And then, dismayed? But how does she talk?
I try to breathe quietly only to avoid to scary she and with the same calm i start to do her some questions, while she is near to Care.
"Did you really make her drink like a sponge?" i look at her fixed. And bad, very bad.
Talia intimidates instantly. "Yes, well..me, us... it was just an idea" i do smoke from nose and mouth.
"But where did you have your head, eh? Why did she get drunk, i say, look here!" i point the chalk and Caroline sighs almost ready to start whimpering again.
The other, instead, as i fear, she gets annoyed because in any case she has her pepper nature as i already understood for a while.
"Where did i have my head? She is adult and mature, i don't believe that if i had said her to throwing herself off the bridge she would have done it!" she suddenly evil and jaunty screams behind me. And she does comparisons that my grandmother would do.
"If i say it to her, yes!" sarcastic comment.
"Well, in fact then i did what she told me to do, if i well remember... but maybe i was too drunk to remeber well" Care talks with her an then she puts her hand on face, she rubs it and then she complains for the pain yet, whining another little.
"What?" me and Talia say both together, but then she does a grimace and closes her eyes, so i repete this but now i speak only to her.
"What...?" i say assuming an expression for nothing recommendable now.
But she doesn't replace me.
" Explain me how it went, Talia. Are you with her, no? How does she broke her leg?"
I look at her and she is disorientated., scary of course.
"Talia..."
"Okay, okay. But it's not how you think, okay? She is adult and she should not do everything that a semi-know person tell to her" put her hand in front of her she is defends yet.
I can't believe! It was her, little damn!
" Talk better" around the bed, ignoring, or better forgett completely Care's presence here there with us, i come near her.
I know that she wants escape but she doesn't do this and at the end she comes in front of me and starts to talk.
"We were coming back with this guys that gave us a lift, but they leaved us behind the campus. While we entered she started to talk about you dance and she told me that she is able to do the Black Flick. So i asked her what this thing is and she told me that would show it to me on the lawn."
Care jumps on the bad and shakes her hand. "Yes, right! It was going right this. Then she asked me to show her when we arrived on the lawn. On the lawn! That was the place where i fell down!".
"Yes.. on the lawn.." Talia says between her teeth. Sure that now i will rip her alive, because this is what i will really do.
"Because you obviusly reminded her and allowed her to do it drunk!"
" I didn't remember it to her, she remembered alone! And i'm not her nanny!"
Too bad that she gets angry too, the little one, because now that i know who i can take for ruined my life, it's just too much worse for her.
" You are a thoughtless madwoman, she could have been broken the head or the neck bone!" i scream on her face, without restraint.
"You should have been there with her, you are her boyfriend, no? And insted where the hell was you, Jaxon?" she mocks me and screams more than me, straining her muscles and clenching the fists of the hands, i clearly see her.
What a little irreverent and killer.
"She is not my girlfriend, hell! Do you know that you ruin my life? Bitch!"
Caroline starts to cry again, maybe for the pain, maybe for my unhappy affirmation, but in this moment i don't take care about this.
"Ah yes, and how i would have done it, let's hear it, bacause if she has the chalk you can not open her legs anylonger to fuck?"
She is without restraint and without respect and this things sends me more and more out of my mind.
"She will be my partner in a competition that would fix my life, that's how!" i want to insult her again but i avoid, i don't want that she starts to cry instead.
I can't stand the women crying.
Her eyes fixs mine and they become intense and interested, or maybe she is only studying me to understand how attack.
"Ohhh, you want to be quiet!" Care's scream, with the hateful and shrill train on the i, it penetrates my already painful head.
I look at her very badly and now i'm undecided wheter to hate her too.
But it is obvious that i must hate her, since it is also her cause if i can't even partecipate to the Street's Black Game.
I must hate both of them.
"Can she do this, no? Talia, do this" Caroline says with and extenuated voice, twisting the mouth for the pain that she fells, and out of breath as if she had run to recover us and make us reason.
But how she repets this thing again, i laught.
"She?" i make fun of both of them but pointed only Talia and her silly shirt, this time it's black, pointing her out and mocking her with laughter.
"Me? It doesn't even talk about it, i don't know to move a muscles and i have never danced in my life."
"Here you see?" i say to Caroline which in the meantime has even leaned towards us.
"She can learn. With a dancer like you she could learn to move also a coconut." my ex partner continue, maybe feeling guilty for her broken leg and for the abandonment.
"Are you joking on me? A coconut would be better than her!" reluctantly fixed Talia with disdain and disgust.
It's not true, she doesn't make me so disgust, but on a dancer camp really i don't bring she with me. And then she has just ruined my life, hell!
"Hey, careful how you talk, chop!" the litle girl replies to me and Care laughs.
"This is not true, do you know? I saw her shaking on the and this night, she was drunk but very well, melted. Maybe it's useful tha alchool to make she relax but you are better than the alchool, Jax, you are a damned super alchooholic cocktail for every women and you can teach her."
"Hey, hey, Caroline, stop! Be careful you too. I don't want any cocktail, instead fucking, and i don't move for well! Do you know what's up? Let's make you dance with a coconut, Jaxon and I will consider myself out of this madness. Or that you will find another real dancer, maybe one of those who performed with you at the mall..."
"They are all occupied" i stretched say , closing with force my mouth, full of tought.
"Yes, all occupied" Care says too, but then she adds something. "But Talia is not occupied. It's her fault if i'm out of the game, no? And what better way to repay?"
I fix Caroline and then i look at Talia.
This is a madness.
"Hey, no... no... don't even think about this. I can't do this."
I look at her from the from head to the feet and she backsaway.
It's absurd.
But with that little body i can do her inccredible things and i'm not reffering to sexsual things- or maybe also that thing- but how she would be light to lift, to maneuver, to drive.
"You must. We are in a trouble, Jax is in a triuble, Because of both of us, Tally, but much more yours. It's was your the idea and also the request of the stunt. I put my leg retort, so retort to broke the tibia of net, because i was drunk."
"But i was drunk too, heaven!"
Who would ever say heaven instead of blasphemy in such a moment?
Can i really dance with someone like her?
Can i teach her?
I look at Caroline and she understands.
She nods with her head. "It's the only way, Jax."
My attention comes back to Talia.
It's an absolute and absurd challenge, but maybe this is really the only hope.
And i depend from that hope now, so i depend also from her.
From Talia.
Good shit, although i really love challenge.
I come forward and i reach she, i lock her clear glance inside mine- luckly she has two beautiful eyes and, despite her strange clothes, she is prett
y- so i nod with my head also to her.
"No, never."
"You owe me" i reply.
"I don't owe anything to nobody"
"You owe to Care" Talia looks at her and then she swallows and backs again.
"I can't, i'm not able to do this."
"We must at least try", she is sweating cold, i see and this thing makes me laugh and hate her less.
"I can't do this, come on, how i can do?"
"You can" i say to her.
"The first step to reach in something is beliving. And tell you that you can do this" Caroline says too, that for the first time from when i know her it's not jelous of the woman that will replace she, but maybe only because she see that this here is a human case and doesn't scare her.
"Try" i say, while she shakes her head and doesn't give up.
But she will give up, even if me first thinck that this is only a big bullshit and i'm screwed forever.
"I don't never do this." sights at the end.
But she doesn't believe it either.
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Talia
I wanto to die of embarrassment, here and now.
I fell gulty for what is happened to Caroline.
It's always me, so, it's not true? Who hurts someone else, who everything touchs, destroys it.
"I don't believe that you do this" Wiley is by my side with an hand on steering wheel and the other on the change of a mutters car, stops behind dilapidated building in the center of Melbourne.
I don't remember to be never come here and for doing this my roommate must accompany me here, that luckily she has a car, because i don't drive.
"I don't believe this me too, but now i have given my word."
I swallow staring at the front door, check the house number, which is correct, so that little door with broken glass is really the one that will lead me where I must, and it does not suggest anything good to me.
"Do not get me wrong, I find what you're doing is wonderful."
"Yes really, i only broken a leg to girl for being here" i sarcastic say because she doesn't know, she doesn't know what being me signify and and have made an error again.
I need to see Isaac, but not in horizontal this time, because i'm in panic and i need of my damned doctor.
"Oh, come on! You are not a mother! You were both drunk. What i mean is not this, silly girl, but the thing that you'll dance with him."
"Will i dance? I'm here only to show him how i'm prevented, so they will leave me alone. Dancing for me would be impossible." It's true, i'm the person more rigid of the universe, otherwise coconut.
"And then you will be alone with him..."
"Well, so i will have to look at myself so as not to risk being killed too."
"Stop and give us an opportunity, maybe you start to believe more in yourself" at this word i turn on myself and i look in her eyes, she closes her mouth and sights. " Like the fact that you don't never strip, neither in front of me. Or that you pretend to be stupid but you are not stupid. Or ugly, because you disguise yourself but in reality you are a great pussy. And i don't understand why you want to be the beast if you are the beauty of the situation. But something tells me that Jaxon can help you, that dance could do this."
I fly over eveything, except on one thing. "It's only hip-hop by street, it's not the magic spell of Merlin the wizard."
"Dance is therapeutics, however. So, come on, go to him that is waiting for you" Wiley adds smile at me.
I nod and i sigh before get off the car and greet her, feeling my leg made by jelly, i realize that they hold up me in unstable manner and i risk to broke aleg me too only advancing.
But i close the car's door, Wiley winks with her head and the litterally goes away, almost without leaving me the time to think again and escape.
I'm alone in a way of the center, under a leaden sky that today forgot his sun, with people that go and re-go ignoring me.
I turn on me and i look that little door, i tighten the shoulder strap of my backpack and with unstable step left.
I wore dark leggings, the black long-sleeved shirt with the short, wide one that gives me a tone. I tied my hair in a bun, like an idiot who thinks she's the first one at Brodway but who actually would rather walk on hot coals than dance. In front of that Jax, for more.
I move my feet in sneakers that I hope protect my ankles from killer fractures controlled by karma and then I move forward.
I enter the room, I go down the stairs as he told me to do Jaxon and I feel my heart running to escape from where I do not know.
I'm in panic.
Breathe, Tally, breathe. Don't forget to breathe and don't think anything.
It seems to me to be about to introduce myself to a cursed exam and i do not like how all this makes me feel.
Once down the double flight of stairs, it is not difficult for me to understand where I have to go because I hear music and I see a lighted up. When I enter the small little door of what seems to be a cellar, instead I appear to be a small gym full of mirrors and with a very low ceiling.
And he is there, bare-chested, with delicious tattoos that look tribal on the right shoulder, which fall partly on the biceps and with his hands bandaged as if instead of dancing he had to fight and pants wide but so low in life that I see him tick off the sexy bones in the pelvis.
Oh God.
I rest injected on the door and when he turns and sees me jerk, as I am surprised to look around on his skin, to fantasize about his masculinity.
My throat suddenly dries up and my chest burns.
Maybe I'll have a heart attack.
What bullshit and stupid i'm...
"Oh, well, you are arrived finally. Moving up, let's start" Jax says to me looking at me and it seems that he does this frowning and for sure not with mischievous curiosity.
Oh my God, let's start? But let's start to do what?
I approach intimidated and i'm sure that also my glance suggest him how many intimidated i am, in fact, as soon as i'm close enought to him, he smiles at me.
"Do you fear me? Are you scary about me?" he asks to me, spreading his arms and i make an infamous effort not to look at the swollen and defined muscles of his chest that respond to the commands of his movement.
"I'm not scary of nobody" i replied and Jaxon seems almost pleades by my firm answer but only in appearance. We are alone. "But i don't dance" i admitt again.
"I'm here for this reason" he lengthens his hand, so i let my backpack falls down and, without deigning his gesture of attention, i look at myself in the mirror that occupies all the low wall in front of us.
"For starters, you have to warm up your muscles, so let's have a good run, a little bit of stretching and gymnastic to see how you are flexible, then we start to dance. I teach you only that coreograpy, okay? I don't have the presumption of making you a dancer. And just because you know it and not to demoralize because it would not be my advantege i don't think we'll make it. I can't do a miracle but i'll try" admits skeptical.
Oh, what a kind boy.
I look at him badly but the feeling of guilt that my pass suggest to keep always besides me, affects this subject and then to his command I give birth and run, I stretch, I train and after only an hour I think I'm going to die: I'm out of breath, I'm sweaty to be disgusting and my muscles also hurt that I did not think of to possess.
And him, that is fresh like o rose, he snorts while he sees me gasping like a fish that has got on the hook of an asshole and is now busy surviving without water.
I weighed that water a long time ago.
"Look at you, hell. One hour and you are altready KO. We can't do this. And then you put off your dress, God! You are dressed like an spring roll. Not even an Eskimo has so many layers of clothes. I believe that you sweat too much" he warns me.
Humiliating the only part of me that if struck is barely able to hurt me, I immediately react with the mockery, although I'm gasping inside.
"At least lose weight" acid comment because it is ent
ering my personal minefield.
He shakes his head and snorts.
It's already a struggle to keep the sleeves in place, worrying that they do not move and trying not to die from fatigue along with the heat I feel.
"Look, Jax, I did not want all this, I mean, I'm doing something I've never done before, it's only natural that I get very tired and tired... I've been doing very little gym lately, although before that was one of my priorities, so it's just about resuming the shape and the lap, but if you treat me like that, shake it, okay... I turn the heels and go back to where I came because I do not need this, is that clear? It's your ass that I'm trying to save, not mine, so you see you behave well, you're the one in trouble! "
"Because of you, though!"
"My fault or not, now that's the way it is, so take it or leave it! That's what I am, that's exactly what I am, and if you accept it, you'll have to treat me well, Jaxon. Otherwise I will leave you in shit, and I will not joke. "
God, I do not know why I say it but it's done now.
I hold my breath and I almost feel bad.
Jax, stands by me, with his hands on that incredible hips that he has, looks at me in a badly way and i know that he would like to bark.
In this case then the saying would not even be true Barking can not bite.
But he understood perfectly from my speech that for now the knife on the side of the handle I have it. Then hardens the jaw, he strikes me a little more and then takes and starts in the fourth.
"Okay, let's go" he altered says to me for not being able to retaliate or risk losing this absurd last chance.
Because this is, and it's an absurd thing between us.
He goes towards the stereo an the music starts. I look at his nervous steps and the way in which he avoids to look at me even when he comes back to me.
It's clear that he is angry but he knows that i'm right.
"In front of the glass, come on. I show you what you will do and you will do exactly in the same way. You must copy my movements, if there is something technical that you want to know, ask me, and you'll accept my tips and suggestions" his tips seem like masked order but at the end we position ourself where he says.
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