by Keith Laumer
“Hold on,” I said. “I’ll tell you. Recorders going?” I didn’t wait for an answer—not with a fifteen-minute transmission lag. I plowed on:
“Belshazzar was sabotaged. So was Gilgamesh—I think. I got out. I lost a little skin, but the aid cabinet has the case in hand. Tell the Med people the drinks are on me.”
I finished talking and flopped back, waiting for Kayle’s reply. On the screen, his flickering image gazed back impatiently, looking as hostile as a swing-shift ward nurse. It would be half an hour before I would get his reaction to my report. I dozed off—and awoke with a start. Kayle was talking.
“—your report. I won’t mince words. They’re wondering at your role in the disaster. How does it happen that you alone survived?”
“How the hell do I know?” I yelled—or croaked. But Kayle’s voice was droning on:
“… you Psychodynamics people have been telling me the Gool may have some kind of long-range telehypnotic ability that might make it possible for them to subvert a loyal man without his knowledge. You’ve told me yourself that you blacked out during the attack—and came to on the lifeboat, with no recollection of how you got there.
“This is war, Granthan. War against a vicious enemy who strike without warning and without mercy. You were sent out to investigate the possibility of—what’s that term you use?—hyper-cortical invasion. You know better than most the risk I’d be running if you were allowed to pass the patrol line.
“I’m sorry, Granthan. I can’t let you land on Earth. I can’t accept the risk.”
“What do I do now?” I stormed. “Go into orbit and eat pills and hope you think of something? I need a doctor!”
Presently Kayle replied. “Yes,” he said. “You’ll have to enter a parking orbit. Perhaps there will be developments soon which will make it possible to…ah…restudy the situation.” He didn’t meet my eye. I knew what he was thinking. He’d spare me the mental anguish of knowing what was coming. I couldn’t really blame him; he was doing what he thought was the right thing. And I’d have to go along and pretend—right up until the warheads struck—that I didn’t know I’d been condemned to death.
II
I tried to gather my wits and think my way through the situation. I was alone and injured, aboard a lifeboat that would be the focus of a converging flight of missiles as soon as I approached within battery range of Earth. I had gotten clear of the Gool, but I wouldn’t survive my next meeting with my own kind. They couldn’t take the chance that I was acting under Gool orders.
I wasn’t, of course. I was still the same Peter Granthan, psychodynamicist, who had started out with Dayan’s fleet six weeks earlier. The thoughts I was having weren’t brilliant, but they were mine, all mine….
But how could I be sure of that?
Maybe there was something in Kayle’s suspicion. If the Gool were as skillful as we thought, they would have left no overt indications of their tampering—not at a conscious level.
But this was where psychodynamics training came in. I had been reacting like any scared casualty, aching to get home and lick his wounds. But I wasn’t just any casualty. I had been trained in the subtleties of the mind—and I had been prepared for just such an attack.
Now was the time to make use of that training. It had given me one resource. I could unlock the memories of my subconscious—and see again what had happened.
I lay back, cleared my mind of extraneous thoughts, and concentrated on the trigger word that would key an auto-hypnotic sequence….
Sense impressions faded. I was alone in the nebulous emptiness of a first-level trance. I keyed a second word, slipped below the misty surface into a dreamworld of vague phantasmagoric figures milling in their limbo of sub-conceptualization. I penetrated deeper, broke through into the vividly hallucinatory third level, where images of mirror-bright immediacy clamored for attention. And deeper….
* * * *
The immense orderly confusion of the basic memory level lay before me. Abstracted from it, aloof and observant, the monitoring personality-fraction scanned the pattern, searching the polydimensional continuum for evidence of an alien intrusion.
And found it.
As the eye instantaneously detects a flicker of motion amid an infinity of static detail, so my inner eye perceived the subtle traces of the probing Gool mind, like a whispered touch deftly rearranging my buried motivations.
I focused selectively, tuned to the recorded gestalt.
“It is a contact, Effulgent One!”
“Softly, now! Nurture the spark well. It but trembles at the threshold….”
“It is elusive, Master! It wriggles like a gorm-worm in the eating trough!”
A part of my mind watched as the memory unreeled. I listened to the voices—yet not voices, merely the shape of concepts, indescribably intricate. I saw how the decoy pseudo-personality which I had concretized for the purpose in a hundred training sessions had fought against the intruding stimuli—then yielded under the relentless thrust of the alien probe. I watched as the Gool operator took over the motor centers, caused me to crawl through the choking smoke of the devastated control compartment toward the escape hatch. Fire leaped up, blocking the way. I went on, felt ghostly flames whipping at me—and then the hatch was open and I pulled myself through, forcing the broken leg. My blackened hand fumbled at the locking wheel. Then the blast as the lifeboat leaped clear of the disintegrating dreadnought—and the world-ending impact as I fell.
At a level far below the conscious, the embattled pseudo-personality lashed out again—fighting the invader.
“Almost it eluded me then, Effulgent Lord. Link with this lowly one!”
“Impossible! Do you forget all my teachings? Cling, though you expend the last filament of your life-force!”
Free from all distraction, at a level where comprehension and retention are instantaneous and total, my monitoring basic personality fraction followed the skillful Gool mind as it engraved its commands deep in my subconscious. Then the touch withdrew, erasing the scars of its passage, to leave me unaware of its tampering—at a conscious level.
Watching the Gool mind, I learned.
The insinuating probe—a concept regarding which psychodynamicists had theorized—was no more than a pattern in emptiness….
But a pattern which I could duplicate, now that I had seen what had been done to me.
Hesitantly, I felt for the immaterial fabric of the continuum, warping and manipulating it, copying the Gool probe. Like planes of paper-thin crystal, the polyfinite aspects of reality shifted into focus, aligning themselves.
Abruptly, a channel lay open. As easily as I would stretch out my hand to pluck a moth from a night-flower, I reached across the unimaginable void—and sensed a pit blacker than the bottom floor of hell, and a glistening dark shape.
There was a soundless shriek. “Effulgence! It reached out—touched me!”
* * * *
Using the technique I had grasped from the Gool itself, I struck, stifling the outcry, invaded the fetid blackness and grappled the obscene gelatinous immensity of the Gool spy as it spasmed in a frenzy of xenophobia—a ton of liver writhing at the bottom of a dark well.
I clamped down control. The Gool mind folded in on itself, gibbering. Not pausing to rest, I followed up, probed along my channel of contact, tracing patterns, scanning the flaccid Gool mind….
I saw a world of yellow seas lapping at endless shores of mud. There was a fuming pit, where liquid sulphur bubbled up from some inner source, filling an immense natural basin. The Gool clustered at its rim, feeding, each monstrous shape heaving against its neighbors for a more favorable position.
I probed farther, saw the great cables of living nervous tissue that linked each eating organ with the brain-mass far underground. I traced the passages through which tendrils ran out to immense caverns where smaller creatures labored over strange devices. These, my host’s memory told me, were the young of the Gool. Here they built the fleets that would
transport the spawn to the new worlds the Prime Overlord had discovered, worlds where food was free for the taking. Not sulphur alone, but potassium, calcium, iron and all the metals—riches beyond belief in endless profusion. No longer would the Gool tribe cluster—those who remained of a once-great race—at a single feeding trough. They would spread out across a galaxy—and beyond.
But not if I could help it.
The Gool had evolved a plan—but they’d had a stroke of bad luck.
In the past, they had managed to control a man here and there, among the fleets, far from home, but only at a superficial level. Enough, perhaps, to wreck a ship, but not the complete control needed to send a man back to Earth under Gool compulsion, to carry out complex sabotage.
Then they had found me, alone, a sole survivor, free from the clutter of the other mind-fields. It had been their misfortune to pick a psychodynamicist. Instead of gaining a patient slave, they had opened the fortress door to an unseen spy. Now that I was there, I would see what I could steal.
A timeless time passed. I wandered among patterns of white light and white sound, plumbed the deepest recesses of hidden Gool thoughts, fared along strange ways examining the shapes and colors of the concepts of an alien mind.
I paused at last, scanning a multi-ordinal structure of pattern within pattern; the diagrammed circuits of a strange machine.
I followed through its logic-sequence; and, like a bomb-burst, its meaning exploded in my mind.
From the vile nest deep under the dark surface of the Gool world in its lonely trans-Plutonian orbit, I had plucked the ultimate secret of their kind.
Matter across space.
* * * *
“You’ve got to listen to me, Kayle,” I shouted. “I know you think I’m a Gool robot. But what I have is too big to let you blow it up without a fight. Matter transmission! You know what that can mean to us. The concept is too complex to try to describe in words. You’ll have to take my word for it. I can build it, though, using standard components, plus an infinite-area antenna and a moebius-wound coil—and a few other things….”
I harangued Kayle for a while, and then sweated out his answer. I was getting close now. If he couldn’t see the beauty of my proposal, my screens would start to register the radiation of warheads any time now.
Kayle came back—and his answer boiled down to “no.”
I tried to reason with him. I reminded him how I had readied myself for the trip with sessions on the encephaloscope, setting up the cross-networks of conditioned defensive responses, the shunt circuits to the decoy pseudo-personality, leaving my volitional ego free. I talked about subliminal hypnotics and the resilience quotient of the ego-complex.
I might have saved my breath.
“I don’t understand that psychodynamics jargon, Granthan,” he snapped. “It smacks of mysticism. But I understand what the Gool have done to you well enough. I’m sorry.”
I leaned back and chewed the inside of my lip and thought unkind thoughts about Colonel Ausar Kayle. Then I settled down to solve the problem at hand.
I keyed the chart file, flashed pages from the standard index on the reference screen, checking radar coverages, beacon ranges, monitor stations, controller fields. It looked as though a radar-negative boat the size of mine might possibly get through the defensive net with a daring pilot, and as a condemned spy, I could afford to be daring.
And I had a few ideas.
III
The shrilling of the proximity alarm blasted through the silence. For a wild moment I thought Kayle had beaten me to the punch; then I realized it was the routine DEW line patrol contact.
“Z four-oh-two, I am reading your IFF. Decelerate at 1.8 gee preparatory to picking up approach orbit….”
The screen went on droning out instructions. I fed them into the autopilot, at the same time running over my approach plan. The scout was moving in closer. I licked dry lips. It was time to try.
I closed my eyes, reached out—as the Gool mind had reached out to me—and felt the touch of a Signals Officer’s mind, forty thousand miles distant, aboard the patrol vessel. There was a brief flurry of struggle; then I dictated my instructions. The Signals Officer punched keys, spoke into his microphone:
“As you were, Z four-oh-two. Continue on present course. At Oh-nineteen seconds, pick up planetary for re-entry and let-down.”
I blanked out the man’s recollection of what had happened, caught his belated puzzlement as I broke contact. But I was clear of the DEW line now, rapidly approaching atmosphere.
“Z four-oh-two,” the speaker crackled. “This is planetary control. I am picking you up on channel forty-three, for re-entry and let-down.”
There was a long pause. Then:
“Z four-oh-two, countermand DEW Line clearance! Repeat, clearance countermanded! Emergency course change to standard hyperbolic code ninety-eight. Do not attempt re-entry. Repeat: do not attempt re-entry!”
It hadn’t taken Kayle long to see that I’d gotten past the outer line of defense. A few more minutes’ grace would have helped. I’d play it dumb, and hope for a little luck.
“Planetary, Z four-oh-two here. Say, I’m afraid I missed part of that, fellows. I’m a little banged up—I guess I switched frequencies on you. What was that after ‘pick up channel forty-three’…?”
“Four-oh-two, sheer off there! You’re not cleared for re-entry!”
“Hey, you birds are mixed up,” I protested. “I’m cleared all the way. I checked in with DEW—”
It was time to disappear. I blanked off all transmission, hit the controls, following my evasive pattern. And again I reached out—
A radar man at a site in the Pacific, fifteen thousand miles away, rose from his chair, crossed the darkened room and threw a switch. The radar screens blanked off….
For an hour I rode the long orbit down, fending off attack after attack. Then I was clear, skimming the surface of the ocean a few miles southeast of Key West. The boat hit hard. I felt the floor rise up, over, buffeting me against the restraining harness.
I hauled at the release lever, felt a long moment of giddy disorientation as the escape capsule separated from the sinking lifeboat deep under the surface. Then my escape capsule was bobbing on the water.
I would have to risk calling Kayle now—but by voluntarily giving my position away, I should convince him I was still on our side—and I was badly in need of a pick-up. I flipped the sending key.
“This is Z four-oh-two,” I said. “I have an urgent report for Colonel Kayle of Aerospace Intelligence.”
Kayle’s face appeared. “Don’t fight it, Granthan,” he croaked. “You penetrated the planetary defenses—God knows how. I—”
“Later,” I snapped. “How about calling off your dogs now? And send somebody out here to pick me up, before I add sea-sickness to my other complaints.”
“We have you pinpointed,” Kayle cut in. “It’s no use fighting it, Granthan.”
* * * *
I felt cold sweat pop out on my forehead. “You’ve got to listen, Kayle,” I shouted. “I suppose you’ve got missiles on the way already. Call them back! I have information that can win the war—”
“I’m sorry, Granthan,” Kayle said. “It’s too late—even if I could take the chance you were right.”
A different face appeared on the screen.
“Mr. Granthan, I am General Titus. On behalf of your country, and in the name of the President—who has been apprised of this tragic situation—it is my privilege to inform you that you will be awarded the Congressional Medal of Honor—posthumously—for your heroic effort. Although you failed, and have in fact been forced, against your will, to carry out the schemes of the inhuman enemy, this in no way detracts from your gallant attempt. Mr. Granthan, I salute you.”
The general’s arm went up in a rigid gesture.
“Stow that, you pompous idiot!” I barked. “I’m no spy!”
Kayle was back, blanking out the startled face of the general.
“Goodbye, Granthan. Try to understand….”
I flipped the switch, sat gripping the couch, my stomach rising with each heave of the floating escape capsule. I had perhaps five minutes. The missiles would be from Canaveral.
I closed my eyes, forced myself to relax, reached out….
I sensed the distant shore, the hot buzz of human minds at work in the cities. I followed the coastline, found the Missile Base, flicked through the cluster of minds.
“—missile on course; do right, baby. That’s it, right in the slot.”
I fingered my way through the man’s mind and found the control centers. He turned stiffly from the plotting board, tottered to a panel to slam his hand against the destruct button.
Men fell on him, dragged him back. “—fool, why did you blow it?”
I dropped the contact, found another, who leaped to the panel, detonated the remainder of the flight of six missiles. Then I withdrew. I would have a few minutes’ stay of execution now.
I was ten miles from shore. The capsule had its own power plant. I started it up, switched on the external viewer. I saw dark sea, the glint of star-light on the choppy surface, in the distance a glow on the horizon that would be Key West. I plugged the course into the pilot, then leaned back and felt outward with my mind for the next attacker.
IV
It was dark in the trainyard. I moved along the tracks in a stumbling walk. Just a few more minutes, I was telling myself. A few more minutes and you can lie down…rest….
The shadowed bulk of a box car loomed up, its open door a blacker square. I leaned against the sill, breathing hard, then reached inside for a grip with my good hand.
Gravel scrunched nearby. The beam of a flashlight lanced out, slipped along the weathered car, caught me. There was a startled exclamation. I ducked back, closed my eyes, felt out for his mind. There was a confused murmur of thought, a random intrusion of impressions from the city all around. It was hard, too hard. I had to sleep—
I heard the snick of a revolver being cocked, and dropped flat as a gout of flame stabbed toward me, the imperative Bam! echoing between the cars. I caught the clear thought: