Beatrice glanced around. There were only thirty people in total at the wedding and they all fit on her porch, disheveled and wet for their wedding. It was surreal to her how they’d come to this.
He’d not hesitated and now she wouldn’t either. On that rain-soaked porch Beatrice threw her arms around Lachlan and dropped her forehead to his, kissed him. “Let’s just get married right here on the porch with our dearest friends, our soaked clothes, and our vows. Right now.”
“Let’s,” he said. “I never wanted anything fancy. I only wanted you for my wife.”
“We don’t need anything cleaned up or fixed up. We took a chance with an outdoor wedding and, well . . .”
He touched her cheek. “I will always take whatever chances you want. I love you so, Beatrice.”
“I love you, too, Lachlan. So much. And you will always be the man I take the chance with. Every. Single. Day.”
And those were the vows Beatrice uttered: that she would take a chance on love with Lachlan every single day. By her side, on a soaked porch with the people she loved most, Beatrice said, “I do.”
About Patti Callahan
Patti Callahan by Bud Johnson Photography
PATTI CALLAHAN is the USA Today bestselling author of fifteen novels including the historical fiction Becoming Mrs. Lewis: The Improbable Love Story of Joy Davidman and C.S. Lewis and Surviving Savannah. In addition, she is the recipient of the Harper Lee Distinguished Writer of the Year for 2020 and the Alabama Library Association Book of the Year for 2019 and the Christy Award—a 2019 Winner “Book of the Year.” The author is also the host of the popular seven-part original “Behind the Scenes of Becoming Mrs. Lewis Podcast Series.” Patti is also the co-creator and co-host of the weekly web show and podcast Friends & Fiction.
Patti and Dottie met when Patti’s first book was released in 2004 at a SIBA conference, where the friendship was instant and long lasting.
Also by Patti Callahan
Historical Novels
Surviving Savannah
Becoming Mrs. Lewis
Audible Original
Wild Swan: A Story of Florence Nightingale
Stand-Alone Novels
The Perfect Love Song
The Favorite Daughter
The Bookshop at Water’s End
The Idea of Love
The Stories We Tell
And Then I Found You
Coming Up for Air
The Art of Keeping Secrets
Driftwood Summer
Between the Tides
Where the River Runs
When the Light Breaks
Losing the Moon
Summer of ’79
Elin Hilderbrand
1
Hot Child in the City
Jessie Levin (“rhymes with heaven”) is drinking an ice cold can of Tab on the northwest corner of Washington Square Park when her sister, Kirby, pulls up in her butterscotch-colored Ford LTD with the sunroof open, strains of Lou Reed floating out like a haze.
Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side.
Reed must have been talking about Washington Square Park in this song, Jessie thinks. She has done a fair amount of studying in the park while she’s been in law school and she’s seen it all: punk rockers with purple hair and pierced lips walking their dachshunds, drag queens eating knishes, a couple painted gold who set a boombox on the lip of the fountain and discoed to Chopin’s Polonaise in A-flat.
“Get in!” Kirby shouts. “Just throw your suitcase in the backseat.”
Jessie does as she’s told—Kirby’s backseat is as big as Grand Central Terminal—but even so, the cars lining up behind the LTD start honking and someone yells, “Move your tush, sweetheart!”
Kirby pulls away from the curb before Jessie even has her door closed. Jessie sets her macramé pocketbook on the front seat next to a tray of hotdogs from Gray’s Papaya. She kicks off her Dr. Scholl’s and puts her feet on the dash.
“I know I shouldn’t feel happy,” she says. “But I do. I took my last exam this morning, I have a full week off before I start my internship, and we’re going to Nantucket.”
“I’m happy, too,” Kirby says. “Or I would be if I weren’t so hungover.” She pulls a cigarette out of a pack of Virginia Slims with her lips and leans over to Jessie, who rummages through her pocketbook for matches. She finds a pack from McSorley’s. Jessie’s ex-boyfriend, Theo, basically lives there.
Jessie lights Kirby’s cigarette and fights the urge to throw the matches out the open window—the city is so dirty, what difference would it make?—because she has taken great pains to rid her tiny studio apartment and her carrel at Bobst Library of everything Theo-related.
“I need to get out of this city,” Jessie says at the same time that Kirby says, “I need to get out of this city.”
“Jinx,” Kirby says. “You owe me a Coke.” She blows smoke out the window without taking the cigarette from her mouth.
“Why do you need to get out of the city?” Jessie asks. Kirby’s life in New York is glossy and fabulous. She’s the Sex & Relationships editor at Cosmopolitan. She lives rent-free in a loft down on Broome Street where she babysits the paintings and sculptures of the artist Willie Eight while Willie travels the world. He’s in New York only one week per month and it’s during those weeks that Kirby’s life gets even more enviable. Kirby and Willie and Willie’s boyfriend, Tornado Jack, have long lavish dinners at Mr. Chow’s and the Quilted Giraffe—and then they go to Studio 54. Through Willie, Kirby has met Baryshnikov, Farrah Fawcett, Richard Pryor! It seems outlandish that Kirby, Jessie’s own sister, has rubbed elbows with such celebrities, though as Kirby says with her usual world-weariness, “They’re just people, Jess.”
In Kirby’s own pocketbook—a tan suede fringed hobo—she keeps a Polaroid picture in an envelope. The picture is of Kirby linking arms with Willie and Tornado Jack. Sitting in front of them with his signature platinum mop and clear horn-rimmed glasses is . . . yeah.
Andy Warhol. Kirby has met Andy Warhol.
Kirby sighs. “I’ve been burning the joint at both ends.”
Well, yes, so has Jessie. But whereas Jessie goes to Torts and Contracts during the day and studies at night, Kirby strolls into the Hearst offices at the crack of ten-fifteen with her sunglasses still on and receives congratulations for it. Kirby reports directly to Helen Gurley Brown, who has assigned Kirby the task of writing about the after-hours lives of young urban women—which means spending night after night out on the town.
Jessie isn’t naïve. Kirby said “joint,” but Jessie knows she’s drinking every night—tequila sunrises that become more tequila and less sunrise as the hour grows later—and also, she snorts cocaine. Probably a lot of cocaine. Kirby may even be a cocaine addict; the edges of her nose are pink like a rabbit’s and she keeps sniffing. Jessie wonders if she should express her concern, maybe tell Kirby the story of poor Cesar Coehlo, her fellow second-year law student, who also liked to frequent Limelight and Studio 54. A few weeks earlier, Cesar overdosed and died. The next day in Jessie’s Property Law class, a girl said she’d heard the cocaine made Cesar’s heart “pop like a balloon.”
The song changes to Player. “Baby Come Back.”
Any kind of fool can see!
There won’t be any cocaine on Nantucket, Jessie thinks, though there will be drinking, starting first thing in the morning with mimosas. Jessie has vivid memories of her grandmother, Exalta, sucking down two or three mimosas on the patio of the Field & Oar Club while Jessie took her tennis lessons.
Despite the ungodly heat of this sweltering June day, Jessie gets a chill.
Exalta is dead.
She died in her sleep two days earlier in the house on Fair Street, while Mr. Crimmins, their former caretaker, slept beside her. Jessie and Kirby are heading up to Nantucket for the funeral tomorrow, which will be followed by a reception at the Field & Oar Club, which will be followed by a bonfire on Ram Pasture beach. The bonfire is Kirby’s brainch
ild. She’s calling it “Midnight at the Oasis,” and it’s for family and close friends only, although Kirby pointedly has not invited their parents, saying, “They won’t want to come, anyway.”
JESSIE AND KIRBY SIT in traffic on the Cross Bronx Expressway for what feels like days—Jessie drifts off for a second and she thinks maybe Kirby does as well—but then I-95 clears. Kirby puts the pedal to the metal and the LTD goes sailing right up alongside a tractor-trailer. Jessie yanks her elbow down once, twice, three times, and the trucker honks his horn, which gives Jessie a silly thrill. She feels like a character from Smokey & the Bandit.
“Flash him!” Kirby says.
Jessie considers it for a second, then remembers that her older sister is a terrible influence.
They have more fun on the drive up to Hyannis than they should under the circumstances. They devour the hotdogs—Kirby doctored them with just the right amount of mustard, relish, onions, and sauerkraut—and the radio gods are with them because they hear one great song after another.
“Lonesome Loser.” Beaten by the Queen of Hearts every time!
“One Way or Another.” I’m gonna getcha getcha getcha getcha!
“Knock on Wood.” Thunder, lightning! The way I love you is frightening!
After they finish singing at the tops of their lungs with Bonnie Tyler to “It’s a Heartache”—Nothing but a heartache!—Kirby turns down the radio and says, “So what happened with you and Theo, anyway?”
Jessie doesn’t want to talk about Theo but she needs to come up with some kind of answer for her family.
Jessie met Theo her first week at NYU. She’d done her undergraduate work at Mount Holyoke, and so New York City—and men—were a dramatic change. Theo Feigenbaum had thick dark hair, green eyes, and remarkably long dark lashes. He sat next to Jessie in their lawyering seminar and asked her to borrow a pencil and a piece of loose-leaf, which Jessie gave him while wondering what kind of bozo showed up to the first day of class unprepared. But when he raised his hand to offer an example of jurisprudence, Jessie fell in love.
They dated the entire first year, then through the summer, then into autumn of their second year, when they basically cohabitated. But the second year of law school was more difficult than the first, just like the second year of a relationship. The things that had been fun, even blissful—studying together in the park, getting pizza on St. Mark’s Place, splurging on a foreign film at the Angelika, or sneaking into the Metropolitan Museum of Art (it was easy enough to find a discarded metal button on the steps and attach it to their collars)—lost their luster. And there was no time, anyway. Besides which, Theo grew increasingly jealous of how well Jessie was doing in class and how easily she had landed a summer associate’s job at Cadwalader. He started to turn mean and surly, he put Jessie down in public—at McSorley’s, for example, in front of their mutual friends—and argued with every single point she made in class.
Jessie would be embarrassed to admit to Kirby how she backed down, how she apologized, how her main objective became to placate Theo and defuse his growing anger, how she intentionally turned in a sloppy opinion so that he would get a better grade. Jessie watched herself make concession after concession even as she yearned to be strong and stand up for herself like a proper women’s libber. But she had wanted Theo to be happy. She had wanted him to love her. And so she yielded, she flattered him, she diminished herself to make him appear bigger.
And what had this gotten her? It had gotten her a kick to the gut, a fat smack to her pride. One night when Jessie had spent the last dollars of her monthly stipend on Reuben sandwiches from the Carnegie Deli, Theo stood her up. The sandwiches, which Jessie had transported back downtown on the subway as carefully as she would have her own newborn baby, grew cold and greasy. Jessie left them in the white paper bag and stormed down to McSorley’s, where she found Theo at a back table with a girl named Ingrid Wu, a first-year. They were all over each other.
“He cheated on me,” Jessie tells Kirby. “So I threw him out.”
Kirby is smoking again in a more relaxed way, with her elbow hanging out the window. “Good for you,” she says. “You deserve better.”
Jessie rummages through her macramé pocketbook for her sunglasses because suddenly she feels like she might cry. She’d wanted to call Theo when Exalta died but she hadn’t because she was afraid it would sound like a plea for attention. A dead grandmother, how unoriginal. And yet, Exalta is dead and it hurts. Jessie and Exalta hadn’t been close exactly, but there had been something—a mutual respect and admiration that was, in a way, more meaningful to Jessie than the more typical variety of grandmotherly love. Exalta was proud of Jessie’s accomplishments—her impeccable grades at Brookline High and Mount Holyoke, her high LSAT score, her admission into NYU law. Exalta could be stingy with praise, but she had, more than once, said that Jessie was a young woman with a good head on her shoulders who had a very bright future.
Along with her cut-offs and her crocheted tank, Jessie is wearing the gold knot and diamond necklace that Exalta gave her for her thirteenth birthday. Jessie lost the necklace the very first time she wore it and she’d spent one fraught week of her thirteenth summer in a state of agitated panic. Mr. Crimmins found the necklace— thank God!—and Exalta kept it in her custody until Jessie turned sixteen. At that point, Jessie put it on—and she has never taken it off. It has been witness to every second of the past seven years. It’s a talisman and a reminder of Exalta’s belief in her. Good head on shoulders. Very bright future.
Theo Feigelbaum be damned.
“You’re right,” Jessie says, thinking maybe her sister isn’t such a terrible influence after all. “I do deserve better.”
2
Baby, What a Big Surprise
Over her mother’s protests, Blair tells her nine-year-old twins, George and Gennie, to climb into the once-red-now-nearly-pink International Harvester Scout, their family beach vehicle that refuses to die. Blair is taking the twins into town for hot fudge sundaes at the Sweet Shoppe. They arrived on Nantucket an hour earlier and ice cream sundaes are their first-afternoon-on-island tradition.
“Your grandmother’s body isn’t even cold yet,” Kate says, before Blair heads out the door after the twins. “What are people going to say when they see you and the children with whipped cream all over your faces?”
“They’ll think we’re trying to cheer ourselves up,” Blair says. She gives Kate a pointed look. “The kids have been through a lot recently.”
“Well,” Kate says, and she meets Blair’s gaze. “Whose fault is that.”
“Mmmmm,” Blair says. She has been waiting for this exact confrontation, the one where Kate blames Blair for her divorce from Angus, even though their split was hardly Blair’s fault. Angus dragged Blair and the children down to Houston for the most miserable year of their lives so he could work at NASA on the Viking mission to Mars. The children despised their new school—the other kids made fun of their “accents”—and Blair felt adrift in the astronaut-wives society. It was as though she had stepped back in time rather than forward. The astronaut wives didn’t have careers. They spent their days getting manicures and planning fondue parties. When Blair mentioned—at the one “garden lunch” she attended, which was held looking at the garden through a plate-glass window because it was too beastly hot to eat on the patio—that she resented having to give up her adjunct professor job at Radcliffe, everyone at the table had stared at her, forks suspended over their cottage cheese as though Blair was speaking in tongues.
Blair hadn’t made a single friend and neither had the children. Even a swimming pool in their backyard didn’t cheer them. The kids sat in front of the color television and started speaking to each other in a new language they called “Brady,” saying things like, “George . . . Glass,” and “Marcia, Marcia, Marcia!” in a way that seemed to have a secret meaning.
Angus was, of course, never around. He had a cot at NASA and spent the night there.
In a mom
ent of desperation, Blair had bought the children a dog, thinking this might help. And it had, initially. They went to the SPCA and picked out a mutt, some kind of spaniel-terrier mix. The children named him Happy, which made Blair melt a little—her twins were remaining optimistic!—but Happy was not happy once they brought him home. He was lethargic; he slept twenty-two hours a day, rising only to limp over to his bowl of chow.
A trip to the vet revealed that Happy was a very sick dog. He had tumors all down his spine—in the X-ray, Blair could see them, evenly spaced like pearls on a string. The vet said the kind thing would be to put the dog to sleep.
The death of the dog brought Blair to the end of her rope. She surprised Angus at his office and begged him to return to his job at MIT in Boston. Angus was his usual opaque and uncompromising self. He had a project here in Houston. The Viking mission. Mars.
“Then the children and I will go back alone,” Blair said.
She hadn’t necessarily meant to ask for a divorce. She had imagined they could work out some kind of long-distance commute. But Angus said he planned on staying in Houston. In addition to the Viking mission, he was in on the ground floor of the Space Shuttle program. His future was at NASA and if Blair and the children refused to support him, well then, he supposed that constituted irreconcilable differences.
“There’s no reason we can’t work out a civil arrangement,” Angus said. “You and the children will be well cared for.”
And they have been, financially. Blair took sole ownership of their home in Chestnut Hill; the children are enrolled back at Buckingham, Browne & Nichols. Blair will return to Radcliffe in the fall. Their life is remarkably similar to the way it was before they left. The interlude in Houston was like the pain of childbirth: as soon as it was over, Blair forgot about it.
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