by Kate Brian
Copyright © 2013 by Alloy Entertainment and Kieran Viola
Cover design by Liz Dresner
Cover photos of girls by Roger Moenks
Series design by Elizabeth H. Clark
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Contents
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
The Truth
Different
Forever
The Drive
My First
Saved
One of Us
The Cove
Gone Forever
Together
Anywhere But Here
Death Sentence
Cracks
The Jessica Rule
Oblivion
Wrong
The Mayor
Brainwashed
The Coin
My Next
Confession
Surprises
Imaginings
The Balance
Guilt
Perspective
An Ally
A Gnat's Blink
Always
1766
Tally
Due North
Pills
Imagined Crime
Five Souls
New Rule
One of a Kind
Finish The Job
One Gold Coin
Broken
Movie Night
Another Beautiful Day
Evidence
Make Them Pay
Acknowledgments
For Matt, who somehow got me through the last year in one semi-sane piece
The morning sun rose over the ocean, streaking beautiful hues of pink and purple and orange across the sky. I sat in the sand with Tristan Parrish, his hand clutching mine, and stared down at his worn leather bracelet while I listened to the sound of his even breathing and the rhythm of the waves rolling onto shore. On any other day, this would have been the most romantic moment of my life. But this was today. And my life was over.
Focus, Rory. Focus and breathe.
“So that night on the highway…that wasn’t a nightmare,” I said slowly. “Me, my father, and my sister…we all died.”
Tristan’s clear blue eyes were shot through with pain. The callus on his thumb pressed into my palm. “Yes.”
I was numb as I spoke the next few words. “Steven Nell killed us.”
“Yes.”
His grip on my fingers tightened, and suddenly a sucking void opened up inside my chest. I gasped, clinging to him as a barrage of images assaulted me one after another, like a film projected on a screen. Mr. Nell charging me, his watery eyes wild with hunger. The knife blade buried deep in my stomach. The bloodstain seeping through my shirt. The tree branches gnashing overhead. My last, choked breaths as I slowly slipped away and everything grew cold.
My heart twisted painfully and I bent forward, struggling to breathe.
“I’m so sorry,” Tristan said again. “I had to show you the truth.”
He squeezed my hand once more, and his gorgeous, chiseled face zipped into focus. If this had been any other day, I would have been obsessing about what he was thinking. Why he was still holding my hand. Whether it meant he liked me as much as I liked him. I’d be worrying over whether my palms were clammy, if I had morning breath, or if my hair was doing that insane frizz thing around my forehead it so loved to do. These were the things a sixteen-year-old girl was supposed to be obsessing about. I was not supposed to be obsessing about how I’d died.
Overhead, a fat crow cawed, swooping in and out before settling atop the roof of the white-and-blue beachfront house my family had been living—no, not living…existing—in since we arrived in Juniper Landing exactly one week ago. We’d been forced to flee our home in Princeton, New Jersey, when my math teacher, a serial killer who’d already killed fourteen other girls, had set his sights on me.
We’d followed the FBI agent’s directions to a T, driving through a torrential downpour to our new location, our new identities as the Thayer family in tow. We thought we’d made it safely down to South Carolina, but we hadn’t made it at all. Mr. Nell had found us on a lonely stretch of highway and finished what he’d set out to do. He killed my dad, then my sister, Darcy, then me.
Suddenly, I shoved myself up, spraying sand everywhere in my haste.
“Where are you going?” Tristan scrambled to his feet and reached for me, but I flung his hand away, shaking from head to toe.
“I have to tell my sister. I have to tell my dad,” I said, my voice thick with tears.
“No. You can’t,” he said vehemently. “You can’t do that.”
Tristan got in front of me and blocked my way. Behind him I could see the windows of my father’s room. The room where he slept, oblivious to the fact that his life had ended. That his attempt to protect his daughters by leaving the house we’d grown up in, the house where my mother had lived and died, had failed.
“What? What do you mean, I can’t?” I shouted. “They’re my family, Tristan.”
I tried to step around him, but he grabbed my arm, his grip so tight it sent a shock of alarm through me. I tried to wrench myself away, but suddenly a soft, soothing sensation sprang up inside my wrist and slowly traveled up my arm and into my chest. He clung to me, and my heart stopped slamming against my rib cage. My breathing returned to normal. I felt suddenly, oddly, calm.
I looked into Tristan’s pale blue eyes. They were…victorious.
A thump of fear obliterated any sense of serenity. I yanked my arm out of his grasp, his fingernails scraping my skin.
“What was that? What did you just do to me?” I demanded, backing away in terror.
His face paled. “Rory—”
“No!” I shouted, betrayal clenching my gut. “You can’t just mess with my mind like that! What are you?”
Tristan’s face turned to stone, and his eyes flicked just past my shoulder. I felt the presence of someone behind me two seconds before I collided with something solid and unyielding. A pair of strong arms closed around me, locking my limbs against my chest and picking me up off the ground, all while Tristan looked on calmly.
I screamed as loudly as I could. The only response was a seagull’s cry.
“This hurts me more than it hurts you,” a low voice whispered in my ear.
My chest constricted, tighter and tighter, until I couldn’t breathe and the world around me went gray. Tristan stepped forward slowly, looking into my eyes, his mouth set in a grim line.
“Why?” I gasped, trying to cling to consciousness. “Why are you doing this to me?”
“I’ll explain everything when you wake up,” he said gently. “I promise.”
Then his handsome face contorted and blurred, and everything went black.
I came to on a dusty couch in a room that smelled like mold mixed with beer and sea salt. My chest ached, and my short fingernails had cut painful grooves in my palm. Nearby, someone laughed.
Tentatively I opened one eye and took in my surroundings. I was in a wood-paneled, windowless basement. The room was decorated with green and orange shag rugs, a dim overhead lamp that looked like a sea urchin, and several saggy plaid couches. Milling near a marble bar with ugly, torn-up vinyl stools were about a dozen kids my age, sipping coffee from paper cups and chatting with one another as if my kidnapping was an ev
eryday social event.
I recognized several of them as Juniper Landing locals, year-rounders in what I’d previously assumed was a vacation town. There was Bea McHenry, an athletic redhead, whose wet hair was slicked back into a ponytail, as though she’d just come in from a swim. Kevin Calandro, whose fire tattoo peeked out from under the arm of a dirty white T-shirt, eyed me curiously over the plastic top of his coffee cup. Next to him was Lauren Caldwell, whose black hair was held back by a plaid headband. Two girls and a guy I’d never seen before hovered in the corner, eyeing the rest of the group as if they didn’t want to be there.
A door on the far side of the room opened, and Joaquin Marquez, the boy who seemed so intent on breaking my sister’s heart, slipped out, followed by Tristan. One of the girls in the corner, a wispy emo chick with a short blond Mohawk, followed him with her eyes, an expression of longing I instantly recognized. It was exactly the way I used to look at Christopher Kane in the halls of Princeton Hills High, back when he was still with Darcy.
Fisher Morton was the last to step out of the back room. He closed and locked the door behind him quickly, then joined the rest of the party, turning his massive shoulders sideways to slip through the tightly knit group.
My lashes fluttered involuntarily. Why had he locked the door?
“You guys, she’s awake,” Krista Parrish announced, emerging from the crowd in a pink-and-white sundress. Her blond hair, the exact same shade as her brother’s, was pulled up in a high ponytail, her blue eyes expertly lined as she frowned sympathetically down at me. Ignoring the pain in my head, I sat up straight, taking in the whole room now. Behind her was a set of stairs leading up. An escape route.
I scrambled to my feet, my heart thumping. “What’s going on?” I asked, edging away from them toward the stairs. “Where are we?”
“Don’t worry,” Krista said gently, putting out a hand as if trying to soothe a rabid dog. “No one is going to hurt you.”
“I’m sorry it had to happen this way,” Tristan said, the edges of his mouth curving down. I remembered how he’d looked at me right before I’d passed out, and averted my eyes. “We’re in the basement of the police station.”
“You kidnapped me and brought me to the cops?” I blurted.
Mohawk Girl laughed loudly.
“We didn’t kidnap you,” Joaquin said, rolling his eyes. “We saved you. You and your family.”
Krista, Lauren, and Fisher looked at me so earnestly that all the tiny hairs on the back of my neck stood on end. I felt as though I’d suddenly landed in the middle of a cult.
“Well, if I’m not kidnapped, can I…leave?” I said, taking another step toward the stairs.
“Sorry.” Fisher shook his head.
My heart nose-dived. That was the voice. The voice of the person who’d grabbed me on the beach. I took an instinctive step back and crashed into the wall. My pulse thrummed quickly in my veins.
“Will someone please tell me what’s going on?” I demanded.
“We couldn’t let you tell your family,” Tristan replied.
“Excuse me?” I exhaled sharply. “You tell me we’re all dead and expect me not to tell my family?”
“You can’t,” Tristan repeated. There was all this emotion in his eyes. Longing and pleading. Like he was just trying to help. Like he needed me to understand. But at that moment, I didn’t trust it. I couldn’t.
“Try to stop me.”
I turned toward Fisher and jammed my foot down as hard as I could into his instep. He cursed and doubled over, giving me enough time to dodge past him, grab one of the wooden spindles that lined the stairs, and swing myself around and up the first two steps.
“Rory, no!” Joaquin shouted. Footsteps sounded behind me.
I tripped but hauled myself back up and kept going. I could see the light framing the doorway at the top.
“Stop!” Lauren called out. “Rory, they’ll—”
I flung myself forward, reaching for the door.
“If you tell your family, they’ll be damned to the Shadowlands!” Krista cried.
“Krista!” someone hissed.
“What? She was leaving!” Krista replied in a whine.
I paused with my fingers on the doorknob. My chest heaved with each breath. The Shadowlands? As I turned around, Tristan stepped into view at the bottom of the staircase. I stared down at him, barely able to make out his face in the dim light. Behind him on the wall was an old-fashioned painting of a sunset, the golden glow forming a halo around his head.
“What is the Shadowlands?” I asked.
“Will you please come back down here?” he implored softly.
“Not until you tell me,” I insisted. “What’s the Shadowlands?”
“Come down and we’ll tell you everything,” he said, reaching out with one hand. “You’re safe here. I promise.”
I glanced behind me at the door, but my curiosity got the better of me. Ignoring Tristan’s outstretched hand, I edged past him down the stairs and walked to the center of the room, trying to look more confident and in control than I felt. Stone-faced, stoic, shrewd. But inside, everything quivered. Tristan hesitated, clearly thrown that I had passed on the opportunity to touch him. Well, good. He deserved it for letting his friend knock me out.
“Okay,” I said. “I’m listening.”
“Juniper Landing is an in-between,” Joaquin began, crossing his arms over the chest of his formfitting red T-shirt. “A limbo.”
“One of many,” Bea added.
“It’s a place where people go to work through any unfinished business they have from the other world before they move on,” Tristan said. “They arrive on the same ferry you did and stay until they’re ready. Once they move on, there are two possible destinations. There’s the good, which we call the Light.”
“And there’s the bad,” Joaquin put in, a shadow passing over his handsome face. “The Shadowlands.”
“Which was why we had to stop you on the beach,” Tristan implored. “We couldn’t risk your dad and Darcy being sent there.”
“And you couldn’t think of another way?” I demanded.
Tristan’s cheeks turned pink. “I tried, but you kind of called me on it, remember?”
The warmth. The calming warmth. I realized now that I’d felt it twice before—yesterday morning, when I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown about Olive’s disappearance, and again last night when I’d started to realize the disturbing truth about Juniper Landing. Both times Tristan had used his touch, his power, whatever it was, to bring me back from the abyss.
“So why bring me here?” I asked. “With all of you?”
“We wanted to tell you about what we do,” Krista replied. “We’re the ones who usher people to their ultimate destinations.”
“We call ourselves Lifers,” Lauren said. She held up her arm to show me her leather bracelet, which slipped down almost to her elbow. One quick look around the room revealed that every one of my captors wore one. I’d noticed the bracelets when I first arrived on the island and assumed they signaled some kind of club or secret society. I’d had no idea they meant this.
“Lifers,” I repeated, feeling an odd sense of déjà vu. I’d heard that word somewhere before. “So you guys decide where people end up?”
They all laughed. Even Tristan.
“Uh, no,” Lauren said, placing her coffee cup on the bar. “Do we look like gods?”
“Well, some of us do,” Joaquin said, throwing up his hands.
Bea narrowed her amber eyes and shoved him so hard he almost fell over.
“That’s not what we do,” Tristan reiterated. “We simply act as ushers to the next realm. When someone’s ready to move on, their Lifer gets a coin,” He produced a gold coin from his pocket and held it out to me. It gleamed even in the duskiness of the room. I plucked it from his hand and turned it over in my own palm. It was heavy and thick, blank on one side with a sun on the other.
“We take the visitor up to the bridge,
hand them their coin, and send them on their way,” Tristan explained. “The coin knows which way they’re supposed to go and leads them there.”
The bridge. Of course. The events of last night filtered through my brain. Mr. Nell screeching and writhing as Fisher and Kevin tossed him into the back of a pickup truck. Krista getting behind the wheel and speeding off into the fog toward the bridge on the north end of the island. His screams cutting off abruptly and the eerie silence that followed. She’d ushered him to the Shadowlands. Right there in front of me. And I’d had no clue.
I studied the coin. How could this little hunk of metal know where I was destined to spend all eternity? With a sudden flinch, I tossed it back to Tristan. Not that I had any doubts, of course. It wasn’t like they were going to ship me off to the bad place, right? Me, my sister, my father…we were all destined for the Light. We had to be.
Tristan stared at me, his eyes suddenly sad, and I felt the mood in the room shift, as if everyone had stopped breathing as one.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked Tristan. The others suddenly became very interested in the crappy oceanic art on the walls. “Tristan, why are you telling me all this? If I can’t tell my family, then why…why can you tell me?”
Tristan took a deep breath. He closed the distance between us and reached for both of my hands. I instinctively froze, waiting for that odd warmth, but this time, I felt nothing. Nothing other than the pounding of my heart.
“You know how you’ve felt all along that something was different about the island?” he asked.
My head went weightless. “Yes,” I replied.
“And you asked why you remembered Olive and the musician from the park after they were gone, while Darcy didn’t?” he said.
I blinked, thinking of my first friend on the island who’d disappeared last week without a trace. Where was he going with this?
“Yes.”
“Well, that’s because you are different,” Tristan said slowly, firmly. “You’re not like the other visitors on Juniper Landing.”
My chest constricted. “Different how?”
Tristan gazed down at my fingers for a long moment before looking me in the eye. There was no one else in the room right then. No one else who mattered. “You’re a Juniper Landing Lifer. Like me.”