In the interim, however, he suffered Gerald and little Ruthven to pilot him; he remained cheerfully oblivious to the snubs and indifference accorded him by Mrs. Ruthven, Mrs. Fane, and others of their entourage whom he encountered over the card-tables or at card-suppers. And all the while he was attending to his business with an energy and activity that ought to have shamed Gerald, and did, at times, particularly when he arrived at the office utterly unfit for the work before him.
But Neergard continued astonishingly tolerant and kind, lending him money, advancing him what he required, taking up or renewing notes for him, until the boy, heavily in his debt, plunged more heavily still in sheer desperation, only to flounder the deeper at every struggle to extricate himself.
Alixe Ruthven suspected something of this, but it was useless as well as perilous in other ways for her to argue with Gerald, for the boy had come to a point where even his devotion to her could not stop him. He must go on. He did not say so to Alixe; he merely laughed, assuring her that he was all right; that he knew how much he could afford to lose, and that he would stop when his limit was in sight. Alas, he had passed his limit long since; and already it was so far behind him that he dared not look back — dared no longer even look forward.
Meanwhile the Ruthvens were living almost lavishly, and keeping four more horses; but Eileen Erroll’s bank balance had now dwindled to three figures; and Gerald had not only acted offensively toward Selwyn, but had quarrelled so violently with Austin that the latter, thoroughly incensed and disgusted, threatened to forbid him the house.
“The little fool!” he said to Selwyn, “came here last night, stinking of wine, and attempted to lay down the law to me! — tried to dragoon me into a compromise with him over the investments I have made for him. By God, Phil, he shall not control one cent until the trust conditions are fulfilled, though it was left to my discretion, too. And I told him so flatly; I told him he wasn’t fit to be trusted with the coupons of a repudiated South American bond—”
“Hold on, Austin. That isn’t the way to tackle a boy like that!”
“Isn’t it? Well, why not? Do you expect me to dicker with him?”
“No; but, Austin, you’ve always been a little brusque with him. Don’t you think—”
“No, I don’t. It’s discipline he needs, and he’ll get it good and plenty every time he comes here.”
“I — I’m afraid he may cease coming here. That’s the worst of it. For his sister’s sake I think we ought to try to put up with—”
“Put up! Put up! I’ve been doing nothing else since he came of age. He’s turned out a fool of a puppy, I tell you; he’s idle, lazy, dissipated, impudent, conceited, insufferable—”
“But not vicious, Austin, and not untruthful. Where his affections are centred he is always generous; where they should be centred he is merely thoughtless, not deliberately selfish—”
“See here, Phil, how much good has your molly-coddling done him? You warned him to be cautious in his intimacy with Neergard, and he was actually insulting to you—”
“I know; but I understood. He probably had some vague idea of loyalty to a man whom he had known longer than he knew me. That was all; that was what I feared, too. But it had to be done — I was determined to venture it; and it seems I accomplished nothing. But don’t think that Gerald’s attitude toward me makes any difference, Austin. It doesn’t; I’m just as devoted to the boy, just as sorry for him, just as ready to step in when the chance comes, as it surely will, Austin. He’s only running a bit wilder than the usual colt; it takes longer to catch and bridle him—”
“Somebody’ll rope him pretty roughly before you run him down,” said Gerard.
“I hope not. Of course it’s a chance he takes, and we can’t help it; but I’m trying to believe he’ll tire out in time and come back to us for his salt. And, Austin, we’ve simply got to believe in him, you know — on Eileen’s account.”
Austin grew angrier and redder:
“Eileen’s account? Do you mean her bank account? It’s easy enough to believe in him if you inspect his sister’s bank account. Believe in him? Oh, certainly I do; I believe he’s pup enough to come sneaking to his sister to pay for all the damfooleries he’s engaged in. . . . And I’ve positively forbidden her to draw another check to his order—”
“It’s that little bangled whelp, Ruthven,” said Selwyn between his teeth. “I warned Gerald most solemnly of that man, but—” He shrugged his shoulders and glanced about him at the linen-covered furniture and bare floors. After a moment he looked up: “The game there is of course notorious. I — if matters did not stand as they do” — he flushed painfully— “I’d go straight to Ruthven and find out whether or not this business could be stopped.”
“Stopped? No, it can’t be. How are you going to stop a man from playing cards in his own house? They all do it — that sort. Fane’s rather notorious himself; they call his house the house of ill-Fane, you know. If you or I or any of our family were on any kind of terms with the Ruthvens, they might exclude Gerald to oblige us. We are not, however; and, anyway, if Gerald means to make a gambler and a souse of himself at twenty-one, he’ll do it. But it’s pretty rough on us.”
“It’s rougher on him, Austin; and it’s roughest on his sister. Well” — he held out his hand— “good-bye. No, thanks, I won’t stop to see Nina and Eileen; I’m going to try to think up some way out of this. And — if Gerald comes to you again — try another tack — just try it. You know, old fellow, that, between ourselves, you and I are sometimes short of temper and long of admonition. Let’s try reversing the combination with Gerald.”
But Austin only growled from the depths of his linen-shrouded arm-chair, and Selwyn turned away, wondering what in the world he could do in a matter already far beyond the jurisdiction of either Austin or himself.
If Alixe had done her best to keep Gerald away, she appeared to be quite powerless in the matter; and it was therefore useless to go to her. Besides, he had every inclination to avoid her. He had learned his lesson.
To whom then could he go? Through whom could he reach Gerald? Through Nina? Useless. And Gerald had already defied Austin. Through Neergard, then? But he was on no terms with Neergard; how could he go to him? Through Rosamund Fane? At the thought he made a wry face. Any advances from him she would wilfully misinterpret. And Ruthven? How on earth could he bring himself to approach him?
And the problem therefore remained as it was; the only chance of any solution apparently depending upon these friends of Gerald’s, not one of whom was a friend of Selwyn; indeed some among them were indifferent to the verge of open enmity.
And yet he had promised Eileen to do what he could. What merit lay in performing an easy obligation? What courage was required to keep a promise easily kept? If he cared anything for her — if he really cared for Gerald, he owed them more than effortless fulfilment. And here there could be no fulfilment without effort, without the discarding from self of the last rags of pride. And even then, what hope was there — after the sacrifice of self and the disregard of almost certain humiliation?
It was horribly hard for him; there seemed to be no chance in sight. But forlorn hope was slowly rousing the soldier in him — the grim, dogged, desperate necessity of doing his duty to the full and of leaving consequences to that Destiny, which some call by a name more reverent.
So first of all, when at length he had decided, he nerved himself to strike straight at the centre; and within the hour he found Gerald at the Stuyvesant Club.
The boy descended to the visitors’ rooms, Selwyn’s card in his hand and distrust written on every feature. And at Selwyn’s first frank and friendly words he reddened to the temples and checked him.
“I won’t listen,” he said. “They — Austin and — and everybody have been putting you up to this until I’m tired of it. Do they think I’m a baby? Do they suppose I don’t know enough to take care of myself? Are they trying to make me ridiculous? I tell you they’d better let me
alone. My friends are my friends, and I won’t listen to any criticism of them, and that settles it.”
“Gerald—”
“Oh, I know perfectly well that you dislike Neergard. I don’t, and that’s the difference.”
“I’m not speaking of Mr. Neergard, Gerald; I’m only trying to tell you what this man Ruthven really is doing—”
“What do I care what he is doing!” cried Gerald angrily. “And, anyway, it isn’t likely I’d come to you to find out anything about Mrs. Ruthven’s second husband!”
Selwyn rose, very white and still. After a moment he drew a quiet breath, his clinched hands relaxed, and he picked up his hat and gloves.
“They are my friends,” muttered Gerald, as pale as he. “You drove me into speaking that way.”
“Perhaps I did, my boy. . . . I don’t judge you. . . . If you ever find you need help, come to me; and if you can’t come, and still need me, send for me. I’ll do what I can — always. I know you better than you know yourself. Good-bye.”
He turned to the door; and Gerald burst out: “Why can’t you let my friends alone? I liked you before you began this sort of thing!”
“I will let them alone if you will,” said Selwyn, halting. “I can’t stand by and see you exploited and used and perverted. Will you give me one chance to talk it over, Gerald?”
“No, I wont!” returned Gerald hotly; “I’ll stand for my friends every time! There’s no treachery in me!”
“You are not standing by me very fast,” said the elder man gently.
“I said I was standing by my friends!” repeated the boy.
“Very well, Gerald; but it’s at the expense of your own people, I’m afraid.”
“That’s my business, and you’re not one of ‘em!” retorted the boy, infuriated; “and you won’t be, either, if I can prevent it, no matter whether people say that you’re engaged to her—”
“What!” whispered Selwyn, wheeling like a flash. The last vestige of colour had fled from his face; and Gerald caught his breath, almost blinded by the blaze of fury in the elder man’s eyes.
Neither spoke again; and after a moment Selwyn’s eyes fell, he turned heavily on his heel and walked away, head bent, gray eyes narrowing to slits.
Yet, through the brain’s chaos and the heart’s loud tumult and the clamour of pulses run wild at the insult flung into his very face, the grim instinct to go on persisted. And he went on, and on, for her sake — on — he knew not how — until he came to Neergard’s apartment in one of the vast West-Side constructions, bearing the name of a sovereign state; and here, after an interval, he followed his card to Neergard’s splendid suite, where a man-servant received him and left him seated by a sunny window overlooking the blossoming foliage of the Park.
When Neergard came in, and stood on the farther side of a big oak table, Selwyn rose, returning the cool, curt nod.
“Mr. Neergard,” he said, “it is not easy for me to come here after what I said to you when I severed my connection with your firm. You have every reason to be unfriendly toward me; but I came on the chance that whatever resentment you may feel will not prevent you from hearing me out.”
“Personal resentment,” said Neergard slowly, “never interferes with my business. I take it, of course, that you have called upon a business matter. Will you sit down?”
“Thank you; I have only a moment. And what I am here for is to ask you, as Mr. Erroll’s friend, to use your influence on Mr. Erroll — every atom of your influence — to prevent him from ruining himself financially through his excesses. I ask you, for his family’s sake, to discountenance any more gambling; to hold him strictly to his duties in your office, to overlook no more shortcomings of his, but to demand from him what any trained business man demands of his associates as well as of his employees. I ask this for the boy’s sake.”
Neergard’s close-set eyes focussed a trifle closer to Selwyn’s, yet did not meet them.
“Mr. Selwyn,” he said, “have you come here to criticise the conduct of my business?”
“Criticise! No, I have not. I merely ask you—”
“You are merely asking me,” cut in Neergard, “to run my office, my clerks, and my associate in business after some theory of your own.”
Selwyn looked at the man and knew he had lost; yet he forced himself to go on:
“The boy regards you as his friend. Could you not, as his friend, discourage his increasing tendency toward dissipation—”
“I am not aware that he is dissipated.”
“What!”
“I say that I am not aware that Gerald requires any interference from me — or from you, either,” said Neergard coolly. “And as far as that goes, I and my business require no interference either. And I believe that settles it.”
He touched a button; the man-servant appeared to usher Selwyn out.
The latter set his teeth in his under lip and looked straight and hard at Neergard, but Neergard thrust both hands in his pockets, turned squarely on his heel, and sauntered out of the room, yawning as he went.
It bid fair to become a hard day for Selwyn; he foresaw it, for there was more for him to do, and the day was far from ended, and his self-restraint was nearly exhausted!
An hour later he sent his card in to Rosamund Fane; and Rosamund came down, presently, mystified, flattered, yet shrewdly alert and prepared for anything since the miracle of his coming justified such preparation.
“Why in the world,” she said with a flushed gaiety perfectly genuine, “did you ever come to see me? Will you please sit here, rather near me? — or I shall not dare believe that you are that same Captain Selwyn who once was so deliciously rude to me at the Minster’s dance.”
“Was there not a little malice — just a very little — on your part to begin it?” he asked, smiling.
“Malice? Why? Just because I wanted to see how you and Alixe Ruthven would behave when thrust into each other’s arms? Oh, Captain Selwyn — what a harmless little jest of mine to evoke all that bitterness you so smilingly poured out on me! . . . But I forgave you; I’ll forgive you more than that — if you ask me. Do you know” — and she laid her small head on one side and smiled at him out of her pretty doll’s eyes— “do you know that there are very few things I might not be persuaded to pardon you? Perhaps” — with laughing audacity— “there are not any at all. Try, if you please.”
“Then you surely will forgive me for what I have come to ask you,” he said lightly. “Won’t you?”
“Yes,” she said, her pink-and-white prettiness challenging him from every delicate feature— “yes — I will pardon you — on one condition.”
“And what is that, Mrs. Fane?”
“That you are going to ask me something quite unpardonable!” she said with a daring little laugh. “For if it’s anything less improper than an impropriety I won’t forgive you. Besides, there’d be nothing to forgive. So please begin, Captain Selwyn.”
“It’s only this,” he said: “I am wondering whether you would do anything for me?”
“Anything! Merci! Isn’t that extremely general, Captain Selwyn? But you never can tell; ask me.”
So he bent forward, his clasped hands between his knees, and told her very earnestly of his fears about Gerald, asking her to use her undoubted influence with the boy to shame him from the card-tables, explaining how utterly disastrous to him and his family his present course was.
“He is very fond of you, Mrs. Fane — and you know how easy it is for a boy to be laughed out of excesses by a pretty woman of experience. You see I am desperately put to it or I would never have ventured to trouble you—”
“I see,” she said, looking at him out of eyes bright with disappointment.
“Could you help us, then?” he asked pleasantly.
“Help us, Captain Selwyn? Who is the ‘us,’ please?”
“Why, Gerald and me — and his family,” he added, meeting her eyes. The eyes began to dance with malice.
“His fam
ily,” repeated Rosamund; “that is to say, his sister, Miss Erroll. His family, I believe, ends there; does it not?”
“Yes, Mrs. Fane.”
“I see. . . . Miss Erroll is naturally worried over him. But I wonder why she did not come to me herself instead of sending you as her errant ambassador?”
“Miss Erroll did not send me,” he said, flushing up. And, looking steadily into the smiling doll’s face confronting him, he knew again that he had failed.
“I am not inclined to be very much flattered after all,” said Rosamund. “You should have come on your own errand, Captain Selwyn, if you expected a woman to listen to you. Did you not know that?”
“It is not a question of errands or of flattery,” he said wearily; “I thought you might care to influence a boy who is headed for serious trouble — that is all, Mrs. Fane.”
She smiled: “Come to me on your own errand — for Gerald’s sake, for anybody’s sake — for your own, preferably, and I’ll listen. But don’t come to me on another woman’s errands, for I won’t listen — even to you.”
“I have come on my own errand!” he repeated coldly. “Miss Erroll knew nothing about it, and shall not hear of it from me. Can you not help me, Mrs. Fane?”
But Rosamund’s rose-china features had hardened into a polished smile; and Selwyn stood up, wearily, to make his adieux.
But, as he entered his hansom before the door, he knew the end was not yet; and once more he set his face toward the impossible; and once more the hansom rolled away over the asphalt, and once more it stopped — this time before the house of Ruthven.
Every step he took now was taken through sheer force of will — and in her service; because, had it been, now, only for Gerald’s sake, he knew he must have weakened — and properly, perhaps, for a man owes something to himself. But what he was now doing was for a young girl who trusted him with all the fervour and faith of her heart and soul; and he could spare himself in nowise if, in his turn, he responded heart and soul to the solemn appeal.
Mr. Ruthven, it appeared, was at home and would receive Captain Selwyn in his own apartment.
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