by Tijan
“Is Dusty here?”
Low. Angry. Irritated. Frustrated. A hint of savage impatience, too, and then as I swooned, but not in a good way, the fainting way because this was not happening. No way because I couldn’t deal if it was—and then Wyatt went, “DUDE! You’re Stone Reeves!”
There was a moment here.
It was the beginning of the storm. The air is thick, heavy. Hair sticking to the back of your neck. Your hands are oddly clammy. Your pulse is racing. You know a train is coming your way. You know you’re on the tracks. You know you should jump off, but you can’t. You’re frozen because it’s not just a flight or fight response. There’s the whole freezing response, and as your heart picks up in force, in speed, in sound, you know you’re about to get pummeled.
Yeah. Because that’s what was about to happen.
Then a door slammed upstairs and I heard a gasp, “Stone Reeves is here?”
Another pounding of feet.
Shit. They were coming from everywhere.
“Oh my God.”
That was Nicole. I recognized her voice just as I heard a growl rip from Stone.
“Hi. Yeah. I really need to talk to Dusty first, and then I can come back and chill for a while.”
“Chill. He said chill.” That was Wyatt. I could almost hear the face-splitting smile through those words.
A giggle. That was Mia.
She’d been screaming seconds ago, beside herself with anger, and now she was giggling.
I wanted to vomit.
The door in front of me opened and Lisa came out, her hair in a mess and her eyes soft from sleeping. Her face looked a little puffy. She stopped in the doorway, seeing me, and for a split second, we weren’t enemies.
She frowned, hearing the chaos above. “What’s happening?”
Um.
I said the first thing I thought, “Fire!”
And with that, I could move. The paralysis broke from me, and as Lisa yelled and rushed upstairs, I turned and sprinted for my room.
Thank God I hadn’t changed into pajamas yet. It was nearing eight that night, so with my heart trying to pummel its way out of my chest, I grabbed everything I thought I’d need. I had no plan, other than maybe sleeping in my car, but I was running. As far away as I could.
He sounded furious.
Yeah.
Running was the best course of action and the only thing that could save me right now. I was embracing my inner sailfish.
Chapter Ten
Purse. Books for tomorrow. Phone. Keys. I checked—I had a bra on. I toed on my sandals, and I threw my arm through my backpack, pulling it on without stopping, and I was out the back door. Wait. Backtrack—I grabbed my toothbrush and paste from the bathroom, then I was running up the stairs.
Out the door.
“Fuck no, you don’t!”
A cement arm grabbed me around the waist, and just like we were kids, Stone had me up in the air.
“No!”
Everything was turned upside down. Me included.
My purse was open and all my stuff fell to the ground. My backpack went down, hitting my head, then falling off my arm and thudding next to my purse. My phone fell out of my pocket. My keys rained down from my hands because I was trying to grab onto Stone’s shoulders so I didn’t land on my head, too, even though I knew he was more than capable of lifting me over his head.
But I was kicking and out of control, and I swung, hitting something.
He grunted, ducking, then putting me on my feet. “Jesus. I forgot how solid you are.”
Solid.
My ass, I was solid.
Red in the face, hair literally everywhere, I shoved him back from me. “Get off me!”
“I’m off! Fuck’s sake. Chill the fuck out.”
He held his hands up, taking a step back, and then it was time to assess.
I was refusing to look at him. I knew how Stone looked. His face and physique was on the television on any given sports channel almost every day, or on the Internet, or people were talking about him on the radio. The team was local. I knew when I applied here that I’d have to deal with going into Stone-Land, but I hadn’t realized it would be this bad.
So, no.
I did not need to know how he looked like a walking, well-cut ad for the Marines. He was a professional athlete. He and his teammates could walk and nuns would swoon. No joke. I heard one once, and that’d been when he was in college and I’d been visiting my mom in Hospice before she was sent home to die.
The memory was like a bucket of cold water.
I was drenched with reality, and fuck that. I looked up, seeing him still taking me in, a look in his eye I didn’t want to identify, a hand at his jaw, and I snarled. “What are you doing here?”
Shit.
Now I was looking right at him, and I hadn’t been prepared.
He was gorgeous, with his ripped, lean body, and his crew cut, and those hazel eyes that were darkening, taking me in. Even his face had morphed into an athletic machine. I didn’t know that was possible, but his cheekbones were wide and slanting upwards. His jawline was so pronounced, ending in a strong square and fuuuuuuck, he was hawt.
Holy crapshitastic, he was hot.
I blinked a few times, needing to get myself together.
He had picked me up like I was nothing, and then told me I was solid, but I knew in Stone’s world, that meant I was strong. Because I wasn’t solid in the other way, but my body was freakishly strong. It was from my grandpa’s genes. The women, though they might’ve looked tiny and weighed nothing, were almost as strong as the men. It came in handy if I needed something moved, because as long as I didn’t twist my back, I could move almost anything. Might take some finagling and me being smart, but I rarely needed to ask for help.
It was a skill I prided myself on. Didn’t need a man.
“Fuck, Dust.” He grunted, shifting back.
At that, another bucket of water was tossed in my face.
I remembered where we were and looking around, I saw my roommates standing at the front of the house. Thankfully, they hadn’t moved down the alley to where we were, giving us a modicum of privacy, but I was livid. Word was out. Secret was blown. They all fucking knew now, and I’d have to deal with damage control after this. The fallout was going to be freaking epic.
Horrified, feeling a sob working its way up my throat, I clamped that shit down and dropped to my knees.
I was grabbing blindly, just seeing red. The edges of my eyesight were blurring. I could only see what was literally in front of me, and so I focused there. Forcing deep breaths out through my nose, because if I opened my mouth, I’d either start crying or I’d start shouting.
Keys. Check.
Phone. Check.
What next?
My toothbrush was on the ground. That’d have to be tossed. More money coming out of my account.
What else? What else? What else?
I was slightly hysterical. I grabbed a textbook at the same time I felt Stone kneeling beside me. He began grabbing my things, too.
I lost it. I snapped.
“NO!” I shoved him backwards, pushing him off his feet.
His eyes widened, shock infiltrating his own anger. “I was trying to help!”
“I don’t need your help!” I was on my feet.
People might think I was overreacting, but I wasn’t. I really and truly wasn’t. He had no idea what I went through because I knew him, because the wrong person found out I knew him. I was here because of that sick and twisted someone.
“Get gone, Stone! I don’t want you here.”
He stopped, taking me in, and a soft, “Shit,” left him. He let out a sigh. “Dust.”
“Don’t! Don’t ‘Dust’ me. I swear to God, don’t.”
He wasn’t leaving.
I waited, but he wasn’t going.
“LEAVE!”
He took a step back, flinching. But stopped. He looked torn, his hand going back to that strong jaw t
hat could cut metal. “Dusty, I—”
“What do you want?” I flung my arms out wide. “I talked to Gail. I told her to stop whatever she was doing and thinking. She got the message. It’s done. Your family. My family. We’ll cease to exist to each other. I blocked your number because I never want to hear from you or see you ever again. Yet, here you are. Leave me alone. Please!”
And then, with words so soft that I’d never forget them, his face shuddered as he said, “Your parents were in an accident.”
I—
I—
No.
No.
I hadn’t heard him right.
A strangled laugh from me. “What?” That wasn’t right. I’d just talked to Gail a few days ago.
I had told her—God. I had gotten upset with her. I’d been more heated than I should’ve been, and Dad—Dad.
“What?”
I was shaking my head. That wasn’t right.
I must have heard him wrong.
He wasn’t looking at me like my old best friend. This was all totally wrong.
Right?
“Dust.” This one was even softer, filled with regret. And those eyes of his. The hostility was gone. Sympathy and something else? Mourning. NO! Who did he get to mourn?
But…
No. No. Just no.
“They’re fine, right?”
They just couldn’t call. I hadn’t given my new number to anyone else but them. Stone had it, ironically. That’s why he was here.
“What hospital?”
He still wasn’t saying anything.
Whatever. I’d find out myself.
I went back to grabbing everything from my purse. I’d need all of that. And my emergency fund. I’d use that to fly back. I’d drop out of school. I’d have to. Then again, maybe they weren’t that bad. Maybe they weren’t even in a hospital.
I’d just have to call them.
Grabbing my phone, I tried Gail’s number first.
“Dust.” Stone stepped toward me.
I backed away.
“No, no. I’ll just…” She wasn’t picking up.
“Dusty.”
Okay. “Her phone was damaged. Is that what happened?” Okay. I’d try my dad’s cell, but he rarely used it. He hated the thing. He used Gail’s.
I pulled him up, hitting the call button.
It rang.
And rang.
“Dusty, stop.” Stone’s hand covered mine. He took the phone away from me, and then ended the call.
He had the update. That’s why he was here. I couldn’t avoid this anymore.
So I stopped and I stared at him, but I did not cry.
I would not cry.
Not in front of him, or in front of my housemates. In front of no one.
“Just tell me, Stone.”
He closed his eyes again, then opened them and I saw the tormented look flash there. It didn’t leave. It stayed and it just made this all that much worse.
“They were driving to see your stepbrother’s football game. Three deer were in the road. Right by Sidewinder Curve, you know the place.”
Oh God.
My chest was hurting, like really badly hurting.
I felt something squeezing in there, not letting go.
That curve was aptly named.
“Three deer?” I whispered.
He nodded. “I’m really sorry. One deer would’ve been a smashed-up car. But three—”
I winced as if he’d hit me. Three. I knew the damage three could do. It was rare, but not unheard of where we lived. Deer were everywhere.
“Their car rolled. Gail went through the front window. Your dad—”
I had to know.
I gutted out, “Say it.”
“Your dad was pinned under the truck. The steering wheel cut into him, and he died just as the ambulance got there. Gail died on impact.”
I…
…couldn’t…
…
“No.” I slid down to my knees, right in the middle of all my things.
A part of my brain, the rational part, was watching from outside of me. It was telling me to get it together, go somewhere private, stop being entertainment for these people. But that part wasn’t controlling me right now. It wasn’t the irrational part either. Or the feelings part. It was a part I wasn’t entirely familiar with, a part that I’d only come to know one other time, so the tinge of familiarity wasn’t as strong.
There’s a pocket in your mind where you go when you feel unsafe, where you can’t handle whatever is happening in real life, and you lock yourself in there because you feel protected. Self-preservation.
I was there, but I wasn’t completely there.
And I couldn’t quite grasp what Stone was telling me. Not completely, but I asked, “Jared?”
“Your stepbrother is with friends. He has a best friend, Apollo?”
That was good. That was the best place for him. Apollo was like family to Jared.
“I know you don’t have any relatives in the area.”
He was kneeling by me, talking so gently to me, this was so not Stone.
“I need to know what you want me to do to help. I want to help.”
“Why?” A flash of anger burst in me. White. Hot. Seething. “Why are you still here? You delivered the message. Now go.”
His face closed off, but he didn’t stand up. He didn’t back away. He didn’t leave.
“GO!”
He stood now. A hand went to his jaw. “Dust—”
“I’m not Dust to you. That died a long time ago. My mom died, Stone! Your father fired mine so he didn’t have to pay the medical insurance and my mother died so your dad could keep more money in his pockets.”
He was backing away now. Flinching as I kept going.
“Then he blacklisted him, hoping we’d move out of town. He tried to run us out of town! In my senior year. But we stayed. They stayed. Because of me. I wasn’t ‘Dust’ then. I haven’t been ‘Dust’ since you were in sixth grade. Remember the last time I was ‘Dust’ to you? We watched a movie at the drive-in, shared a blanket, popcorn, and a soda, and then the next day you walked past me on the bike trail with Gibbons, Mark, Tony, and right then I was nothing to you. Remember? I do. You were laughing about Megan Parturges. You looked. Saw me. And then said, ‘Yeah, I’d fuck Parturges,’ and you kept walking by as if I were a stranger. That’s when this,” I pointed between him and me, “died. It died. And you gave me the message, now fucking leave me alone.”
“Dust…y.” His entire face shuddered. “Let me help you. I can fly you back.”
“Get AWAY FROM ME!”
I hated him.
I loathed him.
His entire family.
His fame.
The power of his fame, how it could get inside a person and bring out their rotten insides. I especially hated that part of him.
I wanted him gone.
I wanted everyone gone, but he wasn’t going. They weren’t going.
I could see them back there, still watching, but I wasn’t looking. They were nothing to me, too.
Okay. So fine. No one was leaving, I would.
I came out of that protected part of my brain, moving into the irrational side that was now merging with my rational side, and I just felt pain. Gut-wrenching pain, but then—a blessed relief—numbness. I couldn’t handle what was happening and I was going numb. It was traveling up from my feet, so quickly, until it rose, blanketing over my mind, and silence.
Inside of me, total stillness.
Finally, I could move again. Finally, I could breathe again. Finally, I could function again.
I knelt and finished grabbing everything that had fallen. Piece by piece, I put it back in my purse. My backpack. It was as if Stone wasn’t there. As if no one was there. As if he hadn’t just told me how my life as I knew it had ended that day. It was as if none of those events happened, and standing, I just turned and went to my car.
“Dusty.” Stone ca
me after me.
I ignored him.
Walking out of the fence, going to my car, I glanced up at him as I unlocked my car.
A stranger. That’s what he was to me now. And he saw it, too, because he reared back on his feet, a curse falling swiftly from his lips.
Then I got in my car, started it, and backed up, all the while staring at a stranger.
I kept backing up, and then I heard a shout before I felt the impact, followed by metal crunching, glass shattering, screams, and then blessed, blessed darkness.
Peace.
Chapter Eleven
The beeping woke me up.
Then the pain really woke me up.
I jolted, immediately screamed from the pain, but it was muffled and I realized I had something gagging me.
Reaching up, breaking off whatever was holding my arm in place, I reached for whatever was in my throat and I started to pull it out.
Up. Up.
Then—out, and I was gagging. My body pitched forward. I was going to puke, but no, I was going to pass out. And then, air. My lungs drew it in, and I couldn’t see past the tears in my eyes.
“What—oh my God!” I heard the squeak of shoes coming toward me, then a harsh exclamation. Panic in her voice. She rushed to me and I felt hands going to whatever I was still holding in my hand. “Oh no, no, no. You need this!”
I didn’t. She didn’t know that, though. I was shaking my head, trying to tell her I didn’t want that, but then I heard someone come running and a, “Holy—get off her. Get off her.”
That someone shoved between me and the nurse.
It was a him.
He was helping me. “She’s good. She’s good. Look at her.”
“Mr. Reeves.”
It was Stone.
I froze, but I think I knew it had been him. I’d never be able to not recognize his voice, no matter how much pain I was in.
“Oh no.” From the nurse.
“What?!” A savage growl from Stone.
“She didn’t get—oh no.” She rushed away.
Stone went after her. “She didn’t what?”
The nurse came back, a doctor behind her, and I still couldn’t see. I could see shapes, but everything was blurred and it was the damn tears. I hated crying. I had to stop. Suck it up. Move forward. And feeling the impending doom that was about to crash over me, I did just that.