And I heeded not his cry;
Now Christ in His infinite mercy grant
That the prayer I say in my day of want,
Be not in scorn put by.”
No; he had never known her to be unkind, uncharitable, unforgiving; he had never known her to be insincere, untruthful, or envious. But the decalogue is no stronger than its weakest link. Was it in the heart of such a woman — this woman he loved — was it in the heart of this young girl to shatter it?
He went on to Ashuelyn, confident of her and of himself, less confident of his sister — almost appalled at the prospect of reconciling his father and mother to this marriage that must surely be. Yet — so far in life — life had finally yielded to him what he fought for; and it must yield now; and in the end it would surely give him the loyalty and sympathy of his family. Which meant that Valerie would listen to him; and, in the certainty of his family’s ultimate acquiescence, she would wear his ring and face with him the problems and the sorrows that must come to all.
Cameron drove down to the station in the motor-car to meet him:
“Hello, Genius,” he said, patting Neville on the back with a pudgy hand.
“How’s your twin brother, Vice?”
“Hello, you large and adipose object!” retorted Neville, seating himself in the tonneau. “How is that overworked, money-grubbing intellect of yours staggering along?”
“Handicapped with precious thoughts; Ogilvy threw ’em into me when he was here. How’s the wanton Muse, Louis? Sitting on your knees as usual?”
“One arm around my neck,” admitted Neville, “and the band playing
‘Sweethearts.’”
“Waiting for you to order inspiration cocktails. You’re looking fit.”
“Am I? I haven’t had one.”
“Oh, I thought you threw one every time you painted that pretty model of yours—” He looked sideways at Neville, but seeing that he was unreceptive, shrugged.
“You’re a mean bunch, you artists,” he said. “I’d like to meet that girl, but because I’m a broker anybody’d think I had rat-plague from the way you all quarantine her — yes, the whole lot of you — Ogilvy, Annan, Querida. Why, even Penrhyn Cardemon has met her; he told me so; and if he has why can’t I—”
“For heaven’s sake let up!” said Neville, keeping his temper, “and tell me how everybody is at Ashuelyn.”
“Huh! I’m ridden off as usual,” grunted Cameron. “All right, then; I’ll fix it myself. What was it you were gracious enough to inquire of me?”
“How the people are at Ashuelyn?” repeated Neville.
“How they are? How the deuce do I know? Your mother embroiders and reads The Atlantic Monthly; your father tucks his hands behind him and critically inspects the landscape; and when he doesn’t do that he reads Herbert Spencer. Your efficient sister nourishes her progeny and does all things thoroughly and well; Gordon digs up some trees and plants others and squirts un-fragrant mixtures over the shrubbery, and sits on fences talking to various Rubes. Stephanie floats about like a well-fed angel, with a fox-terrier, and makes a monkey of me at tennis whenever I’m lunatic enough to let her, and generally dispenses sweetness, wholesomeness, and light upon a worthy household. I wouldn’t mind marrying that girl,” he added casually. “What do you think?”
Neville laughed: “Why don’t you? She’s the nicest girl I ever knew — almost.”
“I’d ask her to marry me,” said Cameron facetiously; “only I’m afraid such a dazzling prospect would turn her head and completely spoil her.”
He spoke gaily and laughed loudly — almost boisterously. Neville glanced at him with a feeling that Cameron was slightly overdoing it — rather forcing the mirth without any particular reason.
After a moment he said: “Sandy, you don’t have to be a clown if you don’t want to be, you know.”
“Can’t help it,” said Cameron, reddening; “everybody expects it now. When Ogilvy was here we played in a double ring to crowded houses. Every seat on the veranda was taken; we turned ’em away, my boy. What was it you started to say about Stephanie?”
“I didn’t start to say anything about Stephanie.”
“Oh, I thought you were going to” — his voice died into an uncertain grumble. Neville glanced at him again, thoughtfully.
“You know, Sandy,” he said, “that there’s another side to you — which, for some occult reason you seem to hide — even to be ashamed of.”
“Sure I’m ashamed to be a broker with all you highbrows lining out homers for the girls while I have to sit on the bleachers and score ’em up. If I try to make a hit with the ladies it’s a bingle; and it’s the bench and the bush-league for muh—”
“You great, overgrown kid! It’s a pity people can’t see you down town. Everybody knows you’re the cleverest thing south of Broad and Wall. Look at all the boards, all the committees, all the directorates you’re mixed up with! Look at all the time you give freely to others — look at all your charities, all your: civic activities, all—”
“All the hell I raise!” said Cameron, very red. “Don’t forget that,
Louis!”
“You never did — that’s the wonder and the eternal decency of you, Cameron. You’re a good citizen and a good man, and you do more for the world than we painters ever could do! That’s the real truth of it; and why you so persistently try to represent yourself as a commonplace something else is beyond me — and probably beyond Stephanie Swift,” he added carelessly.
They whizzed along in silence for some time, and it was only when Ashuelyn was in sight that Cameron suddenly turned and held out his hand:
“Thank you, Louis; you’ve said some very kind things.”
Neville shrugged: “I hear you are financing that New Idea Home. I tell you that’s a fine conception.”
But Cameron only looked modest. At heart he was a very shy man and he deprecated any idea that he was doing anything unusual in giving most of his time to affairs that paid dividends only in happiness and in the consciousness of moral obligation fulfilled.
The household was occupying the pergola as they arrived and sprang out upon the clipped lawn.
Neville kissed his mother tenderly, shook hands cordially with his father, greeted Lily with a fraternal hug and Stephanie with a firm grasp of both hands.
“How perfectly beautiful it is here!” he exclaimed, looking out over the green valley beyond — and unconsciously his gaze rested on the Estwich hills, blue and hazy and soft as dimpled velvet. Out there, somewhere, was Valerie; heart and pulse began to quicken. Suddenly he became aware that his mother’s eyes were on him, and he turned away toward the south as though there was also something in that point of the compass to interest him.
Gordon Collis, following a hand-cart full of young trees wrapped in burlap, passed across the lawn below and waved a greeting at Neville.
“How are you, Louis!” he called out. “Don’t you want to help us set these hybrid catalpas?”
“I’ll be along by and by,” he replied, and turned to the group under the pergola who desired to know how it was in town — the first question always asked by New Yorkers of anybody who has just arrived from that holy spot.
“It’s not too warm,” said Neville; “the Park is charming, most of the houses on Fifth Avenue are closed—”
“Have you chanced to pass through Tenth Street?” asked his father solemnly.
But Neville confessed that he had not set foot in those sanctified precincts, and his father’s personal interest in Manhattan Island ceased immediately.
They chatted inconsequentially for a while; then, in reply to a question from Stephanie, he spoke of his picture, “A Bride,” and, though it was still unfinished, he showed them a photograph of it.
[Illustration: “‘It is very beautiful, Louis,’ said his mother, with a smile of pride.”]
The unmounted imprint passed from hand to hand amid various comments.
“It is very beautiful, Louis,” s
aid his mother, with a smile of pride; and even as she spoke the smile faded and her sad eyes rested on him wistfully.
“Is it a sacred picture?” asked his father, examining it through his glasses without the slightest trace of interest.
“It is an Annunciation, isn’t it?” inquired Lily, calmly. But her heart was failing her, for in the beauty of the exquisite, enraptured face, she saw what might have been the very soul of Valerie West.
His father, removing his spectacles, delivered himself of an opinion concerning mysticism, and betrayed an illogical tendency to drift toward the Concord School of Philosophy. However, there seemed to be insufficient incentive; he glanced coldly toward Cameron and resumed Herbert Spencer and his spectacles.
“Mother, don’t you want to stroll on the lawn a bit?” he asked presently. “It looks very inviting to a city man’s pavement-worn feet.”
She drew her light wool shawl around her shoulders and took her tall son’s arm.
For a long while they strolled in silence, passed idly through the garden where masses of peonies hung over the paths, and pansies, iris, and forget-me-nots made the place fragrant.
It was not until they came to the plank bridge where the meadow rivulet, under its beds of cress and mint, threaded a shining way toward the woods, that his mother said in a troubled voice:
“You are not happy, Louis.”
“Why, mother — what an odd idea!”
“Am I mistaken?” she asked, timidly.
“Yes, indeed, you are. I am very happy.”
“Then,” she said, “what is it that has changed you so?”
[Illustration: “‘You are not happy, Louis.’”]
“Changed me?”
“Yes, dear.”
“I am not changed, mother.”
“Do you think a mother can be mistaken in her only son? You are so subdued, so serious. You are like men who have known sorrow…. What sorrow have you ever known, Louis?”
“None. No great one, mother. Perhaps, lately, I have developed — recognised — become aware of the sombre part of life — become sensitive to it — to unhappiness in others — and have cared more—”
“You speak like a man who has suffered.”
“But I haven’t, mother,” he insisted. “Of course, every painter worries. I did last winter — last winter—” He hesitated, conscious that last winter — on the snowy threshold of the new year — sorrow and pain and happiness and pity had, in an instant, assumed for him a significance totally new.
“Mother,” he said slowly, “if I have changed it is only in a better understanding of the world and those who live in it. I have cared very little about people; I seem to have come to care more, lately. What they did, what they thought, hoped, desired, endured, suffered, interested me little except as it concerned my work. And somehow, since then, I am becoming interested in people for their own sakes. It’s a — new sensation.”
He smiled and laid his hand over hers:
“Do you know I never even appreciated what a good man Alexander Cameron is until recently. Why, mother, that man is one of the most generous, modest, kind, charitable, unselfish fellows in the world!”
“His behaviour is sometimes a little extraordinary,” said his mother— “isn’t it?”
“Oh, that’s all on the surface! He’s full of boyish spirits. He dearly loves a joke — but the greater part of that interminable funny business is merely to mask the modesty of a man whose particular perversity is a fear that people might discover how kind and how clever he really is!”
They walked on in silence for a while, then his mother said:
“Mr. Querida was here. Is he a friend of yours?”
Neville hesitated: “I’ll tell you, mother,” he said, “I don’t find
Querida personally very congenial. But I have no doubt he’s an
exceedingly nice fellow. And he’s far and away the best painter in
America…. When did he go back to town?”
“Last week. I did not care for him.”
“You and father seldom do care for new acquaintances,” he rejoined, smiling. “Don’t you think it is about time for you to emerge from your shells and make up your minds that a few people have been born since you retired?”
“People have been born in China, too, but that scarcely interests your father and me.”
“Let it interest you, mother. You have no idea how amusing new people are. That’s the way to keep young, too.”
“It is a little too late for us to think of youth — or to think as youth thinks — even if it were desirable.”
“It is desirable. Youth — which will be age to-morrow — may venture to draw a little consideration in advance—”
“My children interest me — and I give their youth my full consideration. But I can scarcely be expected to find any further vital interest in youth — and in the complexity of its modern views and ideas. You ask impossibilities of two very old people.”
“I do not mean to. I ask only, then, that you and father take a vital and intelligent interest in me. Will you, mother?”
“Intelligent? What do you mean, Louis?”
“I mean,” he said, “that you might recognise my right to govern my own conduct; that you might try to sympathise with views which are not your own — with the ideas, ideals, desires, convictions which, if modern, are none the less genuine — and are mine.”
There was a brief silence; then:
“Louis, are you speaking with any thought of — that woman in your mind?” she asked in a voice that quivered slightly.
“Yes, mother.”
“I knew it,” she said, under her breath; “I knew it was that — I knew what had changed you — was changing you.”
“Have I altered for the worse?”
“I don’t know — I don’t know, Louis!” She was leaning heavily on his elbow now; he put one arm around her and they walked very slowly over the fragrant grass.
“First of all, mother, please don’t call her, ‘that woman.’ Because she is a very sweet, innocent, and blameless girl…. Will you let me tell you a little about her?”
His mother bent her head in silence; and for a long while he talked to her of Valerie.
The sun still hung high over the Estwich hills when he ended. His mother, pale, silent, offered no comment until, in his trouble, he urged her. Then she said:
“Your father will never consent.”
“Let me talk to father. Will you consent?”
“I — Louis — it would break our hearts if—”
“Not when you know her.”
“Lily knows her and is bitterly opposed to her—”
“What!” he exclaimed, astounded. “You say that my sister knows Valerie
West?”
“I — forgot,” faltered his mother; “I ought not to have said anything.”
“Where did Lily meet her?” he asked, bewildered.
“Don’t ask me, Louis. I should not have spoken—”
“Yes, you should have! It is my affair; it concerns me — and it concerns
Valerie — her future and mine — our happiness. Where did Lily meet her?”
“You must ask that of Lily. I cannot and will not discuss it. I will say only this: I have seen the — this Miss West. She is at present a guest at the villa of a — countess — of whom neither your father nor I ever before heard — and whom even Lily knows so slightly that she scarcely bows to her. And yesterday, while motoring, we met them driving on the Estwich road and your sister told us who they were.”
After a moment he said slowly: “So you have actually seen the girl I am in love with?”
“I saw — Miss West.”
“Can’t you understand that I am in love with her?”
“Even if you are it is better for you to conquer your inclination—”
“Why?”
“Because all your life long you will regret such a marriage.”
“Why?”
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��Because nobody will care to receive a woman for whom you can make no explanation — even if you are married to her.”
He kept his patience.
“Will you receive her, mother?”
She closed her eyes, drew a quick, painful breath: “My son’s wife — whoever she may be — will meet with no discourtesy under my roof.”
“Is that the best you can offer us?”
“Louis! Louis! — if it lay only with me — I would do what you wished — even this — if it made you happy—”
He took her in his arms and kissed her in silence.
“You don’t understand,” she said,— “it is not I — it is the family — our entire little world against her. It would be only an eternal, hopeless, heart-breaking struggle for you, and for her; — pain for you — deep pain and resentment and bitterness for those who did not — perhaps could not — take your views of—”
“I don’t care, mother, as long as you and father and Lily stand by her. And Valerie won’t marry me unless you do. I didn’t tell you that, but it is the truth. And I’m fighting very hard to win her — harder than you know — or will ever know. Don’t embitter me; don’t let me give up. Because, if I do, it means desperation — and things which you never could understand…. And I want you to talk to father. Will you? And to Lily, too. Its fairer to warn her that I have learned of her meeting Valerie. Then I’ll talk to them both and see what can be done…. And, mother, I am very happy and very grateful and very proud that you are going to stand by me — and by the loveliest girl in all the world.”
That night Lily came to his room. Her eyes were red, but there was fire in them. She seated herself and surveyed her brother with ominous self-possession.
“Well, Lily,” he said pleasantly, prepared to keep his temper at all hazards.
“Well, Louis, I understand from mother that you have some questions to ask me.”
“No questions, little sister; only your sympathetic attention while I tell you how matters stand with me.”
“You require too much!” she said shortly.
“If I ask for your sympathy?”
“Not if you ask it for yourself, Louis. But if you include that—”
“Please, dear!” he interrupted, checking her with a slight gesture — for an instant only; then she went on in a determined voice:
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