She Wolf and Cub
by Lillith Saintcrow
Copyright © 2017 Lillith Saintcrow
All rights reserved.
Cover illustration by Galen Dara
Cover and interior design by Pablo Defendini
Edited by Brian J. White
All characters and events in this book are fictitious.
Any resemblance to persons living or dead is coincidental.
Published by Fireside Fiction Company,
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ISBN: 978-0-9861040-8-4
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Prologue
Maternal Type
The bar was dim, full of fauxsmoke. Modern ersatz cigs don’t kill you like the old ones, and synthetic liquor doesn’t bite either. Everything’s cushioned, to keep warmbodies from hurting themselves.
In return, they keep their heads down and their shoulders to the wheel. So do we.
Across from me, wheat-haired Sam slumped, staring at the amber fluid in his glass as if the ice cubes were going to suddenly spell out a message from on high.
Maybe they were. His washed-out gray eyes shone briefly, a reflection of blue neon. The iris pigments have to be original, for some reason nanos won’t touch them. Still, within certain canons, you can get what you want once you’re implemented. You can be striking, but not distinctive.
“Do this,” he said finally, “and you’ll be quits.”
I blinked at the picture. Nice-looking kid, maybe eight or nine, an engaging gap-toothed smile and a big, vertical, surgical scar on his chin. Thick dark hair cut straight across his forehead. He was frowning slightly, not looking into the camera, everything around him blurred. Telephoto, probably, and black and white.
Color exposes things. Like the shadow on the kid’s cheek. Bruise or dirt or something else. Didn’t matter. Not to me, or so I told myself.
Paper’s still best for this kind of work. The glorious future’s swimming in it, even if it’s made from reshuffled organic waste instead of precious tree fibers. It burns, and then it’s deleted. Not like anything electronic. Convenience means trackability.
I slid the glossy 8x10 back into the envelope. “What is this shit?”
Fauxsmoke fug made a good frame for Sam’s head. “Control knows your feelings. They’re prepared to do certain things to overcome them.”
No reason to take kid jobs, that’s my personal view. Stay in the shadows and stay out of the under-18 pool, that’s just good business sense, in love, war, work, what-have-you. Having rules is dangerous — you start following the rule instead of thinking — but at the same time, you need some guides when you’re a liquidator or you go right off the rails.
A fully-implemented agent going off the rails is just begging for Dismissal. So you just put your nice, technologically redone, almost-invulnerable skull down and do what they want. It’s the safest course.
“There is no overcoming my feelings.” I slid the envelope across the table; it bumped the bottom of his sweating drink. His lips thinned. “There are agents who don’t mind that work. I do.”
“Triple your fee, and quits. Or you can move into Facilitation.”
“I don’t want a desk job.” I didn’t add the codicil. And I don’t owe you or the Agency anything.
Not that “owe” really entered into it. “Own,” on the other hand, did. Such a tiny change, one little letter, and you had unvarnished truth. I’d figured that out on my own, smart girl that I am.
“Clean slate. Untraceable identity.”
“Please.” How untraceable, if you’re giving it to me? You think I’m stupid? “I said no, Sam.”
I don’t know if Sam is his name. I picked it because I had to call him something, just like he picked a name for me, and he’d been my handler ever since the Agency decided I was indeed useful enough to warrant the cost of implementation.
I wondered how many other agents he had. Sometimes.
He looks so average, Sam’s the only name that applies. Not Joe, because Joe Smith, really? Not John, because that’s so Freudian. But Sam Smith? The alliteration makes a good peg to hang him on.
“Jess.” He even said it kindly, staring at his glass. “You can’t say no.”
Referring to me that way instead of with a number, or as Agent. Interesting.
Heartbeat, respiration, glandular balance all stayed the same. My glucose uptake spiked a little, the brain inside its lovely indestructible casing perking up. Galvanic skin response stayed flatline, though. Full implementation gives you near-perfect control over the body’s autonomic. You have to start watching for psychological “tells” instead of physiological ones.
Dear old Sammy, fully implemented too, was flatline as well. After you’re redone, well, you’re just the messenger. Doesn’t pay to shoot you, though they pretty much always try. Doesn’t pay to kick, because the Agency always kicks harder. Doesn’t pay to do anything but toe the line, ride the rail, nod and yessir, grin and bear it.
“I don’t do kids.” It surprised even me. For one thing, I’d used audible communication instead of the subvocal grumble that’s standard for meets. For another, I put a finger on the envelope and shoved it, again, the sturdy wet paper crinkling a little as it pushed his glass. Another fractional application of force, and the drink would end up in his lap.
Unless implemented reflexes kicked in.
“Keep it down.” He stayed subvocal, and that irritated me.
Audible again, this time consciously. “Is this how you got into Facilitation?”
“None of your business.”
Score one for me, I’d forced him to shift to audible too. Bonus, he even looked irritated. I decided against dumping his drink in his lap. “There are other agents.” There are always other agents.
A shrug. He spread his hands on the tabletop, nice manicured fingernails, cared for but not overly femme. Everything in moderation. It was probably why he was in Facilitation instead of actual work.
“Control decided on you.” I’m just passing the news along, his tone said, plainly. Don’t get irrational. “Refusal will mean Dismissal.”
“You’re not serious.” Sometimes, you just have to take refuge in cliché.
“Sadly, yes.” As if he was anything else, ever.
I settled back in my chair. Looked out over the restaurant again, with its checkered tablecloths and its smells of ersatz and human sweat.
It would do no good to rip his head off right now. He would just get reattached, unless I dropped it in a vat of something corrosive enough. Even if I did, it would only buy me a little time. They could broadcast a killcode; I wasn’t stupid enough to think we’d found every implanted dismiss switch in my reinforced bones and enhanced muscles.
Even if I had, there would be operatives after me, the whole City would be a trap, and it wouldn’t be personal.
Nothing ever is.
“Why?” It surprised me, hearing the unanswerable come out of my own mouth. I hadn’t asked such a stupid question since my intake interview, back when I was a frightened little warmbody. “I mean, why this kid? What about his parents?”
Sam sighed. He reached up and pinched the bridge of his completely nondescript nose. It was by far the most emotion he’d ever shown.
Then he told me.
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I started laughing. Audibly. Loud enough that a couple smoke-puffing warmbodies eating late lunch or early dinner glanced in our direction, incuriously. The vapor probably deadened the taste of sythprotein.
I’d like to say it was then I decided, but I’d be lying. When I took the job, I had every intention of seeing it through.
* * *
The first step is always to watch. Some fully-implemented assholes think practically indestructible means run in like an idiot and waste resources — not just ammunition but time, effort, emotion.
Just because you can control the autonomics doesn’t mean you don’t feel anything. I wish they would’ve told me that when I “volunteered” for the process. Then again, I wouldn’t have cared — I had to get out of the Projekts, and quick. I look and sound nothing like I did, but every time I venture into the crumbling concrete tenements I have to clamp a subroutine over my heartrate, so I don’t end up feeling young, warmbodied, and terrified all over again.
This wasn’t the Projekts, though. This was a nice suburban Ring street, live trees and all. Static gens on each corner to keep the air a little cleaner, so the greenery didn’t bend and die under a choking layer of ground-smog. The houses had permabrick faces; it took serious money to look like the antique middle class nowadays. This entire neighborhood was joint-corporate-owned, what they used to call company housing. The houses don’t all look the same, but the differences were all of the same kind.
The kid’s house was middle of the block. I settled across the street, in a hypergrown tree — it looked like a birch crossed with something, but I didn’t bother to test its helix to find out. My camosuit matched its shifting shades, but I might as well have been naked. Precious few warmbodies think to look up. The permanently cloudy bowl of the City’s sky isn’t very attractive. Some said that out in the Waste there’s desert sunshine, but I didn’t know.
Not then.
A sleek silver railbus paused at the corner. A gaggle of schoolkids, all in corporate uniform, tumbled out. Navy blazers, the crest of their parents’ corp owners stitched in shimmerthread, trousers for boys and plaid skorts for girls. The A-gens were already the loudest, each one with a coterie of Bs taking their cues from the dominants. The rest fell elsewhere on the scale, gamma, epsilon, but there was one they all avoided — a thin, gangly kid with a cap of dark hair and a NifulCorp badge on his blazer.
The camosuit ruffled, having to work a little harder because I’d gone too still. My instinctive shifting, mimicking the tree’s motion as an unsteady breeze flirted with its force-grown green branches, had paused.
Was it then? Every once in a while I replay the moment, searching for an internal seismic event. I don’t know, even now. I watched, now making fractional movements with the tree, as one of the A-gens shouted at the dark-haired boy.
“Scar-face!” The A-gen, a freckle-faced redhead who had probably just squeaked past the border into management material, added a few more. ”Retard! Freak!” The taunts flew with a snatched-up stone.
The dark-haired kid’s head snapped aside. I lifted the nocs, carefully, swept the entire group of kids. Some of the Bs blanched, the other kids shied away, and one of the other As — a girl with long light platinum hair that had to have been coded in — made a face. I read her lips. Leave him alone, Croy.
Croy didn’t think so. “Got a girlfriend, freak?”
A thread of bright crimson traced down the kid’s cheek. His eyes were big and bright, and the hate in them was clearly visible. Or maybe I was just projecting, because I would have fought back, even at that tender age.
This kid didn’t. He just hitched his backpack up and trudged down the street, away from the now-laughing group of B-gens around Croy the redhead.
I dropped the nocs. They dangled against my chest. Huh. NifulCorp was heavy-duty genetics, they worked hand in glove with the Agency on some aspects of implementation. They also did a lot of embryonic coding, building better babies for those who could afford them. Nothing like a good solid legal coding to set your child off on the right foot — or an expensive and technically illegal one if you wanted said kid to have a leg up.
A couple more pebbles hit the sidewalk behind the dark-haired boy, with desultory clipping sounds. He put his head down, thin shoulders slumping. The posture should have shouted victim. Unfortunately, there was a certain arrogance to it, probably fuel to the fire when facing unsteady A-gens.
Scuffed brogans, frayed hems on his trouser-legs, his collar was shabby and his blazer worn at the elbows. Puzzling. The kid was a significant investment, and they let him run around like this?
Investment or not, I had a job to do. It wouldn’t take much time at all. Could have done it already, if I’d wanted to make a scene. But no, quick and relatively quiet was the order.
He climbed the steps, head still down, and put his thumb on the printlock. I heard the click all the way across the street, my senses dialed up and pinpointed. Croy was still loafing at the end of the block with his coterie, laughing loudly. The others had begun to peel away in smaller groups, only the closest in status or relationship to the A-gens walking with them. The platinum girl flipped her hair pertly over her shoulder, a nice balanced group of Bs buzzing around her. She’d probably breezed right through the initial dominance tests.
“Geoffrey.” His name, breathed out subvocally. I almost twitched, not realizing it had come from me.
The kid couldn’t have heard, but he halted as the doorlocks chucked open in response to the printlock’s nudging, and looked over his shoulder.
Those eyes. Huge, and dark, and…
What? Haunted? That was absurd. There was no such thing.
Of course, there was no such thing as him, either. Yet there he was, in broad, even if UV-free, daylight, that scar on his chin quivering a little. Why hadn’t they reconstructed it better? They had the tech, and if he was what Sam had said, a creature right out of sims and fairytales, this made no sense.
I was thinking too much. I should have just done it then.
Instead, I went to see Barlowe.
* * *
Pop-fizzing of static-laden gunfire, lots of cheap blue neon, the smog close and choking building a layer of grime on all surfaces. Everyone who can afford them wears nasal filters. It makes the Projekts a land of silver-proboscis insects, hurrying back and forth, ducking when flying ammunition passes overhead like a wave. Rooftops belong to druglords and runners, whole wars fought over certain streets or desirable vantage points.
Agents don’t need filters. Still, every time I ventured into the Projekts, I wore them, partly to fit in and partly because, well, why make it harder on the nanos? They recharge themselves, renew the body, they’re every little practically-immortal’s helper, and after a while I felt pretty protective of mine. I’m just a skin sack for the whole beneficial colony to carry itself around, but still.
The Agency can’t broadcast a killcode to your own nanos, the survival imperative’s too strong. So it was the implanted dismiss switches, and scans could find most of those suckers, even the most ingeniously-hidden. Of course, more could be inserted, if you got maintenance or reworking. A lot of agents figure, oh well, the Agency keeps you in the red as a matter of course, might as well get upgraded and add to your debt.
Stupid.
Barlowe had deactivated a clutch of hidden switches I didn’t know existed inside my flesh, and I paid him untraceable hard bitcoin and information for the service. Still, he survived in the Projekts. It would be idiotic to not leave a few in me, just for insurance.
I hunched my shoulders and hurried along, mimicking the crowd’s flow. Dirt-colored caftan, grime smeared on my face, the corroded silver glints of new nasal filters reworked to seem old, I was just another anonymous hustling bit of scurryware. I surfaced at the Rawlin Ave. station and kept working my way, meandering, to Cirquit Quartah. There wasn’t any point in going directly to him. Make every move as if you’re being tracked, that’s just good tactics.
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p; It makes the times you slip the leash and drop off the grid much better. Sometimes I even do it randomly, sometimes I do it and pop up in the same place. If the Agency is watching I want to be normal. No agent ever goes without breaking the leash a few times, or trying to.
Every agent has shadowside contacts. If you stuck to only the official ones you’d be Dismissed for ineffectiveness soon enough. Barlowe, though, wasn’t quite officially unofficial enough.
For one thing, I wasn’t sure who owned him. A couple corporations thought they did, but the more I dug — oh, very carefully, respectfully, to be sure — the less I knew. If he wasn’t owned, or if he was only slightly owned, well. That was interesting.
Nobody’s free anymore. I wasn’t even sure anyone had ever been. Even cannibals out in the Waste had to trade with City scrappers, or so I heard.
Anyway, I slid into Cirquit and dropped off the tracking grid in a new way, ducking through a Phan Tong restaurant and the smoky steam-hell of the kitchen, cheap stathydroponic produce and vat-grown proteins slathered with synthetic seasonings imitating what it used to taste like. Or just someone’s idea of what it used to taste like. It could break your brain to think about too deeply.
Barlowe was now in a repurposed railbus hanging over Martell, deep in the Cirquit. He looked up and grunted as I slid through the bead curtain hanging just inside the regular entryway, a skinny old white-haired man with ancient hyperalloy implants at knees and elbows. A scan would show him as only a little implemented, not even up to a minimum security standard for a drugrunner or a corporate officer. He had an ocular over one eye, good work without a tag. That was another thing — his implementation wasn’t even back-alley registered. It was completely innocent of anything approaching a serial.
Which meant the Agency would hotlist him in a split second. They’re the power they are because of their stranglehold on implementation; even illegals pay them. One way… or another.
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