by Alexa Riley
I take my time and make sure that she is so thoroughly kissed that any fear or worry she may have is long gone. I want her to remember me and how much she loves me. But I don’t want the pain.
I just don’t know how to keep that from her.
Chapter 5
Collins
My lips tingle from the kiss as I wrap my arms around Kade. He puts my bottom on the counter as he sits me down. I hadn't realized I’d all but climbed him until I look around. Kade steps back a little, creating more space than I want between us. I don’t think he realizes I notice he’s slowly shifting away from me. Why is he holding back? I’m his wife, so what’s wrong with us being close?
“Do you love me?” I ask as I feel insecurities starting to rise.
“More than I’ll ever be able to make you understand,” he says instantly with such confidence.
“And I love you?” It’s a weird question to ask because my heart tells me I do. It makes my chest ache with need to be close to him.
“You’ve said those words to me before.” He reaches up, tucking a lock of my hair behind my ear.
He’ll give me these small touches but not much more, even though my body craves him. Not only have I practically climbed my husband when he kissed me but I found myself all over him in my sleep too. Although I feel safe with him, some things aren’t adding up. Shouldn’t my husband know if I have a sister or if I’m allergic to something?
“Why don’t you know these important things about me?”
He might have distracted me with the kiss for a moment but he’d ended it. If he’d taken the kiss further, I would’ve forgotten for a little longer. Now my mind is racing with what he might be trying to hide. But even with all the questions and everything not coming together, I’m not afraid of him.
“It’s supposed to come back on its own.” He sighs and drops his hand from my face.
“Give me a little something.” I tilt my head back to look up at him.
“You and that lip.” He reaches up and tugs on my bottom lip. “You know that pout gets me.” I didn't, but I’ll take that small piece of information and tuck it away. “We were a little bit of a whirlwind.” He pulls me from the counter and sits me in the chair beside him. “Eat your bacon and eggs for now. I’ll talk to the doctors about this allergy thing.”
He pushes my plate toward me and I can tell he’s pissed. Not at me but at not knowing I was allergic to something.
“When you find my sister, she’ll know everything about me.” At least I think she will. I can see her in my mind and I know she’s a year older than me. My head starts to hurt trying to pull the memories to the front of my mind but everything is foggy.
“Stop.” His finger goes under my chin to tilt my head back. “Don’t force it.” He leans down, brushing his mouth against mine. “Trust me.”
“Okay,” I agree. I lean up and I’m the one to kiss him this time. He lets out a small groan as he kisses me before pulling back yet again.
“Now eat. There’s still so much I want to show you.” I pick up the fork, and unlike last night, I don’t have to force myself to eat. It looks like my appetite is back in more ways than one.
I clean my plate only to have Kade try and pile more onto it. He sends off texts as he eats too, and glares at his phone as he does. But every time he lifts his gaze to look my way, he smiles.
I may not remember my husband, but in the short time since I’ve woken up in the hospital, I’ve learned a lot about him. He’s stern and direct with others but with me he is sweet and soft. It’s interesting to watch. I’m his sweet spot and it makes me believe even more that I really did love him. Heat blooms in my chest once again thinking about our love. Everything thus far has been about him trying to protect me and I should follow his lead. He’s right, I should trust him.
“Anything on my sister?” I ask when he pockets his phone.
“I’m working on it. Don’t worry.” He holds his hand out for me to take. “Waterfall?” he asks, and I nod with excitement. This whole place has been beautiful. I can’t imagine what the waterfall is going to look like.
He guides me out of the house and back toward the cart. I want to tell him I might need a bathing suit, but if I don’t have one what would Kade do if I stripped down and went in naked? I guess we’ll just have to find out. If I can get past my shyness of getting naked.
After we ride around the island for a bit, he pulls to a stop and takes my hand. He leads me down a path that’s marked as private with our fingers tangled together. I can hear the water before I see it, and as we walk across a wooden bridge, it comes into view.
“Oh wow!” I say in wonder as I look up at the falls. It’s a breathtaking romantic paradise that’s hidden from everything. There’s a large waterfall with a lagoon-like pool below it and a sandy white beach surrounding the clear blue water. “I don’t think I’ve seen anything more beautiful.”
“I have.” Kade turns me in his arms and looks right at me as I slide my hands up his chest.
“No wonder we were a whirlwind. I can see how easy it would be to fall in love with you. You’re so good to me.”
“You might not remember falling in love with me, but I promise I can get you to do it again.”
I want to tell him I already am because I feel it in my soul. He lifts me off my feet and I giggle in his strong arms.
“Don’t get any ideas,” he warns. His voice is stern but his eyes are teasing. I’m not sure what he’s talking about. “I know you want to swim but you aren't going in naked.” I bite my lip. “Yes, love. I know what you were thinking.” I laugh because he really does know me.
He kisses me once before putting me back onto my feet.
“I don’t think you should be swimming until you’ve fully recovered.” He’s probably right. I don’t actually know if I can swim but I feel like I can. “I just wanted to show you, but we’ll come back soon and spend a whole day when the water is calmer.” He kisses the top of my head. “We have forever.”
“Fine.” I press into him. “What are we going to do all day then?” I give him a wicked smile and I know what I want to do. The doctor told me to take it easy so I’m actually not sure we can do what I want. Maybe that’s part of why Kade is putting some distance between us.
“There’s more to show you.” I let out a long sigh as he guides me back down the path.
He was right, though, there’s so much more to see. We spend the day with him showing me the island and all the edges of paradise. I can see us raising a family here, which sounds crazy.
We sit on the porch swing of our house as we watch the sunset together. It’s still hard to believe this is my home. As much as it feels right being with Kade, this doesn't feel like my life.
“Any word on my sister?” I ask, peeking over at Kade. I know he’s been taking calls when he steps away from me.
I try not to let it bother me when he does, but I don’t know if it’s for my own protection or something else. Not knowing is starting to drive me a little crazy, but in the back of my mind I wonder if there’s something I really don’t want to know. Would not knowing be better? The life Kade showed me today is wonderful and perfect; why would I want to break the spell? There’s a fear that something out there could take this all away. I have no doubt Kade loves me. In fact, when I see him watching me when he thinks I’m not looking, something more than love flashes in his eyes.
“She’ll be here soon,” he answers in a flat tone.
“Is something wrong?” I ask. I turn to face him.
“No, love. You’re here with me. Nothing is wrong,” he says, then he kisses me and I trust that he’s right.
Chapter 6
Kade
My dreams of her are so real I can almost believe they’re happening. I’m on my back and her hands move over my bare chest. It’s like she has fire on the ends of her fingers and everywhere she touches it singes like lava.
I moan, and in this dream it urges her to move lower.
/> Wet warmth moves across my hard chest and down the middle. Her tongue? Her lips? I don’t care. My cock is so damn heavy against my belly and I can feel the front of my boxer briefs are soaked. Cum throbs from the end of it with desperate need for attention that I’ve denied him for far too long. I’ve refused to use my hand even though it’s nearly broken off in pain. But in this dream, this sweet perfect dream, she frees it.
A small soft hand wraps around my steel length that’s tight and ready. Just one firm grip and I’d spill between her fingers, but I’m not ready for the dream to end. The warmth of her mouth opens over my belly button and her tongue dips inside. I hiss between my teeth as I grip the sheets to keep me from shoving her mouth down on my cock.
“Kade,” my wife whispers, and the fog of the dream thickens.
I’ve fought off sleep and desire for more days than I can count and I won’t give up this slice of heaven. Not yet.
One of her small hands dips lower and cups me where I’m full. So fucking full. She squeezes me there and I feel the pool of cum gather on my belly as her other hand spreads it all over my shaft. My breath catches in my chest as her now slick hand glides over the swollen head, and just when I think this dream can’t get any better, her honey-soaked mouth opens around me.
I jolt awake so violently I fall off of the bed. I crawl backwards before I stand up and look down at my wife. Her face is flushed and her eyes are wide as she stares at me in shock. I’m panting and gasping for air before I glance down at my rock-hard cock pointing right at her.
“Fuck,” I curse before I shove my length into my boxer briefs and groan at the pain. “What were you doing?”
“I, um—” Her cheeks redden and she puts her hand over her mouth.
I swallow another groan as she realizes it at the same time I do and then licks her lips. I have to squeeze my eyes shut tight as I try and get myself under control.
“I’m sorry, I thought you were awake.”
When I look at her, I see she’s used the sheet to cover herself and her chin is tucked low to hide her face.
“Hey, don’t apologize.” I move to her slowly as I sit on the edge of the bed and put my arms on either side of her. “Look at me, love.”
“Do you not want me?” When she lifts her eyes to mine, I can see the tears beginning to form and it’s like a knife to my heart.
“Of course I want you.” I lean in close and place a soft kiss on her swollen lips. Lips that have wrapped around my cock. “I’m just trying to give you time.”
“I don’t need more time to know I want you.” Her hands move down my bare chest and I want to purr with need. “Don’t turn me away, Kade.”
Her desperate plea is cracking my carefully constructed control.
“Please, Kade,” she whispers, her lips touching mine. “I’m in pain.”
How could she know those words would be my undoing? Because as soon as she says it, I put her on her back and move between her legs.
“Make love to me,” she begs, wrapping her legs around my waist.
“No.” I shake my head and she whines as I bury my face in her neck. I move my lips lower and slide my hands over the swell of her breasts. “I’ll take care of you.”
Her hips rise, and I unhook her feet and kiss my way down her soft stomach. Her nightshirt has ridden up but I push it farther to reveal her panties. The white cotton is damp and I groan at the sight of it. Then the sweet scent of her pussy fills my lungs and my hands begin to shake.
“Kade, don’t make me wait.” She rolls her hips up in invitation and I have to close my eyes to get myself under control.
I shouldn't be doing this, I should stop. But she aches and I can’t let her feel this way. I might have done things I’m not proud of, but falling in love with my wife has been my calling. If I only take care of her for the rest of my life, then it will be a life well spent.
“Pull your knees up, love,” I say, tugging the white cotton panties down her legs and tossing them to the ground.
She does as I ask without hesitation, opening her body and her hidden secrets for me. I nestle into the bed and lean forward to kiss her pink, swollen lips. She’s blushing with need and wet with desire as I lick a long trail up the middle of her pussy and around her clit. Her body shivers with pleasure as she cries out and I slide two thick fingers into her. She’s so goddamn tight I have to work them slowly just to get past the first knuckle.
“More, please,” she pants as she pulls her knees farther apart. “Don’t tease me.”
Her pleading is torture because although I don’t want to rush this, I know she needs me. With one quick thrust of my fingers and a nibble against her clit, she cries out and her back arches.
“Kade!” she screams into our bedroom, and I feel the warm rush of desire coat my fingers.
I lap up her quick release but I know this one won’t be enough. She’s too tight, too tense. She needs another to calm her down so I double my efforts.
My fingers move in her tight sheath quicker and I lap at her clit. I suck on her lips and nuzzle against her with my nose, burying my face in her center. She doesn’t have time to catch her breath before her second orgasm is bearing down on her again. Her hips move in time with my mouth and I devour her.
There is no treat as sweet as my wife and nothing that will fill my belly and keep me as warm as she will. She is my rebirth, and before the day I laid eyes on her, I was nothing.
Her cries of ecstasy pierce the night as she climaxes once again. I smile into her softened flesh as she goes limp under me and her moans quiet to kitten purrs.
I kiss the inside of her thighs, luxuriating in how soft she is there and cleaning her with my tongue. I take my time enjoying this place between her legs, because I don’t know when I’ll be back here again.
“I love you,” she whispers softly, and I close my eyes, letting it soak in.
“I love you, too.”
When she’s utterly spent, I grab the blanket and cover her with it before tucking her in. I kiss her softly and smile down at her as her eyes close. I could stay like this for hours, just looking at her and some nights I do.
“Get your hands off my sister.”
The cold voice from behind me has me whipping around to see a woman who looks so much like my wife it shocks me. I stare at her for a half a second before I look down at the bed and make sure my wife is still there.
“Berkley?” I hear my wife say sleepily as she sits up in bed.
“I said get your fucking hands off my sister.” She takes a step forward and that’s when I see Vaughn behind her, his eyebrows pulled together in confusion.
“I’ll do whatever the hell I want with my wife,” I say, clenching my fists at my side.
Berkley looks as if I’ve slapped her just before her eyes dart between my wife and me. Then her face pales as she steps forward.
“Collins isn’t married.”
Chapter 7
Collins
“I am.” I hold up my hand to show her my giant ring. There’s no way I could forget the thing is there because it’s unmissable.
Berkley stares down at it and her mouth falls open. I have a strong urge to defend my marriage, but the idea of it not being real makes my heart ache.
“You’re not married,” my sister snips again, glaring at the ring. Berkley looks so much like me except for her darker hair and bright violet eyes. I think she might be a few inches shorter but our faces are almost the same.
“Maybe we should let them get dressed, doll.” Vaughn puts his hand over my sister’s eyes and then his other around her waist. He picks her up so her feet dangle off the ground a few feet and she begins to wiggle in his arms. “You don’t need to see my brother naked.”
Kade’s got on underwear so he’s not totally naked. I’m not wearing anything but I’m under a sheet.
“Will you stop kidnapping me!” my sister shouts at Vaughn as she tries to wiggle free of his hold.
To be honest, she isn’t puttin
g up much of a fight. I want to tell him to let her go, but it’s a little funny. If it was X carrying her out of here I might be worried, but Vaughn isn’t going to hurt her.
“We’ll meet you in the main house,” Vaughn calls over his shoulder as he takes my sister with him.
“Put me down, you brute!” Berkley yells.
Kade walks over and shuts our bedroom door when they’re gone. It’s then I notice he’s still in his boxer briefs and his cock is just as hard as when I’d been sucking on him. No wonder Vaughn covered her eyes. I love my sister but I don’t want anyone but me seeing Kade like this. He moves back toward the bed and I notice a wet spot on the front of his underwear and I wonder if he came too.
“I’m going to smack you!” I hear my sister shout from the other side of the door.
It’s easy to forget about everything else when I’m near Kade. Maybe that’s the reason my memories aren't coming back—because I live in each moment with him.
“I can’t believe my sister is here.” Kade nods, looking solemn about it. I reach up and rub the worry line that has formed between his eyebrows and my wedding ring catches the light. “I’m your wife,” I tell him, knowing somewhere inside of me he needs to hear it.
He grabs my hand and kisses my palm before sliding his finger back and forth over my ring, still not saying anything. I want to comfort him but I want to see my sister too. I hate how worried he looks over this. I try and reassure him again but he moves and pushes me back down onto the bed. His body comes down over mine as he kisses me deeply. I can taste myself on his lips as he makes love to my mouth with his. The kiss is both possessive and sweet.
“You are my wife,” he grits out, and I don’t know if he’s reminding me or himself. Something flashes in his eyes I’ve never seen before and my heart flutters in my chest. I nod in agreement as a warning rings in his voice. “I won’t let anyone take you from me.”