by Erin Trejo
“You wanna ride back to the clubhouse?” he asks.
I shake my head before walking slowly to my car. When I climb in and start the engine, a plan begins to take hold.
I will protect that boy. Tic may not like it, but I am a part of his world now. I am a part of Jameson’s life and I will do whatever I have to do to keep him safe.
I put the car in drive and grin as I make my way to the clubhouse. If she thinks she can just walk back into their lives and take what she left behind, she has another thing coming.
Chapter 18
Tic
“No! Stop fuckin’ askin’ that shit, Ashley!” I’m losing my sanity little by little. Now I know it’s Dana behind this shit, I need to find her and end it. Ashley has been going on about taking Jameson away from here until it all calms down. That’s not an option. I’m not running from this bitch, and I sure as hell won’t let my son out of my sight.
“I have the money, Tic. Once you find them, he can come back. It makes sense,” she pleads with me. I close my eyes and suck in a big breath.
“Look, Ash,” I say as I open my eyes and look at her, “I appreciate what you’re tryin’ to do, but he isn’t goin’ anywhere. You need to get that shit outta your head.” I can see the way she narrows her eyes at me.
“Fine.” She grits her teeth. It’s a little sexy, and I have to admit I like seeing her like this. She has an attitude that not many have gotten the chance to see, and when it shines, it shines brightly.
“Kiss me,” I tell her.
“What?” she snaps, her hands on her hips.
“I said, kiss me. Fuckin’ kiss me, Ash.”
Her eyes dance over my face before she steps up to me. Her lips come slowly to mine and I’m lost in her touch. Her hands snake around my waist, holding me closer to her. I run my hand up her back and into the back of her hair, tugging slightly. I swallow all her moans as I lick and suck at her tongue. When she pulls back she stares at me with hear in those eyes.
“I need you,” she whispers.
I can’t stop the grin that crosses my face. It’s been far too long since I’ve been inside of her. I grab her hand and drag her down the hallway. As soon as I get her close enough to my room, I go for clothes. I pull her shirt over her head and toss it to the floor not giving a shit that someone sees us. I need her.
Her lips are on my neck when I kick the bedroom door closed behind us. I break away and strip us both in record time. When she’s naked and breathless, I stand in front of her stroking my dick. Her eyes follow the movements.
“You want it? Come get it,” I tell her. Ash’s eyes shoot to mine. I see the way she takes the challenge. I step back a few steps and watch as she drops to the ground. Holy shit! That’s hot!
Ash crawls across the floor seductively as she licks those plump full lips. Shit, she is going to kill me. When Ash is in front of me, she climbs to her knees, grabbing my dick in her hand. She strokes me softly before her lips wrap around my length
“Fuck, Ash!” I growl as she sucks me into her mouth. Her tongue is warm and soft as she strokes me. The deeper she pulls me in, the hotter I get. I can’t hold myself back. My hips rock and buck into her mouth. She gags and readjusts before taking me all the way in.
“Ash. Fuck, baby. That feels so good.” I look down and find her eyes on mine. She watches me as she sucks me off. It’s the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen in my life. When I can feel that tingle shoot up my spine, I pull out of her mouth and grunt, “Get up here.” Ash stands slowly in front of me before I spin her around to face away from me. I shove her back and watch her bend in front of me before slipping inside of her.
“You’re so tight, Ash,” I groan as I slowly pump into her.
“Tic, fuck me hard!” she commands. I chuckle a little, loving that she needs me to take her hard and rough and my girl takes every last bit of it. I grab her hips and do as I was asked. I fuck her until the only thing that is keeping her from falling on her face is the grip I have on her waist. The harder I thrust, the more her body bounces beneath me, and fuck do I love it.
“Yeah. Gimme all of it, Ash,” I grunt as I pick up my pace. The way her pussy tightens around me, I may not last much longer. A few more hard thrusts and I explode. Ash’s body clenches around me, pulling everything I have to give inside her greedy little pussy. I can’t complain. I love it.
“Goddamn.” I grab around her waist and pull her up without pulling out of her. I keep my dick in place as her back rests against my chest. We’re both breathless and sated. I kiss the side of her neck as sighs contently.
“I missed you,” I tell her. Ash turns her head and looks over her shoulder at me.
“I missed you too. I hate that this is tearing us apart,” she admits. I slowly pull out of her and turn her in my arms.
“I know it’s hard, Ash. I don’t mean to push you either. I just want what’s best for J.” She smiles and nods her head. I lean in, kissing her gently.
When I pull back, I look her in the eyes.
“I mean it. I don’t want you to go. If you’re in, then that’s where I need you, Ash. The last few days have been shitty without you here.” Ash lays her head on my chest, and I wrap my arm around her tighter.
“I’m just scared, Tic. I’m afraid that I won’t be enough for you two.”
I press my lips into the top of her head and sigh. “You’re more than enough. I don’t deserve you, Ash, but God do I want you. I know I’ve been a bastard toward you, and I’m sorry. All I want is to get this over with and move on. Me, you, and Jameson.”
Ash pulls back and beams up at me. “You mean it?” she asks softly with her eyes shimmering in the light.
“Yeah. I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life.”
“Then I’m in.” She smiles and my heart leaps.
Chapter 19
Ashley
“Ok. So, remember, don’t go with anyone you don’t know, and what do you do if a stranger approaches you?” I’m kneeling in front of J on the sidewalk at the school. My stomach is in knots as Tic stands next to me laughing. I don’t think this is funny, though.
“Run and tell an adult,” Jameson says so sure of himself.
“That’s right. Are you ready?” I ask. Jameson nods his head rapidly, but I don’t think I’m ready for this. He’s going to kindergarten. Tic never put him in preschool, so this is his first time being without someone from the club and going to school.
“Ok, little man. It’s time to go in,” Tic tells him. Jameson smiles like crazy but I don’t let go of his hand. I don’t know if I can.
“Babe, he’s gotta go,” Tic says reaching for me.
Jameson laughs before kissing my cheek, “I’ll be fine. I promise.” I release his little hand and stand up watching him run to his teacher with his little backpack on his back. Tic puts his arm around me, holding me tightly but I still feel like I’m going to cry.
“Are you sure this is a good idea?” I pout.
Tic chuckles before saying, “He’s ready. He’ll be fine.” I elbow him in the ribs before he leads me back to the car.
“What am I supposed to do with my day now?” I whine. I’ve become so used to having Jameson around all the time that I have no clue what else to do.
“I can think of a few things,” Tic says, walking me backward until I slam into the side of the car. His lips claim mine the way they always do, and I let him. He grinds against me until we hear kids laughing and he pulls away. “Not the best place for that.” His smile is infectious.
The last few weeks have been fairly calm for everyone. There has been no sign of Dana but Mystic has been keeping tabs on the MC they think she is in with. It doesn’t make me feel any better knowing that she’s out there somewhere.
“Where’s your head?” Tic asks as we climb into the car.
“I don’t like the not knowing, Tic. It makes me nervous.”
He slides across the front seat and grabs my hand in his. “I know it does, darlin’ but we a
re keepin’ track of them. I won’t let her get him.”
I nod my head because I know what he’s saying is true. Jameson means the world to Tic. I’ve never met a man that has cared so much for his child.
“I know. I just hate it,” I mumble.
“I do, too. Let’s go back to the clubhouse and see what Mystic has for us today, yeah?” His voice has softened as I nod my head. He leans closer, pressing his lips to my cheek before moving back into his seat. It’s strange to see him in a car. It’s sweet.
“I don’t like him being here alone,” I mumble under my breath. I pull out and drive toward the clubhouse as Tic chuckles.
“He ain’t alone, Ash. The whole school is here, and I’m pretty sure I made it clear to that teacher that no one was to pick him up but us.” He’s right. He did say that and he made very sure that she heard him.
The drive to the clubhouse is silent. I get lost in my own thoughts of Jameson being at school. Anything could happen to him. She could show up. The club could show up there.
We pull into the parking lot and I kill the engine when Tic jumps out. I stay seated letting it all run through my head when he whips the door open.
“Out and stop thinkin’,” he says.
It’s not that easy. I climb out as mumble, “I don’t know how this isn’t bothering you more.”
Tic grabs me, pulling me against him. “Babe, he’s only at school. It isn’t like he got married and moved away.”
I cock my head to the side and stare at him, ready to kick his ass if need be.
“Not funny, Tic.” I can’t say anything else, his lips are on mine. He kisses me hard and rough and my body comes alive.
“Calm down, Ash. I mean it, everything’s okay,” he says once more when I hear Blu.
“Except it’s not.” We both turn to look at him. His face is pale and he looks pissed.
“She was in your house, Son.”
I shake my head. That can’t be happening.
“When?” Tic growls.
“Last night when you were here. We didn’t check your footage ‘til this mornin’.” Blu crosses his arms over his chest.
I glare at Tic. See, I knew letting J go to school wasn’t a good idea! “Can we go get him now?” I snap.
The two of them look at me but Tic shakes his head. “He’s safe there. They won’t let her get him.” His gaze flicks back to Blu. “I’m goin’ to check the house. Watch her.”
I’m about to protest, but Tic doesn’t even look my way. He storms past me and straight toward his bike.
“Come on. I’ll get you breakfast.” Blu throws his arm around my shoulder and leads me inside.
Chapter 20
Tic
She was in my motherfucking house. Of all the places she could have gone, and she was in mine. I strived to make that place a home for Jameson. When he was first born we lived at the clubhouse. That’s the only place I wanted to be, but when he was one, I moved him into the house. I wanted him to have something normal. Or as normal as it could be.
I drive as fast as I can with my heart in my stomach. It would be a shitty day if I had to kill Jameson’s real mom. Not that I give a shit. She’s the last person I give a shit about. When I pull into the driveway, I don’t see any signs of her or the guys she’s been hanging with. I park my bike and climb off. With my keys in hand, I head toward the door when I see it’s cracked open. That bitch! I step closer, pulling the gun from the back of my jeans before stepping inside. My body tenses. If she’s here, I will not hesitate to kill her. I will shoot first and ask questions later.
“Dana, don’t make me kill you,” I announce as I walk into the living room. I hear a small laugh behind me. When I turn to face the noise, I feel a prick in my neck. Within seconds my arms become heavy, my gun falling to the ground. I’m not far behind it. I hit the floor hard but I can’t move.
“I don’t like threats.”
I look up through my glossy eyes at her.
“What did you do?” I manage to ask. My breathing feels labored, my head is swimming. Dana stands there smiling down at me.
“I warned your little girlfriend. She didn’t listen to me. I’m taking back what’s mine, Tic. You and Jameson are mine,” she says just as if she’s always been here.
“You didn’t want him. Why now?” I ask, my words slow and difficult to get out. My lids are getting heavier by the second.
“I saw how happy you were. I want it. I want you back. You will give me what I want if you ever want to see him again,” she warns me.
She can’t get to him. Can she?
“Oh I see the look. I can get him, Tic. I am his mother, after all.”
I try to shake my head but I can’t move.
“Just tell me.” I’m losing it. I’m going to pass out at any second. “What you want, Dana.”
“I’m going to have someone look after Jameson until me and you get the ‘us’ part worked out. Then I will bring him home.”
Like hell she will! She can’t take my son away from me.
“You can’t.” My voice is barely coming out now. What the fuck did she give me? I will snap her fucking neck when this is all over with.
“I can. I did. We need to work on our lives together, Tic. When that bitch shows up, you will send her away.” She looks at her nails as she speaks. She has lost her fucking mind.
“Dana.” I try to warn her. It doesn’t work. Her eyes glisten with hate. For me? Why? I didn’t leave her, she left me.
“Shh. Just rest now, Tic. It will all make sense soon.”
I see her flick her wrist at someone I can’t see before I’m lifted from the floor, although I don’t know how. I feel like I’m loaded down with lead. I can’t move my arms or legs, and my eyes are slowly closing. The world around me is slowly slipping away, and I fear that Jameson and Ashley are going to go with it. I can’t let that happen. I have to fight back but how?
As everything starts to fade from sight, Ashley face comes into view. The look she had when she said she was falling in love with me. The one she had when we dropped J off at school this morning. She’s everything I could have hoped for and more, and now I may be losing her to this crazy bitch. I won’t let that happen. I don’t care what I have to do or how I have to do it. I won’t let her ruin my life for a second time.
Chapter 21
Ashley
“This is crazy. I’m going over there.” I stomp my foot but Declan just grins like a fool shaking his head. I want to snap. I want to lose my cool but that isn’t going to do any good.
“Mayhem is headin’ over there with Dread. They’ll handle whatever it is,” he tells me.
I cross my arms over my chest and glare at him. Brooke laughs and so does Blu. I don’t think this shit is funny. Not in the slightest. I saw the rage and anger in him. I know what he’ll do to her if she comes back there. Jameson needs his dad, and as much as I hate to admit it, I need him too. Tic has claimed a spot inside of my chest that I can’t let go of. I don’t want to. He’s special to me for more reasons than one.
The door opens and my heart leaps, but it isn’t Tic who walks in. I sigh and look away when another guy strolls in.
“What are you doin’ here?” Blu asks stepping around us to go greet the man.
“Nothin’. Took a ride to check some shit out, figured I’d stop by. What’s goin’ on?” the man asks, looking around the room and at all of us.
“Tic’s ex has been comin’ around. Was in his house, brother. He went to check it out and never called in. Mayhem and Dread are headed out there.” The man’s face reddens as his fists ball at his sides.
I’ve never really sat back and looked at all these guys. I know they are all badasses. I know they all care for each other too, but this is different. Watching this one is different. He doesn’t even know the extent of what’s happening, but I can still see the anger in his eyes. It’s really interesting to see that come to light in a time like this.
“What the fuck is she doin’
here?” he growls.
“This is Ash, Tic’s old lady.” Blu interrupts the man’s little rant. His eyes come to meet mine, and I feel a little lost. I don’t know him, I don’t know anything about him yet the look in his eyes tells me that everything will be fine. The man swallows hard, his body slowly relaxing before he steps closer to me with his hand extended.
“I’m Ruger. Don’t worry about your man, we got this.” I take his hand as I let his words slowly seep through me. My man. It’s a strange thing to hear but it feels right.
“Thank you,” I say softly. Brooke appears at my side, her arm wrapping around my waist when Blu’s phone rings. I watch as he answers and barks out a bunch of words but my mind is a buzzing mess. Should I go get Jameson from school? Should I let him stay there so he isn’t involved in all of this? I don’t even know what all of this is at the moment and it’s really starting to weigh on me.
“Fuck!” Blu roars, throwing his phone across the room. I jump and so does Brooke. This can’t be good.
“Church. Now!” He snaps. I watch the guys share a glance before walking toward the office, Blu right behind them.
“What’s going on?” I ask following him. I know I’m not supposed to, but he can’t just walk away and not tell me anything. I need to know what’s happening. Panic takes over when Blu turns to look down at me. My body begins to tremble.
“She has men with her. He’s fucked up. I dunno if he was usin’ again or what, but he is high as fuck.” I shake my head not wanting to believe that. Tic wasn’t doing drugs.
“She did it, Blu. She had to of. He wasn’t doing drugs,” I snap. Blu watches me for a second running his hand through his hair.
“You would know best. He spends a lot of time with you.” His hand lands on my shoulder as I nod my head.
“I’m scared, Blu. I’ve never been scared in my life, not like this.” It’s true. There’s something off in my chest and I don’t like the feeling I have.
“I know, sweetheart but we’ll handle this. Whatever the fuck is goin’ on, we’ll take care of it.”