The Girls On the Hill: A Psychological Thriller

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by Grey, Alison Claire




  Contents

  Also by Alison Grey

  PART ONE: THE INVITE

  Prologue

  1. BROOKE

  2. SHERIDAN

  3. AMANDA

  4. HOLLIS

  5. BROOKE

  6. SHERIDAN

  7. AMANDA

  8. HOLLIS

  PART TWO: COLLEGE DAYS

  9. SHERIDAN

  10. AMANDA

  11. HOLLIS

  12. BROOKE

  13. SHERIDAN

  14. AMANDA

  PART THREE: BEFORE THE REUNION

  15. HOLLIS

  16. BROOKE

  17. SHERIDAN

  18. AMANDA

  PART FOUR: JUNIOR YEAR

  19. HOLLIS

  20. BROOKE

  21. AMANDA

  22. SHERIDAN

  23. AMANDA

  24. HOLLIS

  25. BROOKE

  26. AMANDA

  27. SHERIDAN

  28. HOLLIS

  29. BROOKE

  30. AMANDA

  31. SHERIDAN

  32. HOLLIS

  33. AMANDA

  34. BROOKE

  35. SHERIDAN

  36. HOLLIS

  37. AMANDA

  38. SHERIDAN

  39. HOLLIS

  40. BROOKE

  41. AMANDA

  42. SHERIDAN

  43. HOLLIS

  44. BROOKE

  45. AMANDA

  46. SHERIDAN

  47. HOLLIS

  48. BROOKE

  PART FIVE: SENIOR YEAR AND GRADUATION

  49. AMANDA

  50. HOLLIS

  51. SHERIDAN

  52. HOLLIS

  53. AMANDA

  54. SHERIDAN

  55. BROOKE

  56. HOLLIS

  57. AMANDA

  58. SHERIDAN

  59. BROOKE

  60. HOLLIS

  61. SHERIDAN

  62. HOLLIS

  63. BROOKE

  64. SHERIDAN

  PART SIX: REUNION WEEKEND

  65. AMANDA

  66. SHERIDAN

  67. HOLLIS

  68. BROOKE

  EPILOGUE: AMANDA

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Copyright © 2019 by Alison Grey

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  Also by Alison Grey

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  For Mary Julia Baldwin

  Jealousy and love are sisters.

  Russian Proverb

  PART ONE: THE INVITE

  Prologue

  I’ve been dreaming about the sound a body makes when it falls from the top of a six-story building.

  I used to dream about it every night. I’d wake up screaming, shaking, gasping for the breath I’d been holding in my sleep. Lovers would hold me, ask me what’s wrong: “You were having a nightmare. Come back to bed.”

  I have shared my body many times since that night, but I’ve never shared the truth about what happened.

  How could anyone understand what it’s like to both love and hate someone enough to push them off a building? How could they grasp how it’s possible to be both sickened and yet aroused at the sound of bones, muscle, and blood smacking the concrete?

  We are taught love is an absolute.

  I know all too well that it’s not.

  Because the darkest of my secrets is this: You think I’m having a nightmare.

  I’m here to tell you this: I’m reliving a cherished memory.

  I’m screaming because I’m awake.

  I’m shaking because I can’t go back and kill her again.

  One

  BROOKE

  Hollis was the first one to get her letter.

  Which, to anyone who knew Hollis, was not a surprise. Hollis Cobb had always been the girl to get everything first. It’s what defined her life and what defined her place in our group of friends.

  You might finally get something you’d wanted, but Hollis always had it before you did.

  “Did you get it?” she’d asked me on the phone that afternoon in January. The holidays had barely finished. My Christmas tree was still up, something Hollis would have admonished me for if she’d known. But unlike Hollis, I took down my own decorations. I didn’t hire people to do it for me.

  It was easy to have your life together when you could outsource the bullshit.

  “Get what?” I replied, cradling my phone between my ear and shoulder as I huffed and puffed down the stairs of my townhouse, a full plastic clothes basket in my arms. The mushroomy, stale odor of dirty socks and boxer briefs wafted in the air in my wake, making me queasy.

  I really needed to teach these kids how to do their own laundry.

  “Clearly you didn’t, or you’d know what I was talking about,” Hollis sighed on the other end. “The invite to reunion weekend.”

  “Oh, that,” I replied, dropping the plastic tub of clothes on the tile floor of my laundry room, startling our cat, Plymouth, who had been napping inside the open dryer again. He ran away as I threw open the washing machine. “No, I haven’t. Why?”

  There was nothing all that special about a college reunion invite. We had them every year, though my group of friends from those days tended to only go to the ones every 5 years. I’d skipped the 5th year one, due to being knocked up. I’d gone to the 10th year one and had a fine enough time. The photos and memories of it were buried somewhere on my Facebook page.

  This year would be the 15th, nothing I found particularly noteworthy.

  I felt like I must be missing something, because Hollis was clearly anxious. Also, she never called me. Texts and Instagram DMs were how we tended to communicate.

  “The sponsor for our class this year,” she answered. I could hear her exhaling.

  “Are you smoking?” I asked, knowing I sounded shrill.

  “Who cares?” Hollis snapped back. “Why do you always focus on the wrong things? Jesus Christ, Brooke.”

  I closed my eyes and took a breath. I’d done this thousands of times over the years with Hollis. She tested my nerves and the older I got, the less I felt like taking her shit and showing her grace.

  But I still did. Even when it was very hard.

  Its why she’d called me, after all. No one else was as patient with her as I was.

  “Okay,” I said, flatly. “Who is the sponsor?”

  “The Brentmore Hotel,” she said.

  Oh.

  Now it made sense why she’d called and why she was smoking after quitting over ten years ago.

  I walked out of the laundry room, through the kitchen, and into the family room. I needed a place to sit down.

  Hollis was silent on the other end. She had to know I was collecting my thoughts after that kind of news.

  “Why would they sponsor a reunion,” I said. It wasn’t a question because I knew Hollis would never have the answer to it, because it made absolutely no sense. I was just thinking out loud, the way you can only do wi
th your very closest friends.

  “No idea,” Hollis said. “But apparently they’re specifically sponsoring the Class of 2003 reunion. The entire weekend and every event, luncheon, and meeting will be held at The Brentmore.”

  I stared at the black screen of my television, noting my reflection looking back at me. I looked terrified.

  Which made sense.

  Because I was.

  Two

  SHERIDAN

  I, like most children, was thrilled to receive mail when I was a kid. Our mailbox was a half mile down the road from the main house, a lane lined with beautiful live oaks that lent our home the feeling of an estate more than just a house. It was my job to check that mailbox when I got off the school bus. Mama didn’t like walking that far if she could help it. She’d rather lay in our sitting room with her feet up, TV on, watching Erica Kane and the rest of the glamorous people of Pine Valley.

  I’d bring the pile of letters and fliers up to the house and I always felt like mailmen must be the happiest people in the world. They got to deliver all the things people were waiting for. It felt like a sort of super power.

  And there was always mail at our box. My mother loved her trashy magazines. She had subscriptions to every single one you can think of—People, TV Guide, Soap Opera Digest. And she never threw any of them away, much to everyone’s chagrin. Years later I was still finding boxes of Good Housekeeping back issues in one of our barns that we used for storage.

  Her other passion was spending Daddy’s money, so there were also credit card bills and catalogs full of more stuff for Mama to buy. She never saw the bills, of course. They’d only upset her, and she wouldn’t know what to do with them anyway. Those I’d been taught to separate and set on the table in the foyer, where Daddy would collect them.

  So, for Mama it was just the magazines and the catalogs. And on her favorite days— packages.

  Nothing made Mama happier than new things.

  And we all strove to keep Mama happy. When she wasn’t, life could be difficult.

  Thus, I was very much in love with the mail. I enjoyed having a task and purpose; something that pleased my parents.

  It was so hard to please them most of the time. Even when I grew up, I barely could make a decision without considering what Mama would think.

  Later, after both my parents died, I moved my family back into my childhood home. I couldn’t bear the thought of selling it anyway, and I thought being there might keep my parents alive for me somehow. I’d always dreamt of raising my own children inside the rooms of my own past.

  Maybe I hoped it could help me make sense of it.

  And because life really is a cycle, my own sweet girls would get off their school bus and bring me the mail. Unlike my mother, I’d be waiting for them on the porch, more delighted to see them than anything they’d found in an old mailbox.

  But it also made me remember something sweet about Mama, something that could often be difficult for me. It really is the little things that stay with you.

  Occasionally your happiest memories can make you the saddest.

  But up until that afternoon in January, nothing had tarnished the memory of mail.

  My daughters had no idea when they handed me that large envelope, with the silver swirling handwriting spelling out my name and address on the front, that it would ruin mail for me forever. I would never again not be terrified of what was waiting for me inside that box at the end of that long, shaded driveway.

  * * *

  I didn’t open it until the evening.

  I knew it was probably the typical annual invitation to my college reunion. It was earlier than usual to receive it, but I figured maybe the committee who handled reunion weekend was just more on their game that year with preparations. Surveys from the alumnae probably encouraged them to give more notice about events so people could plan and all. Life was busy, and the modern Martha Jefferson girl needed time to get things in order.

  I will never forget the brief and blissful time before I opened it. I wish I could live there forever.

  My husband had just called to say hello to the girls before they went to bed. He was in San Francisco, on business. I’d handed them my cell phone so they could talk to him and then I’d gone up to my bedroom to change into my pajamas.

  Our housekeeper, Glenda, stayed downstairs with the girls. She knew my husband’s phone calls made me gloomy. I’d never even had to tell her. She’d just known.

  Women can instinctually tell these things, can’t they?

  Glenda stayed with the girls and assured me that after the phone call was finished she’d have them help with dinner clean up. I don’t like my girls to get out of helping with those things; it’s not good for them to assume someone will clean up their messes. I wanted to raise them to know how to clean up their own.

  My husband didn’t appreciate it, but he had stopped trying to understand why I raised our children the way I did a long time ago. He cared about their grades and their activities.

  I cared about everything else.

  I mention that, because it was on my mind. As I was pulling on my satin pajama pants and matching shirt, I kept thinking about our problems and how it felt like they’d never get worked out.

  I sat down on the chaise next to the small desk I keep in our room, where I sometimes wrote letters. I hated typing emails. They felt so impersonal to me. I preferred seeing my words spilled in ink from a fancy pen across expensive stationary.

  But again, it was the mail thing. I guess I had a fetish.

  I noticed Glenda or one of the girls had been kind enough to put my mail on my desk.

  I was delighted to have something to get my mind off the state of my marriage. I sprung over to the upholstered bench I’d had made just for the antique desk, a bench that matched the drapes of a room that had once been my parents’.

  The first envelope was an invitation to a charity luncheon held by the Junior League. I put it aside.

  The second letter was from the country club, reminding me we were late on our annual dues. I paused and thought about opening my laptop so I could go online and pay them before I forgot, but that just sounded exhausting to me. Lately it had been hard to do even the simple tasks.

  I’d do it tomorrow. The country club’s reception hall was named after my grandfather. They could wait another day. I wasn’t concerned.

  Finally, the big envelope with the sloping, beautiful writing on the front. Sure enough, the return address was Martha Jefferson College, another (mostly) beautiful memory from long ago.

  I carefully and methodically sliced it open with my monogrammed letter opener that had been a wedding gift from my roommate Brooke.

  I pulled out the stiff, crisp invite made from what was probably very costly cotton card-stock.

  That’s the moment I wish I could freeze and rewind so that the next moment never happened.

  But I can’t. None of us can.

  As soon as I read it, my memory went blank. Like the moment between an ending of a movie before the credits roll.

  I don’t remember what happened next. Glenda apparently found me before the girls did, thankfully. I had screamed and I was crying hysterically. When they pried the crumpled invitation from my hand and asked me what was wrong, I could only manage to get one word past my choked sobs.

  Brentmore.

  Three

  AMANDA

  Before Hollywood introduced me to the cornucopia of chemical alternatives, nostalgia was my drug of choice. It helped put a shine to the memories that had a tinge of pain on their borders.

  Sentimentality is the way I remember things as I wish they’d been, instead of how they actually were. It’s the only way I was able to get out of bed on the countless mornings since that terrible night— my last one at Martha Jefferson College.

  I’d been able to move forward only because there was no other direction to go in. I wasn’t like the other girls. I didn’t have the luxury of falling apart and spending my days rumin
ating on Daddy’s dime. I didn’t have a trust fund or even a family to stand behind me so I could have the time I needed to process what happened that night on the hills of an all-women’s college in the Shenandoah Valley.

  My only choice was to get on with the rest of my life.

  So, I did.

  Or so I thought.

  * * *

  The invite showed up at my house in LA on a Thursday. My assistant handles my mail for me, weeding out the junk.

  And what is junk mail for me? It tends to be a lot of unsolicited screenplays and spec scripts, along with a few novels from publishers hoping to get the attention of my production company. I mean, these days when Netflix will toss a shit ton of money at just about anything, there are so many novelists now hoping to be the next Big Little Lies or Gone Girl. So, my team had to always be on top of the slush pile. They kept that stuff away from me, thank God.

 

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