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Acknowledgments
I would like to thank my family and my friends for all their support they been giving me since I started writing. I would like to thank the most important women in my life my mom for all the support she gives me in my dreams and being a great role model. I can't forget my cousin Naomi Santos for helping me through this writing journey. And I can't forget my amazing ARC TEAM
Prologue
Nick
As I was crossing the street to Justin’s house I saw him kissing a woman, the pain and anger that flows through my body is hard to manage. She walks away and I walk up to him his eyes widen in complete shock.
“How long?”
“It’s not what it looks like.” Seriously that’s what he’s going with?
“Don’t Justin how long have you been sleeping with her?”
“Five months, I’m sorry I don’t know what happened, I meet her we hung out and then it just happened. This doesn’t have to change anything.” He can’t be fucking serious right now.
“This changes everything you cheated on me and what makes it worse it was with a woman, we are done don’t call me, don’t message me I’m done.” He tried to grab my hand and I pulled it away.
“Wait Nick.” He yelled as I start to walk away.
When I walk back home and open the door I see Tristan.
“What’s wrong Nick?” He asked worriedly. The tears that I was holding in start to stream down my face. Tristan wraps his arms around me and I hugged him tightly. When I was finished crying Tristan sits next to me with a tub of homemade vanilla ice cream.
“You are the best friend anyone could ask for.”
“I know.” Tristan stays with a smile.
“What did that asshole do?”
“He’s been cheating on me for the last five months.” Tristan hands went to a fist.
“It gets worse he cheated on me with a woman. God I’m so stupid.”
“Nick you are not stupid he is, you are a catch anyone would be lucky to be with you. It’s his loss and one day some guy will sweep you off your feet.”
“It’s going to take me awhile to get there.”
“I know but I’m going to help you get through this.”
“Promise me you won’t kill him, I’m serious.”
“Fine I promise I won’t kill him, but I can’t promise I won’t kick his ass when I see him.” I know that’s the best he can do. When it comes to family he does not play, you hurt someone he cares about your a dead man literally. Tristan wraps an arm around me and we watch movies he has always been there for me and it sucks that I still have feelings for my best friend who is straight. Right now dating is not going to happen anytime soon.
Chapter One
One Year Later
Tristan
Sitting across from Hayden our President of the Mayham Knights MC. Everything has been good lately no deaths and no drug overdoses, things have been quiet. It’s good to have some quiet days where you don’t have to worry so much about every little thing.
“I need you to work at the club this week and I was hoping Nick would help out.”
“You know he would do whatever he can to help out the club, but serious Hayden just hire him to be the permanent bartender this guy is unreliable.”
“I know that’s why I was hoping he would take over I was going to ask him today but there was a little problem.”
“What fucking problem?” I growled.
“We walk into the store and soon after we bumped into Justin I swear I was going to kill him if Nick didn’t stop me. You should go home and check up on him.” I got up and walked out the door. I got on my bike and ride home as fast as I could. When I got inside I hear the shower running I open the door and walk in.
“Are you okay?” I ask.
“I’m guessing Hayden told you what happened.”
“He did, be honest with me how are you?”
“I’m okay, I’m irritated though he acted like nothing happened like we can continue where we left off at and that’s what bothers me. It’s like he doesn’t realize he broke my trust and my heart.” I balled my hand into a fist, I want to kill this guy for hurting him I would kill anyone for him.
“You know I can still kill him right, quick and easy or slow and painful I like the second one better.” Nick laughs.
“No it’s fine I’m over him and I’m not going to let him get to me.” It took me five months to help him get over this prick he’s finally back to himself. Nick turns off the water and I just realize he’s naked and wet right now and my dick twitched. Not again this is not the time for this. Nick grabs the towel before coming out.
“Oh Hayden wants you to take over as the bartender at Mayham’s Nightclub.”
“Are you for real?” He says with excitement.
“Yeah and I will be working there this week so we get to hang out more.”
“Don’t we hang out enough.” Nick says and that stung a little.
“Ouch.”
“You know I love hanging out with you I just thought you were getting tired of me.” What the hell is he talking about.
“Never why would you think that?”
“You haven’t been sleeping home for the last four nights so I just thought you were tired of me, since you have been helping me for the last year get over that prick.” Nice work Tristan you made your best friend think that you don’t want to be around him when it’s the completely fucking opposite.
“That would never happen Nick. I was just there to deal with club stuff early in the morning so I stayed at the clubhouse I’m sorry I made you feel like I didn’t want to be around you.” That wasn’t a complete lie we have been dealing with some club stuff in the morning. Nick went to his room and got dressed. As he was walking out he ran his fingers through his wet hair that made him look even hotter I shake my head. Damn it stop thinking like that.
“I have to get back to the clubhouse but I will be back home later I promise.”
“Okay, stay safe.”
“Always.” I walk out of our house and place the palm of my hand on my hard on and press it down. Why is this happening? I ride back to the clubhouse irritated. When I got back I slump on the couch next to Troy. He glances at me and I see that smirk on his face and I want to punch him. He’s been trying to help me with this problem I’m having with Nick.
“How is Nick?” Hayden asks.
“He’s good he’s not going to let Justin get to him.”
“That’s good.”
“How are you doing?” Troy asks and I sigh.
“I’m fine.” He crosses his arms and glares at me.
“No your not. Why won’t you tell Nick how you feel?”
“Have you lost your mind he’s my best friend for one.”
“Right and your straight I’ve heard but come on Tristan it kills you when you lie to him and you have been doing that for months and when a guy flirts with him you get an angerism. And you are miserable without him so tell him how you feel, shit show him how you feel.”
“I can’t.” Troy got
up and he looks mad.
“Yes you can you are just scared to, if you weren't my brother I would’ve made him mine already.” Troy walks off and slams the door behind him.
“You know he’s right Tristan.” Adam says and I sigh heavily.
“There are a lot of men interested in him he’s not going to be single forever you need to man up or let someone give him what you can’t.” I groan, just thinking of someone with him pisses me off. I don’t know what to do right now. I lay back on the couch and start to think about what to do. How did this happen?
Seven Months Ago
Hearing the door knob jiggle I got up from the couch, the door opens and Adam walks in holding on to Nick.
“He is completely wasted.” I sighed heavily this is getting out of hand.
“Thanks for bringing him home, Adam.”
“No problem.” I wrapped my arms around Nick’s waist.
“Goodnight.”
“Goodnight.” I locked the door behind him then took Nick to his room. I help him into bed and he grabs my shirt and pulls me closer to him.
“You know you look really sexy when your all wet.” Jesus christ.
“Okay Nick it’s time for you to sleep.”
“I rather suck you off.” I groaned. How much did he drink tonight.
“You need to lay off the alcohol starting tomorrow.” I tell him.
“Whatever you say hot stuff.” I covered him and he pulls me back to him.
“Nick it’s time for bed.” What has gotten into him?
“Fine.” He moves his head up and kisses me softly. My head snaps back.
“Goodnight Tristan.”
“Goodnight Nick.” I close the door than slide to the floor. What the fuck was that? I went to my room and send a message to Adam.
Tristan- What did he drink tonight?
Adam- vodka, tequila and two shots of fireball.
That explains a lot he’s going to regret taking the fireball it fucks him up bad.
Tristan- You didn’t think to stop him from drinking.
Adam- I tried he wasn’t having it. Dickhead decided to come to our bar and bring the girl with him. Nick didn’t take it well. I did punch him on his way out.
Tristan- What a prick thanks for watching over him. Why didn’t he call me?
Adam- Not sure. I will talk to you in the morning.
Tristan- Yeah I might be late.
Adam- Yeah we know. Hayden says to take care of Nick that we got everything under control.
Tristan- Thanks.
That bastard is lucky that I’d promised Nick I wouldn’t kill him. What’s he’s doing is wrong on so many levels.
Present Day
Feeling eyes on me I open them to Hayden staring at me and I roll my eyes.
“Do you have something to say President?” He tilts his head from side to side thinking on what to say.
“Your sister’s wedding is coming up soon are you going to bring a date?” Now that I wasn’t expecting, but I’m glad it’s not about my feelings right now.
“No I’m not, I thought it would be better going solo.”
“Smart move, I think Ana would kill us all if we bring dates to be honest.” I nod my head yeah I remember my sister threatening us not to bring any hoes to her wedding. I wasn’t going to do that anyway, I love my sister I would never disrespect her like that.
“You should go home everything is good right now, we dealt with everything yesterday go home.”
“Okay, I hear you.”
“Do you really?” And there it goes.
“Please don’t go there I already have Troy and Adam on my ass about Nick I don’t need another one.”
“Than stop being stupid and we won’t have to. You have two choices Tristan you can tell him how you feel or let him go.” Why do they keep on telling me to let him go, I can’t do that.
“I can’t lose him Hayden.” I said in a strong tone.
“Than take him, before someone else does.” I got off the couch.
“I hear you. I will see you tomorrow.” I walk out of the building and ride my bike home. When I walk in Nick was sitting on the couch watching John Wick.
“Watching a movie without me that’s mean Nick.” I said in a playful tone.
“Sorry wasn’t sure if you were coming home tonight. You didn’t miss much.” I sighed. I walked over and sat on the couch next to him.
“I told you I was coming home.”
“I’m sorry, it won’t happen again.” Something is wrong.
“What’s wrong Nick?”
“Nothing is wrong.” I grab his chin and turn his head to face me.
“Let’s try that again Nick, what’s wrong?” He sighed heavily.
“Tomorrow is our parents death anniversary it really snuck up on me this year.” I grab my phone and looked at the calendar. Fuck.
“I didn’t even realize that it’s tomorrow.” Our parents died from a drunk driver when we were sixteen they were on their way home from a party. My sister made sure we didn’t end up in the system she’s the oldest, if it wasn’t for her Nick and I would’ve turned out a lot different than we did.
“I didn’t either not until an hour ago when I looked at the calendar. Tomorrow will be eight years.” I lean in and kiss his cheek.
“Everything is going to be okay Nick we will go see them tomorrow.” He places his head on my lap and I ran my fingers through his hair. Nick and I have been best friends since birth our parents were best friends and he’s very close to Ana. We have all been there for each other since day one and that will never change. I can never let him go I just can’t. Nick and Ana have always been there for me through it all, the anger and the misbehaving. He’s always been my causation he never left me and I don’t plan on doing that to him or to myself, I need him I always have.
“Let’s get some sleep.”
“I’m good right here.” His eyes close as my fingers go through his hair.
“How about you sleep in my room with me tonight?” He looks up at me, fuck do I want to kiss him right now.
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah it’s not like we haven’t done it before.”
“Point made.” He gets up and I follow him to my room. He climbs in my bed and I laid down next to him.
“Tristan.”
“Yeah?”
“Thanks for always being there for me, I love you.”
“I will always be here no matter what and I love you too.” And I mean that in every fucking way possible. I close my eyes for a second when I felt Nick’s head on my chest, I wrap my arm around him and kiss the top of his head. He’s really making things hard for me, but if I’m being honest this right here feels fucking amazing.
Slowly waking up Nick’s leg is over my leg and his erection is poking my hip, fuck me. He shifts a little and it only makes my cock harder I’m trying not to move so I don’t wake him up. He shifts again and freezes and doesn’t move and there goes the realization that he’s on me and we are both hard, just keep it cool Tristan nothing is going to happen. My phone rings and I groan at the worst possible timing ever. I reached for my phone on the dresser then answer my sister’s call.
“Hey sis what’s up?” Nick starts to get up but I wrap my arms around him to lay him back down.
“Just checking in on you and Nick today makes eight years since they have been gone.”
“You don’t have to check up on us all the time, we are not little shitheads anymore.” She laughs.
“Speak for yourself you are both stubborn shitheads.”
“Thanks for that Ana.”
“Anytime. Do you have your suit ready for the wedding?” I groaned we had this conversation last week.
“Yes I do it’s all ready for your big day.”
“Good. That’s good.” She sounds nervous.
“You’re not getting cold feet are you?”
“What no of course not.” Yes she is. Nick snaps his head up and grabs the phone. Yeah this is h
is department.
“Ana whatever is going through your head needs to stop right now do you hear me.” He looked at me and I smile, his face turns a little pink. I forgot how cute it was when he blushes.
“He’s perfect if he can deal with your temper and your over protective brother and his partner in crime; you can marry him he’s perfect and he’s sexy as hell Ana. You got this there’s nothing to worry about, he loves you and I know you love him everything is going to run smoothly on your big day, I’ll make sure of it.” I smile he’s fucking perfect in every way I’m so fucked. I don’t know what my future holds for me, but what I do know Nick will be in it no matter what.
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