“What?”
“If you do not care to go — it is not an order — merely a matter of volunteering.... The general makes no question of your courage if you choose to decline.”
She said, looking at the officer a little wearily:
“Thank the general. It will give me much pleasure to fulfill his request. Ask him to bear my brother in mind; that is all.”
The A.-D.-C. bowed to her, cap in hand, then went out, making considerable racket with sabre and boots.
Half an hour later a long, deep, warning blast from the gunboat’s whistle set the echoes flying through the hills.
Aboard, leading her horse, the Special Messenger, booted and spurred, in a hybrid uniform of a subaltern of regulars, handed the bridle to a sailor and turned to salute the quarterdeck.
* * * * *
The United States gunboat, Kiowa, dropped anchor at the railroad wharf two days later, and ran out a blackened gangplank. Over it the Special Messenger, wrapped in her rubber cloak, led her horse to shore, mounted, and galloped toward the hill where the flag of corps headquarters was flapping in the wet wind.
The rain ended as she rode inland; ahead of her a double rainbow glowed and slowly faded to a rosy nimbus.
Corps headquarters was heavily impressive and paternally polite, referring her to headquarters of the unattached cavalry division.
She remounted, setting her horse at an easy canter for the intervening two miles, riding through acres of tents and vistas of loaded wagon trains; and at last an exceedingly ornamental staff officer directed her to her destination, and a few moments later she dismounted and handed her bridle to an orderly, whose curiously fashioned forage cap seemed strangely familiar.
As the Special Messenger entered his tent and saluted, the colonel of the Fourth Missouri Cavalry rose from a camp chair, standing over six feet in his boots. He was magnificently built; his closely clipped hair was dark and curly, his skin smoothly bronzed and flushed at the cheek bones; his allure that of a very splendid and grave and youthful god, save for the gayly impudent uptwist of his short mustache and the stilled humor in his steady eyes.
His uniform was entirely different from the regulation — he wore a blue forage cap with short, heavy visor of unpolished leather shadowing the bridge of his nose; his dark blue jacket was shell-cut; over it he wore a slashed dolman trimmed at throat, wrists and edges with fur; his breeches were buff; his boots finished at the top with a yellow cord forming a heart-shaped knot in front; at his heels trailed the most dainty and rakish of sabres, light, graceful, curved almost like a scimiter.
All this is what the Special Messenger saw as she entered, instantly recognizing a regimental uniform which she had never seen but once before in her brief life. And straight through her heart struck a pain swift as a dagger thrust, and her hand in its buckskin gauntlet fell limply from the peak of her visor, and the color died in her cheeks.
What the colonel of the Fourth Missouri saw before him was a lad, slim, rather pale, dark-eyed, swathed to the chin in the folds of a wet poncho; and he said, examining her musingly and stroking the ends of his curt mustache upward:
“I understood from General Sheridan that the Special Messenger was to report to me. Where is she?”
The lightning pain of the shock when she recognized the uniform interfered with breath and speech; confused, she raised her gloved hand and laid it unconsciously over her heart; and the colonel of the Fourth Missouri waited.
“I am the Special Messenger,” she said faintly.
For a moment he scarcely understood that this slender young fellow, with dark hair as closely clipped and as curly as his own, could be a woman. Stern surprise hardened his narrowing gaze; he stood silent, handsome head high, looking down at her; then slowly the latent humor flickered along the edges of lip and lid, curbed instantly as he bowed, faultless, handsome — only the persistently upturned mustache impairing the perfectly detached and impersonal decorum with a warning of the beau sabreur behind it all.
“Will you be seated, madam?”
“Thank you.”
She sat down; the wet poncho was hot and she shifted it, throwing one end across her shoulder. In her uniform she appeared willowy and slim, built like a boy, and with nothing of that graceful awkwardness which almost inevitably betrays such masqueraders. For her limbs were straight at the knees and faultlessly coupled, and there seemed to be the adolescent’s smooth lack of development in the scarcely accented hips — only a straightly flowing harmony of proportion — a lad’s grace muscularly undeveloped.
Two leather straps crossed her breast, one weighted with field glasses, the other with a pouch. From the latter she drew her credentials and would have risen to present them, but the colonel of the Fourth Missouri detained her with a gesture, himself rose, and took the papers from her hand.
While he sat reading, she, hands clasped in her lap, gazed at his well-remembered uniform, busy with her memories once more, and the sweetness of them — and the pain.
They were three years old, these memories, now glimmering alive again amid the whitening ashes of the past; only three years — and centuries seemed to dim the landmarks and bar the backward path that she was following to her girlhood!
She thought of the white-pillared house as it stood at the beginning of the war; the severing of old ties, the averted faces of old friends and neighbors; the mortal apprehension, endless suspense; the insurgent flags fluttering from porch and portico along the still, tree-shaded street; her own heart-breaking isolation in the community when Sumter fell — she an orphan, alone there with her brother and bedridden grandfather.
And she remembered the agony that followed the news from Bull Run, the stupor that fell upon her; the awful heat of that battle summer; her evening prayers, kneeling there beside her brother; the red moons that rose, enormous, menacing, behind the trees; and the widow bird calling, calling to the dead that never answer more.
Her dead? Why hers? A chance regiment passing — cavalry wearing the uniform and number of the Fourth Missouri. Ah! she could see them again, sun-scorched, dusty, fours crowding on fours, trampling past. She could see a young girl in white, fastening the long-hidden flag to its halyards as the evening light faded on the treetops!... And then — and then — he came — into her life, into her house, into her heart, alas! — tall, lean, calm-eyed, yellow-haired, wrapped in the folds of his long, blue mantle!... And she saw him again — a few moments before his regiment charged into that growling thunder beyond the hills somewhere.
And a third time, and the last, she saw him, deathly still, lying on her own bed, and a medical officer pulling the sheet up over his bony face.
* * * * *
The colonel of the Fourth Missouri was looking curiously at her; she started, cleared the dimness from her eyes, and steadied the trembling underlip.
After a moment’s silence the colonel said: “You undertake this duty willingly?”
She nodded, quietly touching her eyes with her handkerchief.
“There is scarcely a chance for you,” he observed with affected carelessness.
She lifted her shoulders in weary disdain of that persistent shadow called danger, which had long since become too familiar to count very heavily.
“I am not afraid — if that is what you mean. Do you think you can get me through?”
The colonel said coolly: “I expect to do my part. Have you a rebel uniform?”
She nodded.
“Where is it?”
“On me — under this.”
The colonel looked at her; a slight shudder passed over him.
“These orders suggest that I start before sunset,” he said. “Meanwhile this tent is yours. My orderly will serve you. The regiment will move out about sunset with some six hundred sabres and Gray’s Rhode Island flying battery.”
He walked to the tent door; she followed.
“Is that your horse?” he asked.
“Yes, Colonel.”
“Fit for t
he work?” turning to look at her.
“Yes, sir.”
“And you?”
She smiled; through the open tent a misty bar of sunshine fell across her face, turning the smooth skin golden. Outside a dismounted trooper on guard presented his carbine as the tall, young colonel strode out. An orderly joined him; they stood a moment consulting in whispers, then the orderly ran for his saddled horse, mounted, and rode off through the lanes of the cavalry camp.
From the tent door the Special Messenger looked out into the camp. Under the base of a grassy hill hundreds of horses were being watered at a brook now discolored by the recent rains; beyond, on a second knoll, the guns of a flying battery stood parked. She could see the red trimmings on the gunners’ jackets as they were lounging about in the grass.
The view from the tent door was extensive; a division, at least, lay encamped within range of the eye; two roads across the hills were full of wagons moving south and east; along another road, stretching far into the valley, masses of cavalry were riding — apparently an entire brigade — but too far away for her to hear the trample of the horses.
From where she stood, however, she could make out the course of a fourth road by the noise of an endless, moving column of horses. At times, above the hillside, she could see their heads, and the enormous canvas-covered muzzles of siege guns; and the racket of hoofs, the powerful crunching and grinding of wheels, the cries of teamsters united in a dull, steady uproar that never ceased.
From their camp, troopers of the Fourth Missouri were idly watching the artillery passing — hundreds of sunburned cavalrymen seated along the hillside, feet dangling, exchanging gibes and jests with the drivers of the siege train below. But from where she stood she could see nothing except horses’ heads tossing, blue caps of mounted men, a crimson guidon flapping, or the sun glittering on the slender, curved blade of some officer’s sabre as he signaled.
North, east, west, south — the whole land seemed to be covered with moving men and beasts and wagons; flags fluttered on every eminence; tents covered plowed fields, pastures, meadows; smoke hung over all, crowning the green woods with haze, veiling hollows, rolling along the railway in endless, yellow billows.
The rain had washed the sky clean, but again this vast, advancing host was soiling heaven and blighting earth as it passed over the land toward that beleaguered city in the South.
War! Everywhere the monotony of this awful panorama, covering her country day after day, month after month, year after year — war, always and everywhere and in every stage — hordes of horses, hordes of men, endless columns of deadly engines! Everywhere, always, death, or the preparation for death — every road and footpath crammed with it, every field trampled by it, every woodland shattered by it, every stream running thick with its pollution. The sour smell of marching men, the stale taint of unclean fires, the stench of beasts — the acrid, indescribable odor that hangs on the sweating flanks of armies seemed to infect sky and earth.
A trooper, munching an apple and carrying a truss of hay, passed, cap cocked rakishly, sabre banging at his heels; and she called to him and he came up, easily respectful under the grin of bodily well being.
“How long have you served in this regiment?” she asked.
He swallowed the bite of apple which crowded out his freckled cheeks: “Three years, sir.”
She drew involuntarily nearer the tent door.
“Then — you were at Sandy River — three years ago?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Do you remember the battle there?”
The soldier looked doubtful. “We was there — I know that; yes, an’ we had a fight — —”
“Yes — near a big white house.”
The soldier nodded. “I guess so; I don’t seem to place no big white house — —”
She asked calmly: “Your regiment had a mounted band once?”
He brightened.
“Yes, sir-ee! They played us in at Sandy River — and they got into it, too, and was cut all to pieces!”
She motioned assent wearily; then, with an effort: “You don’t know, perhaps, where he — where their bandmaster was buried?”
“Sir?”
“The bandmaster of the Fourth Missouri? You remember him — that tall, thin young officer who led them with his sabre — who sat his horse like a colonel of regulars — and wore a cap of fur like — like a hussar of some militia State guard — —”
“Well, you must mean Captain Stanley, who was at that time bandmaster of our regiment. He went in that day at Sandy River when our mounted band was cut to pieces. Orders was to play us in, an’ he done it.”
There was a silence.
“Where is he — buried?” she asked calmly.
“Buried? Why, he ain’t dead, is he?”
“He died at Sandy River — that day,” she said gently. “Don’t you remember?”
“No, sir; our bandmaster wasn’t killed at Sandy River.”
She looked at him amazed, almost frightened.
“What do you mean? He is dead. I — saw him die.”
“It must have been some other bandmaster — not Captain Stanley.”
“I saw the bandmaster of your regiment, the Fourth Missouri Cavalry, brought into that big white house and laid on my — on a bed — —” She stared at the boy, caught him by the sleeve: “He is dead, isn’t he? Do you know what you are telling me? Do you understand what I am saying?”
“Yes, sir. Captain Stanley was our bandmaster — he wasn’t captain then, of course. He played us in at Sandy River — by God! I oughter know, because I got some cut up m’self.”
“You — you tell me that he wasn’t killed?” she repeated, steadying herself against the canvas flap.
“No, sir. I heard tell he was badly hurt — seems like I kinder remember — oh, yes!” The man’s face lighted up. “Yes, sir; Captain Stanley, he had a close shave! It sorter comes back to me now, how the burial detail fetched him back saying they wasn’t going to bury no man that twitched when they shut his coffin. Yes, sir — but it’s three years and a man forgets, and I’ve seen — things — lots of such things in three years with Baring’s dragoons. Yes, sir.”
She closed her eyes; a dizziness swept over her and she swayed where she stood.
“Is he here?”
“Who? Captain Stanley? Yes, sir. Why, he’s captain of the Black Horse troop — F, third squadron.... They’re down that lane near the trees. Shall I take you there?”
She shook her head, holding tightly to the canvas flap; and the trooper, saluting easily, resumed his truss of hay, hitched his belt, cocked his forage cap, and went off whistling.
All that sunny afternoon she lay on the colonel’s camp bed, hands tightly clenched on her breast, eyes closed sometimes, sometimes wide open, gazing at the sun spots crawling on the tent wall.
To her ears came bugle calls from distant hills; drums of marching columns. Sounds of the stirring of thousands made tremulous the dim silence of the tent.
Dreams long dead arose and possessed her — the confused dreams of a woman, still young, awakened from the passionless lethargy of the past.
Vaguely she felt around her the presence of an earth new born, of a new heaven created. She realized her own awakening; she strove to comprehend his resurrection, and it frightened her; she could not understand that what was dead through all these years was now alive, that the ideal she had clung to, evoking it until it had become part of her, was real — an actual and splendid living power. In this vivid resurgence she seemed to lose her precise recollections of him now that he was alive.
While she had believed him dead, everything concerning his memory had been painfully real — his personal appearance, the way he moved, turned, the sound of his voice, the touch of his hand as it tightened in hers when he lay there at sunset, while she and Death watched the color fading from his face.
But now — now that he was living — here in this same world with her again — strive as she would she c
ould neither fix either his features nor the sound of his voice upon her memory. Only the stupefying wonder of it possessed her, dulling her senses so that even the happiness of it seemed unreal.
* * * * *
How would they meet? — they two, who had never met but thrice? How would they seem, each to the other, when first their eyes encountered?
In all their lives they had exchanged so little speech! Yet from the first — from the first moment, when she had raised her gaze to him as he entered in his long, blue cloak, her silence had held a deeper meaning than her speech. And on that blessed night instinct broke the silence; yet, with every formal word exchanged, consciousness of the occult bond between them grew.
But it was not until she thought him dead that she understood that it had been love — love unheralded, unexpected, incredible — love at the first confronting, the first encountering glance. And to the memory of that mystery she had been faithful from the night on which she believed he died.
How had it been with him throughout these years? How had it been with him?
The silvery trumpets of the cavalry were still sounding as she mounted her horse before the colonel’s tent and rode out into the splendour of the setting sun.
On every side cavalrymen were setting toe to stirrup; troop after troop, forming by fours, trotted out to the crest of the hill where the Western light lay red across the furrowed grass.
A blaze of brilliant color filled the road where an incoming Zouave regiment had halted, unslinging knapsacks, preparing to encamp, and the setting sun played over them in waves of fire, striking fiercely across their crimson fezzes and trousers.
Through their gorgeous lines the cavalry rode, colonel and staff leading; and with them rode the Special Messenger, knee to knee with the chief trumpeter, who made his horse dance when he passed the gorgeous Zouave color guard, to show off the gridiron of yellow slashings across his corded and tasseled breast.
And now another infantry regiment blocked the way — a heavy, blue column tramping in with its field music playing and both flags flying in the sunset radiance — the Stars and Stripes, with the number of the regiment printed in gold across crimson; and the State flag — white, an Indian and an uplifted sword on the snowy field: Massachusetts infantry.
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