized, and Illia, who had a talent with vomiting water, making his long-legged way across the lawn. Evacuated students from Locke drifted back and forth like a school of fish, following each other’s lead. Leaping out of bed, I told the girls to pay attention to the teachers if they told us to evacuate, and then I bolted down the halls, intent on making my way to Locke House.
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