by Karina Halle
“I was just having a discussion with King Anders about you.”
“Oh, yes,” I say, my voice going higher. “What about?”
I mean, did he call the King? Did the King call my father? Have they always talked on the phone and I just didn’t know about it? Who else does my father know on a calling your cell phone basis?
“I’m sure you know what about, Isabella,” he says to me. “And I must say how thrilled I am at your decision.”
Oh god. Oh no.
“What decision?” I ask cautiously.
“To marry Prince Magnus.”
My mouth drops open. “I, uh…what did the King say?”
I glance wildly at the Queen hoping for some sort of clue but she’s a hard nut to crack and her face remains impassive except for the quick glances she keeps throwing at Magnus.
“Well, when he first called me yesterday he said that Prince Magnus was interested in getting to know you. I had hopes, of course, as any good father would, that this could lead to something grand and so I made sure you went to Oslo right away. But now that I’ve been talking to him, he said that you both hit it off and it looks like it will be a royal match. He did just propose right now, didn’t he? That’s what the King said. He took you out to the garden and popped the question.”
I slowly look over at Magnus and I can see that he has absolutely no idea what my father could be saying and he certainly didn’t so much as pop the question as to suggest it, like he was deciding what TV show we should watch tonight.
Oh, I could bloody well kill the King of Norway right now.
“Hopefully you said yes,” my father says, his voice going lower in that same disapproving way he’d use when I was younger. Every time he thought poorly of me he’d use that voice. “Oh, you only got a B on your math test? You did study, didn’t you?”
I don’t like to use the F-word without warrant but…
FUCK.
Tell him you said no. Tell him there was no proposal. Tell him the King was wrongly informed. Tell him…
“I know your mother would be so proud of you,” he says, “just as I am. This is everything we could have wished for you. When I sent you off to England I had hopes that you would meet someone right for you. Had hopes you would aim high and marry someone great, someone worthy in title and stature. And now you are. Now you’re living out your mother’s dream for you.”
Oh fuck. FUCK.
“Plus, I know you benefit as well,” he adds. “Now you’ll have a position of power. You’ll have that voice you’ve always wanted. You’ll have the money and means to make a difference. Isn’t that what you told me a few years ago, your plans for after university? I always thought it was very noble and altruistic of you, albeit a futile path. But now, now you can actually make a difference. That must feel good.”
Shit. He just keeps talking. I don’t think I’ve ever heard him talk so much, nor have I heard him sound so happy, and so damn…proud of me. Not only that, but he actually has a point. He’s appealing to my sacrificial side. The side of me that could actually go through with this in order to get my lifelong dream.
It makes me sick.
Because this is all a lie.
And I have to burst his bubble.
I have to disappoint him and everyone else who is staring at me right now.
“Isabella?” my father asks. “Are you there?”
“Yes,” I say softly, then clear my throat as if that will give me resolve. “Yes, I’m here. It’s just a lot to process.”
“I understand,” he says. “Just know that you’ve made the right choice.”
Tell him. Tell him now.
“I’m so proud of you, darling,” he adds.
Aaaaaand I’m dying.
Okay. Okay, so maybe I don’t have to correct him now. Maybe I’ll just correct him later. Like tomorrow. Or in a few days. Let him think that we’re getting married and then I’ll tell him the truth. I just don’t want to spoil the moment.
By pretending to go all in, it feels like the easier way out.
“Thank you,” I tell him, my tongue feeling sluggish as I talk. “I should probably get back to the dinner party.”
“Of course, dear. I will call you in a couple of days to check up on you.”
“Okay.” I pause, wondering if I should tell him I love him even though sometimes in the past it’s gone unanswered.
“Take care,” he says and hangs up, and that answers that.
I stare at the phone in my hand and then slowly pass it over to the Queen, reluctant to meet her probing eyes.
“Well?” she asks. “What did he have to say? Anders was talking to him for quite a bit in the other room, and I never heard what they were discussing.”
I think I’m going to faint. I sway a bit on my feet and suddenly Magnus is at my side, his arm going around my waist and holding me up.
“Are you okay?” he asks, peering down at me.
I nod. “I think I had too much champagne and excitement,” I manage to say. I try to straighten myself so that my body isn’t pressed back against his massive chest. The man is built like a boulder.
The man? You mean your fiancé.
No. No brain, don’t you even start.
He leads me back inside and through my weary gaze I see the King looking at me with a sheepish expression on his face, like he’s just gotten busted for lying.
Which he has.
Bigtime.
I can’t believe he did that!
But more than that, I can’t believe I didn’t have the nerve to stand up to my father and tell him the truth. I just made everything a million times worse by lying because I’m eventually going to have to burst his bubble.
I’ll have to make him disappointed in me once again.
It’s either that or I actually get married to Magnus.
Who actually hasn’t proposed, mind you.
I sigh loudly as Jane approaches me, her steps wobbly, champagne in her hand. “Do you want something to drink?” she asks and her eyes go to Magnus standing right behind me, his hand still at my lower back. Suddenly it’s all I can focus on. The warmth of his large, flat palm, the strength in the way he presses against me. The fact that he’s still here shows concern that I didn’t peg him to have.
But as much as I need to talk to Jane and fill her in on what the hell is going on, this is about me and Magnus and he needs to know more than anyone.
“I think I’ve had too much champagne,” I tell her and then glance up at Magnus over my shoulder. “Perhaps Magnus could show me to my room.”
His eyes widen ever so slightly but he just nods. “Of course I can.” He looks over at his mother. “Where is she sleeping?”
“Take her to the blue room beside Mari’s,” the Queen says. “Her bag is already there.”
I can tell there are a million glances and silent messages being passed between everyone here, and not everyone is thinking the same thing. I’m pretty sure at this point only the King and I know what’s going on.
“I am so sorry to bow out of the evening early,” I tell them, trying to give them a warm and genuine smile that doesn’t at all show the turmoil that’s rolling inside of me.
“We are so delighted you were able to come,” the Queen says.
“Very much so,” the King says delicately.
Mari just nods. “We will see you in the morning.”
Jane raises her glass of champagne. “Cheers, Princess.”
Magnus guides me out of the parlor room and into the hall.
“Elevators are right over here,” he says as we walk along the tile floor. “Your room will be on the third floor. That’s pretty much the real ‘house’ of this whole place.”
He presses the button for the elevator and I blurt out, “And if we were to be married, would we be staying here or have a palace of our own?”
He frowns. “You’re rather confusing, did anyone ever tell you that?”
“And your family is bloody insane, has any
one ever told you that?”
The elevator doors ding open as if on cue. He gestures with his arm. “After you.” Then he steps inside, standing beside me. “And yes, I’ve been told that. A lot of people blame my mother for being a commoner and introducing her wild blood and ways into the family, but to be honest with you, she’s the sane one here.”
“I can tell. She’s the one who has no idea what’s going on and I know once the truth comes out, she’s going to be furious with your father.”
The elevator doors open. We step out into the hall but don’t move.
“What did my father do?” he asks.
I tilt my head, really examining him. Aside from being tall and burly and, well, fidgety, he seems to come by his confusion honestly.
“That’s why I wanted to talk to you in private.”
“So getting me to escort you to your room wasn’t an invitation?”
“Are you kidding me?” I shake my head. “No. Why does everything have to do with sex when it comes to you?”
He shrugs, grins. It’s charming and it shouldn’t be. “I don’t know, I guess I’m just used to it. Bad habits, Your Highness.”
“Well, I guess you can chalk me up to being one of your bad habits,” I say with a sigh as I look up and down the halls. The palace is opulent, but up here in the residential wing, things are a lot more subdued. No more marble statues, just rustic paintings instead. It’s almost homey.
“What does that mean?”
“How about you show me to my room first?”
He squints at me. “I swear you’re a different person from the one at the start of dinner. Maybe even two seconds ago.”
I choke on a laugh. “No kidding. The person I was at the start of dinner had no bloody idea what the hell she was getting herself into. Now I do.”
“Your British slang is very cute.”
“Get stuffed.”
“There you go again,” he says but starts off walking down the hall, gesturing with a nod of his head for me to follow him.
He opens the door to one of the rooms, and I step inside as he flicks the lights on. It’s smaller than I thought and maybe a bit drafty, but the bed looks warm, with loads of wool blankets piled on top. My little suitcase is sitting on an ottoman.
I turn around to look at him, feeling more indignant than nervous now.
“So, if you didn’t invite me up here for nefarious purposes, what did you invite me here for?” he asks.
I take in a deep breath. I feel like this evening has just been a series of very deep breaths. “That was my father on the phone.”
“Yes, I figured that.”
“Your father and he had a long chat while we were out in the garden.”
He purses his lips. “Okay…”
“Your father,” I continue, “told my father that you were proposing to me.”
Magnus stares at me for a second, eyes wide as it very slowly sinks into his thick skull. “But…I wasn’t. I mean, I was telling you the deal, the truth and all that, but…oh fucking hell. Do they think…does your father think this is actually a real official thing?”
He’s starting to freak out. It makes me feel good for a nanosecond to know that this wasn’t what he expected either.
“Yes. Your father said you were proposing and that’s why I was invited here, and he said we were a good match. My father automatically assumed I had said yes, because for crying out loud, why would I ever say no to anyone?”
Okay, so that last outburst is more about me than it is about him, but still.
“And you didn’t tell him otherwise?”
“This isn’t about me, okay?”
He looks out into the hall and then shuts the door behind him so it’s just the both of us in this room. “It kind of is. First you shoot me down, repeatedly, like you’re playing Duck Hunt and running out of quarters—”
“You’re twenty-eight! Why are you referencing things that are old? And anyway, I never shot you down because you never asked me anything.”
“I told you the plan.”
“Yes, in some round about half-assed way.”
“Hey, I was putting my full ass into it,” he says snidely. “You’re forgetting the big picture here, and that is…why the hell didn’t you tell him that my father was being premature and talking out of line?”
“You don’t know my father,” I tell him. “Or our relationship. To say it’s strained is putting it mildly, and anyway I didn’t exactly want to admit that your father, the King of Norway, is a big fat liar!”
“But now we have to get married!” he cries out.
“This was your idea!”
“This was my parents’ idea,” he counters, shaking his finger in my face. “And now it’s real. Jesus. I’m not ready for this.”
“You’re insane,” I mumble. “And it doesn’t matter. I’ll tell my father the truth in a few days. I just didn’t want to tonight. He sounded so happy and, well, you told me that this was all worth it to make your father happy, right?”
He seems to think that over before he nods with a heavy sigh. “Yeah.”
“And it’s the same for me. Only I don’t have the relationship you have. I don’t have one with him at all. And I wasn’t about to sever the little contact we just had because of some technicality.”
He lets out a dry laugh. “You make it sound like it’s wording on a legal document.”
“If we’re not careful, that’s what it’s going to be. Only the legal document will be a marriage certificate.”
“I need to talk to my father,” he says, turning around and opening the door.
“And tell him what?”
He pauses and looks over his shoulder at me. “I don’t know. Just that he’s put you in a very awkward position.”
“And what about you?”
“I’m fine. It’s no different than before, I had just hoped or assumed that when I told you the truth about all of this that you would decide to do it based on your own merit and not anyone else’s lies. I can have my father call yours in the morning and explain that everything has been a big mistake.”
Ugh. That hurts my heart. Not just in terms of my own father being disappointed, but Magnus’ too. He actually cares for his father and vice versa. That might be a blow neither can handle at a time like this.
“No,” I tell him. “Let me just think about it for a few days and get back to you. Let it go with your father. I just need time to process everything and figure out the right thing to do.”
“But isn’t the right thing to do to call it off?” he says. “I mean, in your mind.”
God, I’m tired. Exhausted to every last brain cell and weary to the bone. And yet there’s something blocking me from agreeing to what he’s just said.
Maybe it was the promise of respect.
Of power.
Of a voice to make change in ways I’d never dreamed of.
I only nod to Magnus. “What I really need right now is sleep. Perhaps I’ll see you in the morning.”
His dark brows knit together. “I can’t believe you might actually give this a chance.”
“I wouldn’t hold your breath,” I tell him.
He nods. “Goodnight, Princess.”
“Goodnight, Your Highness.”
He shuts the door, locking me in with my thoughts.
Seven
Magnus
“Sir, I really don’t think you should go out there,” Ottar says, pulling back the curtains and peering out my window.
It’s not just that the weather has taken a turn for the worse and it’s absolutely pouring, dark and dreary, like October has decided to strangle the last breath out of summer.
It’s that last night as I was walking back from the pub I was harassed by not only the paparazzi but a few party boys looking to cause trouble with Mad Magnus. It took a lot of restraint not to punch them out, because, believe me, I could have with ease, and it wouldn’t have mattered how big they were. But with the paparazzi on my tra
il and cameras at the ready, I couldn’t afford to blow it.
So I just took their insults. Apparently I’m an attention whore, I’m not fit to rule, and I’m the laughing stock of the country. You know, the usual things I’ve been hearing these days.
I guess it didn’t help that earlier in the day a press conference had been called at the palace. I had to stand, with my parents flanked on either side of me, before a row of photographers and journalists, including those damn Russian twins, and make a public apology to the prime minister, to his daughter, to my family, and to the Norwegian people.
I don’t even know how I got through it. It was humiliating to say the very least but I guess that was the point of the whole thing. Plus, I did mean what I was saying. I am beyond sorry that all of this happened, not just because it’s brought deep shame to my family, my father especially, but because it’s pretty much ruined my life.
Then, after the press conference and the profuse apologies, I had to head over to the prime minister’s office and apologize to him in person. Thank god his daughter wasn’t there.
Prime Minister Erling Lundström has never liked me. That’s been apparent from his glib comments over the years about my reputation, and the way he kind of sneers at me when we’re face to face, as if I’m the chewed up gum beneath his shoe.
This meeting was no different and there were many times I wanted to wipe that smug look off his face with a cutting remark or two. But, for the sake of everything and everyone, I managed to bite my tongue and behave. I nearly had tears rolling down my face, and I hope he thought it was because of how sorry I was that I humiliated him, not because I was thinking about having to spend the rest of my life married to a stranger.
Which is another reason why I want to go outside and walk around, to let the rain soak me from head to toe as I stroll from pub to pub, hoping to wash all the bullshit off me and get belligerently drunk. It’s been a few days now since Ella and I had apparently gotten engaged and I’m still waiting to hear if this is actually happening or not.