Outside the caves and back at the base of the gravina, Froi couldn’t help but marvel at how it had taken him half the time to travel back to where he had begun his journey. He wondered what else the caves could offer those who were desperate not to be found. He waited until early morning to make his way to the others, praying they would still be there. He was more than half a mile upstream and could see only three of Bestiano’s riders. He figured they would have had no clue about where he was this last week. Perhaps they had become lazy. But not too lazy. They wanted Quintana. Bestiano wanted her. She was his only way back into the palace and to power. Bestiano’s capture of the king’s true assassin, the king’s own treacherous daughter, would bring him some kind of credibility among some of the provincari. Despite everything that had taken place between them, Froi was her only chance of survival. If Quintana, Gargarin, Arjuro, and Lirah had left the cave or been caught by the riders, Froi would search for them and not return to Lumatere until he knew they were safe.
Later that morning, he crept through the entrance of their cave. When he was satisfied that the branches and bracken were back in place, he turned, only to see Lirah wielding Gargarin’s staff at his head. Froi ducked, and something flashed in her eyes. Was it relief that he wasn’t a rider? Or relief that he had returned?
“You got lost, did you?” she asked coldly.
They stared at each other for a long time, and Froi felt the anger return.
“Not what you wanted, am I, Lirah?” he spat out. “Not what you dreamed of?”
“I never wanted and I never dreamed,” she said quietly, taking the pack from his hand. “So don’t presume you know what passes through my head.”
She walked away but turned when he didn’t follow.
“I think it frightens her more when you’re not around than when you are,” she said. “Come.”
There were no hugs or tears on Froi’s return. Only hostility. Quintana was cold, and Arjuro plain grunting rude. Gargarin refused to look at him, his head bent over his wretched sketches of water troughs and whatnot. In the center of their cave, Froi emptied his pack. He saw their eyes widen when the bread and cheese and bacon appeared before them, and he wondered how long it had been since they last ate.
“You think we’ll forgive you, just like that,” Arjuro said, keeping his distance.
Froi retrieved a bottle of mead from his pack. “As I don’t believe I did anything that requires forgiveness, I’ll merely hand this over for you to swill in silence.”
“You’ve been gone six days,” Gargarin shouted, finally looking up and throwing his pages across the cave. “Six days! We thought you were dead!”
Froi was surprised by his outburst. Lirah merely picked up the scattered papers, shuffling them together. Quintana was staring at the food. She looked pale and drawn, the dark circles under her eyes even more pronounced.
“Eat,” Froi ordered. But still she refused to step closer.
“Who gave you all this?” Lirah asked, kneeling beside Froi, pages in hand.
“A couple on a farm beyond the gravina,” he said, breaking some bread and placing a piece of cheese inside. He held it up to Quintana, who gazed at it hungrily. When she refused to take it, he bit into it, chewed, swallowed, and held it out to her again. This time she took it.
“I tried to steal a horse and they let me stay a night or two.” He looked at them, nodding. “Good, honest people. They treated me like they would a son,” he added, his tone emphasizing the last part.
Arjuro took a swig of the mead, wiping his mouth with satisfaction. “Who would have guessed? He’s a needy little thing, isn’t he?”
For a long time there was only the sound of chewing and grunting. Froi watched them all, a strange sort of peace coming over him.
“I know how to get to Jidia without the riders seeing us.”
Everyone stopped chewing and stared.
“The steps of Jidia,” he said.
Gargarin shook his head with disbelief.
“It’s a myth.”
Froi waved the map in front of his face.
“Not according to this map. We’re going to have to take a chance and leave here. The cave is half a mile downstream. If we travel in the dark, in the early hours of the morning, we should be safe.”
“I say it’s a mistake,” Gargarin said. “We could be following a trail that does not exist and end up creating a prison for ourselves in those caves. Starving to death at that.”
“Always the optimist,” Arjuro muttered.
Later, Froi and the others lay, trying to sleep. All except for Quintana, who still sat upright, fighting to stay awake.
“I dreamed,” Quintana said. “Two nights past.”
While the others murmured their acknowledgment, as though they had become used to her ramblings, Froi’s heart began to hammer in his chest.
“I dream between sleep and wakefulness,” Quintana continued indignantly.
“I, for one, would like to have the opportunity to sleep now, so I can dream,” Arjuro said, drowsy from the mead.
Gargarin made a sound in agreement, but Froi kept his eyes on Quintana, the light from the flames making her look ghostly, even fragile.
“What did you dream about?” he asked, and he couldn’t keep the gruffness from his voice.
Quintana held up a thumb and two fingers, a question in her eyes. It was the identical gesture Lirah had captured and painted on the wall of her prison all those years ago.
Froi crawled out of his bedroll and picked up Gargarin’s quill and papers. He tried to get closer to her, but she hissed like the cats he had seen on the streets of the Sarnak capital, protecting their litter from the daggers of hungry men.
“Froi,” Lirah warned from her bedroll.
Froi began to draw. “I dreamed of this,” he said when he finished the sketch, holding it up. “I dreamed …”
He felt his face warming up.
Suddenly the others were wide awake and looking his way.
“You dreamed what?” Gargarin asked “What have you drawn there?”
Froi held it up over the light of the fire.
“I dreamed she was drawing these letters on my body,” he mumbled.
He felt four sets of eyes on him, three sets looking at him questioningly. “Didn’t you say nothing intimate took place between you two?” Gargarin asked suspiciously.
“Didn’t say that at all,” Froi said, on the defensive. “What makes you think something did take place between us?”
Arjuro made a rude sound. “It’s in your voice, you little snake.”
Lirah was looking at Quintana as suspiciously as Gargarin had looked at Froi. “I thought you said he pleaded illness and lack of interest each time,” she said.
“Well, he did,” Quintana said indignantly. “But on the final night, he was up for swiving and I was reassured once again that the gods had sent him to break the curse.”
“We don’t use that word, Princess,” Gargarin said politely.
“I use it all the time,” Arjuro said. “One of my favorite words, actually.”
Froi didn’t think there’d be any sleep tonight, judging from the idiotic conversation.
“What made you so sure he was sent to break the curse, Quintana?” Lirah asked patiently. “Why not the other last borns?”
“It’s written all over him. Have I not said that over and over again, Lirah?” Quintana asked, annoyed.
Froi shuddered. There were too many signs to ignore now. Hamlyn’s dream of his son. Quintana’s strange words. Rafuel’s excitement that day in his prison.
When no one had spoken for a while, he turned to them, giving up the pretense of anyone getting sleep.
“The man whose farm I worked dreamed that his son warned him about someone coming their way with the words of the gods written all over him.”
Now he truly had everyone’s attention. Gargarin stood and walked to where Lirah was studying Froi’s sketch.
“What is it?” Fro
i asked.
“You’ve never seen this?” Lirah asked, surprised.
He shook his head, frightened by their scrutiny. Lirah looked at Quintana. “Can we show him?” she asked with a gruff gentleness.
Quintana studied Froi a moment or two before gathering her hair in her fist and turning to reveal her neck. The sign of the last-born girls. Identical to the lettering he had sketched on the parchment. In his dream, she had painted the strange word on his back with strokes that had made his skin feel alive. He had awoken, aroused. Had some kind of sorcery helped her creep into his dream as Isaboe was able to do with Vestie of the Flatlands?
“What does it mean?” Froi asked, his throat feeling as if he had swallowed sand.
Gargarin was studying his face. “It means that perhaps something good came out of Abroi after all,” he said quietly.
Froi was shaken awake. In an instant, his hand snaked out and caught the throat of whoever loomed over him. When he saw Gargarin’s pale face, he let go, shoving him away. “I could have killed you, idiot!”
“What is it?” Arjuro murmured from his bedroll.
“Come with me,” Gargarin said. “Both of you.”
Froi looked over to where Quintana sat watching them, the lids of her eyes heavy with fatigue.
Gargarin led Froi and Arjuro to the small entrance and began to crawl through the tunnel into the first cave. They followed him out into the dark.
“The sun is about to rise,” Gargarin whispered. “Humor me. Please.”
Gargarin’s eyes flashed with a fervor that Froi hadn’t seen in them before. There was too much strangeness in the air, and he wanted to run from it all. He wanted to follow bonds and plow land. Not believe in a grieving father’s dream and a mad girl’s ranting.
“Those who are gods’ blessed can read the words of the gods when the sun appears.” Gargarin said. “It’s why Arjuro wakes early and why he sat on the godshouse balcony each morning. He was waiting for a sign to appear on the palace walls.”
Arjuro looked away, a bitter expression on his face.
“But perhaps you’ve been looking in the wrong place, Arjuro. On the night Froi was left with them, the priests of Trist dreamed that the words of a prophecy would appear in the palace. True? I never believed that. I thought they’d appear in any one of the thousands of caves in Charyn, and when I was released, I searched for years and years.”
Arjuro’s eyes finally met his brother’s.
“You should have gone to Paladozza,” he said sadly. “At least De Lancey would have given you an easy life.”
“Some men aren’t born for an easy life, Arjuro. And I’m not out here for regrets and what-ifs.”
“Then what are we doing out here?” Arjuro asked.
“Remember the readings of Carapasio?”
“Who?” Froi asked.
“A first-century gossip,” Arjuro said. “He bored us to death with his ramblings about life a thousand years ago. I had to read them as part of my godshouse education when I was sixteen.”
“He means I read them for him and recited them to the priests who thought I was Arjuro,” Gargarin said.
Arjuro looked sheepish. “But I did end up reading them later.”
“Where were the words of the gods first written in Charyn?” Gargarin asked his brother.
Arjuro was confused for a moment. “Why do you ask —”
Arjuro stopped, some kind of realization on his face.
“What?” Froi asked, now looking from Arjuro to Gargarin. “Can one of you explain instead of doing that frightening nodding thing where you look too alike?”
“The gods wrote their words on the body of the first oracle. She had pitched her tent, drawing crowds from all over the Citavita with her ability to foretell the future. She had no past and no name, but written all over her were the names of provinces and the rules for living and dying. It’s how they find the oracle each generation. An oracle dies, and soon after, a young girl arrives on the doorstep of the gods house after traveling for days and weeks. No family. No past. Sent by the gods, they say. Except for these last eighteen years.”
“And you believe that?” Froi asked.
“Get undressed, Froi,” Gargarin said.
“No!” he said, horrified. It was freezing, and if the riders came across them, he’d be unarmed.
The sun began to appear in the sky, and Gargarin snapped his fingers impatiently. Froi grunted, annoyed.
“Trust me,” Gargarin hissed.
Froi removed his clothing, grumbling.
“Be careful,” Gargarin said, and Froi realized he was speaking to Arjuro. “Don’t look straightaway, Ari. Remember what it would do to your eyes when we were children.”
Froi had no idea what he was speaking about. He tried to twist his body so he could look over his shoulder to his back. But he saw nothing.
“What’s there?” Froi asked, half believing that perhaps words would magically appear. Gargarin forced him still, cold hands on his shoulders. Froi waited, felt the moment the sun entered the cave, welcomed the way the light crept in, caressed his arm, his shoulder, and then all over his body. And still he waited, wanting to believe, not realizing how desperate he was to.
Then he heard the sound. Of pure unadulterated pain. Froi swung around, and Arjuro was bent over, palms to his eyes, writhing in agony. Gargarin was beside him in an instant, but Arjuro pushed him away.
“I can do it. I can do it.”
“What’s happened?” Froi asked.
“Turn. Turn,” Arjuro whispered hoarsely, his eyes weeping blood. Froi shook his head again.
“Turn, I say.”
Froi swung around, his heart hammering, sweat pouring from a body that seemed on fire, and still he heard the gasps coming from Arjuro.
“He’s in pain,” Froi argued. “This isn’t right.”
“If I speak it aloud, are you still able to write it down?” Arjuro asked Gargarin, his voice broken.
Gargarin was staring at Froi, stunned. It was as though he were seeing him for the first time. “Stay still,” Gargarin said, almost reverently. “Speak it, Arjuro. We will decipher it together later.”
Arjuro spoke, and Froi heard words from a strange tongue. Not of Sarnak or Lumatere or Charyn. A tongue, not quite human, spoken from a voice so torn that it made him sick to think of the pain. Gargarin scribbled down his words with twisted fingers, sometimes asking Arjuro to repeat a word.
When Arjuro was finished, Froi dressed quickly while Gargarin pulled Arjuro to his feet, trying to hold his brother up with his own feeble body. Froi pushed him gently out of the way, placing Arjuro’s arm around his shoulder.
A startled Lirah was on her feet the moment they entered their nook.
“What happened?” she asked, helping Froi lay Arjuro down. His eyes were red raw and still weeping blood.
Gargarin tipped the mead into the cloth of his shirt and wiped Arjuro’s face clean and Froi saw tears in the priestling’s eyes.
“I thought they had forsaken me,” Arjuro whispered.
And Froi could see that Arjuro was crying with joy.
For the next two days, Gargarin and Arjuro sat with their heads together, scribbling, arguing, writing. Froi was used to their silence together, but not this. There were times when he saw the power of the brothers combined and understood what it was that made them so desired in the godshouse and the palace. He came to understand the difference between the gods’ blessed and a smart man. His uncle was one. His father the other.
Later that night, Gargarin shook him awake. “We’ve got to remove her from danger,” he whispered. “I don’t know what she is … what you both are, but if I’m going to believe anything in this damned life of mine, it’s that the gods sent you to cure this wretched kingdom.”
Froi sat up and retrieved the map from his pack.
“Then we do this my way,” he said. “We take the steps to Jidia.”
Early the next morning, before the sun rose, they left their
hiding place and traveled upstream to the cave that would lead them to Jidia. As they passed the camp of riders, Froi could see two on guard. He made a signal toward the others, and they stayed low behind two fallen logs while Froi stealthily climbed the closest tree. Once up high, he shot three bolts from the crossbow into undergrowth on the other side of the stream. Alerted to the sound, the two riders made their way across the water. The moment the men were out of sight, Froi leaped down and led the others away.
Inside the caves, they traveled for most of the day, Froi forced to stop time and time again, searching for the next instruction on the map. When he stopped for the umpteenth time, Arjuro took the map from his hands and studied it a moment before handing it back and leading the way. At first Froi was irritated. There were no secret symbols or ancient words that needed to be deciphered. But then he realized Arjuro had an extraordinary ability to recall what he had studied only once. The priestling never looked at the map again.
“Don’t ask me to explain it,” Gargarin said quietly. The cave had narrowed, and they were now walking one behind the other.
“Perhaps it comes with being gods’ blessed,” Gargarin said. “When we were younger, he could read a book and memorize every page, regardless of its size.”
“Then why did you sit for Arjuro’s exam when he would have had a better chance of remembering every detail?” Froi asked.
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