by Chloe Walsh
I tried not to think about what the future held for us – about what would happen when that call came through, because for the first time in my life, I was invested in something other than rugby. I was invested in her.
Before I met Shannon, I wouldn't have considered myself to be an impulsive person, but something had re-wired itself in my brain, morphing me into a reckless, unthinking eejit. I knew I messed up with her father a few weeks back, but in fairness, how the hell could I walk away? How could anyone let him walk away? Someone needed to make that monster pay.
The sound of my phone ringing cut through my thoughts and I pulled the car over outside Shannon's house before taking it out of my pocket to answer it. Glancing at the screen, I smirked when I saw Shannon's name flash on the screen. "Hi, Shannon."
"Hi, Johnny," came her soft reply. "How was training?"
"Same as always." Sighing contently, I leaned back in my seat. "I'm outside."
"Oh no," she mumbled. "I'm not there."
"That's okay," I replied, pushing down the surge of disappointment churning inside of me.
"I'm actually at Claire's house," she said down the line. "We're going shopping."
"Shopping?" I smirked to myself and plucked a piece of fluff off my thigh. "You got anything nice in mind to buy?"
"Uh, no, not me," she replied, voice muffled. "But I can come over later tonight, if that's still okay with you? Hughie said he'd drop me to your house if you still want me to come over?"
"You better come over," I teased. "Otherwise, I'm going to have to come scale the side of your house and break you out."
She laughed softly. "Oh, hang on –" The sound of ruffling and muffled whispers filled my ears before Shannon came back to the phone. "Claire wants to know if Gibsie is with you?"
"No, he drove to training today," I replied, glancing down at my watch. "He should be home soon."
"Did you get that?" I heard Shannon say to Claire. "I miss you," she added then, directing this part at me. "A lot."
"I miss you, too, baby."
"You two are disgusting," Claire's voice snickered down the line. "You saw each other at school yesterday."
Something caught my eye in the front window of Shannon's house then, distracting me from the conversation. Arching up, I peered over the wall, watching as the curtains twitched again. "Who's home, Shan?" I asked, curious.
"Huh?"
"At your house?" I asked. "You said Darren was in Belfast this weekend for work?"
"Oh, he is," she replied.
"So there's nobody home?"
"There shouldn't be," she replied.
"Oh." I watched as the curtains twitched around and then a little blond head popped out and then quickly disappeared. "Hmm."
"Why?" she hurried to ask, panic evident in her voice. "Is there something wrong?"
"Nope," I replied, keeping my voice calm as I climbed out of the car. "I'm just heading home now, so I'm going to have to hang up."
"Okay, thanks for calling."
"You called me, Shan," I reminded her as I rounded the garden wall, heading for the house.
"Oh…yeah, right. Sorry."
"Don't worry about it." I chuckled to myself, imagining her blushing. "I'll see you later, okay?"
"Bye, Johnny."
"Bye, baby." Hanging up, I slid my phone into my pocket and crouched down in front of the window. Less than a minute later, the net curtain twitched and a pair of big, chocolate-colored eyes locked on mine.
Sean, I mentally noted as the toddler stared through the glass at me, face solemn and streaked with dirt.
"Hey," I mouthed, waving at him.
He didn't respond.
He just stood there, staring back at me.
Unsure of what to do, I placed my hand against the window pane and held my breath. Seconds ticked by, and just when I thought the baby had turned to stone, he pressed his small, chubby hand against the glass, mirroring mine.
Smiling, I slowly stood back up, knowing that I needed to get back in my car and far away from this house, but moving towards the front door anyway. Knocking softly, I waited for a response, forcing down the urge to storm inside and demand to know what the fuck was going on.
Finally, the door opened inwards, and I was faced with the same tiny blond boy from the window. "Hey, Sean," I said in my best coaxing voice. "How are you?"
Another boy, no more than eleven or twelve, rushed towards us then, intercepting the toddler, and sweeping him into his arms. Swinging around, he locked his mistrusting glare on me. "Get out."
"How's it going?" I heard myself say as I retreated a couple of steps. "I'm Johnny."
"Yeah? Well fuck off, Johnny."
Jaw-ticking, I swallowed down a snarky response and tried again. "You're Tadhg, right?" I hoped like fuck I had the name right. "I'm your sister's boyfriend. And I know your brother Joey, too."
A third boy appeared then, peeking around what I knew was their kitchen doorway. "You're that Johnny?" he asked in a small, hopeful voice. "Shannon really likes you."
"Don’t talk to him, Ollie," Tadhg said coldly. He turned his hard stare on me and hissed, "Leave."
I wasn’t leaving.
I couldn’t.
"Where's your mother?" I asked.
"Mind your fucking business," Tadhg spat.
Christ, this kid was almost as feral as Joey.
"Where's Joey?"
No answer.
"Are you guys home alone?"
With a scathing glare, Tadhg moved to swing the door shut on me.
I reached out and stopped it from closing. "You can tell me where she is," I said calmly. "Or you can tell the Gardaí."
"Joey had to go to a match," the middle one spilled his guts and said. "Mammy was supposed to drop us to Nanny's but she's still in bed, and she won't wake up."
"Jesus fucking Christ, Ollie," Tadhg roared. "What are you trying to do to us?"
"He asked," Ollie replied, lip wobbling.
"And you just tell him our business?" Tadhg snapped. "You know better!"
The middle one hung his head and sniffled. "I'm sorry."
"If you call the Gards on us, I'll make you pay," Tadhg hissed, turning to glare up at me. "I'm dangerous."
I bit down on my lip to stop myself from smiling. "I believe you," I told him, keeping my expression somber. "You're a big lad for your age."
"Yeah, I'm twelve," he growled, puffing out his chest. "I could take you."
I nodded solemnly. "Definitely."
"He talks funny," Ollie said then. "Why do you talk funny?"
"That's because he's a Dub," Tadhg sneered, giving me a scathing look. "Everyone knows Cork is the real capital of Ireland."
Was he picking a fight with me over my birthplace?
Jesus…
"So, what time's Joey due back from his match?" I asked, trying for nonchalance, as I leaned against the doorframe.
"A few hours," Ollie said, forthcoming. "But if he's working afterwards, then he'll be really, really late."
"Dammit, Ollie." Tadhg shook his head in resignation. "You can't keep anything to yourself."
"I'm just answering his question," Ollie huffed.
"Did you guys have dinner yet?" I asked, smiling at Sean who was staring up at me, wide-eyed. "Are ye hungry?"
"We're fine," Tadhg growled.
"I'm hungry," Ollie piped up. "And we didn't have dinner because we don't know about the cooker."
My heart cracked in my chest, but I masked it with a small laugh. "Yeah, same here," I told them, trying to put them at ease. "I don't know much about cookers, either."
"Joey cooks," Ollie offered. "Shannon, too."
Smiling, I nodded. "Yeah, Shannon's a great cook."
His eyes widened. "Have you tried her spaghetti? It's my favorite."
"Not yet," I replied. "I must ask her to make it for me sometime."
"You should," Ollie agreed. "It's really good."
"Hey, you know what I really like?" I said. "Mc
Donalds." Their eyes widened and I hurried to say, "Do you want to go?"
What the fuck are you doing, Johnny!
"With you?" Ollie asked, eyes wide.
Say no, asshole. Say fucking no!
"Yeah," I replied.
"Now?" Tadhg piped up, sounding reluctantly excited.
You're going to jail, Cap…
"Yeah," I choked out. "Why not."
Three hours, one trip to the playground and two food-runs to McDonalds later, and I was bleeding exhausted. Panic stricken, I pulled onto Gibsie's street, knowing that I needed some backup and some life advice.
"Lads, wait in the car, okay?" I coaxed, glancing back at the three blond heads in the back of my Audi. Ollie and Sean were stuffing their faces with bags of sweets. Tadhg was slurping down a slushy. Empty Happy Meal boxes were scattered all over the floor of my car and I was praying these kids didn't have allergies because I'd loaded them up on more shite than I dared to think about. "I'm just picking up my buddy."
"Can I drive now?" Tadhg asked, unbuckling his seatbelt and moving to climb through the seats. "We're on a cul-de-sac."
"No," I shot back. "I already told you."
Huffing, he sat back down and took a sip from his straw. "You suck."
You cheeky little fucker. "Just wait here," I muttered, climbing out of the car before I strangled my girlfriend's baby brother.
"What did you do?" Gibsie asked, watching me from his front door as I hurried up the garden path towards him. "Johnny?"
"I'm in trouble," I strangled out when I reached him. "Big trouble."
"I know," Gibsie replied, eyeing me with suspicion. "I can tell by your face. What the hell did you do?"
"I took them!" I choked out, pointing at my car.
"You took what, Johnny?" Gibsie asked warily.
Swallowing down a groan, I grabbed his arm and dragged him down the path towards my car. "Them," I strangled out, pointing to the three blond boys looking out at us.
"You took them," Gibsie deadpanned. "You just went ahead and took some kids?"
"You weren't there!" Exhaling a furious growl, I ran my hand through my hair and hissed, "You didn’t see what I saw, so don’t fucking judge me."
"Don’t judge you?" Gibsie spluttered, eyes wide. "Lad, you stole some fucking kids." His voice rose, turning all pitchy, as he continued to rant. "And you brought them here – to my house – making me an accomplice!"
"I didn’t steal them," I growled. "I took them."
"Steal, take – it's all the same, Johnny," he snapped. "They are not a product of your fucked-up dick therefore you have no business taking them anywhere." He stepped around me and peered through the window. "What's wrong with that one?" he asked, pointing at Sean. "Why is he eating his fingers?"
"I don’t know, he doesn't talk," I groaned, flustered. "I don’t know what the fuck I should do next."
"Take them back to whatever playground you found them in."
"It's a little more complicated than that," I bit out, grinning and giving the boys two thumbs up. Ollie and Sean waved back at me. Tadhg gave me the middle finger. "We can drop that one back," I muttered under my breath. "Look," I said, turning back to Gibsie. "Can we bring them inside?"
"Inside my house?" Gibsie balked. "Yeah, because that doesn’t sound at all predatory and fucked-up. Two seventeen-year old lads bringing three small boys into their house."
"Can we?"
Gibsie gaped at me like I had lost my mind, and the truth was I probably had. But I was in this now and I was rolling with it. "Fuck no!"
"Then what am I supposed to do with them?"
"Take them back."
I shook my head. "I can't do that."
"You don't steal children," he hissed. "It's like the fundamental rule of life."
"I wasn't thinking."
"You have issues," Gibsie accused, sounding horrified. "You have serious fucking issues with taking things that aren’t yours. You're like a kleptomaniac but with humans!"
"I know," I choked out. "I'm going to work on it, but I need you to help me with these ones."
"Why?" he demanded. "What aren’t you telling me, Johnny? Christ, I can't help you if you don’t tell me what's going on."
"They're Shannon's brothers." Turning my back on the car, I whispered, "They were all alone, lad. Their Ma was in bed and they were hungry. I couldn't leave them there." I shrugged helplessly. "How can I take them back to that house?" I pointed back to the car. "That one's only a baby."
"Shit." Gibsie dropped his head and groaned. "Should we call Shannon?"
"No," I snapped, flustered. "She's having a good day for once in her life. I'm not wrecking that with more shite."
"Then we'll take them back to your house," he replied. "Your Mam's at home. She'll know what to do with them."
"She's going to kill me," I mumbled dejectedly.
"Yep," Gibs replied, clapping me on the back. "And me with you."
"Whoa!" Tadhg and Ollie chorused when we pulled up outside my house a little while later. "Your house is huge."
"None of you are afraid of dogs, right?" I asked as Bonnie, Cupcake, and Sookie bounded around in the back garden.
"Nope," Ollie replied, pushing the door open and running straight for the dogs. "I like the black one," Tadhg stated as he hurried out after his brother.
"Her name's Sookie, I told him, climbing out after them. "She's old so be gentle with her."
"Hey, Sookie," Tadhg called out, running across the grass to where Ollie was rolling around with my mother's two golden retrievers.
"What are we going to do with this one?" Gibsie asked, as he leaned against the side of my car and pointed to Sean who was still sitting in the backseat, chewing on his fingers. "Why does he keep eating himself?"
"He's not eating himself, Gibs," I snapped, feeling oddly defensive of him. "He's just nervous. This is all new to him, so just…leave him alone, will ya?"
"Jesus," Gibsie muttered, holding his hands up. "Sorry, Dad."
Ignoring my best friend, I walked around to the back door and crouched down. "Hey, buddy," I coaxed, making eye contact with him. "You want to come inside with me?"
Sean stared at me for a long moment before crawling over the seats and slipping his small hand into mine. Uncertain, I looked at his small face and plastered on what I hoped was a reassuring smile. "Good boy." Helping him out of the car, I had to hunch while we walked, so I didn't pull the kid's arm out of its socket.
"You know, if the rugby ever fails, you'd make a mighty fine childcare provider," Gibsie snickered, holding the back door of the house open for me.
"Fuck off," I mouthed as I helped Shannon's youngest brother over the back step, and threw a few Hail Marys up for self-preservation purposes. "Ma?" I called out, blessing myself, as I pushed the kitchen door inwards and found my mother sitting at the island with one of her work portfolios laying open. "I have a problem and I need your help."
"Try three problems," Gibs mused. "Three huge fucking problems."
"But don't panic," I hurried to add. "Little ears are listening."
Her gaze went straight to the toddler whose hand I was holding and then to Gibsie before back to me. "Oh, Johnny, what have you done?" Pushing back her stool, she stood up and walked over to us. "Who owns this child?"
"This is Shannon's baby brother," I explained as calmly as I could, careful not to spook the small child clinging to my hand.
"There's two more where he came from in your garden," Gibsie offered up. "Johnny stole them."
"You stole her children?" Mam strangled out, paling.
"Yep, so you might want to call your husband and see if he's familiar with child abduction cases," Gibsie replied for me. "And full disclaimer here: for once, this was not my idea."
"This is Sean," I said, eyeballing my mother. Keeping my voice soft and gentle, I crouched down beside him and spoke directly to him. "Sean, this is my mammy. Her name's Edel."
Sean stared up at my mother, shoving his entir
e fist into his mouth this time.
"He likes to eat his hand," Gibsie offered, like that was important information. "But Johnny reckons it's okay." Shrugging, he added, "Don't know much about kids, myself. All I have at home is a cat."
"Gerard, go down to the office and get my husband for me," Mam whispered. "Hurry now, love."
"Will do," Gibsie replied, before racing down the hallway towards my father's home office.
"Now." Crouching down in front of Sean, Mam smiled brightly. "Hello, Sean, love, how are you?"
Sean watched her carefully, not making a sound.
"Does he speak?" Mam asked gently, casting a quick glance to me.
I shook my head. "Don't think so."
"Johnny?" another small voice called out. "Can I feed your dogs?"
"Yeah, do you have a lead so I can take Sookie for a walk?"
Seconds later, Ollie and Tadhg came barreling into the kitchen, bright-eyed and rosy-cheeked. The minute they locked eyes on my mother, they stiffened and bunched together.
"Lads, this is my Ma," I explained. "Edel."
"Hello, boys," Mam said softly, smiling warmly at the brothers.
"Ma, these are Shannon's brothers; Ollie and Tadhg." I made the introductions from where I was still crouched next to Sean, who was squeezing my hand tightly in his. "It's okay, buddy," I whispered in his ear. "You're safe."
"Hi, Dellie," Ollie said shyly.
"God, Ollie, he said her name is Edel," Tadhg grumbled. "Not Dellie."
"That's okay," Mam chuckled, rising up. "My god, you're the spitting image of your brother," she added, smiling at Tadhg.
Tadhg watched her carefully. "Which brother?"
"Joey," Mam replied.
His eyes widened. "You know Joey?"
Mam nodded. "I do. He's a lovely boy."
Tadhg frowned. "Are you sure you know Joey?"
Mam chuckled again. "So, you like Sookie?"
The hardness in his eyes softened. "She's okay."
"Her voice is funny, too," Ollie announced. "Isn't it, Tadhg? Her voice is stranger than Johnny's."