by Dean Koontz
What if the second call didn’t come? What if, knowing that Mitch had gone to the police, the kidnapper fulfilled his threat, mutilated Holly, killed her, and never called again?
Then they might think that Mitch had concocted the kidnapping to cover the fact that Holly was already dead, that he himself had killed her. The husband is always the primary suspect.
If he lost her, nothing else would matter. Nothing ever. No power could heal the wound that she would leave in his life.
But to be suspected of harming her—that would be hot shrapnel in the wound, ever burning, forever lacerating.
Closing the notebook and returning it to a hip pocket, shifting his attention from the dog to Mitch, Taggart asked again, “Anything, Mr. Rafferty?”
At some point during the questioning, the bumblebee had flown away. Only now, Mitch realized that the buzzing had stopped.
If he kept the secret of Holly’s abduction, he would stand alone against her kidnappers.
He was no good alone. He had been raised with three sisters and a brother, all born within a seven-year period. They had been one another’s confidants, confessors, counsels, and defenders.
A year after high school, he moved out of his parents’ house, into a shared apartment. Later, he had gotten his own place, where he felt isolated. He had worked sixty hours a week, and longer, just to avoid being alone in his rooms.
He had felt complete once more, fulfilled, connected, only when Holly had come into his world. I was a cold word; we had a warmer sound. Us rang sweeter on the ear than me.
Lieutenant Taggart’s eyes seemed less forbidding than they had been heretofore.
Mitch said, “Well…”
The detective licked his lips.
The air was warm, humidity low. Mitch’s lips felt dry, too.
Nevertheless, the quick pink passage of Taggart’s tongue seemed reptilian, and suggested that he was mentally savoring the taste of pending prey.
Only paranoia allowed the twisted thought that a homicide detective might be allied with Holly’s abductors. This private moment between witness and investigator in fact might be the ultimate test of Mitch’s willingness to follow the kidnapper’s instructions.
All the flags of fear, both rational and irrational, were raised high in his mind. This parade of rampant dreads and dark suspicions did not facilitate clear thinking.
He was half convinced that if he told Taggart the truth, the detective would grimace and say We’ll have to kill her now, Mr. Rafferty. We can’t trust you anymore. But we’ll let you choose what we cut off first—her fingers or her ears.
As earlier, when he’d been standing over the dead man, Mitch felt watched, not just by Taggart and the tea-drinking neighbors, but by some presence unseen. Watched, analyzed.
“No, Lieutenant,” he said. “There’s nothing more.”
The detective retrieved a pair of sunglasses from his shirt pocket and put them on.
In the mirrored lenses, Mitch almost didn’t recognize the twin reflections of his face. The distorting curve made him look old.
“I gave you my card,” Taggart reminded him.
“Yes, sir. I have it.”
“Call me if you remember anything that seems important.”
The smooth, characterless sheen of the sunglasses was like the gaze of an insect: emotionless, eager, voracious.
Taggart said, “You seem nervous, Mr. Rafferty.”
Raising his hands to reveal how they trembled, Mitch said, “Not nervous, Lieutenant. Shaken. Badly shaken.”
Taggart licked his lips once more.
Mitch said, “I’ve never seen a man murdered before.”
“You don’t get used to it,” the detective said.
Lowering his hands, Mitch said, “I guess not.”
“It’s worse when it’s a woman.”
Mitch did not know what to make of that statement. Perhaps it was a simple truth of a homicide detective’s experience—or a threat.
“A woman or a child,” Taggart said.
“I wouldn’t want your job.”
“No. You wouldn’t.” Turning away, the detective said, “I’ll be seeing you, Mr. Rafferty.”
“Seeing me?”
Glancing back, Taggart said, “You and I—we’ll both be witnesses in a courtroom someday.”
“Seems like a tough case to solve.”
“‘Blood crieth unto me from the ground,’ Mr. Rafferty,” said the detective, apparently quoting someone. “‘Blood crieth unto me from the ground.’”
Mitch watched Taggart walk away.
Then he looked at the grass under his feet.
The progress of the sun had put the palm-frond shadows behind him. He stood in light, but was not warmed by it.
5
The dashboard clock was digital, as was Mitch’s wristwatch, but he could hear time ticking nonetheless, as rapid as the click-click-click of the pointer snapping against the marker pegs on a spinning wheel of fortune.
He wanted to race directly home from the crime scene. Logic argued that Holly would have been snatched at the house. They would not have grabbed her on the way to work, not on a public street.
They might unintentionally have left something behind that would suggest their identity. More likely, they would have left a message for him, further instructions.
As usual, Mitch had begun the day by picking up Iggy at his apartment in Santa Ana. Now he had to return him.
Driving north from the fabled and wealthy Orange County coastal neighborhoods where they worked, toward their humbler communities, Mitch switched from the crowded freeway to surface streets, but encountered traffic there, as well.
Iggy wanted to talk about the murder and the police. Mitch had to pretend to be as naively excited by the novelty of the experience as Iggy was, when in fact his mind remained occupied with thoughts of Holly and with worry about what might come next.
Fortunately, as usual, Iggy’s conversation soon began to loop and turn and tangle like a ball of yarn unraveled by a kitten.
Appearing to be engaged in this rambling discourse required less of Mitch than when the subject had been the dead dogwalker.
“My cousin Louis had a friend named Booger,” Iggy said. “The same thing happened to him, shot while walking a dog, except it wasn’t a rifle and it wasn’t a dog.”
“Booger?” Mitch wondered.
“Booker,” Iggy corrected. “B-o-o-k-e-r. He had a cat he called Hairball. He was walking Hairball, and he got shot.”
“People walk cats?”
“The way it was—Hairball is cozy in a travel cage, and Booker is carrying him to a vet’s office.”
Mitch repeatedly checked the rearview and side mirrors. A black Cadillac SUV had departed the freeway in their wake. Block after block, it remained behind them.
“So Booker wasn’t actually walking the cat,” Mitch said.
“He was walking with the cat, and this like twelve-year-old brat, this faucet-nosed little dismo, shot Booker with a paint-ball gun.”
“So he wasn’t killed.”
“He wasn’t quashed, no, and it was a cat instead of a dog, but Booker was totally blue.”
“Blue?”
“Blue hair, blue face. He was fully pissed.”
The Cadillac SUV reliably remained two or three vehicles behind them. Perhaps the driver hoped Mitch wouldn’t notice him.
“So Booker’s all blue. What happened to the kid?” Mitch asked.
“Booker was gonna break the little dismo’s hand off, but the kid shot him in the crotch and ran. Hey, Mitch, did you know there’s a town in Pennsylvania named Blue Balls?”
“I didn’t know.”
“It’s in Amish country. There’s another town nearby called Intercourse.”
“How about that.”
“Maybe those Amish aren’t as square as Cheez-Its, after all.”
Mitch accelerated to cross an intersection before the traffic light phased to red. Behind him, the black SUV c
hanged lanes, sped up, and made it through on the yellow.
“Did you ever eat an Amish shoofly pie?” Iggy asked.
“No. Never did.”
“It’s full-on rich, sweeter than six Gidget movies. Like eating molasses. Treacherous, dude.”
The Cadillac dropped back, returned to Mitch’s lane. Three vehicles separated them once more.
Iggy said, “Earl Potter lost a leg eating shoofly pie.”
“Earl Potter?”
“Tim Potter’s dad. He was diabetic, but he didn’t know it, and he totally destroyed like a bucket of sweets every day. Did you ever eat a Quakertown pie?”
“What about Earl’s leg?” Mitch asked.
“Unreal, bro. One day his foot’s numb, he can’t walk right. Turns out he’s got almost no circulation down there ’cause of radical diabetes. They sawed his left leg off above the knee.”
“While he was eating shoofly pie.”
“No. He realized he had to give up sweets.”
“Good for him.”
“So the day before surgery, he had his last dessert, and he chose a whole shoofly pie with like a cow’s worth of whipped cream. Did you ever see that stylin’ Amish movie with Harrison Ford and the girl with the great knockers?”
By way of Hairball, Blue Balls, Intercourse, shoofly pie, and Harrison Ford, they arrived at Iggy’s apartment building.
Mitch stopped at the curb, and the black SUV went past without slowing. The side windows were tinted, so he couldn’t see the driver or any passengers.
Opening his door, before getting out of the truck, Iggy said, “You okay, boss?”
“I’m okay.”
“You look stomped.”
“I saw a guy shot to death,” Mitch reminded him.
“Yeah. Wasn’t that radical? I guess I know who’s gonna rule the bar at Rolling Thunder tonight. Maybe you should stop in.”
“Don’t save a stool for me.”
The Cadillac SUV dwindled westward. The afternoon sun wrapped the suspicious vehicle in glister and glare. It shimmered and seemed to vanish into the solar maw.
Iggy got out of the truck, looked back in at Mitch, and pulled a sad face. “Ball and chain.”
“Wind beneath my wings.”
“Whoa. That’s goob talk.”
“Go waste yourself.”
“I do intend to get mildly polluted,” Iggy assured him. “Dr. Ig prescribes at least a six-pack of cerveza for you. Tell Mrs. Mitch I think she’s an uber wahine.”
Iggy slammed the door and walked away, big and loyal and sweet and clueless.
With hands that were suddenly shaky on the wheel, Mitch piloted the truck into the street once more.
Coming north, he had been impatient to be rid of Iggy and to get home. Now his stomach turned when he considered what might wait for him there.
What he most feared was finding blood.
6
Mitch drove with the truck windows open, wanting the sounds of the streets, proof of life.
The Cadillac SUV did not reappear. No other vehicle took up the pursuit. Evidently, he had imagined the tail.
His sense of being under surveillance passed. From time to time, his eyes were drawn to the rearview mirror, but no longer with the expectation of seeing anything suspicious.
He felt alone, and worse than alone. Isolated. He almost wished that the black SUV would reappear.
Their house was in an older neighborhood of Orange, one of the oldest cities in the county. When he turned onto their street, except for the vintage of the cars and trucks, a curtain in time might have parted, welcoming him to 1945.
The bungalow—pale-yellow clapboard, white trim, a cedar-shingle roof—stood behind a picket fence on which roses twined. Some larger and some nicer houses occupied the block, but none boasted better landscaping.
He parked in the driveway beside the house, under a massive old California pepper tree, and stepped out into a breathless afternoon.
Sidewalks and yards were deserted. In this neighborhood, most families relied on two incomes; everyone was at work. At 3:04, no latchkey kids were yet home from school.
No maids, no window washers, no gardening services busy with leaf blowers. These homeowners swept their own carpets, mowed their own yards.
The pepper tree braided the sunshine in its cascading tresses, and littered the shadowed pavement with elliptical slivers of light.
Mitch opened a side gate in the picket fence. He crossed the lawn to the front steps.
The porch was deep and cool. White wicker chairs with green cushions stood beside small wicker tables with glass tops.
On Sunday afternoons, he and Holly often sat here, talking, reading the newspaper, watching hummingbirds flit from one crimson bloom to another on the trumpet vines that flourished on the porch posts.
Sometimes they unfolded a card table between the wicker chairs. She crushed him at Scrabble. He dominated the trivia games.
They didn’t spend much on entertainment. No skiing vacations, no weekends in Baja. They seldom went out to a movie. Being together on the front porch offered as much pleasure as being together in Paris.
They were saving money for things that mattered. To allow her to risk a career change from secretary to real-estate agent. To enable him to do some advertising, buy a second truck, and expand the business.
Kids, too. They were going to have kids. Two or three. On certain holidays, when they were most sentimental, even four did not seem like too many.
They didn’t want the world, and didn’t want to change it. They wanted their little corner of the world, and the chance to fill it with family and laughter.
He tried the front door. Unlocked. He pushed it inward and hesitated on the threshold.
He glanced back at the street, half expecting to see the black SUV. It wasn’t there.
After he stepped inside, he stood for a moment, letting his eyes adjust. The living room was illuminated only by what tree-filtered sunlight pierced the windows.
Everything appeared to be in order. He could not detect any signs of struggle.
Mitch closed the door behind him. For a moment he needed to lean against it.
If Holly had been at home, there would have been music. She liked big-band stuff. Miller, Goodman, Ellington, Shaw. She said the music of the ’40s was suitable to the house. It suited her, too. Classic.
An archway connected the living room to the small dining room. Nothing in this second room was out of place.
On the table lay a large dead moth. It was a night-flyer, gray with black details along its scalloped wings.
The moth must have gotten in the previous evening. They had spent some time on the porch, and the door had been open.
Maybe it was alive, sleeping. If he cupped it in his hands and took it outside, it might fly into a corner of the porch ceiling and wait there for moonrise.
He hesitated, reluctant to touch the moth, for fear that no flutter was left in it. At his touch, it might dissolve into a greasy kind of dust, which moths sometimes did.
Mitch left the night-flyer untouched because he wanted to believe that it was alive.
The connecting door between the dining room and the kitchen stood ajar. Light glowed beyond.
The smell of burnt toast lingered on the air. It grew stronger when he pushed through the door into the kitchen.
Here he found signs of a struggle. One of the dinette chairs had been overturned. Broken dishes littered the floor.
Two slices of blackened bread stood in the toaster. Someone had pulled the plug. The butter had been left out on the counter, and had softened as the day grew warmer.
The intruders must have come in from the front of the house, surprising her as she was making toast.
The cabinets were painted glossy white. Blood spattered a door and two drawer fronts.
For a moment, Mitch closed his eyes. In his mind, he saw the moth flutter and fly up from the table. Something fluttered in his chest, too, and he wanted to believe
that it was hope.
On the white refrigerator, a woman’s bloody hand print cried havoc as loud as any voice could have shouted. Another full hand print and a smeared partial darkened two upper cabinets.
Blood spotted the terra-cotta tiles on the floor. It seemed to be a lot of blood. It seemed to be an ocean.
The scene so terrified Mitch that he wanted to shut his eyes again. But he had the crazy idea that if he closed his eyes twice to this grim reality, he would go blind forever.
The phone rang.
7
He did not have to tread in blood to reach the telephone. He picked up the handset on the third ring, and heard his haunted voice say, “Yeah?”
“It’s me, baby. They’re listening.”
“Holly. What’ve they done to you?”
“I’m all right,” she said, and she sounded strong, but she did not sound all right.
“I’m in the kitchen,” he said.
“I know.”
“The blood—”